nuff said

I GOT A NEW PHONE!!
I GOT A NEW PHONE!!
I GOT A NEW PHONE!!
I GOT A NEW PHONE!!
I GOT A NEW PHONE!!
I GOT A NEW PHONE!!
I GOT A NEW PHONE!!
I GOT A NEW PHONE!!
I GOT A NEW PHONE!!
I GOT A NEW PHONE!!

savvy

i got tons of clothes today.
most of it is given.
yes, i've very lucky today.
ady&flour said i'm getting fatter.
damn.....
was i really that skinner back then?
okay.
now i really have to do something about my weight.
waiitt..
when was the last time i weigh myself.
3..4..2years ago?
i can't remember. :(((
okay, today on i shall have only sandwich for buka.
no more.
i vow to lose 5kg by the end of Ramadhan.
here we go....


//kau masih hidup lagik! hah!!!!!

the cold hard facts

so i'm back again to update.
ders so many things to do nowadays.
the carefree life is gone.
work have been hectic&chaotic.
i have tons of drawings to do. nonstop.
no matter how much i try to rush, the work just kept piling.
the aircon is definitely not helping.
i kept falling ill.
been taking vit.C but i am still not better,
tried to stop puffing&i still not getting better.
my chest hurt&my head spins.
plus armyboy's away.
its the fasting month&i still am not losing any weight!!!
just why!!!
i eat wayyyy lesser than i usually do.
seriously, 1meal(sahur)+occasional buka of rice.
Ramadhan is leaving pretty soon& i have done nothing good.
is the door close?or my heart is.



//imissu

silent death

i'vr laughed too much.
now i feel dead.
why am i potraying myself as a bubble person
when half the time, i'm bitter?
putting much enthusiasm when failure's the return.
promises that were given, 3/4 of which, are broken.
hating u so much til my heart aches.


//return me back.

energitically tired

i'm soooo sleepy.
but yet i feel so energetic.
hmmm.

so yesterday was Dzul's birthday.
siam kitchen dinner then lepakz @starbucks before proceeding to mustafa center.
we spent like 3hours in there.
finding stupid things to do.
ouh!
i got to get one of them beanbags.
woah!
syiok sia.

tomorrow we're moving to the NEW office.
wohoo!!
new table, new chair, BIGGER SPACE!!
bliss ((((:

oh! i have a hot date tonight.
*winks


//don't keep me waiting

ohgooshhh

cookie crunch @haagendazs

3continuous outing, non-stop camwhoring

ooollllaaaaaaaa

i like taking pictures, now

no more messedupshortlikef*ckhairstyle

just nice, just nice

i love my friends

pantats & gfs, muahz

missing armyboy, verymuchy

still no cheesefondue/chocfondue/simpsons/alone

bah~

//missing ur every breath

!

i seriously don't understand why a certain sum1 haf to bug me about what i wrote on my post.
this is my thoughts.
&if seriously want to inflict some pain (in this case i didn't intend to) i would have done something better.
don't u think?
u agreed abt us not being friends.
then why the hassle to PM me, telling your unhappiness with my post.
we're strangers not enemies.
sheeessshnesssss!!!!!!

a revelation i craved

today, i realized tat no matter how many friends u haf.
tat 1 presence makes a huge difference.

i missed armyboy immensely.
didnt expect myself to realli rely on tat 1 person to make my day complete.
eversince mrX, i nvr realli tot i am capable of needing tat particular sum1, badly.

it all started wit jus a harmless invitation to lunch.
nvr did it cross my mind we(i) cud actualli be here rite now.
simpleshort&ingreen dude standing at the entrance of ys mrt lookin out for a glimpse of me.
im not exaggerating here ok.
ask him! hehe~

simple macd lunch & a lil walk ard northpoint ended wit us in starbucks, sharing a caramel frap.
he was adamant to break my lil fingers.
sicko! lolx
tat follows by a series of droppinbyvideoezytosayhellobeforeheadinghomefromwork trips.
after work macd treats were much welcome .
imagine mounthwateringmeltedcheeseburger+truckload of humour&laughter.
it was pure bliss.
had a couple of sembawangtoyishun walkmehome.
chilled out at sembawang park.
we talked&talked&talked.
secretsout misty eyed, i found solace in him.

months later he pop e ques.
on my special day.
since den i nvr turned back.
mayb once but since den, ders been none.

i nvr did understand e meanin of LOVE.
to me it was all about adapting to another. &vice versa.
its abt being fair to one another.
setting unwritten rules for the other to follow.
expecting every single effort put in to be doubled by e other.

den tings change.
i no longer feel tat way.
armyboy gaf me a whole new view of loving sum1.
its abt making sum1 happy.
¬ expecting aniting in return.
to trust wholeheartedly not make assumptions.
respecting each other's privacy.
¬ be insanely jealous abt stupid things.
take things as it is.
go wit e flow.

now i am a firm believer.
i believe tat for every brokenheart, der'll be sum1 who's willing/able to fix it.
&for every empty soul, der'll be sum1 to fill e space.

oh!dearsis finally found her shining knight in armour.
yes.
she's getting married.
:)))
am happy for her.

so yea.
a long post i mus say.

&armyboy, do noe tt i love u to bits.
u may not be perfect but ure perfect for me.



mrX, thank u for e times we shared. now tt we've both found our other halfs. its time for me to say goodbye. our relation ends here. we're not friends. but 2 pple who happen to haf met at e crossroad.

//reborn from e ashes

4days n counting..

yes.
armyboy's in camp.
4days haf past n boy do i haf issues to settle.
dinner @timbre wit fiza & raj was great.
e food's gd, awesome ambiance.

can't wait to take armyboy there.
hehehe

goin to e movies wit msnadiah.
n dinner's @pizzahut wit e Asses.

tats it then.


//come on home now n smooth the creases.

lifeline..

i have it all planned out.
yeah!
i really want to head somewhere in life.
to achieve something & be somebody.

ive submitted my request to enrol in SP's Specialist Diploma in Marine Engineering and Naval Architecture (SMENA).
hopefully i could get in.

&le boss gave me a new designation: designer draftswoman
cos he said draftperson aint chick enuff!!
oh yeah!
he's a great boss!!

so i have my life planned out for now.
hopefully things will turn out fine.



//without u, im barely breathing

right on, mate

i just realised.
u just don't fit be a friend of mine.
should have known.

what was i thinking.
damn~
all those words u said.
about wanting us to be friends yadah.... yadah.... yadah....
not much of a suprised really~

begone now.
& never come back~

i don't need u & neither do u.


//it's good to know u're alive.

ur stories, my alibis

Speak to me tell me something so typical a lullaby or something so miserable that will keep me up at night cross out my eyes I know you planned it you know I love you and I can't stand it we just lost control Lie to me Give me something worth living for Tell me a reason worth fighting for Give me anything Anything to keep me breathing Lie to me Give me something worth living for Tell me a reason worth dying for Give me anything Anything to keep me breathing Lie to me tell me stories so beautiful an epic, or something so terrible that it makes me weep cross out these days on your calendar it hurts me so much and I'm not quite sure I care anymore

checkmate

It's a beautiful lie
It's the perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful it makes me
-30s to mars: a beautiful lie

spending my sunday in e office.
im not liking this.
im forcing myself.
it is just a job, i agree.
but this is responsibility.
my responsibility.
&u don't get it.

no 2 things are e same.
ur job &mine. different
just because urs is much harder to accomodate to doesn't make mine any easier.
so much for me rescheduling my life to suit ur job.

//i seek solace from none

16.07.2007

still in e office.
suprised?
i think.. not~

i am so lazy these days.
hardly go out after work.
is getting old this bad.
damn!
imagine if i'm 30.
i bet i be working from home.

lol~

greenhouse effect

maybe it's time for me REDUCE:

• the sms
• the phonecall
• the cards
• the manjaness

//stopit! im not merajuking~

no joke.

if u knew me well, then why do it?
just why?
i just say what i felt at the moment.
did i tell u to do anything about it?
&yet after apologising u're still not okay?
this is so frustrating.
what am i to say again?

blame me & my stupid mouth.


//shutupla lyn.

say yes to PIRACY

yeay2.
i managed to watch PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEANS: AT WORLD'S END!!
woooooo.
awesome movie.
go catch it yea!
i shall not reveal much!
but for Orlando's adoring fans, u be heartbroken.
hehe

happy watching!!!


//i adore u johny! yanie, marry me!

newborn

the past weeks taught me a lot.
all those disturbing thoughts & hate-you mental notes have been erased for good.
i feel good.
somewhat rejuvenated.
i woke with a smile each morning after.
life definitely have turn for the better.
i no longer try to be someone i'm not.
cos no matter what i do, if it doesn't work.
it just doesn't work.
no use brooding over things.

i am what i am.

beautex - softness u can enjoy

ignore the title.
it's bullshit!

15months & still counting.
thank you love, u are such a darling.

monday, monday..
what can i say about monday..
JP's out of town..
doing calculations..
tedious shit..
i need to add colours to this blog..
too many sad entries..



//drying tears

Kumeniti awan yang kelabu
Kutempuhi lorong yang berliku
Mencari sinar yang menerangi
Kegelapanku

Kupercaya pasti suatu masa
Sang suria kan menyinar jua
Membawa harapan yang menggunung
Bersamanya...

Engkau tiba bagaikan pelangi
Tak bercahya namun kau berseri
Tapi cukup menghiburkan
Hati ini

Seharian waktu bersamamu
Tak terasa saat yang berlalu
Bagai pelangi petang kau kan pasti
Pergi jua...

Pelangi Petang - Sudirman Haji Arshad

clear line

if u had asked how's it now.
i would i have said "never been better".
let's stick to this policy shall we?

"work is work, play is play".



//now i need not tread on ur toes nomore. goody!

whoopsy daisy

honey i lied.


so after much heartwrenching journey down memory lane.
i realised memories are just precious pearls sealed in a treasure chest.
those sweetdamnedmoments are never meant to be relived.
as much as i missed them times, i have no regret taking the leap.
3years is much to mourn over but i guess the pieces just don't fit no more.
putting aside the ifs & the buts.
i am actually quite happy now.
wait, i AM happy.
content with what i'm blessed with.

u may not be the perfect one but u are just perfect for me.
memories are nothing compared to what i have with u.



//goshhh!!! i feel so much better now.

acid tears

the heart feels numb from all this pain.
i can't cry it out.
i can't keep it in.
how now?
i need a long rest.

a super long one.


//help me sew myself up

puking fiesta

last friday.
i became the average "hanyuts".
just for that night only, please.
it's been almost 1 year since i last saw u guys.
missed u lots.
seriously, i do okay.

weekend was a simple affair.
watched the local movie "just follow law".
it's hilarious!!!
cheers to gurmit & fann.
blanja the family to Spiderman 3 for mother's day.
heh~
yes dearmum & me.
unbelieveable.....

& so beginning tomorrow, le armyboy's off to 2week in camp.
more time to be spend in the office.
clearing up the mess.
i don't know where to start.
waitt. i don't even know how to start!!!
i need to do something different.
getting really bored with my current scope.

//getting high is really not my idea of fun.

weeping hearts

all i needed was the answer.
&when that fails the phone went "SLAM!!'.
one heart got hurt while the other burnt.
bottled-anger&disappoinment let loose.

wishing things weren't as "laid-back&going with the flow" mode.
lights camera action. i need those for a change.
what say u, sweetheart?
this heart burns for u.
let's just drop everything &do the tango.

i'm willing but are u?

//call me, this heart misses u

pc-talk

oh hello.
how's the sardine?
good.
it's great that we're having lunch together.
maybe.. we could do this again tomorrow, & the day after.
u know what i mean?

*minimises window*


//i just don't get it.

inivitation: accepted!

heyy.
it's me.
who else right?
stayed home the whole day.
yes.
since i've been a rather notty girl last night.
coming home late&all.

dragonforce's coming to town&i've yet to find a partner to go with.
armyboy's in camp for standby.
15th-30th.
woah! what a coincidence!!!
so i'm on a quest to find fellow dragonforce-ians.
wish me luck.

//i sense a change there.

hold my hand, let's go.

• long phone calls
• pretty pretty pretty lights
• double cheese burger meal
• sembawang-yishun walks

pardon me?

that felt strange.
just 24hrs ago we were okay.
what the hell is up?
if for every single thing i said/do is to upset u.
might as well stay away from u.
isn't it weird that i am supposed to know u & understand u.
but u can't do the same?
i can't please every single one of u.


// a trip downtown

adventure gone wrong

-salam sayang dari BATAM-

i've been in&out of batam for weeks now.
hehehe
& right about now, i am IN batam.
oh~ yesterday i got lost.
blame me for being tad too brave to take the public transport.
i decided to the taxi-van instead of the conventional taxi cos i wanted to save Rp.
hell it's much cheaper travelling in the taxi-van, Rp2000 compared to the normal rate of Rp20000on normal taxi.
okay back to my story.
if u haf seen indonesian's sinetrons, the kampung areas.
there is where i actually end up!
had i continued my journey i will prolly end up in Jodoh which is nice, but NO.
so i ended up in my hotel room 2hours later than usual.
so moral of the story, "biar pandai jgn pandai-pandai" in direct translation "be clever but not clever-clever".

LOLL!!! (laught out loud-loud)



//i miss u. coffee?

on my mind

• fleamarketing @clarke quay
• meet-up with the ahbeng, ahfatt, arip, herwan, yiling
• the return of armyboy from standby
• launching of shallow draft barge
• whether to diet or not
• breast reduction

when cupid strikes

it's wonderful to be in love.
2 of the guys i used to date are in love.
so happy for them.
one's getting engaged.
while another is caught in cupid's chokehold.
the boys are becoming men.
and oh! the colleague's getting engaged!!
congratulations!!
when will it be my turn?


//going further down the road

what's done

in perfectly random order

• watched TMNT
• added new songs on the mp3
• bought 2 new tops
• bought a pair of green shoes
• experienced a belated chicken sickness
• got a-not-so-new mug
• watched pathfinder

//can we stop arguing about stupid issues?

a very long weekend

it all started with me shivering&chattering while watching primeval with nut&shark...
then come the slight fever accompanied by MC.
the next thing i know i grew spots overnight.
and so deardoctor told me, "you got chicken pox".
woah!!!
2weeks of MC is enough to make me go crazy.
with nothing to do the 1st week (psp was with nut).
i slept 90% of the time.
consuming only bread&biscuits.
apparently armyboy tricked me into believing he's going to taiwan for a month.
damn u ketotz!
oh well.
at least he's here in singapore.
when i finally got my psp back, i completed up to 65% in 3days.
woah! talking about boredom.
ate "pop" courtesy of nut. so sweet.
celebrated armyboy's birthday at my void deck.
sad huh?
frankly i think i abit thinner now.
i feel like i'm a renowned vegetarian.
no seafood, no chicken, no egg no this no that.
goddamnit!!!
the spots ain't so bad la.
abit itchy here&there.
thank god i sustain no such scar to the face.(not that i have a pretty face to begin with)
so now, i'm back to work.
and i still itch.


//i am sensitive so deal with it

strange and not-so-beautiful

RULES: Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in their blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!

1. i got chicken pox at the age of 22!!! yes still recovering now.... **sigh
2. i can't sleep without armyboy's sweatshirt at night....
3. i need 2 pillow for head support...
4. i love pulling out my hair while watching tv or just pulling out my hair....
5. whenever i play game on my psp, my body can't help but move along with the game... very obvious when i'm playing car racing games....
6. i like taking cough mixture just for the fun of it....
7. i watched cartoon every other day....
8. botak guys turns me on... really no kidding....
9. i don't eat squid/sotong cooked any other way besides sambal style.... especially those cooked in black stuff slimy stuff... yuck!
10. i'm never early for work! hahahaha a well known fact indeed!!!

i'm going to tag nobody, since not many read this blog...
heh~
hardly a wonder...

21+1

february updates



1stly i'm getting a pay raise... yeappie!!!

thou it ain't much but yea at least i could give mum more...

got a lil bonus...

armyboy & i celebrated our 1yr anniversary...

celebrated my 22th birthday...

simple but sweet...

lotsa clothes, games, bags, watches, accesories, shoes added to my possession...

went batam with the pantatz...

fun fun fun.....



girlfriends are both overseas....

one in dubai while another is having the time of her life in the philippines..

i changed mp3 twice in a month!!!

can u believe it?

never i tell u.. NEVER... buy any electrical gadgets from mustafa center....

ain't worth the cheap bargain...

the things don't last...

and oh! i got myself a notsonew S700i...

lovely piece of junk...

okay people..

enjoy the pics below...

a saviour or a failure

i likelove making others happysmile...
it's like a favourite hobby/habit/or whatever u name it...
be it buying small gifts or making a bigfool of myself...
it works everytime...
but..
not with u...
why?

i'm a emotionmagnet kindofperson...
i'd feel sad when someone around me is sad...
i'd feel mad when someone around me is mad...
i'd feel happy when someone aroud me is happy...
it is just.... me...
i can't help it...

when i really like/appreaciate/love someone....
i'd go thru great length to make sure that one person feel good bout themselves...
[[pardon me if i have made u(in general) pissed...
i'm good at that too... heh~]]

so help me out here...
help me so i can help u...
and when that happen u're actualy helping me to help u...



//i need to feel good about myself...

red card

i have enough of this....
getting on my nerves....
i want to get out of here...
really....
it doesn't pay to be nice or obedient....
u still barks as usual....
sheeshhh....
what more do you want?
don't u throw your temper at me for having a useless husband....
don't put the blame on me....
what gives u the rights over me?
seriously cos u gave birth to me?
sheesh...
u never actually cared...
since the begining...
she got the best...
everything she does is magical...
i can't even get a congratulations when i get top 5...
her friends are perfect...
while mine are way-wards...
that's what you think....
cos u never ever bother getting to know them....
f*ck this nonsense...
u never change...


//i've made my stand...

having 24hours each day is just not sufficient...
spending an average 10hours at work...
going out..
sleeping...
it's just not enough...

new beginning or simply the end?

so..
we're moving out...
but i can't make out whether it is a good beginning or simply the end...
been thinking...
should i take a step further or should i remain where i am...
& make the best out of it....

i wonder....

these words

friends:
[a]cceptZ u f0r wh0 eu r,
[b]eLievez in u,
[c]allz u juz t0 say hi!,
[d]0esn't give up 0n u
[e]nvisi0nz d bez f0r u
[f]0rgivez mY mistakez,
[g]ivez unc0nditi0naLLy
[h]elps u,
[i]nvitez u 0ver,
[j]0kes wit u
[k]eep u cl0se at heart,
[l]ikes u fer wh0 eu r
[n]evr judges wit0ut reas0n,
[o]ffer supp0rt,
[p]icks u up,
[q]uiets mY fears,
[r]aises mY spirits,
[s]ays nice things abt u
[t]ells u d truth,
[u]nderstand u,
[v]alues u,
[w]alks beside u,
[x]plains things tat i dun understand
[y]ells when eii w0n't listen and
[z]aPs u back tuhh reality


//how true are they?, we'll see

well..
congratulations...
u did it again...
this time it hurts real good...
yes...
u've improved...
it's okay...
i will be leaving soon...
so...


thank u...

show's over

yesterday was fantastic...
went to crazy horse...
the girls are really provocative...
uhuh!!
hott bunch...
but lousy show...
afterwhich fiza, trave&myself went clubbing at MOS...
yes...
so i can finally strike it off the list...

so what's next?



//i will no longer pretend it's okay....

this could very well mean me

Don't be surprised when someone has to jump up and down or squirt you with a water pistol to get your attention today -- you will be (blissfully) lost in thought throughout most of the day. You are moving into a more introspective time, when you will dive deep into your mind to sort through your feelings and figure out where you want to go next. There a few mountains for you to climb, and deciding which one to ascend first requires that you take some quiet time on your own.


-courtesy of Horoscope (Friendster)

Collide

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide



//does it sound like us?

broken bridge

when the bridge is broken how do we get to the other side?
going around it will only take a long time...
so what do we do?
fix it? yes why not...
but it fail?
and the bridge collapsed?
who to blame?
the one walking on the bridge or the builder?

you

Ku mencari
Ku mencari
Apakah salahku
Kau buat ku termenung seorangan.....

monDay

today is definitely filled with "blues"...
i'm stuck at home...
yes...
took medical leave today....
slight fever with coughs&running nose...
slept the whole day...
so here i am feeling drowsy but unable to sleep...

as u can see i put up a chatbox on the blog...
&as usual no msg...
hah~
no suprise really...
so i guess i will be putting it down tomorrow...

armyboy won't be back for the next two weeks...
bah~
phone bills are definitely on the rise...
okay...
now i am definitely feeling sleepy...
nights...(who the hell am i talking to???never mind)



//sick, sick, sick......

beneath those shadows

we laughed...
we chatted...
we bitched...

but somehow things are not what it used to be...

sorry

i'm beginning to hate myself....
bit by bit i could see it eats me from within....
where have this hatred come from....
all this anger exploding right in your face....
you deserve none of this shit...
but yet it continues to flow with so much force, i fell flat on my back....

i needed you more than ever...
but yet i'm pushing you further away....
each and everytime...
why....
is it a sign...
that we were never meant to be...

i abused you...
i misused you...
i'm becoming the one thing that i hated most....

at the same time, i want to love you...
cradle you in my arms...
protect you...
but ended up...
hurting you myself...

i've ever dreamt of the most perfect moment....
you and me spending the rest of our lives together....

and

i've ever dreamt of the most awful moment....
you left....

this really is the lowest point in my life...



//stabbing me right at the heart

avenged sevenfold - seize the day

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
(a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

attila the hunt

curik tulang (steals bone)

it's already 3rd day of the week...
and i have yet to make progress!!!!!
goddamnit!!!

unholy confession

i miss you immensely...
this is insane!
i tell you!
absolutely insane...



//all i need is a moment...

hysteria

guess i'm pretty much over partyingmyassoffphase....
why?
simple....
i'm at the office at this very moment...
yes...
no this is definitely not a joke...
i'm spending my holiday working...
okay... nothing intense...
just organising the mess that's on my table...
i really want to start my year with a good start in the office....

many things have happened the past 2weeks...
happy things...
sad things...
oh! did u know...
i have a new room mate...
my MOM....
yea...
sis moved out to the room opposite...
like finally....
so basically i could do some decor to the room like i always wanted...
i have another 3 more months to go for my probation...
i need to bucked up real bad...
so no more early getaways...
more time at work...
concentrate...........................

well enough of the talk...
more of the action...
so back to work, Lyn...




//maturity level: a point up!

jolly

.:2007:.

happy new year to all...
may u will be able to achieve the un-achieveable in '06...
may u will be able to do the unthinkable in '06...
a new year, a new start...
for once think happy happy thoughts...

forget the has beens and start thinking of the would bes...
life is as short as it gets...
be nice!




//counting down: 52days..