The Truth

my heart aches so much right now....

Look At Me Now

my wrist is aching..my chest is hurting..my nose is runny...sheeshhh...getting so sick these days...aiyooo~ my wrist really aches..damnit..going to ask nut to massage it..i need to work this friday and saturday...arghh!!!this is frustrating!!!
went to chill with isa and amin yesterday at starbucks northpoint...hahha unlikely group of people to actually sit down and chill...cool~
i felt at "peace"...whatever's in my head been stuffed somewhere in my head, far away...i think i should do more of this...chilling out with friends...just to keep my mind of it.... it's killing me...

"Lucky" Me

just look at the time now???!!!wah piang ehhh~~~*knock myself in the head*

My FOUL Mood

i am sooo PISSED today...today is the worse day of the week...damnit!!!1stly i have to bear seeing that fucking asshole..next thing i have my stoopid lecturer won't want to see me to discuss my FYP...what the hell..he made me wait 2solid hours just to tell me he needed the 3 of us there...what the hell???!!!
why didn't he say it earlier...haiz...that really did it..i cried like nobody's business at blk37..feeling angry and disgusted...and to add to the bloody copy-cat incident..wah liao!!!my blood boils!!!
damnit...if only i could say it straight at his face...let him know how freaking angry i am now...damnit!!!damnit!!!

why the foul mood??...i don't know...i think i miss him too much....
saw him just now...he look so near and yet it felt so far...haiz..i really feel like running up to him and give him a squeeze...and tell him how much i love him....how i cherish him...but i know i can't..i have to be strong...i have to be patient...he'll come back...i know he will...
sometimes when i think about it...i feel a tinge of regret...kept thinking of the possible ways that i could have done to save it all... if only i could turn back time...* wipe tears*
frankly...i really need a hug right now...i really need to cry out loud...i really need to mourn...

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WARNING for the bloody COPY-CAT

hey you!!yea i mean you...
i think it's about time you find your own identity and STOP copying others!!
to be more specific..HIM...
you bloody COPY-CAT!!! idiotic male-bimbo!!!
even though you may think that he may not mind...i mind!!!
even if you don't respect the wearer..
RESPECT ME!!!
i went to great length to actually get that for him...
it's something really special..something that i only want him to have...
and you just have to ruin that don't you..
for effing sake why man???just freaking why??
are you that FUCKING STOOPID that you just have to follow whatever others wear??
even if you actually like the thing can't you find something less similar...
fuck you..and i really mean it..you dumbass!!
can't your tiny brain(ohh wait i don't you even have a brain) actually realised i actually wanted it to be speacial..now thanks to your "smart thinking" it doesn't seem to be special anymore..it's something common..and soon..there will be more copy-cats like you around..just great...
more look a like wannabes in campus...just GREAT!!!
i feel disgusted looking at you...you are such a COPY-CAT!!!
I HATE YOU..i swear i do!!!
*makes disgusted face and walks off*

Izzad's Birthday

ate: cavana black pepper..
wore: blue checked shirt, jeans, OP slippers, addidas jacket, usual bead accessories and his bracelet..
drink: orange drink..
brought: yishun secondary plastic file..

here's an update on izzad's birthday celebration last saturday 18th november 2004...

went kite flying at marina with izzad, razia, faz, nut, shark, dzool, wan, isa, ady and his girl...bought kites at a particular kite shop...and goddamnit...the store owner actually cheated our money...the kites sold to us were of low quality...and due to that only 1 of the kites can actually fly...
the 1 kite i was referring to belonged to yours truly, ME..haha yes!!thanks to isa's expertise, he managed to make mine fly....(i mean the kite by the way)....feel so proud..hahha
too bad only nut, razia, izzad and isa saw that...
the rest pantatz was at the arcade due to the rain...after that i went off to work feeling rather dissappointed...
that's because i thought they(pantatz) weren't going to turn up at my workplace as plan...sedih seh~bukan selalu serve bdk2 ni.. so i left with a heavy heart...messaged razia and izzad saying it's okay if they're not coming..
then all of a sudden at 8+..i saw shark and faz..i can't believe my eyes...yippie..!!!i was so happy i didn't know what to do...i even delievered wrong orders..hahha see how delighted i am to have you guys over??!
they decided to sit on the carpet...they ordered foul with egg, vanilla coke, regular coke, wintermelon can drink, strawberry sheesha etc..hahha i can still remember your orders...see i'm a good waiteress..ahakz...
okay dudes and dudettes i got to go..need to go to my robotic class..shucks!!

untitled

ate: egg sandwich and fries(brought from home)..
wore: black polo tee, jeans, black sneakers, usual beads accessories and his bracelet..
drank: tap water..
brought: black sling bag...

at the 71 computer lab now...with razia..wasting my time..i'm working today...planning to take the bus today...61..haiz~going to be a long ride to bugis..the sky is dark..going to rain soon..i feel down all of a sudden...maybe it's because i'm sick...
yeap..i'm sick..running a fever..haiz...i think i miss him too much...haiz...i really don't know what to update right now actually...
feeling really down...
one more thing...
i'm BROKE...

So Yesterday

ate: nasi lemak and macdonald's..
wore: white long sleeve, jeans, OP slippers, black necklace, my usual beads accessories and his bracelet...
drank: orange juice and coke..
brought: my black and white bag..

i feel sick...since i went back from town yesterday...that is why i only get to update today..*turning green*
went to town with ady and raz..just to chill...we ventured one shop after another..it was so much fun..but it will be better if i have the cash..(declared bankrupt from today onwards) ady was a joy to be with..he never complaint of being tired..hahaha a great window-shopping companion...too bad he's taken...whooooppsss...ahaks~
after that we decied to chill at macdonald's in front of Mango...we talked and joked...there's one particular topic that had us all laughing so much..i almost teared...can't reveal much online..it's rather uncensored you know...so will share with you guys when we meet up.. :P
then all of a sudden....
he walked past...goddamnit~

Dejavu

here i am and there you are...just like the one in my dream...maybe we're destined to be apart...

Walking Down Memory Lane

northpoint, "non-breast meat crispy chicken", movies, marine square, red bench, bike rides, barbeque chicken pau, esplanade, "debates", "awak-kitas", "budak kecik", "reporting strength", 171, 74, 852, westmall, morning calls, cap, lenyekk, YMCA macdonald's, bandito, late nights, green tea.....

Chill arh~

ate: black pepper chicken rice..
wore: white tee, jeans, my NEW pair of SHOES, my star bracelet, friendship band and his bracelet..
drank: peach tea and packet lichee drink(supposed to be laichee)
brought: just my pink totebag..later changed to my blue mini-sling bag...

didn't go bowling..apparently..the place(which is at kallang by the way) was closed..yeap..C.L.O.S.E.D...the whole complex was closed...and it's only mid-week...a wednesday to be precise..aiyoo~
so we decided to head for marina square...but hell!!we can't find the entrance...hah~thanks to me that is..
finally we decided to just chill at Esplanade...it's been a while...it was so peaceful..(nut's comment by the way) and i have to agree..there were couples everywhere excluding the ones with us...heh~
so we finally settled down...we joked..we laughed..we made fun of others...wooo!!..it was fun...
bought mrs fields cookies & muffin...then we went to take a bite at macdonald's...
by the way..i learn something new..courtesy of dzool and wan...ready?
boyak..yeap..i learnt that..boyak is rather similar to boyar...only that it's alive...hehehe
i won't elaborate further..it's either you know or you don't...
finally we went our separate ways..art and wan took the bus home...nut went off to meet kat and dil at bugis...while dzool and i took the train home...
aaaahhh....even though..things didn't go according to plan...i really had fun with them(refering to ady, art, dzool, nad, wan..) you people rock my world la..
love you guys to bits...(sounds familiar right??haha)

Amazing Grace

i open up to a vey unlikely person...
*church choir singing in the background*
HaaaaaaLeLuYaH...HaLeLuYaH...HaLeLuYaH...

Is This Is For Real?!

here's something i've taken from my friendster's bulletin board...i find it too good to be true..and if any of you happen to know, meet and be the kind of guy described below..tag me..'cause i SWEAR there's no man that's perfect as the one described below..



~Wen a guy reali falls in love and becomes faithful to his beloved, his change in his character will reali shock every1 around him..
~His egoist heart will uncompromisingly softens when he willingly gives his heart to the lady he falls in love with.. furthermore he'll be willing to sacrifice everythin and do anythin fer his loved one.. No matter how egoist he may be, tears will fall from his cheeks wen his heart's broken.. It's not easy to see guys who would truly cry fer their loved ones...~!!!

20 signs to recognise the strong love a guy holds fer his beloved..
1. he willingly do anythin n everythin fer his beloved.. with sincerity not coercion
2. he constantly wans to humour his beloved and tends to be more talkative
3. he tends to advise his beloved more as he truly loves her and wans her to be a better person
4. he tries to restrict her freedom due to his overwhelmin jealousy
5. he constantly fears losin his beloved
6. he always monitors his beloved's movements as he feels insecure
7. he hates e idea of other guys bein close to his beloved
8. he becomes jealous and sensitive wen his beloved pays less attention to him
9. he becomes the most hardworking person n help his beloved to do anythin n everythin
10. he becomes restless wen his beloved's away fer too long
11. he cares fer his beloved more than he does himself
12. he constantly asks if his beloved loves him as he feels his love is greater than his beloved's
13. he would not be bothered wif other gals who dun hold any importance to him
14. he will try to spend a lot of time wif his beloved even tho he noes he'll end up waitin fer his beloved
15. he praises his beloved in front of others
16. if his beloved leaves him, he cant trust any other gal n wishes fer his beloved to come back to him
17. wen ther is a third party, he loses his mind and is willing to do anythin to fight fer his beloved 18. he makes sure he ensures her safety at all times
19. he is lyk a small kid who fights fer constant attention from his beloved
20. he treats his beloved as his most trusted one and willing to sacrifice all of his wealth and even his life fer her> ~it's not easy to find guys who would shed their tears jus fer gals.. so pls treasure them...

Helpless...

ate: plain rice with lauk ayam and sambal goreng..
wore: black tee, jeans, my new SHOES, usual beads accessories and his bracelet..
drank: orange syrup..
brought: black and white bag with lots of junks..

yawnz~ just woke up actually..was so tired that i fell asleep as soon as my head touches the pillow..was back early today..didn't feel like going anywhere and since my mom nagged that i've not been home early these days...shucks~
so straight after class..i went to mmeet up with nad before actually going to collect my hari raya outing pictures..oh yah~guys..the pictures have been developed..will be bringing it tomorrow...
yea2..we're going bowling tomorrow..we as in the pantatz and me..hah~can't wait..going to be fun...i'm counting on that...
been feeling rather down these days...or maybe it's because of my PMS...kept having chest pain..maybe because i smoked too much..hey~it's that i don't want to stop..just that i..well..err...i just need constant reminder and lots of pep talks..wel in short..i just wanted more attention from a certain someone..and hell it's not working..sheeshh~haiz...
down down down...my mood is definitely going downhill...i badly need a hug...i missed the feeling of someone stroking my hair, cheeks...i missed the endless conversations on the phone..i missed being compliment on..(not that i get it often) i feel so alone.. yea that's the word that's been blinking nonstop like those KTV neon lights...
nak kater aku takde kawan..ader ramai..nak kater takder famili, alhamdulillah smue sihat...nak kater aku miskin tak jugak..
nothing's missing...not that i know of...i think..

Tiada yang lain darimu,
Hasratku hanyalah untuk mu
Izinkan aku lafazkan isi hatiku,
Masihkah aku
Bertakhta di hatimu,
Janjiku padamu
Hatiku kau perlu tahu...

An Old Friend..

ate: cavana chicken rice with cheesy chix sausage, delifrance
wore: black tee, jeans, black converse shoes, usual beads accessories and his chain..
drank: orange syrup drink...
brought: yishun secondary plastic file..

woohoo!!!i attended all my classes today..10points for LYN!!!yeay!!!met up with raz,nut,faz,curly,ady,shark and yan for lunch...
hehe it's been sometime since i had lunch with a big group of people..hahha so i feel rather "excited"..
after school meet up with nad..and we went jalan2 at westmall..looking for slippers...then we went to delifrance to eat...and who won't guess who i met!!
JUFRI...yeap...the jufri who actually went "missing" the last 1+year...he looked different...budak armyla katerkan..by the way..dia kirim salam buat semua...he missed all of us..hahaha
then after talking to him..me and nad headed to causeway point...and i bought a very nice pair of sandal..it's has a black base and have pink flowers sewn on it..wooo...i fell in love with it instantly...
haha finally i can strike out something off the want list.. gonna wear it tomorrow..woohoo!!!!yessah!!!can't wait to show it off!!hahha :P

couldn't you just turn back,
and take a look at me...
look at the way i now,
notice how time seem to stop...

My ideal MAN!!!

Lifehouse - Hanging By a Moment

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and I question where to go
And I don't know what I'm tapping into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else x3

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and I question where to go
And I don't know what I'm tapping into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment x2
Hanging by a moment here with you

*This is i feel about you, i SWEAR..*

Haiz..

it's been 11days..and counting...
*long sigh*

TuneLESS

ate: hotdog bread and chicken cutlet @ SIM..
wore: white tee, jeans, adidas jacket,OP blue slippers, usual beads accessories and his bracelet..
drank: coke..
brought: yishun secondary plastic file and small sling bag filled with lots of junks..

NOTE: If you aren't able to listen to the usual music on my blog. Do not panic. I repeat DO NOT PANIC. Due to complaints, I have decided to remove the music. So if you still can't view my blog, I suggest you GO AND CHANGE THT PC OF YOURS! Thank you for your cooperation. Having reading.

HELLO!!hahha i'm still in school..alone that is..hahha my last class ended at 12noon just now..but i decided not to go home...instead i headed to blk71 to "help" raz, curly & yan with their 3rd year project...(if you don't know where blk71 is, its the lil' workshop right behind blk72..if you still can't figure out where that is, i suggest you to look at the school map..)
it was fun looking at them...their project is almost done...i am sooooo proud of them..heh~
i have yet to start on mine...waiiiitttt...i have yet to even find myself group members...sheessshh~
okay...let's forget about my "project"...seriously...the razcurlyan's project is really COOOOOOOLLLLL!!!really...i envy them..(tu la lyn..dulu tak nak blaja rajin2..tgk pe da jadi...graduate lambat..haiz...)oh well...no use whining now..
have to buck up...time waits for no lyn... :P(lame-ness) ...
it's already thursday...woohoo...the 1st week of school is almost ending..hahha..so far so good...
i managed to attend most of the classes...*big grin*
this week i skipped 3 classes..hahha ooppsss...next week is a no-no to skip any classes...kill me if i do ya?hahha
*hp beeped*
i loan harry potter: the prisoner of azkaban specially for you- kak yana
kak yana is my sister..auw..so sweet..
by the way 1 more thing..have any of you heard of a pc having pentium M?my sister asked..if you do..tag me and tell me more about it okay?curiousla...thanks...

Bedridden Half The Time...

ate: potato chips, curry puff, rice with sardine and fried egg..
wore: peiying PE outfit..
drank: plain water..
brought: NIL

today i'm sick...skipped school today..hell~it's only been 3days and i've fallen ill..this stinks..haiz..
stayed home the whole day..couldn't get up even to bathe...didn't visit the doctor's..i'm broke..so panadol will just do..
spent half the day lying down...whenever i tried to get up...my head starts to spin...oh man...i hate being sick...
*turning green*..
i feel sick...

Dreamer?! Hah~ i guess i am..

J:

Your Beauty liesin Dreams. Day-dreamer, creative and forever lost
in thoughts. You're adreamer, wanting more in your life than you have
now. Though you a lot of yourdreams never seem to leave your own mind. You've
created your own little worldinside that head of yours and you're most beautiful
when your mind is inthe clouds with sparkles in your eyes. You'd rather
be asleep than awake andpeople find it hard to have long conversations with
you as you mind oftenwanders and you aren't a big fan of reality. You
are long and almost child-likeprobably with a great love for Fantasy or Science
Fiction. You're very creativeand most likely love to write wonderful stories or
draw and even sing, anythingcreative that you can use that vast imagination of
yours. You're a bit of apuzzle to people love to wonder as to what is going
in your mind.

Some ThingsThat Represent You:

Element:Water, Wind Animal: Eagle Color:
Purples, Blues,Pinks, Misty Colors Song: Imaginary by
Evanescence Expression: Blank Stare

Gemstone:Rose Quartz Mythological Creature: Unicorn,
Fairy Planet: Saturn Hair Color:
StrawberryBlonde Eye Color: Violet

Quote:"I lie inside myself for hours and watch my
purple skies fly over me."

Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
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Doooowap...

ate: mee soto with begedel, black pepper chiken rice and chocolate-filled pancake...
wore: black polo tee, jeans, black converse high -cut and my usual beads accesories and his bracelet...
drank: toilet water x3
brought: just my Yishun Secondary plastic folder..

don't ask me why i have that as a tittle for my entry today..hahha
today i'm a goooddddd girl...ahhah that's becasue i attended all my classes today..yes!!even the 8 o'clock one..hahha i don't know what overcame me...hahha it's like a MIRACLE...ooohhhhlaaaa.....ter-met razia today..hahha apparently she wasn't in school yesterday..
ermm today's not bad actually...frankly..i feel good...could it be...no it couldn't...*smiling mischeviously*
even though boey bore me to death..i manage to stay awake throughout his 3hr lecture..hahha i merely stared at him..pretending i was interested and nodding every once in a while...and to make it more convincing..i actually acted as if i don't really get what he means..(well to tell you the truth i don't understand a single thing!!!hahah) guess what???he bought it...hahhha he was actually convinced wiht all the get-ups...muahahha *evil grin*
that only means the drama will still go-on...hahha yessah!!!
but i owe my great day to alfian, min, isa and lisa(el's friend whom isa know...i think)...they made my day...just sitting down and talking cra with them made my day...and including ady..for allowing me to borrow his jacket during my CAD3 class...i would have freezed to death if not for the man of steel aka SUPERMAN...hahhaha :P
and it can't get better when i actually met him...ok2 ter-met him at the bustop...hahaha so instead of the intended plan of heanding home...me and ehemm..him(imagine cupid shooting arrows) went to have dinner instead...too bad i wasn't able to swallow anymore food..too full arh...but i enjoyed the company...ahakz~*blushed*
*girlish giggles*...ok on with the entry...
wooohhh....i don't understand...whenever he's within sight..i feel a surge of adrenalin...it's almost orgasimic..err..is there such a word???
never mind that...i think i better stop here...hahha...

so..you(referring strongly to the youshouldknowwhoyouarebynow person)..

everytime i met you-

It's like

Everytime I turn around
I fall in love and find my heart face down
And where it lands is when it should
This time it's like
The two of us should probably start to fight
Cuz something's gotta go wrong
Cuz I'm feelin' way too damn good

Sometimes life ain't best if left in the memory
It's better kept inside than left for good
Lookin' back each time they tried to tell me
Well something's gotta go wrong
Cuz I'm feelin' way too damn good

Baaaaaaaaaaaadddddddd Girl..

ate: cavana ckicken rice
wore: white tee, jeans, green belt, black-strapped watch, usual beads accessories and silver bracelet with his name engraved...
drank: toilet water(if you know what i mean)
brought: my green espirit bag with loads of stuffs...

i have to admit i am a bad girl...hahah for today that is..didn't go for any of my classes..hehehe come on..it's only the 1st day of school..and it's IS day...haha
i woke up 10.20am when i am supposed to have class at 10am..hahha can't seem to wake up...so used to sleeping in late..
it's been a great 1st day of school...skipped classes...met up with friends....ahaha coolness...hahaha missed them..
at the internet cafe now..waiting for faz and nut i think...but noone's here...shark and alfian are at the tv viewing area..i think that's what the place is called...
everything seem to be the same..same ol' canteen...same ol' atrium...and the same ol' feeling of not wanting to go school..everything seem to be well..the same...
but something tells me it's not...haven't seen him around the whole day though...oh well...
i'm too "proud" to call him up and meet up...perhaps it's for the better...perhaps...*a long sigh*
oh well..i have other things to look forward to..a permanent class..yeap...unlike the previous semesters..i have to run around and join other classes...now i am proud to say i have classmates..classmates whom i can proudly call "my OWN"...hahaha
by the way...from today onwards..i will be jotting down every little detail of what i actually ate, drank, wore and brought to school...hahaha..
just take it that i want to lenghthen my blog entries and to remind myself: i am what i am...
hahhaa..
frankly..i missed school..i missed the atmosplere...the crowded canteens...asking my classmates..and yes my C.L.A.S.S.M.A.T.E.S whether there's tutorials...hanging out with the pantatz after class...*hopefully, crossing tiny fingers*
on top of all that crap i have just typed out...
IT'S GOOD TO BE IN SCHOOL ONCE AGAIN.........

My new found LOVE...*smiling sheepishly*

TAUFIK BATISAH!!!!
wooooooooo!!!!!he is sooooo cute....and boy his voice sounded great during the finals..hahha yea2..i know "crite da basi lyn"..but hey..it's better late than never...i love the way he sang "Me & Mrs Jone"...ohhlaaa..that totally blew me away...too bad i didn't manage to secure tickets to the finals..sobs..oh well..since Taufik won..doesn't really matter..hahha oppss....
once again..
TAUFIK BATISAH, WE LOVE YOU..(more importantly i love you...hehhe)
you rock man!!!

Feeling the BLUES....

right now i really don't have the desire to blog..but heck..since i have no one to talk to..why not..today is a saturday...amazingly i'm at home..it's been months since i last stayed home on a saturday...i feel so depresssed that i don't feel like doing anything at all...i just want to lie down and think of the good times..if only it had went the way i've planned...
effing shit!!!why can't i just be normal...why??was must i be so hard on myself..get a grip lyn..it wasn't meant to be..so why brood over it like some sick bitch!..it's not as if it's the end of the world...that's it..i'm going to set the record straight and ask when am i getting my PAY!!!before i go crazy thinking about how wonderful it'll be going on a shopping spree...arghhh!!!!

Boss's Wife..

i am so beat...who won't if you have to work 12hrs straight..all thanks to the boss' wife..goddamnit..she's like a mad dog..barking orders half the time...someone should teach her manners...fancy a lady her age sputtering nonsensical orders...."GO wipe the walls!GO!scrub the floors!GO!wipe all the plugs!..aiyooyoo!!!today was the 1st time i've met her and boy she leaves a lasting impression...a BAD one to be precise..just my luck to be working today...
the cafe was packed during lunch...and by 8..it was full-house..aiyoooo.. can die...
but thank god Yana came to my rescue..she chose me to help her in the air con room..apparently..some chinese-muslim-freaking-rich-businessman had made reservation...throughout the 2+hours waiting hand and foot on the guests...i almost fall asleep..sheeshh...my legs were cramping...damnit...haiz...
i am so sleepy...need my beauty sleep...so i guess that's all for now..will update you further on the BOSS' WIFE tomorrow...good night guys...muacks...

just like the night without it's stars and moon...
my life felt incomplete without you...

Break-up Season...

hey..hear that??no no...it's not church bells...there it is again...the cracking sound of breaking hearts...ouch!
i don't know why but the season is here again...a couple of people i know is either breaking up or having cold-wars with their other halves...
is it just me or is history repeating itself..ermm beats me...
sometimes i wonder...when one decided to separate from one's current partner..one confidently said it's for the good of both...but when one actually sees the other person happy..one feels a stint of jealousy..a form of defeat....then began all the unnecessary post-breakup-wars...the cold shoulder shit...sad but true...so people...ponder...
if one really thinks it's for the best..then why regret..and worse still why don't one just admit one's fault and all will be well again...
remember it takes a lot more courage to own up one's fault, than to actually slay a dragon...(cheh lyn dah bebual..merepeks!!!)

A Girls' Day-Out...

finally i've got to watch Harry Potter: Prisoner of Azkaban...wooohoo!!!all courtesy of Nadiah AT..muahahha here's what i did today...

1310: sets off to the bustop nearby for 969 to tampines..
1315: found a clean spot for me to rest my heavy butt while waiting for the bus..
(here's the best part)
i was not even seated for more than a min when an "abg" told me my name..not that i don't know...here's how the conversation went
"abg": your name lyn(?)(!)-didn't know which to use cause he's monotone..hmm
me: uhuh * blur2*
and without prompting
"abg": matair syawal kan ni?
me: ah...uhuh~ *still blur2*
"abg":*muttering something*...kejer ngan diyana
me: oh okay..*silence*
1320: finally the bus arrived..gave a quick smile to the "abg" and hurried off...
weird fellow..kalau ye pon nak tegur..berila salam..alih2 panggil name...seram gerl2..hahha
1355: reached tampines interchange..nad still have not arrived..forever late sheeshh!!!decided to jalan while waiting for late queen...see all the minahs and mats...what an eyesore...sheeshhh...bought myself a newpurse..hahha veryyyyy noice....
1430: nad finally arrived..and we went to buy loads of junk food for our movie marathon..
1450: when to rent 2 vcds..a horror flick and harry potter..wahhahha
1500-2020: watch movie.eat.watch movie.eat.laugh.eat somemore.watch movie.read Lime magazine.eat.watch movie.eat.eat.eat.eat.eat until cannot eat anymore.
2030: left nad's place..headed for home...
2115: reached home...exhausted...
but it's not the end of my day yet..i have two very very very irritating minahs to entertain at home..gosh...
2205: 1st minah (mom) wen off to work..1 down..1 more to go...haiz..
2330: the 2nd and last minah off the list...yessah!!!!!!
a tiring day...ohh sheeshhh...and i'm working tomorrow...at 12pm...mampos!!woder if i can wake up early anot..since it's already 2am and i'm still awake...arghhh!!!!!

Coldplay - Scientist

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said that it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures

Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start

Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh ohh (x4)

Somethings..

well hey..my 1st post in like months..i think..how are you guys..i missed you all so much..like my new layout??it has stars...i love stars..and it black...nothing fancy...just the way i like to keep things..simple..
listening to coldplay: the scientist
still remember fairly long time ago..how nut and isa would sit down together and listen to this very song on shark's laptop..well now it's my turn..i've fallen in love with the song...it's beautiful..
1st of december...history has been made..taufik been crowned the 1st Singapore Idol..kudos to Taufik..
next week school will be reopen..can't wait..my brain's been on a vacation too long now...guess what i won't be repeating any modules..yeap..apparently i managed to clear everything last semester...great!!!now technically..i'm in year 3..yahoo!!!my new semester resolution: minimise my absence in class and do all my tutorials...
i want As this semester...
time flies when you're having a good time..it's almost the end of 2004...good and bad memories...to tell you the truth..it's been a great year...minus the bad episodes..going to miss it somehow..but life still goes on...even if there's changes to be done...
i guess i've updated enough now...so guys..please tag me and tell me how you guys are, okay?love you all..
ps:for those who's addy are not added yet..tag me with your addy okays??muacks

love isn't love,
if it's been forced.
patience my dear

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL!!!!!!!!

hello!!!suprised???hahha sorry for not updating for a long time..
i am at B's place right now..waiting to go Lydia's open house...
how are you guys doing???miss you people...
by the way..i am working right now!!!yeay!!finally found a job..
i am working at a cafe right...if you want to now more stay tune...
1 hint: sheesha
haha so have you guessed it..if you have good for you..for those who haven't keep on guessing okay??
i guess that's all..take care people!!
see you when school reopens..muackSSS!!!

.....

hey guys..need your help..my previous blog template was deleted off...so i've lost all your links..so can yoiu guys kindly tag me with your addy please thanks..
i still am computer-less..yeap..so i won't be able to blog that often..
my exams are over so basically i am rotting at home with nothing to do..that exclude household chores...i am temporarily handphoneless..so if you need to reach me just give me a call at home...or tag me alright?
my life's ok..i guess...just plain boring...and broke..not sure when i'll start working...miss you guys...my pantatz...my old secondary friends...my boyfriend...yes..B...i missed you...so quit smiling now...
arghh..i am sooooooo BORED!!!!can't stand sitting at home any longer...
*hint²..
if you can't quite get want hint² means...okay...follow the inmstructions below:
1. pick up the damn phone/handphone which ever suit you best..
2. dial my home no.
3. ask to speak to me...
4. ask how's my day...
note: if you want to make my day..ask me out..and if you want to make me more happy...say that you will "blanja" me...
PS: only applicable to "loaded" people/boyfriend...
see..how easy the instructions are??..ahhahha so what are you waiting for...go ahead and do it...i will be waiting for your call....
thank you for your time...

Announcement:

Guys...My line have been disconnected..so if you need anything call my house okay??thanks!!!

Diagnosed with Idol Fever...

it's true...hahha...after weeks of watching Singapore Idol...i admit i am beginning to enjoy watching it...heh~ funny huh??and to make things worse i think Taufik's cute...okay B...you can stop reading already...ehehhe :P
i really love the way he groove to the music..his moves..his velvety voice..his round eyes...OOooOOooOOoo...hahaha okay enough..

Limits...

does playing a joke have it's limit??yeap..i strongly agree..what do you think?

dying..

i'm dying..really i am...i am in a state of exhaustion, depression and stress...shheesshh..i have not been sleeping well the last 2 weeks...i'm depressed 'cause i can't seem to complete my assignments...i'm stressed 'cause my 1st paper is next Friday!!!arghhh...i really feel like giving up...i can't keep up anymore...arghh....i need sleep...i need food...

oh yah..jus a reminder..my line have been suspended...so no outgoing for the next 1week..so please give me a call instead of messaging...thank you...

haiz..i don't think i will be able to make it...i'm dying...to all my friends thank you for tolerating my nonsenses, my pitchy-toned voice, my habit of finishing your un/finished food, my constant whinning, my non-stop blabbering about my big boobs(jane, stop grinning, my buih-ing, my bitching, my ugly face in your birtday pictures etc...(just add more if you oks?) okay..going to rest in my coffin now...see you all "later"...

Turning blue in the face..i'm dying...

*coughs
been coughing for weeks now..in school right now..i still can't find answers to my MENG1 praticals..oh my god..what am i to do??haiz...i'm giving up this instance...by the way...like the song??very old song huh??yeap..i love this song..haiz..it's already mid week and i still feel like SHIT...damn..i need a break soon...my head's going to burst anytime soon...been eating painkillers every night...one day i am going to die of O.D...haiz...meeting Honey today...accompanying her to her auditions..haiz haiz haiz haiz...

Bon Jovi - Always

This romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up

It's been raining since you left me
Now i'm drowning in the flood
You see i've always been a fighter
But without you i give up

Now i can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, i guess i'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me

And i will love you, baby - always
And i'll be there forever and a day - always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And i know when i die, you'll be on my mind
And i'll love you - always

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What i'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes, i'm just a man

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish i was him 'cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time

Yeah, i will love you baby - always
And i'll be there forever and a day - always

If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price i won't pay
To say these words to you

Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines

And i will love you, baby - always
And i'll be there forever and a day - always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And i know when i die, you'll be on my mind
And i'll love you - always

monday-afternon-blues part2

if you're lloking for part1...you won't find it...'cause the post have yet to be posted when the window closed!!!stinking shit...now i have to re-type all over again...oh wait..nah~i think this will be a new entry...sheeshh!!!*&^&$^%^#$!@$
anyway...i'm in school right now...it's a lovely hot afternoon...the sky is blue...wait..hasn't it always been??..err never mind...haiz...it's the last week if school...i still have remaining assignments to hand up...not sure if i can finish in time for submission..we'll see...
last friday was Nut's 19th birthday..and we celebrated it at boat quay...it's been a long time since i set foot there...exactly 5 years...and i'm not kidding...it's was lovely...glowing red sky...the lights and sounds was amazingly soothing...wished i could share it with you...haiz...back to the story...ijjad, raz and i..later joined by dzool, faz and shark...sat on the stairs over looking the river...ijjad sang while strumming the guitar...songs like belaian jiwa, putri, fixing a broken heart etc..brought tears to my eyes...i don't know why...i envied the "couples" there...making me yearn for that warmth of a hug...oh man~..nonetheless after chilling out...we all decided to have supper at shah alam restaurant...the food's not bad..since i ate almost half of raz's mee goreng...sorry girl..then we went for a walk along the singapore river...it was great fun...it's been so long since i laughed so hard...it's been great guys..it really was...i really needed it..i missed you the company...i really do...thank you so much...

Missing him bad...

hello...yeap..still in school..waiting for 4pm to celebrate Nut's birthday...hehehhe i'm so full...ate twice today...hahhah yeap...i ate both breakfast and lunch..full meal..oh god!i'm growing fat by the minute...have to stop.the.urge.to.eat.....ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!
i got the feeling i'm eating too much 'cause i miss HIM so much...hey if you're reading this...I MISS YOU!!!arghh...this is driving me CRAZY!!!!

The Cranberries - Linger

If you, if you could return
Don't let it burn, don't let it fade
I'm sure i'm not being rude
But it's just your attitude
It's tearing me apart
It's ruining everything
And i swore, i swore i would be true
And honey so did you
So why were you holding her hand
Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you

But i'm in so deep
You know i'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

Oh, i thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But i was wrong
I was wrong
If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie

Things wouldn't be so confused
And i wouldn't feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you

And i'm in so deep
You know i'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to. do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

And i'm in so deep
You know i'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

You know i'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

CoLd...

i am feeling realy cold + hungry now...er..wait..i've just eaten 1 chocolate-filled waffle, mee soto and 4 sushis...arghh!!!i am getting fat!!!i don't know what's wrong with me these days..been eating alot...i just can't stop eating...
anyway..had my COMANA 2nd test & Tribon test this morning...thankfully..i managed to most of the questions thanks to Jit who happen to be sitting beside me..hehehe as for Tribon..i only managed to complete the pipe drawing..haiz..oh well..what's done is done..just hope i can pass the module with an A..hahha as if...
hmm..tomorrow i have an interview for my technical writing and MENG1 cct..hope i can pass..hopefully..hahha
anyway..i got to go...need to finish up my practical reports..
adious!!!

My pain...

arghh....it was terrible...the test i mean...my mind went completely blank...i can't think straight...i am so going to fail COMANA...oh well..there's another test tomorrow..hope i can just get through it...hmm..at the library now...arghh...it's going to rain today..yippey!!!hahha because...i'm wearing shoes today!!!yeay!!!it's been a long time since my toes been squashed...hahha
ate chicken chop at SIM today with Razia & Amin...just 3 teens laughing & chatting while having lunch together...it's was a great feeling...it definitely lifted my mood today...
i don't know why but i been thinking about death alot these days...i can't wait for death to come...i jst can't carry on living anymore...no..don't get me wrong...i'm not heartbroken or anything...and i definitely love my life as it is..just that...i don't know how to explain...MAYBE i've sinned enough for last 19yrs of my life...and i just can't carry on sinning...haiz..i don't know..i love my family...i love my friends..and i definitely love him...i'm content with what i have now...but something's missing...the enthusiasm to carry on living...before this i used to dream about what's going to happen...i used to daydream alot...now i don't...i'm afraid...haiz...this is so depressing...how i wished i could make the pain just go away...

280904

1 word:
BORING

Tua Tak Sadar Diri....

ola...i'm sooo sleepy right now...got home pretty late last night..attended the Mrs Singapore & Mrs Singapore Classic pageant yesterday evening..it was HORRIBLE!!especially for the classic category..looking at all the "tak-sadar-diri-nyonyas" parading on stage make me want to PUKE...euwww...Oh..you guys must be wondering why i was there in the 1st place...well..one of my sister-in-law-to-be-if-it-does-happen took part in the Mrs Singapore category...she was one of the 26 finalist that night...cool!!!ok..to cut it short...i think the whole even suck!!!big time..the judges are BLIND...the food SUCKS...the winners are LOSERS..sheeshhh...nonetheless...i enjoyed myself.."kutuk-ing" and making fun of the old nyonyas @ the events..hahha i guess that's all for now..i'm hungry...need FOOD....

Maybe i should just stop...

i am feeling really down...was reading Lydy's blog...the song on her blog was so heart wrenching but at the same time so enticing...i almost teared...it's a song by Shiela On 7 - Berhenti Mengharap...somehow..deep within me...i feel like giving up too...i'm sick of living...it's too depressing..i can't seem to be able to think straight...i can never be happy for long...the things that made me happy never stayed for long...maybe it's the song...or is it just me?..i can never figure out..try listening to the song..i'm sure you feel the same too.. below's the lyric...


PS: Lydy..if you're reading this..sorry if i kinda rob you of the song..it's so beautiful..i just have to share it with..sorry.. :)

Shiela on 7 - Berhenti Berharap

aku tak percaya lagi
dengan apa yang kau beri
aku terdampar di sini
tersudut menunggu mati

aku tak percaya lagi
akan guna matahari
yang dulu mampu terangi
sudut gelap hati ini

aku berhenti berharap
dan menunggu datang gelap
sampai nanti suatu saat
tak ada cinta kudapat

kenapa ada derita
bila bahagia tercipta
kenapa ada sang hitam
bila putih menyenangkan
ooo..oooo

Chorus:
aku pulang...
tanpa dendam
kuterima.. kekalahanku
aku pulang...
tanpa dendam
kusalutkan.. kemenanganmu

bridge:
kau ajarkan aku bahagia
kau ajarkan aku derita
kau tunjukkan aku bahagia
kau tunjukkan aku derita
kau berikan aku bahagia
kau berikan aku derita
Back to chorus**

i'm tired....

i'm so tired...
oookk...not tired tired...just plain sick of dong the same thing over & over again...in this case, i'm sick of doing my never ending assignments...arghh..when is this going to end???i can't wait for the holidays...oh yesterday...i went for to Bali Thai Westmall..ask if there's any vacancy...filled the form & left..hahha not sure if they want to hire me...hmm...cross my fingers on this one...
i wanted to do my resume today..but didn't bring the right cut-outs..so i guess i might as well do my COMANA...my test is next tuesday & wednesday...ohh wished i can just pull through...i don't want to fail...hmmm...anyway, yesterday i borrowed Silverchair's Diorama...it's fantastic!!!woohoo!!!they sound so good..(wondering why i never liked their previous albumns...)oh yeah...if you guys are into alternative..you should..ok make it a MUST listen to the albumn...it's AWESOME...hahha okok...Nad_At just called..update later alright...muacks!!!!

Like it??

hhehe..how do u like my new skin??
cool huh??hahha n yeap..
ur listening 2 "Usher - My Boo"...
dedicate it 2 Razia..since she like tis song sooo much...
ehhehe enjoi gal..
aniway..ive complete almost all my CAD drwgs...
a great a achievement 4 me...
ahakz..
@ CADrm now..spent e last 2hrs changing my layout..
hahaha..
now ive got nothing 2 do..i think ill drop by e lib..
look 4 bks den head hm...i still have EM3a assigments 2 do..
cant wait 2 get my quiz results...
hope i pass..keeping my fingers crossed..
hmmm...
ive manage 2 read sum of the not so forgotten blogs...
Wina dearest..im so sorry abt ur grandpa...
im sorry 4 getting e news late n for not bein der 4 u...
i hope ur ok now..its a great lost i noe..
dun feel bad gal..even though u werent by his side wen he pass away..doesnt make u a unfilial...
seriously...it doesnt...
wat is done is done...we cant turn back time...
God loves him more...so tats gd isnt it?..
lastly...im realli sorry tau...if u nid 2 talk..
jus call me up..im here 4 u..always..(hugs)
2 e rest of u reading tis...
if u ever nid sum1 2 talk 2...
jus call me up..
im here 4 u guys..always..
ps:jus bcos im not der..doesnt mean i don care...muacks!

Hmm..What do you think?

jus sumthing ve got from my mail...its seem true though...enjoi..

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.
When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON. . .
It is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrong doing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realise is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered . . . And now it is time to move on.
When people come into your life for a SEASON . . . Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the
lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
Work like you don't need the money, Love like you've never been hurt, And dance like no one is watching.

KCi & Jojo - Tell Me It's Real

Are you for real
like how i feel
can we share a love
to last forever
and if so
let me know

(Chorus)
Tell me its real
the feelin that we feel
tell me that its real
don't let love come just, to pass us by
Try, is all we have to do
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more

Baby you told me that you loved me and you'd never leave my side
till the bitter end, through the thick and thin
you promised me baby that you wasn't goin anywhere
baby keep it real, let me know just how you feel

(Chorus)
I can't explain the way you made me feel, everytime that you told me that you loved me
and you know you did, too many times
just when i thought that love could never be a part of me
thats when you came along, and showed me happiness
baby you are the best, i think you're different from the rest and i really love ya
(Chorus)
Tell me its real
this feeling that i feel
tell me its real
for you're love
i would do anything

Tell me its real
the feelin that we feel
tell me that its real
don't let love come just, to pass us by
(you gotta)
Try, is all we have to do
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more

Tell me its real
(do you really love me)
the feelin that we feel
(do you really care)
tell me that its real
(you promised that you'd never leave my side)
don't let love come just, to pass us by
(you promised that you'd always be there)
Try, is all we have to do
(is all we have to do)
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more

Tell me its real
(i'll be there for you)
the feelin that we feel
(you be there for me, sweetheart)
tell me that its real
(i thought that we were meant to be, for eternity, thought you loved me baby)
don't let love come just, to pass us by
Try, is all we have to do
(mama told me told me so, boy you just don't know, anything about love)
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more
(and you and i were meant to be, and you would know, i was sure by the end of this song)

Casey - Jangan Ada Benci

( 1 )
Andainya ada di antara kita nanti
Berubah hala serta janji
Jangan ada benci
Suka dan duka dilalui
Jadikan kenangan di sudut hati

( 2 )
Andainya cita-cita tidak kesampaian
Ikatan murni terputus di pertengahan
Jangan dikesalkan
Jangan lantaran kegagalan
Kita saling berdendam saling bermusuhan

( 3 )
Ungkit-mengungkiti
Sakit-menyakiti
Memusnahkan diri

( 4 )
Kita harus tabah dan bersedia
Cekal hadapi kemungkinan yang tiba
Kadangkala yang berlaku
Di luar kemahuan kau dan aku

( ulang 2 & 3 )
( ulang 3, 4 & 1 )
PS:dedicated 2 all tat ive deliberately/incidentally hurt n those whu deliberately/incidentally haf hurt me..

Burpp....

morning 2 all!!!
im in CADrm wit Raz on my left n Isa on my right...
Isa n I trying out best 2 finish our WISP essay...
Raz on e other hand looking @ hari raya pics..
hey talking bout hari raya...
fasting month is jus ard e corner...
yeay!!!
cant wait..
im gonna b a nice lil gal..
stay hm(if i still haven get a job), learn how 2 cook...
do e laundry...clean e house 4 hari raya...
woooohhh...
gonna b a lady...
i hope..hahhaa
im such a lazy bum..
haiz...
nway..gota go...update later ait...
muack...!!

Im walking away...

*singing*
im walking away...
from troubles in my life...
im walking away...

well tats all i noe of e song...
hahha...
im @ e ctn wit nad_at...
haiz...
both of us pissed...
ate alotof things...
almost bankrupt...
haiz..
i donnoe y im pissed actualli...
arghh!!!
i nid chocos...
now!!!!!

Have u ever?...

haf u ever feel insecure 4 no reason??
well i do...
i donnoe y...
negative scenarios kept playin in my mind...
like its on repeat mode...
sheeshh...
ive nvr loved sumbody this much...
i guys u all noe tt by now..
all e shit we've been thru...
e break-ups..e fights...
e tears...e anger...
seriously...
im in love...
deeply...
n i noe he loves me 2...
i guess...
im not sure...
i mean...
i noe he cares 4 me n all..
but sumtimes i needed more den tt...
i nid assurance...
heh!women...troublesome...
sumtimes i hated myself...
4 falling in love...
i keep wrecking it...
time n time again...
i wreck everi relationship...
ouw..my eyes hurt...
no i cant cry...
(library seh lyn...)
i wish i cud jus end all this misery...
jus a blade 2 e wrist..
all will b done...
no more worries...
no more tearing...

shock of my life....well not exactlyla...

okaaaayyy...
4 e 1st time in my poly life...
im getting debarred...
yeap...me..
getting debarred...
haiz..
im getting frm bad 2 worse...
i cant help getting myself in2 trouble...
f*ck man!!
oh well..
its my own fault...
saper suruh skip class!!!!!
oh well..nvm..
wats done is done..
now gotta tink of e perfect excuse...hahaha
im soooooo sick now...
cant stop coughing...
argghhh....

Shania Twain - You've Got a Way

You've got a way with me
Somehow you got me to believe
In everything that I could be
I've gotta say--you really got a way
You've got a way it seems
You gave me faith to find my dreams
You'll never know just what that means
Can't you see... you got a way with me

CHORUS:
It's in the way you want me
It's in the way you hold me
The way you show me just what Iove's made of
It's in the way we make love
You've got a way with words
You get me smiling even when it hurts
There's no way to measure what your love is worth
I can't believe the way you get through to me
(CHORUS)

BRIDGE:
Oh, how I adore you
Like no one before you
I love you just the way you are
(CHORUS)
It's just the way you are

its been a long time...

like my title said...
its been a long time since i blog...hahha
sorry..
my pc's goin bonkers @ hm...
n i was on mc on most of e days last week..
hahhaa..
hell..its been a long week 4 me...
yup.. a long one...
having my 6hr break now..
waiting 4 Jialing, Shuchen n Isa 2 turn up...
*wondering*
all of dem are LATE!!!yes i mean ALL of dem!!!
sheesshh..but nvmla..
im late @ times 2..hehehe

amazing isnt it...
i am actualli way behing schedule...
way way way behind time...
both sch n life...
uhuh~
after much reading n analysing...
n i guess being e last person 2 noe..
ehhehe i tink THIS IS IT!!!
happy 4 u both...
glad tat its over...
e angry posts on both blogs...
:) im sorry i haf not spend time with u guys lately...
yeap...i noe...
if ders a will ders a way...
n if i realli wanted 2 spend time wit u guys..
i wud haf gone looking 4 u guys...
well..i haf my means...
but nonetheless..
i still cherish ur frendship...
all of u...
jus bcos im not der...
doesnt mean ive forgotten...
2 more weeks b4 e end of e semester....
time flies...
wel i cant wait 4 ramadhan...
n i definitely cant wait 4 syawal..(hari rayalah)
hahha gonna see lotsa matching suits...ohhlaaa...
i think tis entry is long enuf..
so adious...hehe
once again...
IM HAPPY 4 U 2!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love Match

ARIES MATE
You will not tolerate being bossed around by your mate. You hate have your space infringed upon and you can't stand it if your mate shows up late for a date. You like to be asked for advice and flattery always makes you feel important. You will never slow down and wait for your lover. It's keep up or get left behind. You match up to your sign and the remaining eleven signs as follows.

ARIES & ARIES: Temper tantrums are quite likely to erupt into major wars with this combination. Remember only one party can win and neither one will accept defeat. Passionate but problems.

ARIES & TAURUS: The Bull has trouble with your free spirited attitude. With compromise it can work. A little bit dull for you at times however it can be a stabilizing experience for you.

ARIES & GEMINI: Wonderful alliance. This is an exciting, sexual encounter that can in fact last. Both you and Gemini are so spontaneous and full of life that there is no time for either of you to become bored.

ARIES & CANCER: The Crab is far too sensitive and slow for your speedy and hot tempered nature. You will have difficulty listening to the Crabs nagging and negativity. This is really a poor match up right from day one.

AIRES & LEO: This is a most exhilarating combination. You both share the same likes and dislikes. You are both always on the go, craving excitement, love and fun. This is truly a link made in heaven.

ARIES & VIRGO: Your impulsiveness is just too much for the Virgoan. Virgo's practical, critical nature will drive you away rapidly. This is a relationship better left alone.

ARIES & LIBRA: Although opposites attract, the Scales are just a little too lazy to keep up with you. You on the other hand lack the sophistication required to keep a Libran happy.

ARIES & SCORPIO: You are both ruled by the catalyst Mars that makes this union hot and heavy. The possessive Scorpio will, however, does clash with your free spirited nature.

ARIES & SAGITTARIUS: This can be a good and a lasting relationship. You are both fun-loving and quite oblivious to the faults that might drive most people crazy. This is an exciting and adventurous union.

ARIES & CAPRICORN: Finances are the biggest detriment in this connection. You can spend it as fast as the hard working Goat can make it that drives the frugal Capricorn insane.

ARIES & AQUARIUS: This is not a bad connection. You are both inquisitive, however at times you may find it difficult to contemplate what the Water-bearer will do next.

ARIES & PISCES: Sexually this is not a bad alliance, but your temperaments are just so different that it does put a strain on the relationship. You could never handle the Fishes emotional whims for any length of time.

LIBRA MATE
When it comes to compatible signs for you harmony is the most important factor to keep in mind. Without harmony you can't possibly survive.

LIBRA & ARIES: Polarity attraction. Shooting stars in the bedroom. Tension, however, at a mental level. It can work if you are both willing to compromise.

LIBRA & TAURUS: Not too bad as you both value the finer things in life. The Bull's possessiveness can bring about some problems for you however if the price is right you'll put up with a little control.

LIBRA & GEMINI: Intellectual connection. This relationship is much better left as a friendship. You both need a great deal of freedom to experience other people. If you both agree on ground rules right from day one it can last.

LIBRA & CANCER: This is not the best match. The moody Crab is just too difficult for you to handle. You need to surround yourself with positive individuals who will create a harmonious environment.

LIBRA & LEO: This is a good union, similar lifestyles, both hooked on sex. The Lion's dazzle, and your refined nature balances out quite nicely. Together you make an extremely nice looking couple.

LIBRA & VIRGO: No Way! The practical Virgoan will never satisfy your desires. You're better not to pursue this partner for any kind of a long term commitment.

LIBRA & LIBRA: This is not a bad connection, but boredom can be a definite risk as you will both expect to be entertained. Your lazy nature when it comes to domestic chores will also be a problem if you can't afford to hire help.

LIBRA & SCORPIO: The Scorpions' jealousy vexes the casual, harmonious nature that you possess. This is certainly not an alliance made in heaven and usually quite difficult for you to balance.

LIBRA & SAGITTARIUS: This is an auspicious relationship. The Archer's charisma and thirst for adventure will hold your interest. Your good looks and cultural knowledge will entice the Archer.

LIBRA & CAPRICORN: It's difficult for the Goat to accept your inactivity. Physically there is a powerful attraction between you, unfortunately it is seldom lasting.

LIBRA & AQUARIUS: This is a compatible coalition, you are capable of making love in the highest form. Your two of a kind, neither of you care about detail nor domestics.

LIBRA & PISCES: This is not usually lasting. The Fish is too confused and sensitive in nature that makes this connection a highly complicated combination. The end result can be devastating if you aren't careful.

TAURUS MATE
Your lover must approach you properly in order to win your heart. You love good cooking and fine wine. The way to your heart is definitely through your stomach. You are turned off by individuals who exaggerate or color the truth. You like to be admired and will respond if your lover is encouraging. Your connection to someone born under the same sign as yourself or one of the remaining eleven signs is as follows.

TAURUS & ARIES: This union is better as a hot passionate affair. Your possessiveness will cramp the Aries free-loving nature.

TAURUS & TAURUS: Not bad sexually, however this union is somewhat dull in other areas of life. You will have a tendency to grow fat together. Visualize two couch potatoes eating in front of the television.

TAURUS & GEMINI: Gemini's lack of respect for possessions and stability will drive you up a wall. You aren't spontaneous enough for the versatile Twin. Not really a likely combination.

TAURUS & CANCER: Good partnership. You will enhance one another. You offer the Crab the necessary security and in return you receive the affection and loyalty you desire.

TAURUS & LEO: This is not only an unlikely connection but one that is built on deception. If your financial position is good you will attract the Lion however, this partner will want the freedom to roam.

TAURUS & VIRGO: Problems usually arise in the bedroom, however in all other areas you and your Virgoan will do remarkably well. You are both practical and hard working.

TAURUS & LIBRA: Compromise is necessity if you want this union to work. Your Libran mate will be far too indecisive for you and you lack the sophistication that the Scales demand in a partner.

TAURUS & SCORPIO: Polarity attraction, sexually dynamic, however you are both fixed signs that can cause difficulties. Your stubbornness and the Scorpions jealousy will result in a no win situation.

TAURUS & SAGITTARIUS: This combo is better left as friends. The archer likes to gamble, free-spirited and taking each day as it comes. You on the other hand could never live without routine and would frown up the Sagittarians irresponsibility.

TAURUS & CAPRICORN: This is not a bad alliance as you both have the same interests where money, possessions and security are concerned. The biggest drawback is the old 'all work and no play' syndrome.

TAURUS & AQUARIUS: You are both fixed signs with a totally different concept of life. The water-bearer is too much of a loner and you always want to own or possess your partner.

TAURUS & PISCES: This combination can work, however the Fish lack practicality which can be a deterrent for you. On the other hand your Pisces mate may leave if you become too domineering

GEMINI MATE
You can play a heartless game using your keen intellect, charm and sex appeal to your advantage. You can easily persuade any sign to have a passionate affair with you, however a long term relationship is another story. You aren't likely to stay in any union that restricts, confines or holds you back in any way. You match up as follows to your own sign and the remaining eleven signs.

GEMINI & ARIES: This is one of your best matches. You both have a high energy, a thirst for adventure and spontaneity. Passionate, sudden and compelling this union can last.

GEMINI & TAURUS: This is not a good connection for the Bull. Your lack of routine upsets this steady sign. You find Taureans far too dull for your liking and will tend to wander early into the relationship.

GEMINI & GEMINI: You can have some real good times but you seldom stay together unless you meet in later years. There is a lack of direction that usually prevails, however you can have some wonderful times together.

GEMINI & CANCER: The Moon child is far too moody and sensitive for your fickle ways. You are not a homebody like the Crab. You have totally different interests then a Cancer.

GEMINI & LEO: This is not a bad connection. You both complement one another. The generous Lion will bend to whatever you want as long as you let your flattering silver-tongue lead the way.

GEMINI & VIRGO: This is not the best union, the practical Virgo views you as being disorganized and frivolous. You on the other hand don't think that the Virgoan knows how to have a good time.

GEMINI & LIBRA: Magnetic union, however not long lasting. The Scales find it difficult to live in the turmoil and melodrama that you thrive on. This relationship is usually short, hot and sweet.

GEMINI & SCORPIO: Scorpio's jealous tendencies are impossible for you to handle. You flirtatious ways and little white lies will drive the Scorpion as far away as possible.

GEMINI & SAGITTARIUS: This union can work, however you both love to travel therefore you may not spend much time together. You both tend to leave your fate to luck which can make this a risky relationship.

GEMINI & CAPRICORN: Not great. The goat is too ambitious and organized for you. You have totally different priorities in love and in life.

GEMINI & AQUARIUS: Super alliance, you are both original and like variety. This makes for a fun loving couple. This is not always a lasting union but it is certainly worth pursuing.

GEMINI & PISCES: Insecurity usually ruins this relationship. This can be an extremely emotional union. Unique, destructive, yet passionate and lustful resulting in hurt and anxiety.

CANCER MATE
Your sensitive nature can be difficult to deal with. You are often misunderstood at an emotional level You need a mate that can understand your tenderness. You match up you your own sign and the other eleven as follows.

CANCER & ARIES: This is not a very good combination for you. The Ram's lack of tact and their hot temper is just too devastating for your sensitive and insecure nature.

CANCER & TAURUS: The Bull is one of your best partners. You are both homebodies who appreciate good food, good quality and thrift. You can keep each other quite happy. Truly an enduring relationship.

CANCER & GEMINI: The Twins play too many mind games for your soft and innocent approach to life. Gemini's flirtatious free-spirited nature is just too hurtful for you to have to deal with.

CANCER & CANCER: Together you are far too negative for this union to work. Emotional problems will exist throughout the entire relationship. Neither one of you has the ability to see the positive side to the relationship.

CANCER & LEO: The Lion needs to be the center of attention, therefore you will often feel quite neglected in this relationship. You have a tendency to nag and that will drive a Leo mate on to greener pastures.

CANCER & VIRGO: This partnership lacks excitement, to say the least, however that doesn't usually matter to either you or your mate. Security and the home are much more important to both you and the practical Virgoan.

CANCER & LIBRA: Your mood swings are far too upsetting for the Scales. Libra Needs harmony and a variety of entertainment which really isn't your style or your intent. You create melodrama at an emotional level and would prefer to stay at home where it's safe and secure.

CANCER & SCORPIO: You are both too possessive that can and usually does lead to problems at some time. As long as you deal with these issues promptly you can have a happy, satisfying and loving union.

CANCER & SAGITTARIUS: The Archer is too worldly for you. You don't like to take risks and Sagittarians thrive on chance. This is not your best bet for a lasting union but it is one that often attracts you.

CANCER & CAPRICORN: Polar opposites, Usually there is a lot of chemistry, but the Goat does not usually have the time to show you enough affection. If you can put up with their workaholic ways you can rest assured that you will be well-taken care of financially.

CANCER & AQUARIUS: You are far too sensitive for the Water-bearers aloofness. Aquarians cannot tolerate your need to cling to them.

CANCER & PISCES: You and the Fish are probably the two most sensitive signs of the zodiac. Although you can comprehend one another you can also play emotional games and hurt each other. This connection can work if you communicate openly and honestly.

LEO MATE
When looking for a prospective mate you will interact diversely with all the other constellations including your own.

LEO & ARIES: This is a capricious match. Your common interests and lusty passionate nature bring about outrageous social and sexual encounters.

LEO & TAURUS: This is an ill-fated connection, your extravagance and desire to party are antagonizing to the prudent Bull. This relationship is not likely to start up in the first place, and not likely to last if you do make it to first base.

LEO & GEMINI: You are enticed by the clever Twins, nevertheless the Twins' fickleness enrages you. Intriguing while this connection lasts, however it's usually short lived.

LEO & CANCER: You're powerful desire to be the center of attention along with your vanity is pernicious for the shy, sensitive Crab. Not a choice alliance.

LEO & LEO: This is a dramatic combination, a sexual delight, providing both desist from dominating one another. This is truly a royal match and believe it or not, it often works.

LEO & VIRGO: Virgo's desire to be in command and methodical nature collides with your carefree, spontaneous temperament. This combo takes a lot of compromise on the part of the Virgoan.

LEO & LIBRA: Libra's sophistication and your flair constitute an entertaining coalition, unless a financial deficit prevails. You can both be quite extravagant and wasteful.

LEO & SCORPIO: You can dance rather well in a horizontal position, the end result can be crimes of passion, due to jealousy. This union is usually hot, heavy and short lived.

LEO & SAGITTARIUS: This is probably your foremost partner physically and mentally. This union will revel in spending, travel and adventure. Quite an exciting connection.

LEO & CAPRICORN: You'll get bored with the Goat's careful and enterprising ways, which is too bad because the Goat is the one sign that can usually afford to spoil you monetarily.

LEO & AQUARIUS: The polarities usually attract passionately, nevertheless the Water-bearer's expansive interests and higher mind leave you feeling somewhat neglected and unimportant.

LEO & PISCES: This is a detrimental relationship for the shy Pisces and a most unlikely attraction for you. Not compatible and very hurtful for the Fish that is attracted to you.

VIRGO MATE
Zodiacal match-ups for you are not the easiest due to your critical analytical nature.

VIRGO & ARIES: The volatile Aries will upset your nervous nature, the conclusion being ill-fated and certainly not lasting. The Ram just won't put up with your put-downs.

VIRGO & TAURUS: You both share the same high standards and, needless to say, are not the most exciting couple on earth. This is a much better connection during the last half of life.

VIRGO & GEMINI: Not a chance. The risky, carefree fickle Gemini sees you as a drag. Truly a miracle if the two of you do interact for any length of time. This union is best left alone unless other factors prevail in both charts.

VIRGO & CANCER: Somewhat dull. You both tend to avoid getting involved in activities outside your own environment. Neither of you bother to end the relationship even if it isn't working. This union is a critical and nagging match that results in lowered self-esteem for both of you.

VIRGO & LEO: You will have continuous arguments concerning finances and sex. Your critical tongue will make the Lion wander, seeking the ego-boosting that is necessary for the proud Leo's existence.

VIRGO & VIRGO: You are quite likely to agree on most subjects. Virgo's are work, security and cleanliness oriented. When two of you get together in this capacity, unusual sexual pleasures can unfold.

VIRGO & LIBRA: Libra's extravagant, indecisive nature bothers you, however Libra's charm can normally melt your critical tongue. Not likely to be lasting but it can be passionate while it lasts.

VIRGO & SCORPIO: This is an interesting match. If the scorpion can tempt you into sexual encounters that are exotic, the end result will end in fireworks.

VIRGO & SAGITTARIUS: This is sexually not bad. The Archer's non-committal approach to life however, drives you up a wall. This combo works better as a passing affair.

VIRGO & CAPRICORN: This is an excellent union. Practicality and neatness go hand in hand for the Goat as well as for you. Fear of material loss locks you in tight for a long term union.

VIRGO & AQUARIUS: This is a far more mental then physical connection. You rule the lower mind and the Water-bearer the higher mind. This is an intellectual union that is likely to be lasting.

VIRGO & PISCES: This is a polarity attraction. You are enamored by the Pisces empathetic ways and in turn the Fish needs your practical direction. Pisces' sexuality can bring out the erotic side in you.

SCORPIO MATE
You have an all-or-nothing approach to relationships, therefore you do not match up to all the signs. Here's a look at how you do interact with others.

SCORPIO & ARIES: You make a hot combination in bed. Highly aggressive sex that could be described as implied violence. Lustful but not lasting due to your jealous nature.

SCORPIO & TAURUS: Polar opposites that actually do quite well together. The Bull is stable and loyal enough to satisfy your intense nature. You both value long-term unions and are willing to work at them together.

SCORPIO & GEMINI: This is not a likely match, the Illusive, fickle Gemini will drive you to distraction, which in turn could bring out your vengeful side.

SCORPIO & CANCER: This is one of your best connections. The Crab is a loyal mate who is usually willing to stand behind you. Cancers are attracted to your strong, demanding ways.

SCORPIO & LEO: This connection can lead to crimes of passion. Although you are strongly attracted to the Lion, Leo's flamboyant, flirtatious nature will cause anger that could erupt into murder-suicide.

SCORPIO & VIRGO: The Virgoan has difficulties with your sexual leanings. You will bore easily and move on to more passionate partners.

SCORPIO & LIBRA: This is not the best match. Libra is far too good looking and easy going for your jealous nature. You would likely end up spying on this social butterfly.

SCORPIO & SCORPIO: Sexually you are truly compatible, however out of the bedroom you are far too much alike -- creating problems and mind games. You will always think that the other is having an affair.

SCORPIO & SAGITTARIUS: This alliance is a waste of time for both parties. You are a homebody and the Archer is a travel nut. This is not a likely attraction.

SCORPIO & CAPRICORN: This is a wonderful partnership. You both have the same values and cherish your home environment. Mentally and physically you match up well, easily satisfying one anothers needs.

SCORPIO & AQUARIUS: Why bother. This will never work due to the Aquarian's need for freedom and your need to possess. Your values, ethics and approach to life are just too different.

SCORPIO & PISCES: This is not bad. Probably the most erotic sexual combination. The Fish is willing to be a part of your whims and desires, and that makes for a lasting union.

SAGITTARIUS MATE
You do much better when it comes to friendships then you do in love relationships. Here's a look at how you do match up to other signs.

SAGITTARIUS & ARIES: This is not a bad match while it lasts. Fun-loving, adventuresome, certainly compatible. Both you and the Ram like to do your own thing, therefore you often part on friendly terms as you go off in your own directions.

SAGITTARIUS & TAURUS: The Bull leads too structured a life for you to conform to. This is not a likely match. Taureans see you as a wanderer with no apparent direction.

SAGITTARIUS & GEMINI: You are polar opposites giving this connection plenty of chemistry, however outside activities tend to take you both in different directions. You both like to take chances and depend too much on luck.

SAGITTARIUS & CANCER: You are a traveler and the Crab is a homebody that automatically puts you on a different wave length. This combination makes a much better friendship. You could never live within the other's life-style and remain happy.

SAGITTARIUS & LEO: This is probably one of your best match ups. You bring out the best in one another. You both have a very carefree approach to life and love.

SAGITTARIUS & VIRGO: Virgo's do not handle your lifestyle well. You can not put up with the Virgoan's meticulous, detailed way of doing everything.

SAGITTARIUS & LIBRA: This is probably one of your best connections. You get the freedom you desire and both of you absolutely hate confrontation, therefore problems are just put on the shelf.

SAGITTARIUS & SCORPIO: The Scorpion cannot live with your freedom loving wandering spirit. When the jealousy sets in you'll be off to greener pastures.

SAGITTARIUS & SAGITTARIUS: You will shake well with one another. This combination is somewhat unpredictable. It's not always a lasting union due to a lack of being in the same place at the same time, but truly a hot affair.

SAGITTARIUS & CAPRICORN: You are impulsive, risk-taking and always looking for adventure that frightens the cautious Goat. This is really not a suitable union, You are far too different to ever exist together.

SAGITTARIUS & AQUARIUS: You both love adventure, travel and the great outdoors. You can have a lasting relationship, especially if it is a long distance romance.

SAGITTARIUS & PISCES: This is a passionate attraction, but unfortunately neither one of you can supply the other with the emotional factor required to make this coalition work.

AQUARIUS MATE
You tend to match up to most signs in a friendly manner, but when it comes to love some signs are better than others.

AQUARIUS & ARIES: This is an excellent match. You both enjoy a large variety of entertainment. A truly adventuresome union as long as neither one of you tries to dominate or regulate activities.

AQUARIUS & TAURUS: The stubborn Bull will have difficulties understanding the unpredictable side of you. Concessions will be necessary on the part of both of you if success is to follow.

AQUARIUS & GEMINI: This is a delightful, intellectually stimulating relationship. Not always smooth but certainly an exciting and entertaining connection.

AQUARIUS & CANCER: You are far too aloof for the insecure Crab. Not a likely encounter, highly dangerous for Cancer and somewhat binding for you.

AQUARIUS & LEO: You are polar opposites. The is plenty of chemistry, however the Lion is more physical in nature then you are. You on the other hand are concerned with the intellectual aspect of the relationship that is often lacking.

AQUARIUS & VIRGO: You are both into the intellect, however you might be a little bit too progressive for the practical Virgoan. Virgo's are just not social enough to hang on to you or hold your interest.

AQUARIUS & LIBRA: Very well-suited couple both mentally and physically. Exciting, fun loving and carefree connection. Your spending habits are the only foreseeable dilemma.

AQUARIUS & SCORPIO: This is not the best coalition. You are both fixed in your beliefs and your free-spirited nature arouses suspicious side of the Scorpion.

AQUARIUS & SAGITTARIUS: This is a wonderful affair, two ships that pass in the night. You are an active and outgoing couple, however seldom lasting because eventually you will both go in your own direction.

AQUARIUS & CAPRICORN: This is not good. You both have totally different goals in life. You are far too humanitarian to live with the Goat's manipulative, ambitious ways.

AQUARIUS & AQUARIUS: Although this is probably the most inventive coalition, it is lacking in the sexual arena. Not a lasting relationship but it can be fun for the moment.

AQUARIUS & PISCES: This is a pretty dicey combination. The Fish's emotional blackmail only drives you further away. This Pisces is likely to end up hurt and confused.

CAPRICORN MATE
When it comes to compatible mates, You can compliment a number of different signs.

CAPRICORN & ARIES: You are both far too independent to get along for any length of time. Although there is an attraction and mutual respect, arguments will make this union impossible.

CAPRICORN & TAURUS: You both have the same regard for quality and money. This is almost a match made in heaven. Sexually adequate and certainly a long lasting alliance.

CAPRICORN & GEMINI: Forget it -- the flirtatious, fun-loving Twin will not impress you. To you, Gemini's are irresponsible and unworthy of your dedication.

CAPRICORN & CANCER: You are polar opposites that do quite well together. You feed each other exactly what's needed. Security from you and loyalty and trust from the Crab.

CAPRICORN & LEO: The extravagant Lion will disgust you. You hate wasteful, flamboyant individuals. Although sexually you are compatible this combination is best as a one night stand.

CAPRICORN & VIRGO: This is a very good mental connection, nevertheless not the most sexually oriented combination.

CAPRICORN & LIBRA: You will be mesmerized by the sophisticated Libran, but that is about as far as this amalgamation will go. You will also tire of the lazy Libran's ways.

CAPRICORN & SCORPIO: Not bad at all. You both understand one another perfectly and can appreciate the same values and directions. Sexually you can dance superbly together.

CAPRICORN & SAGITTARIUS: You are far too different in your likes and dislikes. The adventurous risk-taking Archer finds you boring due to your cautious, routine nature.

CAPRICORN & CAPRICORN: This relationship lacks stimulation. You are both far too cautious, frugal and self-righteous to last. This is a dead end in the bedroom.

CAPRICORN & AQUARIUS: Although you can appreciate the Water-bearer's mind and originality, the Aquarian's lack of direction and carefree nature will cause you to shy away.

CAPRICORN & PISCES: This is not a bad match. The Pisces' eagerness to please will attract and hold you. This union will only encounter problems if you neglect the Fish's need for attention.

PISCES MATE
When you get involved with the other eleven signs or another Fish different reactions occur.

PISCES & ARIES: You are far too sensitive for the aggressive Ram. You will be left behind to drown in your sorrows. An unfortunate match.

PISCES & TAURUS: This is not a bad connection, however the Bull can get upset with your impractical nature. You, on the other hand, may find that the Bull is too stubborn.

PISCES & GEMINI: Your emotional blackmail will usually hold a Gemini, however sorrow almost always prevails. A very destructive union for both parties involved.

PISCES & CANCER: You belong together. You are both sensitive, weepy and love to dwell in self-pity. This is a great match, certainly lasting, however someone negative and moody.

PISCES & LEO: You are doomed in this alliance. The Lion is too outgoing and you are far too sensitive. A hurtful relationship with little substance.

PISCES & VIRGO: This is your polar attraction. It can be extremely perverse in the bedroom, but difficult at a mental level. You are impractical and this will really try the Virgoans patience.

PISCES & LIBRA: You are both creatively inclined, however you are just not sophisticated enough for the Scales. Librans also have trouble putting up with your emotional whims.

PISCES & SCORPIO: This is a highly sexual union. You love to be possessed and cared for with the deep, warm affection that the Scorpion can provide. Truly a match made in heaven.

PISCES & SAGITTARIUS: This is not your best alliance as the Archer's non-committal nature will hurt your tender heart. Your daily melodramas will drive the Sagittarius away.

PISCES & CAPRICORN: This is not a bad combo in general however, you will probably run around on the Goat due to loneliness. You are also too wasteful for the Capricorn to deal with.

PISCES & AQUARIUS: This is not the best union. The Water-bearer is far too cool and detached for you. Your tears and tantrums will soon tire the Aquarius.

PISCES & PISCES: This is an emotional connection. Extremely good in the bedroom, but difficult out of the bedroom. You both crave attention and affection yet you want to do your own thing. Exhausting but exciting.

Courtesy of AstroMate

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JuSt TeLL Me - DeSTiNy'S CHiLD

Won't you just admit it
'Cause I don't need your gratitude
Don't you try to hide it
Just tell me the truth
I can't go on this way
Looking for something that isn't there
Should I be on my way
Because I need a reason for this pain

(Chorus)
Tell me, if you don't love me anymore
Just tell me, if you don't care about me anymore
Just tell me, if you don't want it
Just tell me

I never thought this day would come
But a test of love, I need from you
Honesty is always seen through eyes
I wish you would believe
I've given you my all
But it's not pleasing your distant heart
If you respect my love, you'll hear my plea
You'll hear my plea

(Chorus to fade w/Beyonce ad-libing

aT LaST!!!

at last...
im done with MENG1...
well not quite yet done actualli...
jus finished copying e tutorials solutions...
nid 2 go thru them 2nite...
haiz...im not sure how im gonna do tis sem...
im so afraid...
cant afford 2 fail animore...
my heads cramping now...
2 many tings 2 tink abt...
my family is in turmoil...
wen is it gonna get better??!!
damnit!!!
er..4get abt tat 4 now...
hmmm....

does being kind help??
personally..i don mind being nice 2 ppl..
even if its strangers...
its jus me...
even wen boarding e bus...
i tend 2 let others 1st..
i donnoe y..
but i jus tink its e right thing...
yea i noe wat ure thinking...
stupid...self b4 others...
well of cos i dun do tt wen im late...
but wen i haf e chance y not?
rite??no harm being nice...
some1 once...ok change tt 2 always...
nag at me 4 being 2 kind 2 pple..
"lyn..sometimes ur jus 2 nice"...
hey come on...if im not nice...
u think im gonna help u!!!
the "u" is general...
think about it pple...
wat goes ard comes ard...
it may not come immediately...
but eventually it will...
if u dun believe in it...
i do...so e next time u wanna comment on my kindness...
u better shut up!!!
dun say i dun tell u so...

The Letter F...

im so pissed!!!!
pissed @ e fact i cant seem 2 study..
so gonna fail!!!!
F*ck!!!tis stinks...
looks like im gonna stay 4 another yr...
F*ck!!!tis sucks...
im realli pissed rite now...
dun ask me y???..
oh wait...noone hardly read e blog...
wat shud i care...
2 hell with tis blog...
F*CK!!!

Happy Birthday Dyan!!!!!

Gd morning!!!!
1st of all wanna wish my gd ol' pal Dyan a happy 19th bday!!!
yeay!!may God bless you n ur family..
happy always ok??

it felt gd remembering ur ol' friends bdays...
especially if u get 2 wish dem...
ahhhhhhh......
*burp
jus finished my hotdog...
yup!!!u guessed it rite...
im @ e internet cafe...
having my 4hrs break now..
i mite be catching a movie later..
ermm...wonder wats gd....???

so how haf u guys been???
ive been feeling rather lazy these few days...
i jus wanna sleep my way thru e day...
arghh!!!!im in love wit my bed...
totally in love...
i kept thinking of it everytime...
n i cant wait 2 hop on it once i get hm...
hehehehhe im nuts!!!
okok..gotta go...wanna watch moviee....
MOVIE!!!MOVIE!!!MOVIE!!!MOVIE!!!MOVIE!!!MOVIE!!!MOVIE!!!

Keane - Everybody's Changing

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

MoNdaY MoRNiNGgGgGgGgGgGgGgGgG!!!!!

oooooooooLaaaaaaaaa....
hehehe in com lab rite..
supposed 2 b amending my WISP presentation but...
cant open e damn file..
haiz..
NVM...
so decided 2 blog 2day...
weekend was a drag...
had my IA presentation & tuition on Sat...
came back hm n tried finishing my tuts...
slept..
woke up on Sun...mob ard..
wen shopping..
spent a whopping 30bucks on lingerie alone..
wen home...n slept til tis morn @ 6am...
hahha..got a test jus now..technical writing..hahha
i don even understand wat i was typing..hahha
wat e hell..
haiz...
still looking 4 werk now..hahha
i don noe is i shud realli werk n study...
or jus concentrate studying..ermmm...
tough choice...
nway...here's sumthing ive picked up from Ayi's blog..
its dirty sumthing..hahha

1. What time do you usually sleep?
anitime will do..as long as im feeling sleepy ill sleep...
2. Ever stayed up for the whole night?
yeap..doing my IA presentation slides...arghh!!!
3. What was your scariest nightmare?
being chased ard by sum mad guy who kept slashing me wit a penknife...eeeee....
4. What was your most unusual dream?
err...how about e above...
5. Ever woke up in tears after a nightmare?
yea..i was jus about 2 sink my teeth into a huge choco cake...onli ended up biting my own pillow...sob sob~