hey ya....hahaha i noe i noe..its been quite awhile ever since i updated u... hahaha sorry my dearie...erm...im at work rite now...nothing to do actualli..juz keeping myself bz by updating u...
im pissed actualli..freaking pissed!!!i mean like...noone here seem to noe my freaking name!!!the name dat dey ever knew was Razia!!!*no offence* i mean...don i exist...wenever dey wanted something dey called me OI! wenever i picked da freaking phone..all dey ever said was...Razia...can u call so n so on da phone...wat was tat all about!!i hate tis place...i freaking hate it...its not i crave for ani attention but come on la...its not fair...dey are freaking bias!!arghh!!!ah well!!who am i to tell dem wat to do...or wat to say...all i noe im gonna keep my freaking mouth shut 4 todae...ermm well got to go...juz needed to tell someone bout tis..u take carem muacks!!
tata~

hello hello hello!!!!hehehe yeah im back!!!hahah not literally..haha im still at work though..wit absolutely nothing to do..so no harm wit surfing da net ait?hahaha how are u coping my dear bloggie?hehehe im still sick...yeah..stil having a bad cough..hehehe aniway...todae syawal juz went to bintan...aAaAaAaAuUuUuUwwwwwww...gonna miss him so much....haiz...ah well...at least i manage to mit him yesterdae...it was a fantastic evening wit him..hehehe yeap...its truly romantic..hehehe wanna hear the full detail?listen up.....
okie...at ard 5.30pm...rite after work..he picked me up from boonlay interchange...heheh isnt he a darling to come all the way to boonlay juz to fetch me hm???hehehehe den..we wen for a little window shopping at jurong point...soon after..he decided to grab something to eat at causeway point...so off we went to catch bus 187...nothing much was said during da journey...ermmm tat coz he's ASLEEP!!!well most of the time...hahahahaha okie..now come the best part...as we were entering the da mall..i felt like going to charles n keith...well ders tis pair of slippers i realli adore...hehehe so off we went....syawal was like saying tat pair of slippers was worth da price...n bla bla bla he went...*wasnt paying much attention though...hahahahha*
after tat i followed him to da basement to witdraw some money...saying it was for his food..yeah watever!!!hahahah den da unthinkable happen!!!! he brought back to da shop..yea yea charles n keith boutique...n BOUGHT ME DA SLIPPERS!!!!damn!!was i shock....i wan relented to accept his generous gift..but den he insisted...ah well...i realli liked da slippers aniway...hehehe..i realli am so happie...he was so sweet, loving.....haiz.....i cud simply melt...hehehe i lurve him so much...ooooppppsss!!!gotta go!!!hehehehehe
take care!!!
tata~~~

hey...its been awhile huh??im so so sorrie 4 not updating u these days...didnt turn up 4 work today...nah~its not on purpose...im sick...yeah..had a slight fever, terrible sore throat plus runny nose...n on top of tat im juz not in da rite mind to get back to work.....i feel terrible...after wat happen yesterdae....its juz unexpected....things come rite after another...n i don realli noe how to deal wit it...its juz too sudden.....a confession though...i took a puff yesterdae....gosh~i noe its wrong...but i cant take it....
da outing to my fren'z openhouse didnt go according to plan..yea..i guess...God had it all planned....i didnt go wit him....n i wasnt given paid any attention i was hoping 4...not tat i craved 4 it...i mean...nah~ i feel so different among them...yeah them...my frenz...i donnoe y...but i juz feel i don belong der....being among them...laughing n joking...its feel unusually different...mayb coz i've already grown apart from them...even da person i've been seeing almost everyday seems different....mayb its juz me...paranoid i guess....i donnoe...after da housewarming thingy...dey decided to go to Esplanade to watch some Pesta Raya concert...had nothing on mind...n obviously not looking forward to reaching hm early..i went along...der...i decided to keep to myself....da view was fantastic....da reddenning sky...da water looks so inviting...i wud love to jump in....den da pic of him came to mind...how i wish he was der to enjoy da view wit me...it'LL be so hopelessly romantic....*sigh*....we left quite early though....but it felt like i had been out all nite...felt asleep on da train..as usual...hehehe...tiredLa...reached hm...talked to mom n sis..b4 heading 4 da shower...abit chilly....ermm..nvr mind...after a fresh change of clothes..sat down to tink...unusual of him not to msg or call...ermm...left him a message....den tats wen it all happen....da worse argument tat i cud ever haf wit him....damn...i feel terrible...i donnoe wat to say....words tat came out of my mouth tumbles...i cant say anithing rite...neither can i think straight....all i cud do is hold my tears..but im not strong....tears stream down my face...i sob loudly....*must haf look terrible* i donnoe i donnoe.....i cant tink....all i wan to do was to hang up....i cant bring myself to talk animore...my heart ache so badly...i cud feel it bleed from within....dear bloggie....i tink im da wrong....but i donnoe wat to say to him.....i cant seem to pleased him...mayb i dun even noe how to...im selfish arent i?i donnoe..i donnoe....

I'll Be Loving You Forever
Deep Inside My Heart You'll Leave Me Never
Even If You Took My Heart And Tore It Apart
I Would Love You Still Forever

You are the sun, You are my light
And you're the last thing on my mind
Before I go to sleep at night
You're always 'round when i'm in need
When trouble's on my mind
You put my soul at ease
There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
So many reasons that I
Wanna spend forever with you

I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still forever

We've had our fun, and we've made mistakes
But who'd have guessed along that road
We'd learn to give and take
It's so much more than I could have dreamed
You make loving you
So easy for me
There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do

That is the reason that I
Want to share forever with you

Cuz' this a world
Where lovers often go astray
But if we love each other
We won't go, won't go that way
So put your doubts aside
Do what it takes to make it right
'cos i'll love you forever
No one can tear us apart

PS: i noe i shud be asleep by now...but juz haf to put tis up...i lurve u syawal...lurve u so much....sorrie if im still up by now....but tis is for u...muacks!

hello der!!!how are u??hehehehe sorrie if i haf not updated u for a long time...a bit bz though...hehehe yeaps...had to werk n stuff...n worse still i got caught using da internet work....hehehe so i dun realli haf time to update u these dayz..hehehe
fuh~~im beat!!!hehehe juz came back from Lydia's openhouse...yeah she's Ronaldo's gf...hehehe da food was great..ehehehe oh yeah...visited Aishah Small n Dian b4 Lydia's...hehhhehe i wen wit my dearest darling of course...ehhe my handsome escort...hahha very handsome mind u..!!!hehehe he's wearing his black working pants n a beige checkered shirt...woOoOoOoHhHhH!!!!i was bLoOoOoOoOownNnNnN away!!!hahahaha...i think i've fallen for him once again.....hehehe still remember da 1st time i met him...i was taken aback...heheh he's so cuUuUuUuUuTtTtTtTeEeEeE!!!!ahahah yeah superbly cute....gosh!!!cant help dreaming of him tat veri nite..hahaha love tat cheEeKy grin of his...ah well...i mite be happie todae..2moro i haf to face da music!!!for skipping work todae!!!i lazy la wan to go...i mean no purpose seh...same old sh*t every day...nonetheless...i do not regret skipping it todae..hehhe coz i got to spent time with Syawal...even though its not tat romantic..but by juz being near him makes me all safe n cozy inside... :) wonder wen i will marry tis guy.....hmMmMmMmMm......well let Fate decide....wherever may i go...he's always in my heart...n noOne can ever replace him in tis heart of mine...
well gd nite bloggie...nid to turn in now...haf to wake up early 2moro..u take care....
tata~

hello....yap...im at my work place rite now...uhuh u got tat rite~its onli da 2nd day of hari raya....damn!!!it sux...
arGgGgHhHH!!!i feel terrible...i juz don understand men!!!i realli don!!!i cant stand the way they keep saying how they are rite..n i am not!!!even though they themselves are in da wrong....egoistic creatures!!!!!!they will never admit to it...its not fair...they kept accusing u of all the worse things u can ever do...its not fair...its not fair....dont they noe it hurts alot being accused of something u never did....it hurts so much...its like...they dont trust u at all....rite now i feel like crying...the feeling cuts my soul....damn!!!!!i hate tis feeling i hate it!!!!!!!!!

heLLo!!!hahahaha im in rather good spirit todae...ah well..coz i mite be getting my pay todae...hahaha yessah!!!den i pay my sister pay back..hehehe n i even mite mit syawal todae!!!hehehhe 4 dinner!!!isnt tat great great great great news!!!hhahha absolutely fantastic eh?hehehe its been sometime since i mit syawal..kinda miz him...hahaha aniway..how r u??hari raya is in 4days time!!!wow!!!time flies so fast....n in no time we will be ushering da new yr...2004!!!n gosh!!!im turning 19!!!damn!!!it won be long b4 i hit da big
2-0!!!i i aint getting younger!!!boy does time flies....
hmMmMmm....i seriously haf nothing to do rite now...everyone's bz wit their own stuffs..even razia's bz...damn...
poor razia..didnt get to talk to curly todae..yeaps!!i was on da phone wit syawal...who else ait?aniway nid to go....see ya
tata~

gd afternoon to u my dearest bloggie....
hehehe im stil at werk now...*sigh* its been a rough day...i start my day feeling realli mad...who wudnt?!imagine tat u were feeling freaking tired da nite b4 n cant clean up..n obviously u tot some kind soul wud help u out....NOoOoO!!!!...didnt happen to me.!!!arGgGghHh!!!noone bothered to clean da mess....dey juz haf to leave to me!!!as if i can do it in my sleep!!!
i was so mad i didnt even bother to wish my sister happie bdae!!!
n during lunch...i was accused of not BOTHERING myself wit my boyfrend!!!tat is such an insult!!!!!it wasnt even intentional bloggie...i swear it wasnt...but he didnt believe me...seriously bloggie i did tried calling him...but i cudnt get tru his mobile...neither was i able to reach him tru his house no.....razia was ard...she was my key witness....damn!!!!it is so unfair....i cudnt stand eeky feeling in heart..tat i ran to da ladies n cried my heart out....i feel so........terrible....he kept saying i didnt make da effort of calling wen i did..n insist tat he is fasting n wun lie....but...how bout me...??i am fasting too...he onli cared bout himself...wat about me???i am so hurt....i don tink im talking to him for da next few days...da pain inflicted hurts so bad.....i cant take the way he kept saying "i'm fasting lyn...im fasting..." its like...as if he never made mistake during his fasting period..it is not fair to me...it is not fair...bloggie..i realli hope u don blame me too.....who else can i confide in besides u....haiz...
i guess i got to go...u take care bloggie...
tata~

Hey hey hey!!!!...hehehe gud morning....im in da office one...hehehe great weather for sleeping...gosh n i juz haf to be here...slogging da day...aRrRgHhH!!!hehehe damn!!!my eyes hurts...its freaking bright in here...gosh!!!hahahha ah well..aniway..i gotta get back to werk..get back to u later ait bloggie??
tata~

Gud morning!!! monday mornings realli sux!!!heheheh yeap u guesses it rite!!!im at work now..hahah with absolutely nothing to do...hahahaha aRrRgHhH!!!hmMmMpHhH...oh yah...wanted to tell u sumting...i've bought my hari raya clothes...haha its peach in colour...hahahahahaha yessah!!!i LURVE it!!*wondering*if syawal's clothes matches mine..heheheh hey!!!!i do wan us to loOK incredibly gd together ok!!!!maybe be da couple of the yr??hehehe oh weLL...juz hope tat tis yr's hari raya will go smoOthly 4 me..hehehehe
im in high spirit todae...cozZzZzZzZzZ.....Jeng Jeng Jeng!!!..Believe it or Not!!!
i am meeting syawal todae!!!yeayea!!!!hehehhee miz him so much!!!hahahaha ermMmMmM....
2 more days to my sister's bdae...8days left to hari raya....hahahahaha woOoOHoOoO!!!hehehehehehehehheheheehehehehehehehehehehhehehehe
looKs like i got to start asking tis MAHESH 4 sum werk b4 i go beserk!!
tata~

terrible is wat i feel rite now.....didnt expect him to say tat.....now wat did i do wrong...where haf i gone wrong tis time....maybe its juz Fated tat we're never meant to be....haiz...i donnoe whether to cry or to be angry....im stoned....i cant feel anithing...juz tis sheering pain in my heart...as if ripping my heart open...i feel like dying tis instant....God knoes how i feel rite now....maybe its my fault....im in da wrong to be in love wit him....he's da rite guy for da wrong girl....im sorry for all da pain i cost u all tis while...im so so sorrie.....
gd bye~

hey ya watsup!!!hehehe im at werk now!!hahaaha juz finish my assignment...hehehe now time to relax..hahahaha hmphHhHh....i kinda feel gd todae..nuthing special..juz an early morning call tat certainly made my dae!!!hehhehehe didnt expect it to happen though...hahaha coz i was alreadi planning to off my phone 4 da whole dae...hhahaha ermMmMm...maybe he cud read my mind...hahhaha rite!!hehehe aniway...im going to Geylang tomoro...goin wit my sis n mom..hahaha yesSah!!at last im gonna buy my hari raya clothes..hehehe happie!!shaLaLaLa....so nice to be happie...hehehe tata~

continuation
hehehe im back!!hahha its lunchtime...damn!!!all these people eating realli got me hungry..hahahha wat the hell!!!!im nuts man!!!hahahaha guess wat mahesh asked to study tis particular book about parts of a vessel..hahaha...BUT!!!its in CHINESE!!!Thump Thump Thump!!!!.....
like as if i cud read it...heheheheh aniway...i realli donoe wat to do now..ermmm i think i'LL pay banu a visit...tata~

3rd day werking in Asian Sealand Engineering Pte Ltd.....
here i am..sitting in da office typing out forms for blasting painting...haiz...boring job though...ahaha but!!!i can surf da net!!!hahha cooL huh??hehehehe poor Banu...she has to do da calculations all over again...hahaha aAaAuUuUwWw....poor thing!!!....hehehehehe im sitting at da back...so noOne wiLL noe im doing this...hahaha im getting bored by juz typing all those forms out...haiz..heheheheh
Hey!!!!u noe wat...??ders tis guy who sat on my rite front side...he's digging his "GOLD MINE"!??!!!wat the F*CK!!!!hhahahaha not very appertising huh??hehehe thank God im fasting!!!hahahahahahah woOoOKkKiEeE nid to get back to werk...hhahah see ya!!!
tata~

hey ya!!!woOoOoHoOoO!!!!hehehe its my 2nd day at werk todae!!!same all sh*t!!!ahahha calculations!!haha but im getting da hang of it!!!hahaha banu n i nid not haf to crack my brains to do those calculation!!!hehhee we're born engineers!!!hehehehehehe but still i had not haf a gd look of da place der!!!damn!!!da place is small...i cant even see ani ship in sight!!!hahaha budget la!!!!juz hoping my pay won be so pathetic either!!!hahahaha gosh!!!time flies doesnt it??2 more weeks n it'll be HARI RAYA!!!!woOoOoHoOoOo!!!!money collecting TIME!!!!hahahaha but hey!!!nid to save up man!!!i aint wealthy baby!!!hehehehe syawal's at Geylang Bazaar...buying his ideal baju kurung for Hari Raya...haha wonder wat he's buying??ermMmMmMm....well he will surely look gd in it....coz he look gd in anithing...hahaha but look better witout anithing on!!!HahHahhahah notty tots eh Lyn??!!hahahaha cant wait to mit up wit him!!!misS him so much!!!!haiz!!!!hehehehe i realli hope to mit him tis sat!!!!ermMmMm.......okie got to go catch some beauty sleep!!!hahahha tata~

damn im mad...realli mad...arghHhH!!!!!its not fair...am i LIAR???am i??argHhHhH!!!kept being accused of da stuffs i don do...its not fair....its so not fair...why???why???why????im freaking pissed!!!!!!argHhHhH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!F*CK!!!!!

heLLo!!!hehehe im feeling realli happie todae!!!hahaha yeappie!!!haiz...im so tired todae!!hahaha but its worth it...hehe im done wit exams...had a great time break fasting wit the pantatz...n most of all meeting my darling Syawal...hehe tat truly made my dae...*sigh* iLL be starting my attachment next week...darn!!i had to drag my sweet *SS outta bed early in da morning juz to go to werk at Pandan avenue...wherever tat is!!*sigh* won be seeing much of Syawal...darn!!!sux!!oh weLL life stiLL goes on...hmMmMm...iLL be stuck wit Banz thru out da attachment sh*t...hahaha oh weLL at least i haf someone to spend my lifeless hours wit at werk...*thinking* do u tink dey'LL pay more if we do O.T??ermMmM..if so...iLL do as much O.T as i can..hehehhe
hey...u noe wat!!!Syawal was wearing his uniform juz now...WoOoOHhH!!!he's soOoOoO CUTE!!!!DAMN!!!cant help staring at him...*melting* if only i can see him in tat more often....hahahahha seriously..he look so matured....so manly...hahahahah rite~ weLL he realli look gd in formal attire...heehhe woOoOKieEe!!nid to go...im beat!!!so i guess iLL be updating u soon BLoggie...tata~tiL we meet again..............

YesSah!!!exams over!!!!hehehe now i can finally rest in peace!!hehehehe realli hope to pass!!hahahaha aniway..im in skoOl now..hahaha wit curly n razia..hahaha occupational safety is DISASTEROUS!!hahaha darn!!!but i still haf my thermofluid to hope for..i'm confident in passing though!!hahahaha realli hope i get an A for tis semester!!
erm..tis evening..im breaking fast wit my friends..at Lau Pa Sat..hope everything goes well for us...yeappie!!!its been along time since i break fast wit frends...hehehe okie i got to go home n change!!ehehehe oh yah one more thing!!!i aint fasting todae!!!!hahahahahahaha okie tats all
tata~

today's da worse day i ever had in this entire month of Ramadhan...1st i cant even do my mechanics..let alone pass....den i've been accused of being selfish...it is so unfair!!!!!!!!!!!!!one bad thing leads to another...how terrible can da day be....i truly cant believe my ears wen he told i'm selfish...how cud he?!juz a small mistake n he called me selfish....he cud haf easily told me..but he didnt...i respect his idea of not wanting to ruin my day...but by doing so...he spoilt it all da same..he lied...okie i did lie in da past...but its in da past isnt it?y must he bring it up??how am i suppose to learn from my mistakes if he keeps bringing up da past....
arghHhHh!!!i hate myself...it all begin wit me..i had da wrong frens...da wrong attitude....im all wrong....wrong wrong wrong!!!!!!how stupid can i be!!!i cant even picked up da slightest thing!!!ARE U BLIND LYN!!!!!................................................................................................................................................................................................................i lurve him so much....but i donnoe....nothing i do seem to please him.........i donnoe wat to do...i realli donnoe wat to do.....oh God!!!i feel so terrible....i feel terrible....terrible!!!!

10 things i like about him *SYAWAL ISMAIL*

1. tat devilish grin!!woOoH!!!tat is so IT!!!
2. humour n sarcasm!!!ohh honey tats SEXY!!!i likeEeE!!!!
3. boyish body-size..nice to snug wit...hehehe my lil bear²
4. "baby-friendly" material...hahaha manly huh??
5. his nagging...not tat i lurve to be nagged at..sumtimes very cute la..hahaha
6. laughter n voice..very adorable n cheeky...hehehe *wink*
7. very concern bout me..hahaha
8. his way of saying "LENYEKkKkK!!"hahahaha
9. dress code...very casual...very boyish!!even though somtimes i wish he grow up bit!!hahaha
10. his immaturity...hahahaha like ME!!!!

PS: its been almost close to 8 months...but it seems so long...dog yrs i guess...haha well...its been wonderful all this while..hope to add more to tis list..hahaha muacks!!!lurve u honey!!!

morning!!!hehehe yeap!!u bet..im still wide awake...*thinking*maybe its becoz of da coffee..hmmm...aniway..im studying tonite...or may i say had been been studying..hahaha im exhausted...all those numbers!!damn!!hehhee well den again...tats life of a student!!cant get away from it..hahaha hey i got one more nite to go b4 sitting 4 my emech paper..gosh!!!im doom!!!i noe nuts man!!hahaha ah well...i'll have my "guru" to teach me...hahah yeahh u betcha..he is noneother than MR SYAWAL!!!hahaha realli hope he can do it!!hahaha
aniway...recap of wat happen yesterday...
taught tuition in da afternoon....*thinking*damn haven't got my pay yet!!!wen to mit syawal at woodlands mrt...tot of studying but...mr SYAWAL here is too tired after a nite of studying....aAaAauUuUwWwW...poor thing....hahahha so we ended up under syikin's blk...haha yea with her lil sis..haha nurul fatin alia..da lil devil!!she is soOoOo adorable...hahaha even syawal was "attracted" to her...hahaha damn was i jealous!!*thinking*dumn huh??hey...i feel da pinch ok!!hmphHh!!!hey tell u somthing...hahaha shHhHh!!!!dun tell anione...
u noe da time syawal was holding alia...i cant help looking at him..hehehe i mean its so...sweEeEt...hahaha i almost melted...haha well i had this thing bout guys who are "baby-friendly" material...woOoH!!!i lurve tat kind of man!!!hehehe too bad da lil devil didnt wan me!!!hmpHh!!u lil IMP!!!hehehehe but i do wan to see more of tat lil devil...so cute la...cannot TAHAN!!!hahahahha wished i had a lil sis or bro to dote on...haiz...hey!!u can expect to ask my mommi for a baby rite...by da way she's 52...hahaha ahh well..nid to get back studying...*thinking*syawal's sleeping while i slog da whole nite studying....hahaha damn!!okok got to go babe!!!muacks!!!tata nitey-nite!!!

Morning!!!hahaha look at da time...hehehe im still up...haven sleep a wink!!been bz studying da whole nite!!haiz!!!my lil body's aching all over...well no success comes witout pain...rite??well gd news!!i manage to complete 2 modules within a nite of studying!!!hahaha cool huh??yeahh.....cool.....im so tired....supposed to wake Syawal up..but hey he didnt bother to get up....wat da heck....maybe he's too tired...haiz...donnoe wat to say bout him...hmph~aniway...my exams are on da 3rd, 6th n 7th of nov...hahah sux!!!on da 10th i haf briefing on da attachment..gosh!!!!i can wait to start..wanna earn da cash babe!!!ermmm....if only i can get part time job during da weekends...at least i get to enjoy..hhahaha well lets juz wat happen next ait?aint gonna plan...later it won happen..hahhaha superstitious lyn!!!hahaha ermm did i spell it rite??heck!!!its my blog!!my way of spelling stuffs here!!!hehehe okie..got to go...wanna continue wit my studying...til we meet again my bloggie!!!hehehe tata~

From This Moment On

(I do swear that I'll always be there. I'd give anything
and everything and I will always care. Through weakness
and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better, for worse,
I will love you with every beat of my heart.)
From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on
From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on
I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start

You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I Iive
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on
You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

PS: From this moment on....no matter wat happen...u will always held a special place in my heart...I lurve u Syawal...

Hey hey hey!!!im back!!hahaha im been to caught up wit stuffs wits daes...hahaha lotsa stuff!!!exams coming!!n i noe nuts bout MECHANICS!!!ohh angel of MECHANICS..bless me wit ur knowledge!!!hehehhe rite as if ders such athing as angel of mecahics...heheheh d*mbass!!hehehe whoOoOpss!!!!no no vulgarities!!hehehe its da fasting month!!hahha its onli been da.....1..2...ermmphh...3 days of fasting!!n i juz haf to get my period now!!!darn!!!but den again...hehhe i dun mind...woOoOHoOo!!!!i am one happy gal todae...weird...i begin my dae wit happiness....had a terrible afternoon...n now im happy again....boy isn't it a wonder?
all my worries seem so far...god!it feels wonderful rite now...i haf my family...my dearie...my frends...wat more can i ask for??hmph...maybe better grades??hehehe i realli wanna get my hands on tat scholarship thingy!!!hehehe ermm....tomoro i won be fasting...hah~~~!!!oh well!!!still haf to study!!!hmph!!!okie..i nid to go now..gud nite!!!hehehe tata~

Destiny's Child - Brown Eyes

Remember the first day when I saw your face
remember the first day when you smiled at me
you stepped to me and you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about
remember the first day when you called my house
remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies although we tried to hide
and we both had a beautiful night

The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
remember the first day we had an argument
we apologized and then we compromised
and we haven't argued since
remember the first day we stopped playing games
remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words

cause I felt the same way too

The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to fall in love
and I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul

i'm so happy so happy that you're in my life
and baby now that you're a part of me
you showed me
showed me the meaning of true love
and i know he loves me

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul

He looks at me and his brown eyes tell his soul


PS: To you my Love!!!Muacks!!!

hello der!!!*yawnz* it's in da wee hours of da morning...n i still aint asleep...hehehehe i've juz update my blog's template?how is it??nice??hahahahah woohoo!!!!i've actualli mastered abit of it!!!i mean onli da editing...hahahha yeappie!!!!
ramadhan is coming!!cant wait...hehehe time to be a goodie2shoes...hehehe...
erm...been thinking...bout da dance thingy...wat songs shud i choose...ders too much of a variety...hehehe i wish i can haf dem all!!!cant wait for da dancing to begin!!!woohh!!!i cant wait!!!lurve dancing..hehehhe
a week left b4 da exams!!!darn!!!i feel da heat!!!can i do it??m i up to it??fuh!!!dun wish to think about it!!hehehe okie den..been on the net too long now...gotta go!!!muacks!!!

im pisse again!!twice in a dae!!!!wat the hell la!!!!damn!!!!!arghh!!!
i can believe it!!!!1st he can seem to trust me....now he's pissed coz i wan to hang out wit my frends instead of miting him..haiz....it is not tat i did it on purpose...sheeesh!!!i didnt noe dey were gonna be at the atrium...its da last of school...cant i even mit my frends for da last time b4 school close??okok!!!i mite be in da wrong coz i told him last min...but den!!cant he even take it an exceptional??haiz...i realli donoe wat to say....i donnoe wether i shud be angry or sad??haiz...god noes how i feels!!!one word describes it all TERRIBLE!!!

im pissed!!!rite at tis moment!!i am freaking pissed!!!!wat the heck!!!he don even trust me!!!!damn!!!how could he...i m not lying bout anithing....juz becoz of a simple email..n he give me tat face...y??argh!!!!!it is juz not fair.....i don even noe tat idiotic moron who email me tru my np account...f*ck la!!!!argh!!!i am freaking hopping mad now!!!
f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck !!!!!!!!!! i m so not in the mood now...tis is da worse post ever!!!!!!!!!

hello hello hello once again....argh!!!im suppose to be studying now...but den again!!!hehehe juz had to update tis blog of mine....i've all readi finish 3/4 of it...hahaha da rest is history!!!wonder wats my darling up to rite at tis moment???
ahhh!!!having his hair-cut i guess!!!hehehehehe im sure he's gonna be one hell of a CUTIE tomoro!!!i lurve his durian-like hair style!!!so cuteeeeee!!!!!!!!!!damn!!!im drooling alreadi!!!hahahaha
ermm todae's is a mix of gd n bad news...
1stly...my newly-made fren has juz broken up....tats da bad news..as u can see....2ndly...my gd fren gave me a ring!!!its been along time GAL!!!!its been along time...hehehehe but the best thing ever is being wit U!!!!u noe who u are!!!hehehe look at tat grin!!!hehehe lurve u so much!!!
im full!!!ate too much!!hey wat can i say??da food was great!!!ermmm im so gonna burn the midnite oil!!!hahahah i have to pass...even if it means scrap passing!!!hehehe its better than nothing!!!tomoro is a brand new day!!n i wish its gonna as great as todae!!!!hehehehehe im so happie!!!
okie den!!tats all..nid to go studying!!!hehehhee.....tata

2 u

2 u my love...
i express my gratitude
for ur unconditional love...
how can i ever find someone like u..
ever so sweet n caring...
ur gentle voice soothe my anger...
ur dowey eyes captures my heart....
u are truly an angel.....

2 u my love...
tis poem i present...
from da bottom of my heart...
i lurve u so much...
i surrender my heart, my soul..
take me away from all da bitterness of life...
be mine till da end of time....

on this very day.....i m 18 yrs n 8 months old!!!!goosh i feel old...ahhah 4 more months to my 19th bdae!!!it won be long for me to turn da big 2-0!!!hahahha soon i mite even tot of settling down...time flies real fast huh??
todae is great!!!i donoe y.....its juz great!!hahaha although i had my PERIOD thingy going on...da cramps n stuffs...but its great....had lesson at 1 to 2 todae...thermofluid...bother!!!boring!!well...i pity da lecturer...noone seem to be listening to him....hmph!!!!*thinking*
this thursdae i m gonna haf 2 tests...emech n thermo...i m so scared la...no confidence at all....darn!!!arghh!!!!
*my tummie hurts!!!*
erm...this sat will be da start of Ramadhan...arhhh...how nice...i realli hope i can gather as much good deeds as possible...hehehehe...attachment starting on the 11th november....26th hari raya....19th dec attachment finish....woohoo...n b4 i noe its a brand new semester....erm!!!well..looks like i got to go now...nid to check the MEL...incase of debarment letter...tata

ahhhh!!!!!!!okie...i m getting back to my old self....im not losing....im so glad...oh....i m so glad....
he juz sms me....okie..gd sign??i hope so...argh....life will never be da same for me...ever!!!!he makes my life worthwhile...damn!!!how i wish im married to tis man....hahahha....
poly life...ermm....life with da pantatz is going smooth....great!!!all back to normal....i lurve tat!!alot!!!

Like A Rose

And as i look into your eyes
I see an angel in disguise
Sent from god above for me to love
To hold and idolise

And as i hold your body near
I see this month through to a year
And then forever on
Till life is gone
I'll keep your loving near

And now i finally found my way
To lead me down this lonely road
What i have to do
Is follow you
To lighten off my load

Chorus:
You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
You gave me air so i can breathe
You open doors that close
In a world where anything goes
You gave me strength so i stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose

And when i feel like hope is gone
You gave me strength to carry on
Each time i look at you
There's something new
To keep our loving strong

I hear you whisper in my ear
All of the words i long to hear
Of how you'll always be here
Next to me
To wipe away my tears

And now i finally found my way
To lead me down this lonely road
All i have to do
Is follow you
To lighten off my load

Chorus

And through the seasons change
Our love remains the same
You face the thunder
When the sunshine turns to rain
Just like a rose

You give me strength
So i stand tall
Just like a rose...

PS: 4 da man of my life....tis is dedicated to u!!!!

im feel terrible....oh god!!i am so afraid to losing him...i dun wan to....its been almost 7 months...yet da past is still haunting me....y cant dey juz leave me alone....im so ashame...i dunnoe how to face him...all i wanted was to start anew...i wan my life back...i wanna be back in track...is tat hard to ask??
every corner i turn..i risked bumping into those morons...i regret all those times i made those choices....i shud haf known....i realli shud..oh..i feel so terrible...i nid him now....i lurve him so much....i never felt tis terrible ever since granny past away....y must it happen now??of all times...he may not be da man of my dreams...but he loves me for who i am....n tat is enuff....i never felt tis loved by 1 man...argh!!!i freaking paranoid!!!but i juz don wan to lose him....he's too precious....i wan to live my whole life wit him....

i'm bored....its pathetic sitting @ home doing nothing...i dont feel like studying...nothing good on tv...darn!!!
ermm hey im kinda hungry...et back later...hehe bye~

hello again....2nd time here...hahaha
its friday...time to boggie...yeah rite...i m gonna sit for 2 freaking test next week..ThermoFluid n Emechanical...God haf mercy on me...i noe nuts bout those subjects...not to mention Emechanical is my repeat module...let say tat again...REPEAT module...*sigh* i hate being stupid...
my big sister is a graduate....honours in chemistry...but wat do i haf??diploma in marine n offshore technology??hah!!dumb!!somtimes i regret joining MOT...sometimes i dont...
every one i knew in class was some kind of babe or hunk in their previous secondary life...i m a nobody...no looks..no personality no nothing!!!arghh!!!nothing interesting bout me...i craved for attention from both guys n girls...even in da atrium pantatz gang...i yearned to be in the conversation...anithing i beg deep in my heart...everione seem to all da attention...while i don...i hate da glamour...i hate it all!!!

Hey wat da hell....my first ever blog message...kool huh??well...nah...i feel terrible...freaking terrible...y me!!!i hate feeling this way...it sux...life's a mess...as usual...never does it seem to go rite...its getting from bad to worse...n to make things worse i m onli 18 for goodness sake!!!watever haf i did my previous life...
being me wasnt easy...it never was..neither will it ever be..other people may haf their own personal problems...so do i...darn..does life haf to be this way??
okok lets cut da crap eh? october the 17th...a friday....woohoo!!!da weekend is here...how i wish it'll stay...never to go away...i m beginning to lose grip of everithing...my school life's a mess..i had 2 weeks left to prove my worth...n im running outta time...reports undone...had a lunatic lecture breathing down my neck..financial difficulties...hahha dumb huh??
uh well..at least my love life is ok..so is my relationship wit friends..*a big sigh* well tats it for now.... nitey nite....