Destiny

They’re both convinced
that a sudden passion joined them.
Such certainty is beautiful,
but uncertainty is more beautiful still

Since they’d never met before, they’re sure
that there’d been nothing between them.
But what’s the word from the streets, staircases, hallways—
perhaps they’ve passed each other a million times?

I want to ask them
if they do remember—
a moment face to face
in some revolving door?
perhaps a “sorry” muttered in a crowd?
a curt “wrong number” caught in the receiver?
but I know the answer.
No, they don’t remember

They’d be amazed to hear
that Chance has been toying with them
now for years.

Not quite ready yet
to become their Destiny,
it pushed them close, drove them apart,
it barred their path,
stifling a laugh,
and then leaped aside.

There were signs and signals,
even if they couldn’t read them yet.
Perhaps three years ago
or just last Tuesday
a certain leaf fluttered
from one shoulder to another?
Something was dropped and then picked up.
Who knows, maybe the ball that vanished
into childhood’s thicket?

There were doorknobs and doorbells
where one touch had covered another
beforehand.
Suitcases checked and standing side by side.
One night, perhaps, the same dream,
grown hazy by morning.

Every beginning
is only a sequel, after all,
and the book of events
is always open halfway through.

By Dr. Adilla Alimin

if it kills me

Hello, tell me you know, yeah, you've figured me out
Something gave it away

And it would be such a beautiful moment to see the look on your face To know that I know that you know now

And baby that's a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing
'Cause you and I, why we go carrying on for hours on end
We get along much better than you and your boyfriend

Well, all I really want to do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through

And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me, if it kills me

Well, how long can I go on like this, wishing to kiss you
Before I rightly explode
And this double life I lead isn't healthy for me
in fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all
Well, baby there's a lot that I miss in case I'm wrong

All I really want to do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still cant say it after all we've been through

And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me, if it kills me

If I should be so bold, I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man
But I never said a word I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again

Well, all I really want to do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through

And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me, if it kills me
I think it might kill me

And all I really want from you is to feel me
It's a feeling inside that keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me,
if it kills me It might kill me


-jason mraz

i miss you

my phone lies beside me as i sleep, just in case you change your mind, just in case you want to talk..


whenever i see i have a message on my phone, i hope it's you... Telling me that you miss me too..


i miss you ~ all day, everyday... you can't even imagine how pathetic it makes me feel, because i don't even know if you miss me back...



Note to myself: don't worry, if it is supposed to happen, it will...

Belfast March 2011

The Uncertainties

Don't know if i miss u...

Don't Know if i should...

But with all The Uncertainties...


You know I'm crazy 'bout you...

But will tomorrow see me (us) through...

R3 Satria Neo - Limited Edition

Proton today officially introduced the Proton R3 Satria Neo. Built by the company’s Motorsports Division under the Race, Rally, Research (R3) brand name, the car is distinctively recognizable by its striking Fire Red exterior with a black painted roof. The car now ready to roll.

The car runs the tried and tested 1600cc Campro CPS engine, with the R3 boys upgrading its performance, with the addition of Stage 2 performance upgrades increasing power from the standard 125 bhp and 150 Nm of torque to 145 bhp at 7,000 rpm and 168 Nm of torque at 5,000 rpm. The block is coupled to a close ratio five-speed manual transmission.

The R3 Satria Neo’s promise of an exhilarating drive is further conveyed by its all-round CPS bodykit – an R3 designed rear roof spoiler, a front lip for improved down force, titanium coloured side strips and a more muscular stance as the result of a 10 mm drop in ride height.

The R3 engineers also made significant enhancements to ride and handling, with the use of specially-designed R3 performance springs for reduced body roll, recalibrated alignment, toe and camber settings for more grip and steering precision, and R3 edition 16-inch gunmetal lightweight alloys wrapped in softer compound Bridgestone Potenza RE001R 205/45 series profile tyres for better traction.

Inside, the R3 Satria Neo features a sporty, yet classy and alluring matte red and black two-tone interior, and R3 limited edition front bucket seats wrapped in nappa leather with ‘Trivel’ finish, carbon effect PVC and red stitching replaces the standard seats. There’s also matte red dashboard trims, gear console and handbrake handle, as well as two-tone door trim, R3 floor carpets, aluminium foot pedals/gear knob and an engine start button.

Elsewhere, high performance brake pads, dual front airbags and ABS with EBD also get thrown in for good measure. The car also comes fitted with Ecotint solar and security film and a two-DIN audio head unit with 3D GPS navigation.

The R3 Satria Neo is priced at RM79,797 on-the-road inclusive of road tax and insurance, and can be viewed at Proton Edar’s Crystal showroom at the Proton Centre of Excellence, Shah Alam and any of the three Platinum showrooms located at Mutiara Damansara, Juru and Plentong.

Bookings can be made immediately at any of Proton Edar’s 23 sales branches throughout Peninsular Malaysia with a fee of RM2,000 and purchasers can expect the car delivered to them within four weeks of obtaining loan approval.

The Automobile Project

The new project has arrive.

something nice and good but.. super hard..!

i will try to make it happen..

and very best to be neutral and realistic.. i mean.. very realistic..

but the red color here.. will be soon unleash... =)

from R3 to Proton Motorsports

so now, we growing bigger...
we're about to go global..
we're now known as Proton Motorsports Division..

well guys.. 2010 was a good year for me with R3..

i manage to give our dept a 1.1 mil margin..
i feel damn good..

so guys.. i guess 2011.. just came and.. will you please surprise me!!?

=)