Is Anyone Still Out There??

Well I'm not sure if anyone is still out there since I announced I retired this blog and am blogging elsewhere but... if you are and if we were banded and sharing our experiences together this is to let you know that I am having gastric bypass surgery and having my band removed.

I am blogging about my experience on my other blog and you are welcome to follow. I am not mentioning this is a revision surgery there.

New blog is: http://fightingtofindme.blogspot.ca

If someone is still around and happens to come across this point... I hope it finds you well, healthy and happy.

Always,
Ang

Retiring this blog

Thank you to everyone who has followed with me along on this journey so far. It was quite the ride. I am retiring this blog and wish everyone the best. For those who still wish to keep in contact you can always email me at angs.journey@gmail.com 


I am no longer a "believer" in the band and now over 3 years post op if I knew then what I know now would I have done it... probably not. I would have gone a different route.


Don't get me wrong while I do believe that the band can work for some people and there are a lot of people that are living proof of this; for many it does not. I am one of those. In my now relatively "seasoned" opinion (so I like to think) I believe that the band is simply like putting duct tape on something; while it may temporarily fix the issue, it does not fix the root of the problem.


I am a fat girl and I have a fat girl brain. The band has not stopped my brain, my addiction, my obsession. So with that I choose to retire this blog as it no longer seems fitting to post here (and why I have been MIA). I have started a new blog to continue my fight against obesity and I welcome any of you to follow it if you like. Send me an email to angs.journey@gmail.com and I would be happy to share the blog address with you - ON ONE CONDITION - this new blog is as a "regular" person. There will be no discussion or mention of my lapband, this is my starting over blog and I would ask that you respect my choice to keep that as a private thing in this new blog. With that said, if you want to come on over to it - give me a shout and I'll hook you up with the new address.


With that I will end it with a great quote from Thomas Edison - "Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time."


To all you bandsters out there - good luck, I wish everyone of you the best! And don't be shy say hello or check out the new blog.


Much love,
Ang
xoxo

Sorry!!

I'm sorry, I am a terrible blogger. I get caught up in everything else and figure no one still reads this... but I guess I am wrong. My last post was completely unfilled. I recovered fine from my troubles then, eventually got refilled and am now thinking of a slight unfill again as I am experiencing some discomfort daily that I do not want to have to put up with and reminds me of the beginning stages of what happened last time I needed an unfill. I am sad to report that I have not lost any additional weight, I seem to be sitting around the same spot. Granted, I have not exercised which is my own fault but I am hoping that this unfill will help with weight loss (hard to understand I know) but where I am at now, I find it hard to eat the stuff I should be (fruits, veggies, most meats) so I find myself eating stuff that goes down easy which is definitely not contributing to the weight loss. So I am going to get a slight unfill this next week on Wednesday to hopefully make me a bit more comfortable.

Non-band related news, life in northern Alberta is going well. I have a great job, great friends and am just going with the flow!!

Completely Unfilled

So after a hard day last week then a BRUTAL weekend of which I spent the majority of Sunday/Sunday night full on vomiting and in agonizing discomfort I made an appointment for an emergency unfill with my fill doc up here. I got unfilled this afternoon and instantly felt better. I'm going on Prevacid for a month to see if that calms any irritations around my band and also going to be going for a Barium Swallow/GI to check things out and make sure my band is a-o-k. Good to be safe than sorry!

Here comes the hard part... managing my portions! It doesn't really affect what I'm eating just how much as my band pretty much allowed me to eat everything with the exception of more than a couple of french fries or potato chips (which is whatever, could care less about those now). I weighed myself last night before bed (in the middle of my near projectile vomit stage so I figure I threw up a good 3 lbs!!) and I was at -102lbs total. My goal will now to not deviate from that as much as possible and keep myself in check. I can't rely on my band for everything because what if one day - it's just not there.

WISH ME LUCK!!!!

Last Night...

...I slept like a baby and it was glorious!!! I went for my unfill yesterday morning and had .4cc taken out, figured that would be a good place to start and then can work my way back up from there if needed. I ate a small dinner when I got home last night, had some Crystal Light before bed and slept all night long in my bed with no sliming, no acid reflux and it was so wonderful. For the first time in like 2-3 weeks I slept great.

Biggest Loser started Tuesday night (as I'm sure all of you know) and that is by far one of my favourite shows to watch and it always makes me cry, I'm pretty sure I cry every time I watch it. I wonder if thin people who watch the show really understand the emotions those people feel.

I was going to post more but I still have to get ready for work today and by the time I got home last night, all I did was eat dinner, watch Biggest Loser and go to bed. Soon though I shall get back to my posting more indepth (I know, I've said it before).

I'm just happy to feel normal again!! Not sure what made me too tight all of a sudden but seems like things are better!

Hopefully Relief!

Back from the doctors this morning for my unfill. Hopefully this will give me some relief. I am just on the way out the door to work so will post an update as soon as I get home tonight. It's been a crazy week. Hopefully I won't have to sleep sitting up on the couch tonight!! *fingers crossed*

Having some problems

This is a post I hope that none of you will ever have to relate to. I have been having some band problems for the past week and a half. I am having problems eating and when I do I am in severe discomfort. Subsequently I have not eaten a whole lot this past week and a half. I have PB'd (thrown up) approximately 4-6x this past week and a half which is 3x more than I have the past 2 years. I wake up choking on stomach acid and slime and have to spit into a cup by my bed. I woke up this morning and threw up some stomach acid/mucous. It has been a rough week the pain in my band area/back after I eat sometimes makes me question everything I have ever done. I do not think that I have slipped my band because I can eat - I had crackers, cheese and garlic sausage for dinner last night and it went down fine, but the reflux last night in bed was awful. I think something in my body chemistry has changed and I am now too tight.

Since I have moved away from my surgeon I have gotten the name from someone who lives here of a Dr that does their fills. I am hoping that after having some fill removed I will be back to normal cuz wow I am having horrid sleeps lately with this. I have an appointment to see him on Wednesday morning. Today will be a day of liquids for me I think. My body is probably pretty dehydrated right about now.

I will keep everyone posted on how things go!