I think about you lesser everyday. but ders a always a few stuff that links you back to me. numbers, names and people. but I can feel that I'm getting there.
soon it will be goodbye. forever.
I'm pretty sure I didn't meet you just for nothing.
I just can't figure out what should I learn from it.
you always have a choice.
to be happy or sad.
when im alone, i am happy being sad. i enjoy dwelling into my sorrow and drowning in misery. i suffocate myself with thoughts of him when we were together.
but you know something is wrong with you when you are in a crowded room and the only thing you want to do is to be alone with your own thoughts.
i miss the good morning texts and good night calls. i can still remember how sweet his voice sounds, the warmth of his body and how it feels to kiss his cheeks.
my friends keep telling me to not think about him, to forget about him. believe me, i really tried. i realized it is better for me to stop trying. i really dont want to forget him. i like to think that he is the best thing that ever happened to me, despite what my friends said. i like who i am when i am with him.
he can move on i dont care. he aint the one i love anymore. he's changed and i have to. the one i miss and still love, is the 21yr old cute boy with his cap playing with his phone in the club, touched my hands when i danced with him and tried to learn my favorite tune on his guitar.
i miss you baby.
"May you never steal, lie, or cheat, but if you must steal, then steal away my sorrows, and if you must lie, lie with me all the nights of my life, and if you must cheat, then please cheat death because I couldn't live a day without you. Cheers!"
- A quote from the movie 'Leap Year'.
"May you never steal, lie, or cheat, but if you must steal, then steal away my sorrows, and if you must lie, lie with me all the nights of my life, and if you must cheat, then please cheat death because I couldn't live a day without you. Cheers!"
- A quote from the movie 'Leap Year'.
woke up this morning. tummy feels weird. whole body feels weird. something is wrong. so so wrong. tummy was cuz the durian and kfc i had last night.
still feel weird. something is so not right but i cant put a finger to it. feel not like myself. need something to cheer me up. argh hate being so god-damn depressed. i keep imagining talking to him and having him around. i just miss having him.
I very much want to forgive you. but somehow it feels like if i forgive you, that means I'm condoning your act. And that's unfair to me. I don't deny that I can't forget you.
I think about you every awakening moment.
I dream about you every dreaming moment.
feels like I'm slowly vanishing into thin air. work is the only thing that keeps me sane. when I put on my uniform, I am a different person. I talk a lot and I'm super bitchy.
