someday

i'll break these shackles

i'll tear off this mask

throw away my armour

and collect you in my arms

and take you to the sea

at the sea

with the long golden sands

and the red sun over the horizon

nobody in sight, nothing but

trees swaying to the breeze

and the sound of waves

crashing onto the sand

rhythmically, relentlessly

tis there i'll bring you

to breath the fresh sea air

as far as we can see

there's only the flat horizon

of the sea

the golden light dancing

shimmering across the vast expanse

the waters reach out to us

then pull back, inviting

i'll take your hand

and fingers interlocked

we'll walk down to the edge

til our feet taste the salt

and the warmth

we'll keep going

til our knees

our waists

our chests

our necks

first touch, then is drowned

in the gentle waves

of green and blue

and light

soon, my dear, we'll

we'll sink beneath the surface

until the darkness takes us both

and the cold greets us

and we can see no more

i'll remember you as we were

sitting on the sand

watching the red orb descend

trying to take it all in

trying to feel the world

side by side, sitting

wondering where we've been

all our lives, up to now

where were we

when the scene called?

and why did we turn away?

chasing regrets and discarding chances

was not the way to live

for it brought us closer to death.

until the day we go there,

we'll remain here

burdened by our responsibilities

tied down by obligations

restricted by rules

whipped by expectations

torn by decisions

with tears of futility

running down our cheeks

dreaming of the final day

down by the sea.

just wondering, does anybody still come visit my blog? i mean, if i update it, would anybody i know read it at all?

just wondering, ya noe..

tis blog are dieded. =D

post hiatus

Hello, I'm Tiger but I'm a dog.

Hey everyone (if there's still anyone who comes...) this is Tiger. My new puppy. Born on 1st April 2009, which makes her about 13 to 14 weeks old now. Okay. Dog haters and ppl who hate ppl who rant about how cute their pet is, skip the next paragraph.

OMG she is like super duper freaking cute! All the time looking at me with those eyes eeeeee i play with her everyday and hug her and sometimes kiss too. she's super smart too! taught her 'sit' in two days. now can sit and stay on command. and then and then horh... she's like woah! alwiz so happy to see me and so excited until swing tail like helicopter. haha. her tail curls slightly samor. so keute!! eee!!

okay. so wat's been happening for d last two months i havent update? i had the first of two exams that will determine my final grade for A levels, called the Advanced Subsidiary (AS) exam. It was generally okay, although i'm worried a lil about Chemistry and General Paper.

i had two weeks of holiday when i got my puppy and stayed at home most of d time to care for her. oh yeah, told my mum about her. mum's response? "let's see how long this lasts." how encouraging..

i just had my first week of my last (3rd) semester here at sunway uni col. kinda sad at first... 2/3 time with friends gone dy. i dread this feeling of seperating with friends i'm so used to seeing on a regular basis... but kyc has taught me to get used to this feeling. i handle it better now, but the sting of seperation still hurts.

anyways... sting of seperation and what not but first week of lessons really felt like one whole semester dy. so much on my mind compared to one week ago. gahh... i keep wanting to turn back time to last time. when bro was still around. when AS was my concern and not A2. when... when... haih.

anyways. got a new comp. haha. can play fallout 3 and sims 3, so far. havent try others yet. oh yeah tried a game called 'plants vs zombies' which is a tower defense game. lesley lar. got me addicted. wat a dick. haha.

i missed two gatherings dy. one was my primary school gathering. malas lar. not dat i got much to say to many of dem also. i never reli felt welcome there. then after dat was NS gathering. again same feelings. so now there'll be a kyc gathering. dis one different story. dis one cannot afford to miss. hahaha...

oh yeah this sunday is st john ambulance agm for my division. hope i didnt misplace my cap.

time is running out... at the end of this blissful period, where will we go? will we continue? or will we part ways? thinking about it makes me feel like crying. not just in sadness but in despair and dread at the thought. i wish i could be with you for my whole life. always seeing you everyday. i meant what i said that day... yours is the face i want to wake up to see every morning for the rest of my life til the morning that my eyes remain shut forever. you are the perfect piece to fit me, and vice versa. i just wish we could go on and on and on and on. with each passing day i get closer to u n feel even worse at the thought of A2 and beyond.

if only.

let's not make each post long to encourage more frequent updating, shall we? hahahaha...

oh yeah kor. nah. some time dy dis one. one of d sniper maps larh. haha...

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now how the HECK did THAT happen? haha.

exams just started... Advanced Subsidiary or AS for short. my a-levels exams are divided into two exams, one now and one more at the end of the year. so dis is my first exam with cambridge. hmm. today was math which was a breeze as usual. no i am not lan si. it's a fact. every is least worried about math. i've got biology, chemistry, and physics to occupy my worries. space is limited in 'ming wai's worries' so priority is given to bio/chem/physics. more to chem/bio.

i havent been blogging recently coz im afraid dat watever i choose to write about, i'll go back to discussing the perak issue. see? i almost did again. anyway, my opinion is that d longer the fight between them goes on, d less faith we have in BOTH parties and d more tired we become and eventually we all go back to everyday life without so much as a glance in their direction. okay. i should stop here.

i still dont know how to tell my mum that i'm getting a puppy. it's a she, btw. (name suggestions please! dad said not to give a human name. so names like angela, sarah, jessica are all out.. names like lulu and mimi are fine kua). i mean, for as long as i can remember my mum dislikes d idea of having pets. she despises the cats that poo'd in our garden last time in tkp. recently she kena flea bites coz neighbours keep pets in d condominium (which they aren't supposed to). so... how lar? somemore she'll be damn worried dat it'll affect my studies. well im worries oso actually. haih. but mei sze and ming sern did it and they turned out fine... by golly i'll give it a shot lah! haha.

"...aren't you taking me home soon, ming wai?"

one more month. one more month.