Leaving blogger for tumblr.
8.9.10
4.9.10
28.8.10
All my scars are open.
I need to find back the old me. I am so tired of everything. How did I even study when I was in Sec One. Need to get them all back.
21.8.10
Everyone have a story they can't tell.
I am kind of regretful for what I have said and I know I can never ever take them back. I just know that before I could hold those words back, I already blurted them out without it passing through my mind. They must be something I have longed to scream out but had avoid saying because of the consequences that I have to bear later on. But now, I can't really be bothered to feel that I am in the wrong. I am just speaking the truth. And mostly, truths aren't something others choose to hear. Sorry if I have hurt you and also thank you, if because of this, you are out of my life.
20.8.10
10992.) I hate myself for letting people treat me the way that they do. I’m afraid to walk away, although I know I wont, for fear that I’m not strong enough to stay away. You know this aswell, and you use it to your advantage. One day, I hope I’m able to walk away from this. You’ll wait for me to come back, like I did all those other times, and I wont. This I promise you.
I have been swearing so much recently I think it's already a habit tsk. English O level Oral today was bad. I must be out of my mind to look at the teacher that was never interested in my conversation and let him slowly beat my confidence away that I forgot what I planned to said. It's so fml but whatever it's over now. I can't believe how calm I am now cause back in school I was whining like a dying dog. Guess now it's time to drill into my comprehension skills since I am like forever not answering what the question asks for. I think I think a little too much, but when I think lesser, I get the answer wrong anyway. What am I supposed to do then zomg?! I am a lost sheep because I still do not have the motivation to work. So, what now?
15.8.10
Woke up on the wrong side of the bed.
14.8.10
Pain, misery, emptiness.
Omg, I have a tumblr, a blog, a twitter and a facebook I no longer know where to post at anymore haha. Okay just want to say that the lighting up of the torch is like fucking cool! Singapore is going to waste so much money on keeping the flame on for the next 12 days HAHAA.
For this someone that was never close to me and never will, you are such a fucking jerk. Although no one really comes here anymore and you won't ever come pass here and see that this whole freaking big chunk of words that should be burned into your puny mind. You really should burn in hell for the misery you put people in. I have always believed in karma and that karma will get back on you if you do something wrong. I really hope it dawns upon you real soon so you will be in pain like how you set people in it. Have you felt that kind of pain that when you don't get a cut anywhere, you feel like you are fucking bleeding and that your heart is sinking down so badly although its still pumping hard in your chest. Never I believe. I have never ever liked you at all. And to think that I actually thought the hatred for you was gone at a period of time. Guess it just died down a bit because you remind me of someone I really hated so long ago for this same old reason. But I think you are not even on par with him. You made someone so happy and smiling everyday feel like not being able to live on for another day. How bad is this that you know that although what is in place for you the next day is something you can't face with and the misery just fucking builds up everyday but you don't have the courage to give a end to it. You know nothing, so stop going around misleading everyone that you are the party that is being hurt when you fucking chose all of these. I hate this kind of people where you try to pull everyone to your side, especially the close people to this person you are hurting. Even a kick in your dick now won't match up to the pain you build up in people. Guess how freaking bad this person is feeling right now. You will never know AGAIN.
For this someone that was never close to me and never will, you are such a fucking jerk. Although no one really comes here anymore and you won't ever come pass here and see that this whole freaking big chunk of words that should be burned into your puny mind. You really should burn in hell for the misery you put people in. I have always believed in karma and that karma will get back on you if you do something wrong. I really hope it dawns upon you real soon so you will be in pain like how you set people in it. Have you felt that kind of pain that when you don't get a cut anywhere, you feel like you are fucking bleeding and that your heart is sinking down so badly although its still pumping hard in your chest. Never I believe. I have never ever liked you at all. And to think that I actually thought the hatred for you was gone at a period of time. Guess it just died down a bit because you remind me of someone I really hated so long ago for this same old reason. But I think you are not even on par with him. You made someone so happy and smiling everyday feel like not being able to live on for another day. How bad is this that you know that although what is in place for you the next day is something you can't face with and the misery just fucking builds up everyday but you don't have the courage to give a end to it. You know nothing, so stop going around misleading everyone that you are the party that is being hurt when you fucking chose all of these. I hate this kind of people where you try to pull everyone to your side, especially the close people to this person you are hurting. Even a kick in your dick now won't match up to the pain you build up in people. Guess how freaking bad this person is feeling right now. You will never know AGAIN.
Comeback.
So, my computer is finally working again. I hope it learns to die at the wrong time and save me trouble. Anyway, I won't be blogging much here unless I am an emo nemo because I prefer reblogging on tumblr. The photos there are like all I have ever wanted to say but didn't had the courage to.
Anyway, Wednesday was a great day out with dance girls, I miss them so much although I see them every morning!! Walked in circles and circles just to reach the floating platform because we are no longer dancers and we reminisce on the way about the routes we took 2 years ago with our favourite seniors heh ;D
Everything's so different now, I have been reading so many of the girl's tumblr, but I am glad we still have each other:) AWESOME BATCH OF 2010~! :D Tsk, I am sidetracking so much. Back to YOG preview. On the whole, I think the whole thing was a fail considering that Singapore spent 5 times the budget on it. Not really worth it in my opinion. Nevertheless, nanhua dancers were awesome much, the whole item was nice with not much distractions. Okay, I am just mentioning about the poledancers at the audience area for the fire chapter. Totally stole the limelight of what is happening on the platform :/
Rushed off to find beebz, bong and the guys after performance and just when we thought we couldn't catch up with them, we saw them running at the second storey:):):):) Sneaked in and omg the yog helpers are really tardballs hehe, we went in without getting stopped and after asking some sec2s where the holding area was, we found the 7 of them!!(L)(K)(Y) Everything happened like a drama and all of us were super high. Spammed many photos but I don't think they are uploaded yetxzxzzx :( Will post them when they are up. Teehee, "BATCH PHOTO".
MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS~☺♥
Anyway, Wednesday was a great day out with dance girls, I miss them so much although I see them every morning!! Walked in circles and circles just to reach the floating platform because we are no longer dancers and we reminisce on the way about the routes we took 2 years ago with our favourite seniors heh ;D
Everything's so different now, I have been reading so many of the girl's tumblr, but I am glad we still have each other:) AWESOME BATCH OF 2010~! :D Tsk, I am sidetracking so much. Back to YOG preview. On the whole, I think the whole thing was a fail considering that Singapore spent 5 times the budget on it. Not really worth it in my opinion. Nevertheless, nanhua dancers were awesome much, the whole item was nice with not much distractions. Okay, I am just mentioning about the poledancers at the audience area for the fire chapter. Totally stole the limelight of what is happening on the platform :/
Rushed off to find beebz, bong and the guys after performance and just when we thought we couldn't catch up with them, we saw them running at the second storey:):):):) Sneaked in and omg the yog helpers are really tardballs hehe, we went in without getting stopped and after asking some sec2s where the holding area was, we found the 7 of them!!(L)(K)(Y) Everything happened like a drama and all of us were super high. Spammed many photos but I don't think they are uploaded yetxzxzzx :( Will post them when they are up. Teehee, "BATCH PHOTO".
MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS~☺♥
