Monday, November 02, 2009
常言道人生不如意事十常八九，所以如意、順意、合心意的事，在十件裡可能只有一、兩樣，真是少得可以。唉！我們究竟是為了甚麼而活了？為了遇到不如意的事嗎？之於這世界，我們是緲少的螻蟻，可有可沒有，反正就好像雞肋一樣，食之無味，棄之可惜。活着的時候，不會有太大的作為、貢獻，死了更加不會改變甚麼。究竟生存的目的是為了甚麼？為了活的開心，還是自尋煩惱了？
總覺得我好像一個老頭子一樣感概萬分，可是我明明二十來歲而已，人生還活不到一半。最近又有一個我認識的人死了，一個我從來沒有和他說過話，卻和我在同一個教室共道了三年讀書生涯的人。得到了他的死訊真的很驚訝，我總是以為我們可以活很久，就算沒有活到長命百歲，起碼也不會英年早逝吧！可是事實擺在眼前，不得不相信我的想法太天真了。可能上天是不公平的，好人永遠不長命。
我覺得死真的不可怕，最受不了的事應該是讓活着的親人、朋友傷透了心，一直活在傷疼中，還要帶着遺憾死去。
生命太無常了，可能這一刻你握在手裏，下一刻卻失去它。我們不應該為了活着而活着，應該放縱自己、享受人生，不要有所遺憾，後悔一生。正所謂＂不在付天長地久，只在付曾經擁有＂，生命不在付活的長還是短，只要話的精彩、無悔於心就行了！
希望大家努力活着，活出希望，死後再在天堂從逢吧！
總覺得我好像一個老頭子一樣感概萬分，可是我明明二十來歲而已，人生還活不到一半。最近又有一個我認識的人死了，一個我從來沒有和他說過話，卻和我在同一個教室共道了三年讀書生涯的人。得到了他的死訊真的很驚訝，我總是以為我們可以活很久，就算沒有活到長命百歲，起碼也不會英年早逝吧！可是事實擺在眼前，不得不相信我的想法太天真了。可能上天是不公平的，好人永遠不長命。
我覺得死真的不可怕，最受不了的事應該是讓活着的親人、朋友傷透了心，一直活在傷疼中，還要帶着遺憾死去。
生命太無常了，可能這一刻你握在手裏，下一刻卻失去它。我們不應該為了活着而活着，應該放縱自己、享受人生，不要有所遺憾，後悔一生。正所謂＂不在付天長地久，只在付曾經擁有＂，生命不在付活的長還是短，只要話的精彩、無悔於心就行了！
希望大家努力活着，活出希望，死後再在天堂從逢吧！
what we could have been, 8:34 AM.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Super long nv come blog liao... Haiz... Super sian recently... Like super lonely past few mth, coz alwaes stay hm alone. Esp weekends, there are few weekends tt happen onli me stay hm for e whole dae, whole nite... Super sian lor, morning onli me, afternoon still me onli, nite till next morning oso onli got me at hm. lidat reali make me feel like wan stay out longer dun wan go hm lor, coz go hm oso got no one... Haiz... Hate to be alone lor...
Recently feel like I am outsider sia... Haiz... Like ppl outcastin me lor, maybe tinkin too much, but reali got this feelin la... Haiz... I dun like how It's go recently lor, no matter at hm or at work or wif frens, tink I am e main prob causin all this happen ba... Reali hope tt I can disappear from now onwards lor, can I???
I like super emo recently lor, sometimes reali feel like hidin somewhere n cry lor... Haiz... Continues emo ba, jiayou!!!
Recently feel like I am outsider sia... Haiz... Like ppl outcastin me lor, maybe tinkin too much, but reali got this feelin la... Haiz... I dun like how It's go recently lor, no matter at hm or at work or wif frens, tink I am e main prob causin all this happen ba... Reali hope tt I can disappear from now onwards lor, can I???
I like super emo recently lor, sometimes reali feel like hidin somewhere n cry lor... Haiz... Continues emo ba, jiayou!!!
what we could have been, 6:32 AM.
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
tink i like one mth per blog lidat sia... veri borin la... i got lesser mood of goin out, even go out oso dunnoe go where... so sick of goin orchard, bugis... although alot new shoppin malls open... but tink of e ppl so crowded dere make me feel no mood to go already... n this mood i like mosty stay hm, or go work... not much outin, coz i nv date ppl n ppl oso nv date me... feel i am such a borin ppl sia... haiz...
below is my schedule this mth, faster come date me la... but i tink my mens comin this or next wk liao... haiz...
recently add alot old frens inside facebook lor... some of them like 4 to 5 yrs nv meet liao, n some even 8 or 9 yrs nv meet... is like omg de lor... hope can meet them la, but oso abit scare when meetin wif them, coz long time nv see, no more comment topic liao, their frens i dunnoe, my frens they dunnoe lidat... haiz... hope got chance to see them la... lol...
below is my schedule this mth, faster come date me la... but i tink my mens comin this or next wk liao... haiz...
dun wan go work la!!!! e pic below is my feelin alwaes lor, dun wan go work all e times, but e end still no choice die die oso have to go... haiz... i wan to have my off daes, i wan to take leaves!!!
i feel like buyin itouch, but tink 4 mths liao la... dunnoe buy anot sia...
buy:
1. can use to play games/watch drama/listen to songs on my way to work or when i finish work
2. can use wifi
3. can read novel (if not wrong can open word file ba)
dun buy:
1. i can ipod liao, buy itouch abit waste
2. d/l things veri ma fan, no time
3. nid to break e program then can d/ things lor, ma fan
4. feel like easy to spoil leh
5. not reali nessary to buy rite
6. i dun wan spend $$$
hahahaha... so i shd not buy rite... haiz... next mth tink again ba...
what we could have been, 12:39 AM.
Monday, August 03, 2009
i tink i am a heartless gal lor... i feel i am so heartless till i now reali abit wonderin i am human anot lor... normali ppl heard tt i nv live wif my dad hor, he now in hk i in s'pore la... n lidat veri long already ma... like yrs already, tink ard 7 or 8 yrs liao... they will ask whether i miss him anot... actuali i ok miss onli lor... haiz... i oso seldom call him de lor... like super heartless sia... haiz... i dun wan to be heartless gal, but seem tt in my body all cold blood... so.... haiz...
what we could have been, 1:22 AM.
Sunday, August 02, 2009
haiz... this wk my mood like out of control sia, keep goin up n down... not easy get angry n feel irriatin then is suddenly veri moody, n emo... haiz... dun ask me wad happen, coz i oso dunnoe y... juz feel veri mood n super uncomfortable lor... tink this wk i reali too not like me ba, i like become so quiet lor... dun feel like tokin to anyone, i reali tinkin to carry a paper along lor, if ppl ask me thing i juz write instead of tokin, but e end of course nv lidat la... so stupid...
e end msg liyi to acc me walk walk on fri lor... we almost walk e whole orchard n i tink i left my moody feelin at orchard liao lor, while i walkin here n dere.... spendin money to buy smth i wan n eat smth i like will help lor... i reali feel much more better liao... lol... thx liyi for accompany me whole dae... lol...
anywae, i feel like i shd not moody anymore lor... coz abit stupid lor... i like already got so much than many ppl already, y i will coz of those small thing then moody la?? alot ppl in this world maybe sufferin from diseases, hunger all tt... i already so good luck to live in a better country wif better life n edcation lor... so cannot moody anymore liao la.. jiayou!!!!
aug again liao... below is my schedule 4 this mth... faster come date me ba... but i feel abit broke this mth... lol... maybe coz i tryin to save too much money so dun have much money to use... haiz...
what we could have been, 1:38 AM.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
me again... i tink i become abit hard workin in bloggin liao, at least one post per wk, shd be quite good already... omg... now still july... y july so long sia, still haven end... haiz... my pay almost use up already sia, haiz... i wan save $$$$$$$...
last wk still busy wk lor... mon n tues oso got alot samples, so sian lor... samples samples n samples, but sj more sian ba... samples lot actuali ok la, coz is lidat ma... e most angry things is handover shit... ahahhaa... coz handover alot still ok for me la, onli scare e handover like shit lor, muz clear off... this is wad sj kanna last mon lor, at firx wan give her smth shd be not much de lor, e end haiz... so sorry for her lor... then wed morning go hm tt time havin heavy rain sia... n my jacket not inside my bag lor, by rite shd be inside de lor, coz i nv take out ma, n i rmb i got put inside on mon de lor... haiz... e end i keep freezin all e way hm lor, n i tink i got abit fever at nite lor... haiz... so sian... then next dae after a long slp my flu n cold all like recover but my stomach jialat lor... keep goin toilet, stomach pain... e end mid nite feel like vomitin lidat lor, n stomach like alot air lidat so uncomfortable... so mc lor... haiz... alwaes mc becoz of stomach pain, bad stomach sia... e doctor sae this time pain becoz i cannot go toilet... haiz... but i got eat alot veggies de lor... he sae maybe coz nv drink water... zzzzz...
then sat like shit lor... ming ming less samples on fri, less things to release, feel like so happy de lor... but juz start work then samples come... zzzz... ok la... thought still early ma, can finish early then can rest liao... e end lintec got 9 samples come at 3+.. ming ming sae onli 4 e end come 9, haiz... we reali veri poor thing lor... e end onli open 5 la, coz reali not enough time liao sia... but e end coz e result got prob, bec got to stay to do recheck lor... haiz.. so ke lian... coz i nid to watch my harry potter so nv stay wif her, feel abit bad sia...
e end sat me, mum n bro go watch harry potter at 12.15am... this movie quite ok ba, coz tryin to explain alot things so can link us to e last one... so ok la... but i hope all e things inside e book oso can appear in e movie lor, but is quite hard la, lidat tink ard 5hrs oso cannot finish... but ok la... harry potter rox lor... ahahhahaa...
then sun is our gals gatherin la, as per normal, everyone late... ahahahaa... suppose to meet at 7pm de lor, e end ard 8pm then all reach... lol... next time i shd meet 6pm instead lor, coz e end we wait until veri hungry... this time meetin coz wan celebrate betty belated bdae la... got me, yan, betty, char n eve... by rite got faezza de lor, but she fly me plane... coz she sae she forgot abt it.... omg... e end go watch harry potter instead... lol... but pizza huts quite nice sia, i love e pizza wif cheese at e side lor... lol... but betty sae abit downgrade sia, coz at firx wan go fish n co, but faezza cannot eat so we change but e end she oso nv come... haiz... after tt we sing song n cut cake... but tink next time we shd ask more ppl come lor, 5 gals veri hard to finish one cake sia... haiz...
todae i tink i did a veri wrong thing lor... go cut my hair... now like abit funny sia, dun feel like goin work lor... haiz... omg... actuali i feel my hair abit weird but dunnoe y la, my bro n mum sae coz too thick... haiz... anywae hope i can have positive comments ba, at least dun laugh at me can liao... help me pray hard ba...
last wk still busy wk lor... mon n tues oso got alot samples, so sian lor... samples samples n samples, but sj more sian ba... samples lot actuali ok la, coz is lidat ma... e most angry things is handover shit... ahahhaa... coz handover alot still ok for me la, onli scare e handover like shit lor, muz clear off... this is wad sj kanna last mon lor, at firx wan give her smth shd be not much de lor, e end haiz... so sorry for her lor... then wed morning go hm tt time havin heavy rain sia... n my jacket not inside my bag lor, by rite shd be inside de lor, coz i nv take out ma, n i rmb i got put inside on mon de lor... haiz... e end i keep freezin all e way hm lor, n i tink i got abit fever at nite lor... haiz... so sian... then next dae after a long slp my flu n cold all like recover but my stomach jialat lor... keep goin toilet, stomach pain... e end mid nite feel like vomitin lidat lor, n stomach like alot air lidat so uncomfortable... so mc lor... haiz... alwaes mc becoz of stomach pain, bad stomach sia... e doctor sae this time pain becoz i cannot go toilet... haiz... but i got eat alot veggies de lor... he sae maybe coz nv drink water... zzzzz...
then sat like shit lor... ming ming less samples on fri, less things to release, feel like so happy de lor... but juz start work then samples come... zzzz... ok la... thought still early ma, can finish early then can rest liao... e end lintec got 9 samples come at 3+.. ming ming sae onli 4 e end come 9, haiz... we reali veri poor thing lor... e end onli open 5 la, coz reali not enough time liao sia... but e end coz e result got prob, bec got to stay to do recheck lor... haiz.. so ke lian... coz i nid to watch my harry potter so nv stay wif her, feel abit bad sia...
e end sat me, mum n bro go watch harry potter at 12.15am... this movie quite ok ba, coz tryin to explain alot things so can link us to e last one... so ok la... but i hope all e things inside e book oso can appear in e movie lor, but is quite hard la, lidat tink ard 5hrs oso cannot finish... but ok la... harry potter rox lor... ahahhahaa...
then sun is our gals gatherin la, as per normal, everyone late... ahahahaa... suppose to meet at 7pm de lor, e end ard 8pm then all reach... lol... next time i shd meet 6pm instead lor, coz e end we wait until veri hungry... this time meetin coz wan celebrate betty belated bdae la... got me, yan, betty, char n eve... by rite got faezza de lor, but she fly me plane... coz she sae she forgot abt it.... omg... e end go watch harry potter instead... lol... but pizza huts quite nice sia, i love e pizza wif cheese at e side lor... lol... but betty sae abit downgrade sia, coz at firx wan go fish n co, but faezza cannot eat so we change but e end she oso nv come... haiz... after tt we sing song n cut cake... but tink next time we shd ask more ppl come lor, 5 gals veri hard to finish one cake sia... haiz...
todae i tink i did a veri wrong thing lor... go cut my hair... now like abit funny sia, dun feel like goin work lor... haiz... omg... actuali i feel my hair abit weird but dunnoe y la, my bro n mum sae coz too thick... haiz... anywae hope i can have positive comments ba, at least dun laugh at me can liao... help me pray hard ba...
what we could have been, 11:55 PM.
Monday, July 13, 2009
boo... todae juz go n support nypco de beautiful sundae performance at esplanade... e performance quite good la... although some of e songs got abit prob, like some instruments play wrongly sometimes, n abit rushin lor... but is still veri nice lor... esp jiawen de solo part... wah... super nice n touch lor... anywae, todae oso got alot ppl come n support, open till 4th lvl lor... break our record last time, coz we tt time ard 3rd or abit 4th lvl onli, but this time is full 4 e 4 lvl, n like got alot ppl keep comin in in between songs lor... so surprise tt be4 e last song still got ppl come in... omg... but abit disappointed tt nv open e seats behind e stage... reali wanted to see how is it sia... hahahaa... stupid eunice still sae wan go sit dere lor... tink we better give her zr as well, so she can join e orchestra 4 performance lor... lol...
the songs tt they perform todae are as follow:
1) 安静了- S.H.E
2) 情歌王 - 古巨基
3) 如燕 - Olivia Ong (Little Nyonya's theme song)
4) 我怀念的 - 孙燕姿
5) 我要快乐 - 张惠妹
6) 听海 - 张惠妹
7) 屋顶 - 吴宗宪/周杰伦 & 温岚
quite surprisin 4 many ppl i tink, coz tink they nv tink of chinese orchestra can perform pop songs, but actuali can lor... tink perform pop songs is much more better than performin those tradional songs ba... pop songs rocks sia... lol...
but anywae, todae performance make me tink of our past sia, those dae we practicin tgt, durin sectional, combine, n our own extra practices, tryin to do well n helpin each other to practice 4 e performance, but old daes will nv come back, juz will stay inside our memories, reali abit sian n sad la... but is lidat ba, old ppl gone then got new ppl in, now tink oso wun go back even i reali feel like wan play zr or dr, coz so many things change already lor, ppl change, atmosphere change, feelin oso change, not like wad i used to be already... haiz... hope got one dae we can form one nyp alumni chinese orchestra lor, then get all e alumni back n held a performance tgt... but is reali abit hard la, coz so many alumni n everyone is workin or studyin now, oso hard to gather everyone... haiz...
but is fun la, coz todae we like keep on gossipin, although nowadaes we got lesser common topic, no sch, no co, onli left wif gossip lor... but is still fun sia... i love to gossip abt others n like to joke wif them wif all e nonsenses sia... ahahhaha... n hor, we todae go catch e doll, we spend less than $30 i tink n we got one kitty cusion, n a few small dolls sia... quite pro lor... hahahaa... i took e small kitty, small panda n one elephant purse lor... so cute sia.... super happy lor... i love outin sia, hope dun nid to work lor, can go back to our poly life, but this is juz impossible, maybe onli can appear in my dreams sia... haiz...
the songs tt they perform todae are as follow:
1) 安静了- S.H.E
2) 情歌王 - 古巨基
3) 如燕 - Olivia Ong (Little Nyonya's theme song)
4) 我怀念的 - 孙燕姿
5) 我要快乐 - 张惠妹
6) 听海 - 张惠妹
7) 屋顶 - 吴宗宪/周杰伦 & 温岚
quite surprisin 4 many ppl i tink, coz tink they nv tink of chinese orchestra can perform pop songs, but actuali can lor... tink perform pop songs is much more better than performin those tradional songs ba... pop songs rocks sia... lol...
but anywae, todae performance make me tink of our past sia, those dae we practicin tgt, durin sectional, combine, n our own extra practices, tryin to do well n helpin each other to practice 4 e performance, but old daes will nv come back, juz will stay inside our memories, reali abit sian n sad la... but is lidat ba, old ppl gone then got new ppl in, now tink oso wun go back even i reali feel like wan play zr or dr, coz so many things change already lor, ppl change, atmosphere change, feelin oso change, not like wad i used to be already... haiz... hope got one dae we can form one nyp alumni chinese orchestra lor, then get all e alumni back n held a performance tgt... but is reali abit hard la, coz so many alumni n everyone is workin or studyin now, oso hard to gather everyone... haiz...
but is fun la, coz todae we like keep on gossipin, although nowadaes we got lesser common topic, no sch, no co, onli left wif gossip lor... but is still fun sia... i love to gossip abt others n like to joke wif them wif all e nonsenses sia... ahahhaha... n hor, we todae go catch e doll, we spend less than $30 i tink n we got one kitty cusion, n a few small dolls sia... quite pro lor... hahahaa... i took e small kitty, small panda n one elephant purse lor... so cute sia.... super happy lor... i love outin sia, hope dun nid to work lor, can go back to our poly life, but this is juz impossible, maybe onli can appear in my dreams sia... haiz...
what we could have been, 1:30 AM.