时间能够冲淡一切... time... time to heal... stop living in the past... human is selfish... therefore dont need to think for them... be kind to others, ownself suffer.. because others will only take ur kindness as bullshit.. 过了就算了.. slowly one step at a time..

Kami sama... is all over izzit?? All because of a misunderstanding... i lost 1 of my best buddy... all because he misunderstood the whole situation... now i finally kw why i am not invited to his wedding... all because of a misunderstanding.. thinking in his shoe, yesh whoever in the right mind will sure angry.. even me, i also will.. but the starting point is wrong... he misunderstood the whole thing... i spend $100+ for everything needed for the modules.. his wife need the materials therefore i sell it really cheap to her.. without earning anything.. in fact i made quite a big lost.... just because he is my buddy.. i dun mind making lost... i intended to sell for 1 original textbook, 1 photocopied textbook (both different module), all lecturer slides and my personal notes at $50.. end up? His wife said tat de original textbook is expensive and do not wish to get it.. so she intend to get all the remaining at $20 which she offer and borrow my original textbook to photocopy.. well, just by the photocopied textbook cost me more den $30.. but i just let everything go.. just because he is my buddy.. i could sold all of those at a much better price on the net.. but i didnt... but... he misunderstood.. he didnt kw about the photocopied textbook.. he tot that the $20 is meant for photocopy the original textbook.... how on earth did he get that coming.. i have no idea...

Upon knowing all, i was so angry... angry why am i becoming the one at fault when it is a misunderstanding.. i start questioning... i send him a msg at first... keeping my ego and stubborness down.. apologise and wanna clear up the misunderstanding... after which when i realise tat i am not the one at fault.. i send him 2nd msg.. stating de original cost i spend on the photocopied textbook.. and also said that i should not be apologising.. last but not least, wish him a blissful marriage.. but what turn to my horror is his reply... how i wish he nv reply.. but he did this time round but in a very harsh and fierce manner.. and i knew, it is the end... blaming me of why i ask my friend why am i not invited to his wedding.. i only asked 2 peoples who is on ur invited list... i dun understand why you said many ppl ask u why i am not invited.. dun u kw how many common friend we have?? From school to work.. who dun kw we are close?? Who wun ask??

When i said i wish u blissful marriage, i meant it from the bottom of my heart... how could u doubt tat?? I can understand all these happen because u r angry.. and very very angry.. now think abt it, i am glad u r tat angry.. becoz it mean that i do mean sth.. or maybe not, now.... i was never given a chance to explain myself because i dun even kw the reason behind... knowing i will get hurt, yet i still wanna clear the misunderstanding.. wanna save the friendship.. but... it seem like it had gone to an end..

Kami sama.. i managed to explain myself.. explained to him that the $20 is meant for the photocopied textbook which he never notice at all.. but.. he doesnt listen... he doesnt wanna talk abt it.. he doesnt wanna talk to me.. kami sama.. i cried twice.. twice today, for him.. for the friendship we used to share.. for de ridiculous misunderstanding.. how could him assume that the $20 is meant for photocopying de original textbook.. who on earth will charge a friend a sum for borrowing book.. no mattet how it look, it doesnt look tat way at all.. why didnt he saw de super thick stack of papers??? Why didnt he kw de existence of the photocopies textbook??

kami sama.. he should be the one apologising to me right?? i should be the one that should be angry right?? Why didnt he think in my shoe?? He had wrong me... he had wrong me for seomthing i never did.. i dun wanna lose a friend like him... but i dun kw how to face him anymore.. becoz of the misunderstanding, i didnt get a chance to see his wedding.. becoz of the misunderstanding, i miss so many good moment.. why didnt he see tat fking stack of paper!!!!!

I feeling so sad and awful.. i didnt take my dinner.. i think it is really over for us... goodbye my friend... goodbye... no matter how, in my memory.. i still have tat old u inside.... bye....

My blog have been vacant for past 2 years plus.. So many things have happened and changed.. I am turning 26 this year already.. Time really flies when you are out working in the society.. I thought certain things will not change but i am wrong.. Human change........ What can i say.... I have no idea where to start too..

Ever since i left F&B industries, i joined SMRT doing administrative works.. My life started changing to the better.. I got my perfect rest day on the weekends, i share the same public holiday with everyone.. I can concentrate in my studies more better now..

I have being through 3 semesters so far in my degree studies.. very glad that everything went smoothly and pass all 9 modules with pretty satisfied result.. now i left with 7 more modules.. gonna struggle through all the remaining major modules.. intend to take only 2 modules in my coming semester.. partially also because financially a bit difficult for me to cope.. with my new house renovation on the move and also preparation for my wedding banquet, money goes out fast and don't come in fast enough.. but i realise that by working hard, your result may not come in good in a bureaucratic company.. even if my 2 direct superior gave me a "Outstanding" grade, at the end of the day after calibration i only got a "Average" which is a 2 grade down.. end up i did not receive a good bonus.. I was still thinking with the bonus, i could use it on a lot of stuffs.. It will definitely come in handy at this period of time.. oh well, my bonus dun seem to have much different from what i got in F&B.. take it or leave it.. so be it.. be contended.. that is what i think..

Looking through some of my past post.. i realise how negative i was back then.. Back then i am a young and innocent girl that hope to be love.. Now?? I am still young and innocent of coz.. haha!! I am definitely being love by a great man.. I am got married to my lovely husband Charlton Mah on 31 December 2013.. I knew him in my Poly days.. things happen here and there and end up we become together.. i still remember last time i had a crush with one of the guy and he was there trying to help me with it.. i don't know why but when i am with him, i can basically speak everything!! vulgarity also!! i did not know why i am so relax with him.. end up me and that guy did not work out  and somehow here and there i become kinda rely on him.. I still remember that time he was "tangle" with a girl who is his gf at that time.. to me, i felt that "oh no.. he cannot get back together with her anymore.." i don't know izzit my own selfishness telling me that or what.. I just want him to accompany me.. with Jack Neo movie, it determine everything.. and i realise that maybe we could try it out.. and here goes.. we are married after dating since 17 Aug 2008.. dating or 5 years plus... that consider pretty long i guess.. he treat me really good and i am happy with him around.. he is not rich.. he is not handsome.. but he have a heart fully just for me.. he always put me in the first place.. he also treat me very well.. what can i ask for more?? he is the man for me isn't it?? We will be walking together for many many many more years.. I know i will be happy with him..

Well, that is a summary of my life.. what else?? hmmm.. recently this come across my mind.. "People Change, Memory Don't" why do i say that?? while looking back, i have so many friends.. rephrase, so many that seem like my friends.. but actually?? i only need a handful of "friends".. my real friends.. people that i used to hang out with, they do not exist anymore in my current stage of life anymore.. is not that i forget them, but they had forgotten me.. looking back.. i hang out with my so call buddy michael and terry.. we work together, school together.. we really so close.. but now?? i am not in their circle anymore.. i have no idea what happened.. i still remember when i got into accident in year 2009, they said nothing to me.. i don't see any form of concern from them anymore.. maybe they have move on with their life and forget about me.. as time goes by, we do not contact each other anymore.. we had become a "friend" in facebook.. recently Michael got married and i am not invited to the wedding.. i wonder, who am i?? i keep telling myself, he is just being selfish.. just because i did not buy any insurance from him therefore i am not his friend anymore.. but the pain just don't go off.. i saw the pictures taken in his wedding.. people that he hardly hang out with were invited.. so i wonder, why am i not invited?? i decided to move on.. this is because people change as time goes by.. even if i remain at the same spot, they will not be back to who there were anymore.. so, i wish you have a blissful marriage.. and those memory, i will still keep it.. because i treasure it..

i also know amount those people around me.. who is my friends.. who is my true friends.. you guys is enough for me.. <3 p="">
anyway, had a rather bad day at work today.. ya ya.. back to complaining about work.. got rather bad scolding from 2 sub-con today.. in a row!!! can you imagine that.. and guess what?? Eric my secondary classmate for 5 years!! he is my sub-con also!! but he is not the one that scolding me of coz.. when he call back again after i get an earful i cried.. he panic when he heard i cry.. keep finding other topics and talk to me.. and ask me don't mind that too much.. take it easy.. well well.. the guy that always irritate me in class, becoming like this?? haha~ a bit not use to it.. but really appreciate it.. Thank Eric.. you really damn irritating at times.. but *thumbup* for you this time round.. and i will never forget all those days u bullied me!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha..

life still must go on right.. today i just wanna stay in my comfort zone and just hide there.. wanna take some time off and really "heal" myself.. once i get over with it, i know i will get stronger.. stronger than ever.. <3 p="">