some people gain life thru new born child.. where as some people gain life thru the departure's.. i come across this show on tv.. and decided to watch it.. i am still watching it.. wonder what will be the story like.. the film is call "Departure"..

today just watched "Johnny English Reborn".. it so funny!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i couldn't stop laughing!! is really worth watching!! hehehe..

sigh~ so many thing i have learn recently.. really force myself to grow uh....

seem to me that a lot of things happened recently.. i am force to grow and face everything by myself.. within 3 days i cried twice.. all thank to Roger.. he really suck to the core man!! this old fart really good for nothing.. haiz..

"if he is disappointed then change me put u as RM, I had enough, please show a little respect.. Whoever not happy ask the to call me.. I don't pin point people I pin point on problem. Are you saying that i am just sitting down not doing anything and ask yourself are u doing anything that make people dislike you.. to me everyone is the same.. there is no like or dun like and as long we do our part.. If anyone still not happen, ask them to come and do lah! "

if an big shot RM can talk like this.. what kind of respect can he gain?? he instruct people to give him respect.. sad to say i am not taught this way.. Respect is gain and not ask for it.. I am not even interested of being a RM.. i dun need him to give up his post and give me.. i would rather EARN it my own way.. If i am capable, i will eventually get it.. I only respect for de sake of his rank.. he dun deserve any other more respect from me anymore.. he always wait until the last minute den fire fight.. what is the point?? and knowing that equipment is not clean.. things is not done.. he tot he can pass with flying colour?? where on earth will anyone go fight war without proper gear?!?! are you trying to go fight someone with a gun and without any protecting vest?? don't try to act smart when u are not... you having enough so wat?? who is the one doing most of the job?? you don't even see it.. i done so much for you, you dun appreciate it jiu suan leh.. no need to pour people cold water.. who even care abt credit.. i do more, the top management see it.. i already got wat i want.. i dun need you this irresponsible guy to give me irresponsible answer..

dun talk to me about respect.. who on earth dun kw i always respect people?? you are the first and only one that really step on my real hard.. and u there trying to say i did wrong thing that make ppl dislike me?? if that is the case, than why the crews is supporting me instead of you?? it is even more?? you make the entire outlet fail... from phrase 2 outlet demote to phrase 1 outlet.. and now we cannot even pass phrase 1... =.=! what is wrong with you! damn...

so many things happen.. and now i start to feel that god exist.. no.. i all the while tot tat god exist.. but this time round i feel that god is near me.. protecting me.. i am not a christian.. i am a free thinker.. but this feeling.. i dun kw how to explain it.. there was this time when i was a sleep... around breaking dawn time.. i hear a voice.. a gentle soft voice.. it sound so pure.. but i cant recall what we actually talking about.. i dun kw am i awake or is it a dream.. it feel so white and pure.. but i feel so safe.. but communicating with it is difficult.. is not like normal talking.. is like talking thru my heart.. the voice in my heart.. but the moment i try to speak using my mouth, the voice gone away... and i awake.. izzit god trying to tell me something during my worst time now?? i dun kw.. i cant recall anything about what we talk about..

recently in class really know a lot of nice people from kopitiam.. Johnny, Alvin, Eddie, Moon, June... i am rather close with Johnny instead.. knowing him for less than 1 month.. but he had taught me and really support me to the core.. out of so many people, i have totally no idea why i am so attach to Johnny.. not really attach lah.. just that we and him really can talk it out.. he do give me a feeling like Daniel.. somebody i can trust and let myself out.. maybe due to his influence that why i have a more in depth about god.. He is a nice guy with a cute son.. =D

I am glad that i have my dear Charlton together with me as well.. whenever i cry, he show me so much concern.. but the thing is.. i dun kw how to tell him.. he didnt know what kind of things i am going thru.. a lot of things tat i am kinda tired of explaining at the point of happening.. but i really happy that he love me so much.. end up i choose to tell him after i had cool down.. =) i love you charlton.. =D