hahaha!!! heard from charlton wat tat xiao mei mei said.. LOL.. only got one word "immature".. LOL... dun even remember wat the hell happen last time... LOL!!! but i do remember saying her immature... well.. at the end of the day, still tat same word... "IMMATURE" lol... one day u will understand why we say u immature... it take time to understand... i knew u will confirm 100% check out my blog de la.. so~ sit still and relax and see what i gonna write about u.. dun need to be so piss off or angry about 1 word "immature"..

took some time to recall what happened actually.. looking thru charlton blog de chatbox and somehow it bring back pieces of the "nothing-important-in-my-memory" things... and seem like that xiao mei mei still not growing up well.. hahaha..

since u analyze me as a super easy jealous person (sorry~ i am not.. try harder next time =DD), and immature (hmm.. why should i let 1 immature xiao mei mei say immature.. dun understand.. oh well.. it doesn't matters).. so let me analyze u from what i have heard from Charlton.. and reason of me saying u immature.. =DD

-~* u are in ur own little world and refuse to let other people coming into ur world to help u.. u are a stubborn person.. therefore u refuse to get help from others.. u tot tat u could do everything by urself (act hero).. u only trust urself and not others.. no matter how much ur close fren, family, or even ur ex-boyfriend, Charlton, said to you, u dun give a damn.. Reason?? becoz u are so stubborn until u dun wan them to touch tat inner-self of urs.. and above come into 1 simple word... "Fear".. it ok to fear of something.. but u must bare the consequences and the outcome for what u have done.. and since u were struggling with tat fear in u, something came across ur mind, tat satan slave(ss) thingy?!?! dun kw why u think about that, think only u one person know... different people got their different believe.. maybe this is ur believe.. i have no right to say.. just let it be if u think u are ss.. *~-

-~* have u ever tot of this??? "what have i done wrong??" and not "why u people do this to me??".. if u really kw the answer well, u will know why u immature.. what is the point of acting hero?? when something dun go ur way, u will just act hero.. taking up all the so call "blame" to urself and just simply making urself more miserable.. and when this happened, u not just hurting urself, but people around u also.. ur close fren erica, or even Charlton.. taking all the blame (acting hero) is not the only alternative... *~-

-~* do u kw wat went wrong with ur relationship?? in the first place, relationship is not just URS!! if both person.. the r/s u used to have with Charlton, lack of communication, lack of understanding, failed give in to each other, and not even basic thing like "trust" exist.. u ask urself truthfully, have u ever be truthful to Charlton?? did u ever lie to Charlton?? did u even bother to give in to him?? and watever things u do, did u break the trust??

Trust - what did u do to make him trust u?? or alternatively, what u do that make him dun trust u.. u know what u did, ask urself.. can any human being accept 2 timer?? let me tell u, Charlton is also a human being... he is not god.. can forgive every single thing.. wat verbally said, may not come from his heart.. i can tell u this, he mind about u being 2 timer.. whether it is true or not, things already happened.. and since u dun even bother to explain why u 2 timer.. he only can think tat u timer him.. reason?? u dun even bother..

Lack of understanding - Charlton character is really smooth.. he can give in whatever he can.. and let u be whatever u wan to be.. but u?? did u ever give in to him?? did u ever ask him what he really want?? did u ever understand him?? deep enough?? how deep?? got as deep as the sea?? or even deeper?? the Charlton u kw, izzit really the Charlton he should be?? if u have any of YES for above, how many times??? got as many as what Charlton give to u?? did u appreciate him?? of only when u lose him den u realise how important he is to u??

if simple trust is not there, things will not work out.. and for a immature girl like u, u still got a long way to go.. do u know how much Charlton suffer?? or u only care abt how u feel?? have u ever spare a tot for him?? there is so much things in his mind that he did not tell u.. and let me tell u this.. u hurt him a lot deeper den u think..

the r/s tat both of u used to have.. is not longer "us" but "urs"... u are ss, but Charlton seem to be ur slave.. to say it more uglier, taking him for granted.. have u ever learn to love?? but do u kw tat, before u could truly love someone, u need to love urself.. Charlton used to love u, but u take it for granted.. so dun regret... *~-

no point getting jealous over us.. the only different between u and me, is that i treasure him.. i love him.. actually got a lot to write.. but i am so tired to write.. everything lie in u.. dun wait for people to change for u.. nobody is so wei da to accept everything.. nobody is perfect.. but becoz of another half, tat make life perfect.. u still got a long way to go girl.. just get over it.. reflect on what u have done.. and get over it.. things is not as hard as it seem to be.. is all in ur mind..

-~* Charlton: Let go of the past, cherish present, and look forward for the future.. *~-

i called police to come over my hse just now .. reason?? catch my dad... early in de morning i heard smashing.. i dun kw wat happen.. i woke up.. and see my dad throwing stuff out and smashing things.. i asked wat happened and wat the hell he doing... but wat can i do?? i only a lady...

he even threaten me wanted to throw me down the flat.. well.. tat why i called the police.. since he dun listen.. i will let the police settle..

when things dun go his ways.. he will anyhow throw stuffs... when he wan money, and we dun give.. he will become like this.. so??? wat else can i do??


NEVER GAMBLE!! coz one gamble, they wun change anymore..

well.. have started working as a Mcdonald Manager for few days till now.. hmmm.. everything goes quite smoothly.. nth bad happen.. 5th day of work.. i actually got a compliment letter =DD this customer actually complained about his food not long ago.. and they came to me and told me abt it.. since i am still a trainee, certain things i still not authorize to do.. and wat my boss did was refund the whole thing to him.. tat is wat happened the other time la.. as for my compliment.. is that the customer actually accidentally spill his coffee.. i did wat i have to.. =DD since i was a crew b4.. such things happened before.. so i know how to handle such situation.. and wat was in my mind is that customer feeling!!! haha.. i did wat i have to, and end up?? i got a compliment letter.. =DD hehe.. HAPPY!!

now let see wat i can do further for my customer =DD..

terimakaseh~ jumba lagi~ =DD i learned this 2 phrase from aunty sukina from my store.. =DD is malay language which stand for "Thank you~ see u again~" haha.. and i actually used this 2 phrase to my customer who is malay.. =DD and the customers actually tot i kw how to speak malay.. i confess that i only kw this 2 phrase and they just laugh and left.. =DD hehe.. feel so good to let my customer smile.. =DD WEEEEE!!! gonna start work in 30min time.. JIAYOU WOR!!!!