I done this quiz a moment ago.. and somehow i find it quite true.. some where deep inside my heart.. it actually express it out.. the following is my result..

click here to go to the quiz.. choose the colour that you feel most harmony with.. from the most to the least..

At this time in your life you feel like 'giving up'. For every time you have tried to build up your hopes and dreams something has come along to burst the balloon. You may feel that, at this particular moment in your life, there seems to be no chance of fulfilling these dreams but you are so wrong. You are the sort of person that can influence any situation, that is - If you don't give up. So consciously make the effort... You have that inherent power to succeed.

You enjoy taking part in anything that may constitute fun and excitement. You need to be stimulated and need to feel that 'Life is worth living' and you are awaiting that stimulation and you don't particularly care where it comes from!

It is amazing that you yourself believe that old 'adage' that you are a misunderstood person - and you feel that because of this you are being left out in the cold. It is because of this lack of believed understanding that you feel the need to conform to society in general - but this situation leaves you 'cold' knowing that you are not appreciated for your true self. Any relationship that you are developing at this time does not seem to involve any true emotional commitment, you seem to be just playing along.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You need to be needed and would like a situation where you will no longer be subjected to pressures and demands from those about you. There is no harm in 'dreaming' but it is you - and only you - that can be able to realise those dreams and to turn them into reality.

my back.. both my shoulder were injured..



left shoulder..



right shoulder..



right arm...



right elbow..



left elbow.. gonna drop.. so put plaster tahan a bit..



my upper leg got blue black..



right leg injured quite badly..



my right foot..



my ankle area..


I met with an accident earlier today at approx 5.30pm.. I was on the way to Chin Hiang hse with Charlton.. Charlton is my pillion.. den i got to go by SLE.. b4 i enter SLE, i check my mirror and i see no vehicle close to me.. so i check my speed and den enter the band.. it was a sharp band therefore i control my speed to 50km/h.. while up the slope, my speed decreases... i was focusing on the band since i have a pillion with me.. there is 2 lane entering SLE only.. i was at the left lane since i am riding at slower speed compared to other vehicle..

i was going thru this band while this white/gray MPV car just cutting thru the middle of both lane on my right trying to overtake me.. i was on the left lane, i still remember there was this cab on the right lane.. so as i proceed for the band after the slope, this MPV car just squeeze thru.. since it was a band and with a pillion with me, i was unable to turn to the left and avoid it.. and eventually our vehicle knock onto each other.. since it was a band, and the car is SO NEAR like few cm away.. from the angle, we eventually hit each other.. i remembering hitting onto the left side of the car near the window.. after the impact, we both fell...

i dun kw how far i being thrown off.. but i did not fly.. i still can remember that i rolled 3-4 times on the road.. and the first thing after i open my hse is to see any vehicle behind me.. just in case they hit onto us.. the MPV car stop like 50-70m away.. since it was a band, vehicle entering the band could not see us.. luckily there is some people come and help us.. i was sitting down on the road unable to move and see Charlton amulet flying all over the place.. i remember got this indian guy help me up from the floor to the side.. after that, i walk towards Charlton and see how is he.. i was so scare.. i see blood all over him.. his pants were torn off.. i can even see his butt.. a few people come and ask us if we are alright.. i was so scare.. i asked Charlton again and again how is he.. he said that he is ok.. never die.. dun worry.. he is so weak and his hand is trembling.. mine also.. and eventually i break down with tears... Ambulance came in like 10min?? there was this TP trying to smooth the traffic as well.. both of us were being send to Tan Tock Seng
Hospital.. while inside the ambulance, i was so scare to contact Charlton family.. i scare that they would blame me..

inside A&E, i seen a doctor.. and he was checking my condition.. after tat i was send to do some x-ray.. they check my both elbow and my right angkle.. sadly to say, the x-ray plate was filled with my blood since i am still bleeding a little at my elbow area.. from the x-ray, my bone is still alright.. nothing break.. after tat i was send to so dressing for my poor leg, hand, shoulder...

SAD to say, the nurse skills seem to have problem.. now all the dressing seem to be dropping out one by one.. but at least while dressing, the pain is not as pain as i think.. maybe due to the impact, this pain is like nothing to me leh.. well.. i think i stayed for more den 30min inside the dressing room.. my shirt is torn off.. my short as well!!! T.T only noticed that my short is torn off when i reached home.. 1 of my favourite dry-fit clothes is gone!! NOOOO!! limited edition leh!! haiz.. wat to do??

as for Charlton.. he got hospitalise for 1 day.. his asshole is torn off 3-4cm?? it got to be stitch, said by Charlton.. after i am done with my dressing.. i went over to find him.. he was there trying to cheer me up.. i cant help crying when seeing him at this state.. he still joke around trying to cheer me up.. he need to go to the toilet, so i helped him.. and guess wat?? when he out of the bed, BLOOD IS ALL OVER!! his ass really bleed a lot.. haiz.. i am so sad and guilty for this..

after his dressing, he was send to ward 11D, bed 131.. and got this guy in blue, look quite like Steven Lim.. he is so irritating.. =.= well.. he is doing his job.. wat to do.. bare with it lo..



this is the photo i took b4 i left the hospital.. he is alright and still joke around with me.. since his butt hurt.. i told him that better pray hard that is a male doctor.. but he say that he hope is a female doctor.. reason?? because he dun wan to have something stick into his butt.. haha.. well.. he can joke around.. but he told me that his little finger, the joint area, a little bit of bone had chipped off.. haiz.. i really sad and guilty abt it.. wat to do?? i am the rider~ i am responsible for it..

the Traffic Officer, Officer Chew(is a lady).. also called me up saying abt heading down to the Traffic Police Center at Ubi Ave 3.. she wan my statement.. oh well.. wat to do.. tomorrow Charlton will be discharge from hospital.. so we will see how..

i wonder what happen to Charlton now.. around 0005 earlier on, he called me up saying tat he is going to stitch his butt le.. haiz.. i hope he is alright.. pray hard for him.. as for me?? injured badly.. dun kw how to slp liao.. coz injured shoulder.. HAIZ!!

now i truely understand this.. my family have encounter lots of problem recently.. all because of my dad.. i tot tat i finally solve the problem.. but.. like what the phrase said.. no matters how one person change, the character wun change..

my dad owe a lot of debt.. loanshark la.. various bank la.. owe 40-50k of debt.. after i calculated, 1 month need to pay at least $2.5k to pay off the debt.. and in about 2-3 years everything will clear.. i finally get a job at McDonald.. can get $1.6k per month.. so i told my dad tat i will fork out 1k to help him pay his debt.. den bro can also help out a little.. since they dun earn much.. maybe $400 per person.. and with my dad own salary, we, as a family, can pay off the debt.. we will suffer maybe the 1st year or so.. but i tot we are a family.. we can pull thru this TOGETHER! but it seem like everything is just a dream..

i talked to him earlier on.. he promise me tat before the debt is clear, he will NOT gamble.. den i say 4D also cannot.. but den he argue.. saying that 4D must buy.. den i said that "fine.. but not more den $5 per number.." he agreed to it.. and after a few days only.. i found out that he spend $100+ on 4D just for that 1 day!! i was shock.. i went shouted at him asking why.. mom help him explain also.. i give face to my mom.. so i let it go.. he buy so much coz he WRITE WRONGLY!!! who will believe tat nonsense!!

so after tat.. i found him buying 4D at $20+ per number.. i ask him why again.. he never say anything.. den i tell him that cannot buy so big!! the most $5.. he always "ya la ya la" smile and go away.. the gambling habit of his wun change.. and i think forever wun change..

i do everything i can to save this family from breaking apart.. but it dun seem to be the case.. my dad never learn his lesson.. that face when he promise me.. is filled with guilt.. filled with sadness and nothing-i-can-do.. i tot u bring him light and save him.. in the end?? i think he just take me for granted..

today, i found out that he went gambling... the point of time when i heard this.. my heart is dead.. he break the promise.. i cannot take it when someone promise me yet he cannot fulfilled what he promise.. i called him to come back home immediately or i go downstair and pull him home.. he took a long time to come home.. so i went downstair.. saw him walking slowly with his bunch of friends.. he always hang out with them!! i shouted at him in front of his friends.. i will not give him any more face.. i had give him enough chances... he dun appreciate it.. so be it.. i shouted from downstair to home.. we had a big fight..

i question him.. WHY! WHY! WHY! why he break the promise.. why he went to gamble.. again and again i saw disappointment in my mom face.. i cant count the number of time my mom give me tat kind of look.. why he wan to gamble??? why he wan to break the promise?? didnt we come to a deal that he cannot gamble until the debt is cleared?? why he gamble again?? i shouted at him.. but he just kept quiet and ignore me.. end up?? he threw his mobile phone on the floor and shouted back at me.. "DUN SHOUT LA!!".. well.. why dun shout?? he scare ppl hear?? scare ppl kw he break a promise?? scare ppl know tat he gamble so horribly??

since he like to sell hse so much.. go ahead, i told him.. u wan to divorce.. u wan to sell hse.. go ahead.. go and do it NOW!!! end up?? he only kw how to run away from problem.. den ask me go and die.. fine.. i open the window ledge, almost jump off my hse.. and?? he dun care.. he dun care even if i die.. he dun care who am i.. he just ask me go and die..

i did not jump.. coz i see my mom face.. i told my dad.. u used to dote me the most.. and now?? u break the promise that u made with me.. he simply ask me to dun care him.. who am i to him.. I AM UR DAUGHTER!! but he simply hack care.. he only kw how to run away from problem.. we quarrel so much until we almost fight... he eventually push me out of the room.. my bro came to protect me.. my dad so big size.. if he hit me, i definitely will die!! end up he just BUANG the door.. i cried.. so wat if i cried.. everytime when i was scolding him about his gambling habit.. my leg shaken.. i was so scare.. but nobody knew i was scare.. i told myself that i need to be firm.. so i just let it go.. say whatever i wan.. i asked him what he wan? what he wan den he wun gamble.. he just kept quiet.. since he like to gamble so much.. i took out all my money from my wallet and throw towards him.. "since u like to gamble so much.. this $60 u go and gamble.." i really dun kw wat to do anymore..

after all these fight, mom went and calm him down.. and ask him why he wanna break the promise when he cannot fullfilled?? den mom said that she go and ask the neighbour ah huey and ask her come and talk.. but dad came out and is so furious!! he said if mom go, he will smash everything in the hse.. smash the tv.. smash everything.. well.. he is threatening her.. mom eventually did not go.. have to save the furniture and tv!! so mom did not go lo.. and now?? dad run away from the problem.. den he went out lo.. slam the door.. and gone.. i hope he never come back again..

not long ago.. police came and catch people that gamble.. some were captured, some were not.. and got one time, the police came to my dad fren hse and capture everybody.. coz they were gambling inside.. gambling in a house is illegal.. the wife was the one gambling.. the husband was sleeping in his room.. but because is their hse.. both of them will fine.. they cannot afford to pay the fine.. end up?? they were jailed.. they take turn to be jailed.. my dad said that he went to visit the wife first.. the wife was jailed first.. and he said that the wife was crying very badly.. inside is very dark.. u dun kw is day time or night time.. dad say tat he learn his lesson.. wun gamble anymore.. coz dun wan to be jailed.. but.. u kw.. it has become his habit.. he still gamble.. he will never learn his lesson..

tat time when i say i give him one last chance.. he promise not to gamble.. i heard him talking to his fren on the phone abt it.. i heard him saying that his daughter wan him to become a gd boy.. he will not gamble.. he will change.. he was smiling there.. i really tot he change.. but.. haiz..

i declared that from today onwards i do not have a father anymore.. i gonna break all tie from him..