tada.. i think somebody gonna get really excited right?? Gatsby Moving Rubber.. haha.. i have totally no idea what this.. well.. is a hair gel i suppose so.. haha.. this is one of de gift i gonna send over to steve.. hmmmm.. quite a small bottle.. have a diameter of 8cm.. depth of 3.5cm.. hahaha.. cute sia.. i actually go measure it.. lol.. actually de ruler just beside me.. Moving Rubber come with a few colours.. each colour for different style.. Well.. from wat i see.. Steve will sure choose pink.. coz for spiky hair.. haha..

this is a view of Steve.. Haha.. seem like he really like to spike his hair ar?!?!? hahaha.. see his hair.. soooooo GOLD!!! lol.. oops.. steve photo is out!!!!!! hahaha!! seem like he gonna be famous liao!! lol.. can conclude that Steve like his hair a lot?!?!?! i wonder wat will happen if he gone to army.. hahaha!!

well.. a moment ago went out with my mom.. since my wisdom tooth giving me some problem.. therefore there is a need to go for check up.. my dad check with de clinic in the afternoon about the pricing.. woah!!!!! if pluck out $25.. if operation $300!!! lol!! wat a HUGE different.. hmmm.. i wonder is my wisdom tooth hit my bottom gum tat why pain... or becoz another wisdom tooth coming out.. not sure..

man!! i think i gonna fat liao!! keep eat chocolate!! haha.. just now went down, clinic never open.. end up?? i brought chocolate related cake.. WOAH!!!!!! HAHAHAHA!! gonna eat it tml!!! =X yummy!!

Its Friday today.. Lessons canceled today therefore i need not go to school.. Well.. Slept until quite late cause i was having some interesting dream.. I dream of yiyi!! Quite surprise to dream of him.. But!! Something very different about him!! He don't look like who he is.. I mean his appearance!!! He appear to be someone from stone age?!?! Caveman!!! Gosh!! he got beard all over his face!! HAHAHA!! Kinda funny!!! Tried to draw his appearance out using Paint.. But fail!!! HAHA!! Really look so weird!!

Well, wanted to eat chocolate so much recently!! Got my mum to get some chocolate for me last night.. *flood myself with chocolate* awwwwww!! wat a chocolaty day!! HAHA!! Steve dun envy too much hoh!! I know you wanted some of the chocolate too!! muahaha!! *dun share* =x

Well, since i have so much chocolate!! Got to drink lots of water!! i drank so much till i dream that i am looking for toilet.. In my dream, every 5min like tat i wan go toilet already!! gosh.. really torturing!! even dream also so hard!! so end up?? i woke up and go to toilet!! haha.. really a lot of water inside my body..


I think the picture explain it all.. I think my wisdom tooth giving me problem?? Well, uncle Stanley said that maybe is because my body heaty that why gum pain.. Not really cause by my wisdom tooth.. haha.. oh well.. That word in the picture mean PAIN!!! hehe.. To me, i think is my wisdom tooth hit my bottom gum that why pain.. so far only have one wisdom tooth.. Locate on the top right.. think it gonna fully grew liao.. From how i touch, it feel like it grow to the outside sia.. Hmmm.. Hope my wisdom tooth dun give me too much problem.. Or else gonna go for operation to get it away.. But!! Expensive!!!! 1 tooth gonna cause over 100bucks!! oh man!! broke liao!!


Jya, Ganbatte!!! The word there mean STUDY!! hehe.. Exam is round the corner.. Completed all my quiz question from MEL.. man!! really a lot of question la!! let me see.. think i complete at least 200 over question?? repeat some more!! but it dun seem to work for me.. hehe.. gonna touch on the books to have better result..

Monday: Reliability & Product Safety (RPS)
Time: 8.30am - 10am
Venue: 52-06-08
Duration: 1hour 30min
10 MCQs 20%
1 Short Question (a, b, c, d)30%
2 Complex Question 50%

Gosh!! i lost de exam format!! I dun remember where i copy it!! haha!! gosh!! Better get it from my frens.. hehe.. Thx to Han Xiang, i got tat format out.. hehe.. Lecturer said that concentrate on tutorial and wat he taught.. hmmm.. hope it wun give me any problem!! hehe.. gonna work hard!!

Wednesday: Material Technology & Non Destructive Testing (MT&NDT)
Time: 4pm - 5.30pm
Venue: 52-06-08
Duration: 1 hour 10min
Total 40 MCQs
-10 on PT
-10 on MT
-20 on UT

Oh well.. i think i will complete the paper super fast?? hehe.. i always finish the MCQs question quite fast.. That day in class test.. Also MCQs.. lucky.. hehe.. But i didnt study.. But lucky i got make personal notes on that particular chapter.. Therefore i got quite a good result for tat quiz.. 19/20 HAHA!! aiya!! Wasn't in good mood during that period of time.. So didn't really care much..

COME ON PEOPLE!! Cheer for me!! HAHAHA!! Anyway, to those that are studying hard for the common test.. GOOD LUCK!! hehe.. Hope you all done well.. hmmm.. gonna plan my day for weekend.. wonder how am i going to study.. today kinda wasted.. didnt really study much.. what to do?!?! hehe.. i think i going thru MT&NDT online MCQs.. hehe.. any suggestion where to study?? i cant study at home!!!!! haha!!

hehe.. as promise.. photos.. time is 12.22am.. since i got de time.. must well post.. this is my xiao turtle~ hehe.. bring him to class and play.. lol..

tada~ me and violet again.. hmmmm.. use my "new" phone take de.. oh well.. i still like de quality of my old phone.. as in photo la.. haha.. this one i look kinda pale hoh?? hahaha..

Harlow!!!! i am xiao turtle!! i am cute and small!! my owner is RUBY!! HOHO!!

Xiao Turtle: i just passing by.. haha!!

haha.. head so big!! can cover violet leh.. lol!!

Xiao turtle: violet look tasty!! can i eat her up?!?! HAHA!!


hmmm.. oh well~ kinda bored.. finally finish my project.. now gonna get ready for my common test.. gonna study hard leh!! HEHE!! *transform into hard working ruby* hohoho!! gonna pon morning tutorial class.. hehe.. tat why i stay till so late.. hehe.. friday no school!! YESH!! haha.. come on!!!! study!!! only have 2 common test.. so can plan timing well right ruby?? hehe.. think i start with RPS first..

after common test.. gonna head down to town and get some materials.. hehe.. gonna do 2nd scarf.. HOHO~ wonder wat colour should i pick.. dun think they got enough range of colour.. hehe.. oh well.. dun kw wat to post liao.. haha.. rest a while jiu slp leh.. hehe.. nite nite.. *ahhhhh chuuuu*

well.. the whole funeral ceremony done.. it being quite a long day actually.. well.. it started raining half way thru.. but the rain stop before we start walking.. lucky la.. hmmmmm.. well.. see cousin and relative they all cry until like tat.. really feel like giving them a hug..

well.. the road is cool after the rain.. well.. it being so long since i last hold my mom hand.. hold her hand and walk.. after walk a distance.. we headed for the bus.. when we reach de destination.. we do our last preparation and stuff.. relative and cousin they cry even louder and bad this time.. especially when Hmm Po coffin was inside and starting to burn.. I tears too.. see it burn.. really heart sour..

it started to rain again after the end of everything.. and i got to rush to school.. well.. got one guy (maybe also my cousin!?!?!?!?! not too sure..) drive me out to the road.. my dad actually ask him for help la.. but my dad hoh!! really jialat.. kw why?!?! because he say "can drive my SISTER out to the road so that she can get a cab".. i was like.. WTH!! i ur daughter la uncle!! wat sister.. lol.. my mother end up laughing at there.. well.. my this "cousin" quite handsome.. haha.. didnt really talk to him for de past few days until i in de car..

hail a cab.. $10 to reach school.. haiz.. rush to school for presentation.. end up?? lecturer said that after term break den present.. liew.. she wasnt expecting me to come school today.. but i still make de effort.. end up?? in class see some photo tat freak me out.. den the end.. haiz.. if kw is like this.. i dun go sch leh.. waste my $10!!!

oh well.. gonna fast clear my QFD project.. if not i cannot start revising for my common test.. Monday i got RPS.. Wednesday will be MT&NDT.. friday i have no class.. so need not go to sch~ HAHA!! hmmmmm.. gonna gather some frens and go to sch gym leh.. gonna prepare for NAPFA test.. hehe.. and get my fitness right.. man.. gonna go swimming during the holiday!! HAHA!! so long never go swimming leh..

well.. gonna send a parcel to steve.. Australia leh!!! haha!! but gonna look for de materials.. hope easy to get.. but think DIY bear will have problem.. haha.. will see wat i can do~ HAHA!! gonna clear my common test b4 preparing steve parcel.. hehe.. oh well.. gonna faster settle my project.. hmmm.. oh ya.. took some photo.. but think tml or how den i upload.. hehe.. i stop here for now~ HEHE!!

*Wave* hi everybody~

oh well.. seem like my blog problem gonna last for a while now.. dun really got the time to repair the problem.. haiz.. hope got people can help me.. hehe.. anyway, today is my test.. think i gonna flunk it.. why?? coz i dun have the time to study.. ytd went to funeral place study a while.. but relative ask me to go back home and study.. hmmmm.. like tat lo..

when reach home, i study a while and end up K.O-ing on my bed.. haha.. gosh.. wat to do?? tired ma.. guess wat?? i try my luck and my HP can use leh.. HAHAHA!! finally i can use a proper phone liao.. haiz.. really got so much stuff to complete and i dun really have the time.. wat to do leh?? how to do time planning when i dun even have time to plan?? sob!!! got project to rush.. haiz.. HOW HOW HOW!!!!!

anyway, gonna plan studying thru out the weekend.. who wanna join me?!?! HAHAHA!! currently got me and Charlton.. Peh Sun wanna join?!?!? HEHEHE.. this time round i got 2 common test.. stupid Charlton only got 1.. haha.. ytd saw mk.. have a talk with him.. gohs.. he got 5 common test.. so poor thing right?? mine is monday and wednesday.. and think i gonna go gym after my CT.. who wanna tag along?!?! well.. ytd lecturer said that NAPFA test in on 10th july.. tat is for the girls la.. and for de guys.. 4th july.. haha.. to be confirm again.. man!! gonna brush up my stamina.. or else i sure die at 2.4KM again.. this time round gonna get a gold!!! HOHOHO!!! jiayou jiayou jiayou!!! but b4 that.. T.T think i better clear my stuff first.. HAIZ!!! project and more project.. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~

this is my baby photo!! hoho.. chubby?!?!

this is Ruby!! 5 years old.. when i was young, i took this photo.. for my passport.. hehe.. dun come and pinch my face alright!! i kw i am chubby and cute!! HAHAHA!!

Alright.. now.. this is where ugly ducking come.. this is all my photo during my Secondary School life.. Is a class photo.. it bring back lots of memory actually.. hehe.. my classmate look so CUTE!!! hahah!! u can compare some of them..

Secondary 1: tat my form teacher.. Mr Chia.. still remember my mom quite like him.. coz she say tat he is cute.. hehe.. can u spot me?!?! well.. seem like i always got to stand tat particular position.. see tat center tall gal!??! *WavE* tat me!! haha..

Secondary 1: enough of the laugh alright.. hehe.. this is informal photo.. common sign ^^v.. hahah!! tat gal beside me is my best fren wor.. Qiu Ping.. hehe.. enjoy..

Secondary 2: oh well.. dun wanna talk much abt tat teacher.. hehe.. first 2 years will be the same classmate.. but when go next level, start to change class liao wor.. hmmm.. ugly?!?!?! sob!! stand at that same position again.. haha..

Secondary 3: Mrs Lim.. hehe.. she is a very nice teacher wor!! haha.. me stand same place again.. lol.. gosh.. fat?!?! haha.. well, think u all wun believe tat is me also.. HAHA!!

secondary 3: see.. this one informal.. haha.. dun kw wat to post also.. see some of my classmate.. really cute la.. especially yiyi!! HAHAHA!! he look so toot and young.. oh well.. but this is the time where all the guys start to grow super tall!! right??

Secondary 4: well well.. Mrs Lim is my form teacher again.. hehe.. see 2 different uniform right?? coz our school changing uniform.. i dun really like de old uniform, so i decide to get de new one.. haha.. this is the time where i start to get pretty.. slowly bit by bit.. got myself contact lenses too.. hehe.. as usual.. same position..

Secondary 4: informal time!! hehe.. all those funny faces.. they really look so funny.. hehe.. mine also look super funny right?? hope u can spot me!! at tat usual place!! HOHO!!

Secondary 5: last year of my secondary school life.. Mr Raju.. he is my form teacher.. always play around with him.. me?? hoho!! i sit in form this time.. coz i am de monitress of the class ma.. finally, no need to stand my usual place leh.. starting to become much more pretty leh right??

Secondary 5: well, our informal photo.. somebody missing?!?! YIYI!!! he hide behind!! see tat head?!?! tat is him!! LOL!! he is a very shy boy ar?? haha.. there is a reason to sit beside Mr Raju.. coz like tat he say he will look slimmer.. lol.. rubbish!!

oh well~ when i go back to my Secondary school for to take result.. everybody was stun.. they SHOCK!! why?? coz i slim down a lot!!! hahaha!! i so proud of myself.. i did lost 11kg!!! hoho.. feel good now.. the way i am.. hehe.. below are some of the photo of me!! after lost my weight!! hehe..











so what do u think?? hehe.. that is the end of my Ugly Duckling story.. hehe.. *wink* now i turn into a swan.. so.. if u think i aint gd enough, go find someone else =D haha.. i went thru so much.. i understand all.. hehe.. bleah!!

Love is not lost, nor forgotten. The world may fall around us, but love never dies.
© DJ Steve

i am sad.. very sad.. why does all the bad things happening to me?? when den will have good things?? this morning my mom told me that my relative pass away.. i am sad.. i still remember her smile and the way she cry.. remember got one time, my another relative pass away.. i saw her crying so badly.. dun kw how to comfort her.. she is very old already.. but she look so healthy to me.. seem like everyone got their "days".. when it have to end, it will.. she pass on this morning 8am..

actually wanted to go buy yiyi birthday present later on.. but after hearing the news, i got no mood to shop for his present.. already got something in my mind for wat to get for him.. yiyi birthday is tml.. haiz.. think maybe will delay his present bah.. the funeral is on coming wednesday.. i just email my lecturer for wednesday lesson that i wun be attending school.. well.. for 1 lesson i wun be attending.. but for another lesson i die die need to rush back.. think gonna get a cab?? haiz.. waste $$ again liao lo.. already broke liao.. coz have presentation.. tat why got to rush back.. mood aint gd.. ah min jio me go drink tonight.. i not sure if i will be going.. mood aint gd.. aint a good drinker too.. now i feel so restless..

tot after i have a long rest.. i will feel better.. haiz.. wat to do?? now completely lost my mood.. no mood to go and have my job done.. so much to complete for this weekend.. haiz.. wat to do.. *lock myself up*

well.. this is wat happen after i hit Ivor.. hahaha!! it look bad isn't it?? but is alright la.. feeling much more better now.. hehe.. no problem!!!! steady pom pi pi~ see so many musics note right?!?! haha.. tat is the guitar score i trying to learn.. "Missing You" hoho!! gonna meet up Kieran next sat i think.. den get him to teach me.. HAHA.. hope i can learn this thing ASAP!!

TADA!! Violet!! sms-ing her darling sweet heart.. HAHA!! let me catch dao!! hoho!! see she so happily sms-ing her darling~~~ LOL!!! and one very very impt thing!!!! SHE MOLEST ME!!!!!!! T.T lol.. she slap my butt ytd!! ouch!! lol.. den in class she touch my leg.. lol!! den she punch my head.. woah!! Violet really Violent!! HAHA!! but we all just playing..

well.. i am so super tired.. dozing off in the library now.. well.. i wun be updating my blog now if uncle michael didnt help me out.. maybe because ytd, tat why today wasn't that good.. cause today will be doing all the group project with eddie and violet ma.. so was asked to bring a lappy.. and guess what?? i pack my mouse, my charger, battery.. but den.. i left my lappy at home.. cute rite?!?! when i reach pending, den i relize tat i didnt bring.. i slap my forehead hard!! gosh!! kinda pain actually.. haha.. haiz.. was thinking wat to do lo.. cant be asking me to go back take right?? will be wasting 2 hours for nothing.. haiz.. well.. did trying to get help from jB.. but i think he is a sleep.. end up uncle Michael come help me.. he went to my hse and get my lappy from my mom.. hehe.. he get lost in my school sia.. haha.. wanna thx you wor.. haha.. xie xie ni.. =DD

hmmm.. ytd was a totally BAD DAY!! actually meet up Kelvin and Michael.. they wanted to have dinner.. so they come over to Yishun Mac and eat lo.. well, i head down to meet them.. they actually went to YS instead of the place they should meet me.. while waiting for them, i saw somebody.. somebody tat cause me pain.. Javier Tay Jun Long.. i was quite surprise to see him at basketball court.. how on earth will be come over to Chong Pang?? when i saw him, the pain immediately take over me.. the pain he cause me 1 year ago return back to me.. WHY!!! WHY LET ME SEE THIS JERK!!! he cheated on me!! he lie to me.. he is a totally failure!! T.T

i trying to control my emotion.. but tears just came out.. i dun kw wat to do.. i feel so pain to see him.. i just couldn't understand why he do tat to me.. how can he get my heart and den destroy it without a blink in his eyes.. his "too bad" i will never forget.. even if i go jump off the building he also wun care.. how can this kind of person exist in this world.. what he did to me.. i will never forget.. NEVER!! when i tot of finally got my true love.. he destroy everything.. he dun care what will happen to me.. he dun care how hurt i am.. he dun care how i feel.. how can this jerk do this to me!! i just dun understand.. he let me down again and again.. but i forgive him again and again.. and wat i get is this?? result of being a understanding gal is this?? i really so disappointed..

Javier Tay Jun Long, let me warn u.. u better dun appear in front of me again.. for goodness sake.. the tears i drop for u, u can never turn it back.. what is done cannot be undone.. and i tell u, for wat u done to me.. one day.. one day u will understand the pain i undergo.. thx for teaching me a lesson on how "GOOD" a man can be.. i really Da Kai Yan Jie.. Ni Zhou Ni De Yang Guang Dao, Wo Zhou Wo De Du Mu Qiao.. Wo Meng Jing Shui Bu Fan He Shui.. so u just get lost!!! dun ever appear in my sight again!! when see u, the pain u used to gave me just come back to me automatically.. i try so hard to overcome tat pain.. so just get lost!!!

was not really feeling good.. on the way home i got myself some alcohol.. knowing tat i got a report to rush.. but i still brought it.. tears drop while i doing my report.. i cant control the pain.. dun kw how to do my report also.. end up i just anyhow do.. den go to bed.. it was really terrible for me.. but i know, i will get over with this.. just need time..

Guess where i am?? haha.. Pepper lunch!!! long for pepper lunch for so long!!! hoho!! well.. gonna eat something before i start me work ma!!! sure is busy day..

hehe.. wun forget to take some photo of me de la.. say cheese!!! hahaha.. weather really so hot!!! wore a tube out.. hahaha!! =x

This is Charlton.. he forever order the same thing.. LOL!! i sot of also la.. always order salmon de.. i love salmon!!!!!! YUMMY!!!! *ohhhhh~ heavenly feeling*

This is Gwen.. ehhhhh.. a bit dun look like her le this photo... dun kw why.. haha.. she order the same thing as Charlton.. too bad i dun really like beef.. HOHO!!

This time round, i gonna try something new.. every time i go Pepper Lunch i will buy Salmon set.. hmmmmm.. no money liao.. so end up i got this.. well.. =.= is still expensive.. but good food!! NO CHOICE!! who ask me love to eat Pepper Lunch de Salmon.. HAHA!! got this "Salmon Cream Pasta" awwwwwwww!! *heavenly feeling* sooooo nice to eat!!!!! AWWWWWWW~ i love salmon!!!!! *Wan Shui~ Wan Shui~* muahaha!! *Cheer for Salmon*

i quite like this photo.. well.. after dinner.. of coz start work la!! went to ACM for meeting.. see tat gal behind me?!?! tat is Gwen!! hahaha!! some how when i put my jacket over my shoulder, look a little bit like little red riding hood!! hahaha!! cute?!?!?! =x

by the time we finish meeting.. is about 10 plus in the night.. gosh.. but the night of Singapore River look very nice.. haha.. Enjoy some of the beautiful view i took.. haha!! i took while walking on the Qing Ren Qiao~ haha!! Lover Bridge.. hoho..

see tat blue colour lighting thingy at de center!?!?!? tat is de BIG BIG BIG WHEEL!! LOL!!! de right side building is Singapore Fullerton Hotel.. pretty hoh??

nah!!! a more perfect view for Singapore Fullerton Hotel.. hehe.. night time lightning always so pretty.. HAHAHAHA!! just like stars from the night sky.. awwwwww.. so nice!! some more is full moon wor ytd.. so really enjoy a lot..

there~ de moon.. well, moon always dun look good in photo.. coz HP camera always cannot take nicely.. still prefer to see the moon with my naked eyes.. HAHAHA!! is not cloudy ytd.. and the moon is super BRIGHT!!! haha.. wonder who will actually take a look at the moon?!?!

a little bit blur.. coz was rushing to take this picture.. Singapore Clark Quay.. all those different colours of the light really make the night look great.. but is so bright.. HAHA!!

Left to Right: Peh Sun, Charlton, Gwen, Aisyah

how about me?!?! of coz, i am the camera man.. HAHA!! lazy to indicate their name in the photo.. coz now i am SUPER BEAT!!!! so tired!!!!! *Faint*

Today is the day.. Event day.. finally, our event.. big scale de!!! well.. was assign to Peranakan Museum.. man!! from ACM walk to Paranakan Museum really very far leh!! some more lost my way.. really ma lu la!! call my fren, end up still go wrong place.. the sun really show no mercy!! SO HOT!!! i finish my whole bottle of water also not enough.. end up go to Mac and get some more drink.. liew.. can u imagine, i finish my drink.. den i reach my destination.. lol.. really freaking hot!!! was sweating like... hmmmmm.. bathing?!?! lol.. didnt bring along my rubber band.. cannot tie up my hair.. really pretty bad.. when reach Peranakan Museum, will never forget to see their artifacts.. one of de artifacts actually catch my attention a lot!!! COFFIN!!!! gosh!!!! some more de background still got crying sound.. woah!! alone walk lo!!! so scary!! den i faster run away!!! HAHA!! hmmmm.. after go thru one round in the Museum, kinda tired.. so stay at level 1 and rot.. see my hand on tat picture?!?! I BECOME DOOR GIRL!! lol.. keep open the door.. close the door.. open~~ close~~ lol!! today really a lot of people la.. kindergarden students.. secondary school students.. poly students.. Old grandparents groups.. woah!!! all range of human!!! LOL!! really a lot of people.. den.. security guard come talk to me.. old uncle some talk to me.. =.= gosh.. just smile and talk lo.. as usual... "u so tall......" lol.. =.=

well.. finally can get back to ACM!! FINALLY!!!!! LUNCH TIME!!! lol.. i dun kw why.. my appetite super gd today.. maybe coz i never had breakfast.. i ate 2 of the burgers!!!! MUAHAHA!! first time in my life i eat 2 burgers!!! guess wat?!?! Ivor..... Tat guy in the picture.. he actually ate 4!!!!!!!!!!! *faint* he still tell me tat his record, 3 bite can finish 1 burger.. woah!! didnt kw his mouth so big!!! and hoh!!! he really very bad la!!!! burp on me!!!! SO ER XIN!!!!! den i go hum tum him la!!! who ask him so er xin!! but den.. haiz.. hit him = i die.. why??? coz i injured myself.. my right hand seriously inured.. inner injury.. got swollen.. cant really move much for tat part of my hand la.. man!! his bone really super hard leh!!! dun kw why~ everytime hit him i die.. coz i will injured.. tat time at mac, i forget wat happen.. i think he bullying me ma.. den i hit him.. woah!!!! my whole thumb injured.. inner blue black.. pain for a few days.. den my thumb totally no feeling and cannot move.. den he there help me rub away de blood clot away.. did cry a little.. coz really super pain.. but this time round i never cry la.. coz i endure de pain!!! WOOSH!!!!!!! T.T but really pain.. sob sob!! den Ivor and Charlton super bad lo!! there sandwich me.. kns!! last time is Ivor and Jason there disturb.. both sandwich me.. now is Ivor and Charlton.. wa lao eh!! lucky i never shout and BOMB!! if not really oops liao..

Terrorist?!?! no la.. is Mr X.. haha.. today our event de important people.. Left, we call him Mr X.. Right, is the security guard.. haha!! really funny la!! they act a short skit.. i laugh till wanna faint.. lol.. super funny la.. he wear all black.. den he hide one corner, really totally camouflage to it la!!! Gwen got scare by him.. coz she cannot see him at that corner.. lol.. really fun la..

oh well.. today event is a total great success!!! hoho.. well.. got a lot of "free" stuff also.. MUAHAHHAHA!!! really had a lot of fun.. bullying Uncle Willie and also payback time for Jonathan!! haha.. Well, this time round Jonathan really got Dui Shou liao.. Rakcent really BOMB him until he nth to say.. HAHAHA!! so fun!!!!! well.. today really super tired day la.. and yet?? i still got 2 reports to rush.. gonna careful with my injury liao.. if touch, pain lo!! *ouch ouch* gonna faster finish 1 of my report..

guess what?!?! I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF!!! kw why!?!?! coz i change my guitar string!! ALL BY MY OWN!!!! yesh!!! and now?? i tune everything leh.. so perfect.. but den.. not totally perfect.. T.T why?? coz i tie de string hoh.. when tunning.. i do wrong direction.. lol.. should be counter clockwise de lo!! den i go do clockwise.. haha!! *Faint* but!! i still very happy!!!! ytd really never slp la.. coz i try to settle my guitar.. until.. 2am?!?! reach home super late la.. coz meeting at town area ma.. T.T MRT a lot peoples also.. hmmmm.. i got a sleepless night.. cant slp.. den today morning super early wake up go bring de secondary school students over.. HAHA!! when reach de school, Sing de National Anthem.. woah!!! dun remember when i last sing.. really forget how to sing sia.. kinda not use to it.. but just try to get over with it la.. really happy tat de DM not coming.. if not i gonna old by a few years.. hmmmm.. perhaps i will take a rest for a while before i start writing my report.. hehe.. very tired.. yawn!! hope i can wake up.. hehe.. *wink*

oh ya.. sob!! now my "chocolate" turn to spoil.. lucky i found my chocolate back!!! T.T sad la.. first is my Sushi.. now is my chocolate.. SOB!!!!!! if lost, really will cry~ sob!!

oh well.. like to share this.. hmmmm.. kinda like this music.. so i quickly got my guitar and try to play this.. but.. i cant.. i need a capo.. well.. this kid is call Jung Sungha.. he really talented.. "Missing You" is a songs tat he compose.. i think?!?!?! hmmmmm.. really like the tune.. really do sound like its title.. "Missing You".. the music of missing someone.. i wonder if i can ever master this song.. hope so.. someday maybe??

got my guitar for like.. 3 years?? but till now, i still dun kw how to play yet.. not really gd at strumming.. so.. i think maybe i learn tab?!?! haha.. oh well.. was kinda rush with my pace.. gonna restart all my thinking about guitar leh.. so i started to recap the basic.. seem like i not really gd with my basic.. so.. i practice with my basic chords.. arghhhh.. still dun like "F" chords.. coz really hard to press.. now my fingers kinda pain.. maybe i too rush over it leh.. gonna get a capo soon.. so that i can practice this song.. do some research online, and get myself understand the tab score.. is not tat hard actually.. seem like online really can learn a lot of stuff wor..

my cough still haven recover.. and today my mood is really totally mess up.. really dun wish to go to tat school and meet tat DM.. was so vexed today.. just now even fought with my eldest brother.. he really make me damn piss off.. i pour him water (coz he really deserve tat!! ROAR!!) and den i scolded him badly.. how old already!! how many times must i tell them.. DUN PESTER ME!! was on phone with Xadrian.. and i almost curse and swear to the phone.. i pause and den mute my hp.. den i scold scold scold.. scold till my parents run out.. they one day never hear me shout they really cannot slp i tell u.. DUN UNDERSTAND THEM!!! why other people have gd brothers.. and me?? have irritating brothers.. arghhhhhhhhh!! PUI!!!

repeat hearing this music for so many time.. really can cool me down.. really can understand the pain for missing someone.. sometime just wish to say "I Miss You".. to all my friends and relative.. that i still remember them.. this songs bring me back to my past.. my memory.. Miss my grandma (father side) tat pass away when i was young.. maybe cause i am young, i dun kw wat is pain.. but now, i clearly understand how one heart can be hurt.. the pain is not easy to endure.. i still got 2 formal reports to rush.. also some tutorial.. but my mood just swinging.. cannot really focus myself to get my work done..

wasn't feel very well last night.. tummy giving me lots of problem.. was in pain.. without knowing, i fall a sleep on my bed.. but got woke up by Michael who is pm-ing me in msn.. Ear piece still in my ear, and i got woke up by the "ding ding ding" from my msn.. was kinda lost when i woke up.. i see the time, abt 4 in the morning.. oh gosh.. i never off my light.. sure waste a lot of electricity.. i am lost and blur.. dun kw wat am i doing also.. so.. end my conversation with Michael and went back to slp.. dun kw wat dream i got anyway.. gosh.. mood really swinging~~ dun kw wat to do.. haiz.. sian.. tummy still very unwell.. i miss chocolate.. T.T

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我疯你 别让我错的太多
我疯你 别让我错的太多 Ahh~ Wu Ohh Ohh~
我疯你 别让我活得太多
我疯你 会让我失去太多 Wu~ Ohh~ Ohh~ Ohh~



well.. was kinda addicted to Wu Jia Hui songs recently.. above lyrics is i hear myself den write out de.. haha.. clever?? hope no error.. hehe.. Michael managed to get his album songs for me.. Thx papa.. he keep ask me dun call him papa.. so.. call him da ge hao leh la.. haha.. Michael is just like a da ge ge to me.. he's caring.. haha.. about the DHL service is alright la.. haha.. after all only 1 person i allow to do delivery service to me.. haha.. but very happy la.. thx you for your concern..

today is a terrible day!! why i say so?? last nite went over to kelvin hse.. guess wat?? movie marathon again!! haha.. from my previous post, tat i update from kelvin house, already mention abt movie marathon liao ma.. haha.. hmm.. let me recap wat happen last nite.. after i update my previous post, i went into de hall to watch tv.. well.. Channel U showing Jackie Guess Show.. Wo Cai Wo Cai Wo Cai Cai Cai.. watch and watch.. den i soon get a little bit tired.. so i took my ipod from kelvin room carefully hope not to wake Sherlin up.. den i ly on de sofa and hear my songs lo.. dun kw when they will be back.. so just wanna catch some rest.. oh well.. i tot i slept.. but after i check thru my ipod song list, nah.. i wasnt slp at all!!! coz i remember hearing all de songs.. maybe just close eyes rest tat kind.. hmmmm.. jB did called my phone.. asking about i wanna eat or not.. but i didnt notice my phone vibrating.. was with my ipod in my ear all the while.. so end up jB called Ah Min..

So i went back to ly on the sofa.. well.. kinda emo actually.. got a little bit of tears came out from my eyes.. maybe just the yawning bah.. i dun kw.. but did wanna cry when see the news in China.. a mother wrote an SMS to her baby.. translate, "if you still alive, i wanna let u kw.. i love u.." gosh.. i saw this i cry out!! really very very sad la!! T.T haiz.. oh well.. when i sense de tears in my eyes, michael came in and put food on the table.. oh well.. they are back home.. aiyo!! michael ye zhen shi de.. wun soft a bit.. never see we resting here.. haha.. oh well..

jB actually brought chicken wing rice for me.. but den.. i took his porridge instead.. like wat i said, jB aint tat tot-ful enough.. mixing with him recently and he didnt even take notice i have sick for so long.. =.= since sick haven recover, and in tat stuffy room, throat really feel very bad.. and now?? my cough got worst again.. haha!! tot i recover leh.. but now become worst again.. den watch movie lo.. watch watch watch.. den ask kelvin to get me plain water.. haha.. tat smooth my throat a lot.. but den.. kinda cannot catch my breath.. wonder why.. recently got problem breathing.. breath much harder den usual.. i think maybe sick.. tat why bah.. haiz.. my health ar.. really damn bad..

hmmm.. first movie.. tat title i forget leh.. but is a female fighter.. i think Singapore gonna show soon.. tat show aint bad.. tat girl fighting skill not bad wor!! really interesting.. haha.. den.. we watch.. "21" is a show about counting and poker cards.. well.. i still dun understand those counting thingy.. dun even kw wat the heck is tat!! haha.. but it doesnt concern me anyway.. dun think i will go casino gamble also.. not those type of people.. aint rich also!! HAHA!! maybe in the future go play play for fun also can.. hmmmm.. let me see.. den.. we watch "Flood".. but watch for 30min den i go off leh.. coz is morning!! got work at 7am.. so jB send me home.. didnt talk to jB for the whole journey.. maybe i aint in the mood to talk also bah.. in my mind was thinking a lot of stuff.. so much till i dun even kw where am i.. the night is sure cold!! coz i never bring my jacket along ma.. but still ok.. still can take it.. maybe kinda Xi Guan liao ba??

one thing tat i kinda mind is tat jB asking me to try be other people pillion.. hmmmm.. i totally cannot agree with it.. maybe i got my own reason for not being other people pillion bah.. dun wanna take my life as a toy.. wan it den treasure.. dun wan it den anyhow.. maybe i dun really treasure my life well.. but not the stage where i anyhow la.. oh well.. sometime really dun understand wat jB is thinking also.. he got so much thinking in his mind that sometime i dun kw he is using which character.. maybe de "aura" i feel is different bah..

hmmmm.. after i reach home, stare my wall a while, den change and went to mac.. oh well.. thinking of eating something first b4 i start work.. coz my gastric aint feeling that gd since at kelvin house.. didnt bring along my gastric pill also.. always bring my pills to school.. but when i need it i always never carry it with me.. gosh.. tat wat usually happen rite?? haha.. when u need it, it will never be there.. even pill also wanna surprise me.. haha.. oh well.. the night is SO HOT!! i am sweating over here.. hmmmm.. keep listen this song.. "Wo Feng Ni".. well.. the songs tat i mention above.. keep replay and play.. really like this song.. like the feeling.. hehe.. like de music.. like the notes.. *sing* Wo Feng Ni~~~~~ Bie Rang Wo Shuo De Tai Duo~~~~~~ hahahaha..

oh well.. as wat i was saying.. went to work, eat something first.. but den.. i didnt finish my food.. haiz.. just got 1 bite on the Egg Muffin and tat it.. cannot eat leh.. but manage to finish my Hashbrown.. got myself a limenade also.. haiz.. wat to do.. waste food.. never even clear my dinner just now.. was so hungry!!!!! but den i just cannot finish my food.. hmmm.. appetite just suddenly gone.. maybe i thinking too much liao ba.. tat why no appetite.. or maybe because i am sick.. tat why.. plus the weather is so terrible!!! think my sickness will get even worst..

i have such a hard time working!!! didnt get a wink last nite.. wat to do.. recently mac de job.. is really getting more and more tough.. dun really work for the pay, but den.. now think about it, the pay really dun match with the job done.. haiz.. think i will be quitting soon.. dun really can take it.. under too much stress recently.. i still got 2 formal reports to rush.. and Wednesday is event day.. haiz.. need to go to tat damn school.. and tat DM didnt tell me anything about wat time the bus go or wat.. than wat should i do sia.. really so piss off by him.. haiz.. den Tuesday need to go to ACM.. man.. STRESSSSSSSS!! today really work like bull.. i be runner today.. and really RUN all over the place.. lucky i never done anything wrong.. oh.. maybe got one.. just trying to cut open de coffee powder bag, and BOMB.. some of the coffee powder end up in my shirt.. oh well.. maybe due to the air pressure inside bah.. man.. really so bad lo!! today not tat much people.. but den super busy.. and i keep die die wanna keep in my standard.. everytime de timing so high.. so this time round i die die ask them to keep it below 100.. manage to did it.. but den behind kinda clash.. my mind cannot think.. my mind cannot work.. dun kw wat i doing.. just wanna catch my breath and do things rite.. doing the right things and doing the things right is so different la.. haiz.. was so stress up and tired till i there wave white flag.. in the end got to swap with Yu Ying.. coz she see me really tooooo stress up leh.. so i be de order taker.. manage to pull thru everything.. was keep running non stop for 3hours!! can imagine how hard my life is?!?! lol.. maybe is not tat hard compare to others la.. but to me, without any rest, and chiong all the way.. is really hard la.. plus i sick.. oh well.. dun wanna find anymore excuses leh..

got my manager to let me off early.. tat little bit early la.. 30min earlier.. when i reach home, oh well.. no ppl at home.. i get all my clothes ready and go took a bath.. ahhhhhhh~ feel so nice after taking a bath.. smell nice.. mood nice.. and the next time i kw, BOMB!!!! i K.O. on my bed leh.. was in a totally different sleeping position.. haha.. i sleep up side down.. and to side way.. lol.. but soon after i fall a sleep.. my irritating brothers came back home.. i think he went to the market with my mom.. cant he see i am sleeping!!! hmmmm.. never close my door.. so.. oh well.. nvm.. see i sleeping there.. he keep at there shout "got your letter.. oi oi.. got letter.." wa lao eh.. i totally no energy to reply him.. so i just continue close my eyes and slp.. mama see me like dead pig so ask brother to keep his mouth shut and leave me alone.. hmmmm.. i slept for about 5 hours like tat?? woke up abt 5pm.. got weird dream.. but i now dun remember wat dream i have la.. just kw is very weird de dream.. *cough cough cough* got very bad cough again.. haiz..

hmmmm.. tummy dun really feel well.. gastric kinda act up again just now.. i think not gastric bah.. dun kw wat kind of pain is this.. only kw tat time i got this pain in the bus tat time on the way to school.. and the next thing i kw, i almost fainted in the bus.. my eyes actually white out.. i almost grab the guy next to me for support lo.. lucky i still "strong" enough.. still remember when i get off the bus i almost fall down.. coz my leg sooooo JELLY!!! dun kw why.. first time in my life i ALMOST fainted.. and i REALLY fainting tat time.. and first time in my life cold sweat!!! haha.. *cough cough* arghhhhhh.. feel so sick.. cough non stop..

seem like a long post for me.. actually wanna to write more.. but i am at lost now.. dun kw wat to write also.. i dun kw wat i wan.. wat is my future like.. will i even have a future?? i dun even kw.. life is really so hard.. need to endure all these alone is really so hard.. sometime just hope got people beside me to push me.. to motivate me.. to cheer for me.. trying to be position all the time.. but there is time where i totally not myself.. i cant be myself.. i dun kw who i am.. i can be cheerful all the way.. being happy and cheerful is my character.. but being emo and sad is also my character.. trying my best not to show my emo side to others.. choose to endure alone.. oh well.. all these years, i have being enduring all along... alone... come to think of it, those boyfriends i used to have.. none of them acutally can help me to lessen my stress and pain.. but the pain they cause me is really big.. wat to do???? alone endure it.. can say i already lost faith in guys.. there is really toooo much jerk out there.. but wat to do?? i hang out with guys most of the time.. my character suit to hang out with guys more den gals.. guys is much more easier to understand compare to gals.. plus i grow up in a guys family.. more or less i still feel comfortable mixing with guys.. but den.. guys can be such a danger to me.. "Learn how to open your eyes and see".. Herman keep telling me this.. in fact, everyone telling me this.. man.. my eyes is not big in the first place.. plus i am so blur and clumsy!! when i am alone and chill mood, my character is like a super mature lady.. tat usually happen at nite.. at nite time i become very quiet.. quiet and mature.. but in the day time, i am just like a kid.. smiling everywhere i go.. blur blur everywhere i go.. the only time tat i can think is at nite.. this is the time tat my real character shows up.. well.. not real or fake character.. maybe is just my original character bah.. people normally see my day time character.. they dun kw much about my nite time character.. both is me.. but both is different.. different ruby..

haiz.. wish to sit by the beach.. where the nite sky filled with stars shine upon me.. just quietly sit there.. really dun wish to see the sun up so fast.. normally when the sun up, the dream i am in will be waken.. the sun force me to come back to reality.. cruel world!! i like nite time.. still remember tat time i sit by the beach alone.. a distance from my fren.. the breeze is cold.. so cold till i hope somebody can just hug me there.. haha.. oh well.. watever.. *slap slap* wake up~ haha.. to be a person that i hope to become.. really so hard.. haiz.. my post is so long.. so long never write so long de post leh.. there is so much i wanna say out.. but i dun kw start from where.. nite time, with me alone in my room.. without and disturbance from outside.. with the stars shining brightout my window.. this is the life i wan.. i suppose??

always wanted to have a house.. when i ly on my bed, i can see all the stars.. and i can see the pretty sky to bed.. but everytime when i have such tot, haiz.. other stuff will pop into my mind.. how to clean de glass?? wat if a bird fly pass and poo and de poo poo drop on the glass?? what if got heavy rain and the glass break?? or will it have alien or something drop on it suddenly??? liew.. all these really ruin my perfect tot of my pretty stars!!! ROAR!! oh well.. everything have their pros and cons rite.. maybe automatic pop up de bah.. haha.. being writing my blog for 1hour leh.. sometime it feel so gd to be blogging without anything in my surrounding to disturb me.. oh well.. gonna have a nice rest.. and start my stressful life tml.. really need to clear a lot of stuff tml.. haiz.. who can help me destress?? wanna have chocolate.. yet my throat dun allow me to.. this cannot tat cannot.. haiz.. si le suan le.. T.T stress la!!! HOW TO DESTRESS!!!!! i cant take stress as dessert..

"STRESSED" and "DESSERTS" is just de opposite.. haiz.. say is like tat say la.. but how to really take stress as dessert?? really kinda stress out.. not kinda.. is REALLY STRESS OUT!! *cough cough* so stress till i dun kw wat to do.. headache.. dun wish to think so much.. trying to enjoy... but CANT!! SO HARD!! T.T wat to do????

This is another songs tat i like.. "Sui Rang Wo Yuan Yi".. this is de songs tat my blog put previously.. haha.. this songs also can be heard sometime at the ending of the 9pm show on Channel 8.. hehe.. really like it.. how about u??


伍家辉 - 虽然我愿意

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手
为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔

我别无选择
就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你 虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂虽然我愿意(心还想着你)

i feel kinda tired actually.. for now.. haha.. nothing to do.. really bored.. hmmm.. jB, kelvin and michael went out to JB to pump petrol leh.. left me, ah min and sherlin.. yawn~ dun really kw wat to do now.. wonder what time they will be back.. later 7am got work.. so early in the morning will ask jB to send me back home.. think i gonna ton all the way leh.. lol..

hmm.. aint using my own computer.. now using kelvin computer.. coz now at his hse ma.. haha.. better not use too long.. coz his parents back home leh.. today is such a boring long day.. still got 2 more reports to rush.. sian.. den Tuesday need to go to de school.. really hope everything go well.. but i think tat DM sure will piss me off.. better prepare for the worst leh..

oh well.. going back to de stuffy room leh.. hope wun get sick this time.. or else morning cough cough den no voice again.. hehe.. better dun use the computer liao.. hehehe!! JIAYOU!!! yawn.. i still cant slp at other place.. lol.. let see wat will happen later.. wonder wat dvd they will bring back later too.. hmmmmmm... hope not bloody de.. hehe.. oh well~ go watch tv leh.. see de news.. really so sad la!! see they report abt china that thingy... gosh.. tears in my eyes.. really so sad.. first is SARS.. followed by Tsunami.. now this.. haiz.. earth is really in bad shape leh.. wonder wat i can do to help.. save the earth people!!! the earth is complaining!!

seem like today is a terrible day for me?? on the way home, tat discipline master(DM) called me.. like what Willie said, he keep say nononononono~ simple thing he keep there complain this and that.. why i so unlucky?? why i kanna tat school?? in the end?? important msg he didnt tell me... so *curse and swear* sia.. ytd i was on fire.. all becoz of this DM.. so what if de school is gd?? his attitude and personality FAILED!! simple manners also dun have..


den after finish talking, i found out that my Sushi gone.. i cant find it.. my heart breaking.. that Sushi mean so much to me.. now mine gone, what does it mean?? i keep stare my phone.. but i cannot find.. i dun kw where it drop.. sad for the whole day.. yet?? haiz.. my day still super terrible..

MIA from SBF for 1 week.. today finally go back post.. haiz.. seem like is not my day.. end up i was crying in front of my lappy.. just feel that kelvin went kinda over.. i just feel that my reputation kinda ruin.. i dun wanna to have link with yahoo.. totally dun wan to have any close link.. end up?? i was crying quite badly here.. haiz.. still tot of taking a nap.. but now.. dun think i can bah.. haiz.. just got de feeling of getting a bottle of alcohol.. it being a while since i last drink.. since i not a drinker, 1 bottle is enough for me..

who can understand me?? who kw wat kind of situation i am in?? who can protect me from all the harm?? i am not strong.. i not wat i look.. being tall and big size dun mean i am strong.. i am weak.. i am more weaker den u imagine.. i am so fragile.. may break anytime.. wat should i do to be brave?? how long can i still hold on?? i am tired.. so tired.. so tired till i can slp for the next million years.. once slp, and never can wake up..

i wanted to see de sky.. wanted to see de stars.. wanted to have some air outside.. i dun feel good.. i am sad.. i dun wish to be lock up in my room and stare wall.. those stars on my wall aint real.. those smile on my face aint real.. and me?? am i real?? how wish i could be me.. and not wat others wan me to be.. just wanna to find some happy time.. i miss the beach.. i miss the nite sky.. haiz.. =(

Guess what this is?? Sausage!! amazing right?? Violet bring this for me.. lol.. but i cant take.. cause is beef.. i dun really take beef tat much.. i only take super little!! haha.. if one full beef product, i cannot take.. lol.. not use to taking beef.. haha!! this sausage very cute la!! warm warm de.. from Vietnam de..

See!!! RuBy so hardworking!!! hahaha.. take so much notes.. gosh.. Wong TT really talk a lot.. keep repeat same thing.. oh well.. *faster take note* when RuBy hardworking time, table SUPER messy de!! lol!!

This one.. Violet write de.. "tell me.. who is the cutest wahaha...... Mr WTT =)" she cute la.. listen class halfway draw this.. lol.. can imagine how boring the class is right?? Wong TT de lesson really super boring de la!! coz minimum he will repeat 3times... LOL!!

tada!! Mr Wong TT!! haha.. he keep a hidden camera in class.. who help others sign attendence.. he will go check de camera.. LOL!! crap!! he joking there de la!! HAHAHAHA!!

hmmmm.. one of de.. thingy.. lol!! Ultrasonic Test use de.. this one.. for de wat wat beam use de.. die.. forget.. lol!!! angle beam de.. lol.. tat time use this to do experiment.. lol.. this topic really boring sia.. haiz.. but have no choice!! have to study!! ROAR!!!

Finger is Violet de.. lol!! see!! her finger bigger den Mr Wong TT de head.. lol!! see.. Wong TT so popular.. can be inside my blog.. hahaha.. naughty RuBy keep take photo!! LOL!!! HOHOHO!!

At Blk 53.. hehe.. Sun is setting.. finally finish I&E meeting.. See this view.. so take lo.. Tat building is Blk 50.. hahaha.. aint this view nice?!?! hehe.. some time in school also can take beautiful picture wor!! hahahaa!!!

Watashi wa RuBe desu!! lol.. above photo all taken ytd.. but this one.. is today.. haha.. today wore spec to school.. early morning cannot wake up.. eyes pain pain.. so.. wear spec lo.. aha.. man!! eye sight so bad sia!! cannot see properly.. hmmm.. spec colour drop off.. some got colour some dun have.. haiz.. dun kw why.. de colour weak bah.. so.. this morning, i go peel off ALL DE COLOUR!! hahaha... like tat look much more better.. but den.. Charlton say i look so nerdy!! eek!! really meh?!?! Violet still say i look good in spec.. lol.. but i still prefer myself without spec la.. haha!!