oh well.. i am sick again.. haiz.. down with flu.. haiz.. friday my I&E event start.. but.. i am sick.. man.. how sia.. this weekend need to work.. haiz.. man really dun feel well.. haiz.. new year clothes haven settle... AH MA~ SAT we go buy le.. haiz.. if not really no time le..

anyway.. i got a hair cut.. $20.. i go amk hub there cut.. but..... nobody say i got a hair cut.. they all say.. like never cut.. haiz.. think.. only feel my hair lighter.. de hair dresses... cut less den 20 cuts.. haiz....

i wonder... why so sad.. haiz... oh well.. things not going to happen like what i expected anyway.. so wanted to go for de malaysia adventure trip organise by my school.. but.. becoz too little ppl.. end up... maybe will cancel.. haiz.. Man Huai Qi Tai.. end up disappointment so big.. think really cannot expect too much..

oh well.. ytd is such a wonderful day.. tat finally can lock.. but den.. today sad.. haiz.. things change so fast.. especially feeling.. one moment u can on cloud 9... another sad like hell.. today while i on de bus.. suddenly have this thought..

"Love is a battle.. You will sure get hurt if you do not know how to handle it. After you get some experience, you know what the opponent will do. Therefore, can prevent hurt more in compared to previous. But, hurt will not get any lessers. You know what you are doing. You know what is the next move. But, because of your careless, you fail the battle. Therefore, you will get more hurt."

arghhhhh.. my head hurt.. coz sick.. haiz.. dun kw why.. think de medicine no help.. haiz.. i tot de medicine is strong de.. coz it said 1 day only 1 pill.. and is not mine medicine.. think is my bro de.. haiz.. but.. like still so bad..

dun kw why.. i having breathing difficulties sometime.. i told Charlton about it.. and he said tat i must be careful.. coz maybe is heart problem.. haiz.. say heart problem.. i dun even kw if i got one.. haiz.. but i remember.. tat time i go gym with Peh Sun.. de machine got this thing to check ur heartbeat while u excerise.. i was on de running machine.. but den.. my heartbeat like going slower instead of fast.. i see Peh Sun de was so fast.. but mine.. like 30+.. dun kw izzit de machine got problem or really my heart got problem.. haiz.. if really so.. let me die fast.. so suffering..

HOT!!!! the sun is so HOT!!!! really feel like kanna BBQ if stand at one spot dun move.. haiz.. can somebody do something about de stupid sun???? one day we all will die becoz too hot!!!! haiz.. watch news.. so many things happen... China snow till.... haiz.. man.. the EARTH really COMPLAINT liao!!!! can we human do something abt it????

man!!!! got one pervert!!!!! ytd i in de lift.. suddenly got one guy come in.. never see him before.. so i dun care la.. i listening radio thru my phone ma.. den suddenly he talk to me.. i was like.. ehhhhh.. think talking nothing de.. den just smile smile hack care.. he was saying "u seem tired.. working or studying?" liew.. dun kw who is he.. he press de 9th storey.. but he took a while to press.. think he dun belong to my blk.. den i reply him studying.. den i dun wanna talk to him le.. really CREEP!!!

den den!!! when reaching 7th storey (i lived 7th ma!!), he suddenly take one piece of paper out.. den he wanna give me.. OH MAN!!!! OF COZ I REFUSE TO TAKE!!!! den i keep say dun wan dun wan.. tat paper show his name and number.. eh~ think is call jimmy.. wth!! den he keep wanna give me.. den say wat.. "free de.." WTH!! wat thing free!!! siao de lo!! den when de lift reach!! i saw my neighbour running towards de lift.. gosh~ den i faster run out.. den run home!!! i take a look back!! hoping he never tag along.. he look in his 30's to 40's.. he wore white t-shirt and long pants.. den carry a black bag~

MAN!!!!!! SO SCARY LA!!!! why i keep meet so scary de ppl!!!!! really scare to take lift liao la!!! haiz.. hope i wun see him again.. T.T

haiz.. cannot sleep well for a few days le.. Charlton say is becoz i under too much pressure.. oh well~ maybe i give myself too much pressure le bah~ so much of stuff~ this time, i setting up a blogger website for my school project.. but~ i still cannot finish~ Friday morning gonna present le~ and i am sure tml i gonna stay up till super late to finish my work..

tml got SQC test.. and i have not prepare.. oh well~ maybe a little~ but this little cannot help me to pass.. went to violet house ytd and today.. ytd is to do de blogger project lo~ service management.. i very confident for this module.. i suppose.. haiz~ and got one more assignment for it i haven do~ man!!! den~ tml test~ how to study~ today went to violet house.. but she end up having a nap~ haha~ she not feeling well~ so~ let her rest lo~ i finish my tutorial den faster pack up go home le.. as usual!! miss my bus!! so i took a cab home instead.. and de uncle!! discount me 10cents.. haha.. not bad~ thx uncle~

hmmm~ i wonder how sia~ oh ya!!! i super angry!!! know why?? i saw a primary school fren of mine in de bus.. AND HE DUN RECOGNISE ME!!!! wth~ today i wear spec to school ma~ coz my eyes dun feel gd.. and i heard his fren say "her fren look more pretty" well~ he was saying violet.. OH MAN!!! TAT IS SO DEMORALISE!!!! i was so piss upon hearing tat!~ he say i ugly!! SOB!!!

I found this photo~ hohoho~ so cute!!! so~ let me share with you all bah~ This photo~ is when i.... super young.. HAHA.. i wonder how old i am.. hehe~ never go check~ aww i so chubby!!

mood not very good.. result not good.. everything not good.. haiz.. first day of school.. so sian.. well~ only 4 hours of lessons only.. but den.. mood very bad.. sian.. my DEL score very very bad.. i tot i will get at least 80 over to 90 marks.. but i didn't expect my result to be so low.. manage to pass.. but.. the marks so low.. i really greatly affected by this..

i just dun understand.. why everytime my class performance good.. but.. when it come to exam.. my result so POOR!! wat is happening to me.. saw Charlton blog.. and he did mention about University.. somehow, deep inside my heart.. i am greatly affected..

i wanna go to university.. but my grade just not showing any improvement.. my grade just keep dropping.. haiz.. from 3.39.. all the way to 2.9.. so what if i top in subject.. my GPA just so low.. studying is not tat easy.. but i like to study.. but den.. maybe this course just dun suit me bah.. haiz.. today got my DEL result.. really give me a big blow..

man.. tml will get my other 2 papers.. IMGT and SQC.. haiz.. dun think will score good anyway~ haiz.. can pass already thx god le.. seem like my mood gonna be down this few days.. sat still got work.. sian.. dun kw why they wanna put me work.. they kw my style de.. schooling = no work.. bu den.. now still like this.. result still so bad.. haizzzzzz...

got try to cheer myself up.. watch liar game.. but den~ i watch show also will stress.. maybe somehow de female lead and me got a little similar.. mindset too simple.. no wonder i get so heat up when she got cheated again.. coz me myself also believe.. haiz.. damn tat mushroom head.. so hate his laugh.. *slap slap*

1month... den will be final exam.. i scare.. coz i kw i sure cannot score well.. how to score well like this.. haiz.. maybe i gonna become like wat i have done during my o's.. study study study.. nth but study.. everyday study.. haiz.. life so bored.. HAIZ~

am i adding myself too much trouble?? i dun kw.. i am lost.. a lot of worries enter my head.. haiz.. result~ man~ i suddenly feel i very useless.. i dun kw.. i dun kw wat am i here for.. i dun find any meaning for me to be here.. why am i having such a difficult year for the start.. i dun wan it to be like this.. i wan my light.. a light to guide me..

oh well.. liar game.. tat guy.. while watching.. when he is there.. i feel safe.. tat is de protecting feeling i searching for.. where den i can find my correct guy.. de protecting feeling tat i searching for.. i wan some protection.. sometime, i really feel like having someone to hug me.. prevent any trouble getting to me.. just simply protect me.. some time, i just wanna hide myself.. just wanna find some place warm for me to hide..

haiz~ oh well.. today first day of sch.. i slept for 3 hours plus only.. when at bus interchange i saw robin.. man~ he so bad~ oh well.. he going attactment ma.. den i was telling him tat maybe i consider to go for oversea de.. den he say very gd.. oversea is gd......... and wun see my face at Yishun.. wth.. really heartbreaking.. but i kw he joking only la.. he 1 more month jiu free from poly le.. me le???? 1 more year + 1 month~ haiz~ let me see.. today eddie very yellow.. dun kw why he so bright today.. hmmmm.. and his attitude towards me like better den before.. haha.. and also found a weakness! HIS NECK! hohoho~ next time he dare bully me!! hoho~ *evil smile*

ya da ya da~ mood still not good.. feel like drinking~ maybe i go buy some later bah~ mood really down.. haiz~ T.T

AHH CHU!!!! ahhhhh chuuuuuu!!! AHHHHH CHUUUUUU!!!

oops~ think instead of ah chu.. i should say HUAT AR! haha~ but currently dun kw why keep sneezing.. dun worry~ my sneeznig wun pass to u.. not tat up to skill yet~ HAHA!! *AHHH CHUUUU* oops!! think caugh a cold suddenly~

NOOOOOO~~~~ how can i start my year 2008 with flu!!! should be got ppl miss me too much already!! tat why keep sneezing!! HAHA!! oops!! think i just gain myself another cm thick on my face.. HEHE!! just kidding..

oh well~ whole day chiong chiong chiong!! chiong wat?? of coz HOMEWORK!! HAHA!! delay delay and delay~ finally!! cannot delay~ coz tml sch reopen!!!!! sian~ need to travel so far again~ hope got ppl drive me over~ HAHA!!

suddenly whole body very weak~ haiz!! wat to do!! *giddy* hmmmm~ let me see.. AHHHHH!! left one more newspaper article~ oh man!! why poly students still need to do newspaper article~ so crazy~ ROAR!! faster finish bah~ JIAYOU!!

is a brand new year~ brand new year with a brand new hope~ hehe~ hope year 2008 wun disappoint me much~ hehe~ oh well~ count down at home.. hmmmm~ let me see.. year 2008.. wat i wan.. hmmmmmmm.. maybe find a new boyfriend maybe?!?!?! hahaha~ past 2 years quite bad la~ hope this year, can find a good one~ HEHE!!

Happy new year to all my dearest frens~ hehe~ oh well~ and also~ hope my gan di di wen jie have a smooth trip.. he go school trip.. hehe~ oh well~ 1st Jan he must fly~ hehe~ hope he bring a present for me!! haha!! i dote him so much!! HAHAHA!!

arghhhhhh~ hungry~ lol!!! phone network sot just now.. maybe too many ppl sms liao bah~ hehehe.. oh well!! JIAYOU!!! when de day come!!! gonna chiong my project!! HOHO!! GANBATTE!!!!