once again.. i repeatly listen to the same song.. again and again.. mood kinda low.. oh well.. dun really know wat to do sia.. remember a lot of sad past.. really jialat de past.. those teasing during sec 5.. haiz.. dun kw wat to write.. just wanna lock myself up..

my evil side.. completely let out.. no people really saw my evil side.. but charlton sure did.. i completely let out.. scold bad word.. all those bad stuff.. BOMB!! all let out.. think only tat gal can make me so....... ROAR!!!!! tat gal is kristy.. she really make me damn angry.. i being crying for 2 days.. all thx to her..

Summary: my effort all down to drain..

haiz.. sad

well.. long time never update my blog le.. recently kinda stress.. well.. coz of all de stress i got, i fall sick last friday.. i tot it was just a small cold u see.. well dun kw why~ i go see doctor la.. so i just have as usual de medicine.. flu la.. throat la.. anti-biotic.. well~ but how i kw sia.. in de noon.. my sick got worst.. i down with high fever.. and is really high wor~ de temperature keep rising.. non-stop sia.. end up.. i think if i remember correctly.. 38.5?? haha.. Charlton said tat if 39 will burn brain.. hmmmm~ seem like my brain is safe.. but this is de first time, i sick and never feel that xin ku de wor.. coz i still happily chatting.. playing.. at home i mean!! haha.. hmmmmm.. have a positive attitude when you sick can make u feel really good wor..

hmmm.. school exam coming.. got so much of stuff need to do.. haiz.. somemore, i still stress about attachment.. i think i will go oversea for attachment.. but den.. HAIZ~ stressful~ know why?? actually, my school now give my batch(J class) to join another batch(K class) for attachment.. coz other class de like nobody wanna go la.. man.. den i dun kw wat to do la.. i discuss with my parents.. well.. their give me de green light.. i can go.. but den.. is up for me to decide.. wat to do le.. China attachment.. haiz.. wanna go one particular company de.. reason one, is Singapore open de.. 2nd, their pay good.. coz they pay $400 SGD.. plus accommodation and meal provided by the company.. gosh~ i really wanna enter this company sia.. but, left one slot.. well, actually can join in.. but i dun like de people tat signed up earlier.. haiz..

for my batch, actually is next year Sept den go de.. but since given de chance to go on Feb, why not?? coz 100% will get in.. but den~ haiz.. no people wanna go like tat le.. if go alone in 1 company... i really kinda scare.. i never go oversea before.. wat to do le.. den is cold de season.. think more worst lo.. since my body so weak le.. every 2 weeks fall sick~ sob.. den other company, pay damn low.. $200 SGD without accommodation!! man.. how to survive there?? will become frozen Ruby there..

oh well.. seem like i still decide to go Sept de.. hopefully can get a place.. coz, both classes.. think.. really hard.. my grade drop.. wonder how to get a place sia.. sob.. local de.. i dun really like.. reason because senior pass down say they go local attachment, they do rubbish stuff like photocopy or make coffee etc.. =.=!! i wonder is this call attachment.. i think is time to let me settle my future liao bah.. at least.. i wanna have a good life..

haiz~ common test coming.. in 2 weeks time.. i still 0% prepared.. haiz.. hmm.. dora called me earlier on.. i was quite surprise to recieve her phone call.. well.. she said that she say Javier.. the guy tat hurt me deeply.. haiz.. still remember one of de excuse he wanna break up with me was about study.. he said that wat he already fail some module already.. dun wanna get debar.. end up?? now?? he quit school go NS.. think he fail his module bah.. waste his time and money.. but think this is his bao yin bah.. who ask him treat girls like shit!! haiz.. just hope he can just treat people nicely.. man.. those days with him.. is so terrible.. sad more than happy.. but at least he teach me a lesson.. guy can be such a jerk.. thank ar Mr Tay..

hmmmmm.. emo emo emo~ hahaha.. dun kw why~ just emo~ anyway.. i kinda addict to jay chou song.. his latest album so many emo song.. i like de dandelion promise.. Pu Gong Ying De Yue Ding.. ahaha.. i like dandelion too.. is not to see anyway.. but is so pretty.. just BLOW~~ den it will fly away~ haha.. you can make wish.. or say throw your temper.. or anything to it.. den just BLOW~~~ and everything will go with de wind..

also hurt a lot recently.. hurt as in physical hurt!! dun kw where the hell i got so many blue black!! haha!! tat day i still fall down outside my hse toilet.. de place i always slip~ haha.. hmmmm.. coz my leg to blue black also~ sob!! dun kw why~ haha.. hmmmm.. haiz.... so careless sia me.. injury everywhere.. anyway.. look back my old photo~ with my LONG HAIR!! T.T kinda regrate tat i cut it.. sob!! haiz... dun kw wat to write le.. *emo*

after attending this event class, i know some great friends.. Ivor and Charlton.. They really some great friends of mine.. they are somebody that i can talk to.. seriously i am very happy to know them.. can i call them the protector in event class?? haha.. funny.. dun think so?? maybe they will just tag along with them and tease me~ haha.. oh well.. nvm..

Charlton mention abt me having how many ex.. gosh.. they all say 5... 6... or event more.. man~ am i tat flirty or wat?? haha.. wan to find somebody, the one person, is damn hard.. ehh.. single is good or not i dun kw la.. haiz... dun kw wat to do~ lost.. just~ freeze bah~ till i found tat one~

Ivor request to write this~ so~ Ivor!! ur wish is granted!! haha..

haiz.. seem like i always get targeted.. i so nice to bully ar?? haiz.. seem like so wor.. gosh~ gonna cry again~ think back about my sad past le.. haiz.. since when was i last bullied?? ehh~ this evening.. ya.. haiz.. wat to do le.. born to be bully.. is not i wan to think this way wor.. is that no matter how i do.. i always being targeted.. noisy, get target.. quiet, get target.. be myself or not, i still get targeted..

"i will do my best for myself" that is wat Xadrian said.. for me? i seem like doing best for others instead of myself.. example, copy notes for others.. i tend to write more neat compare to my own notes.. i will save for best for others instead of myself.. i got a question in my mind.. so i asked Xadrian.. "will you have a period of time where you feel ppl dun appreciate u??".. well he said all de time.. well.. me too.. Whenever i do something that hope can cheer people up.. or something for others.. i really hope they appreciate it.. but.. a lot of time.. i feel tat ppl just using me or wat.. they dun appreciate wat i do.. but just pouring cold water..

i wanna do my stuff to de best also.. no matter is planning event or wat.. i just wanna make it tat everyone is happy.. but.. i dun wanna do stuff that will gone into drain.. T.T haiz.. emo le.. crying at this time... haha.. haiz.. dun kw wat to write.. blank..

wow~ I&E really so chiong.. amazingly!! and i got one great finding!! know what?? "JASON YONG TAU HU" didnt know he got open a shop~ haha.. well~ is not his shop la~ just coincident la~ haha.. we have breakfast at lao ba sha this morning~ and guess what.. i vomited.. =.=!! dun kw wat happen sia.. think de watermelon juice got problem.. but others drink no problem le.. haiz.. end up 1/2 of my breakfast gone~

after that~ we all walk under the perfect rain~ haha~ i like tat kind of weather~ den we slowly walk to ACM~ man~ everyweek need go there once~ haha.. those item see till sian liao also.. and!! this morning!! super suey!!

know why??? coz when i get out of my hse, rain big.. sian~ walk under the rain.. den~ chase bus.. after tat in de bus i kok my hand.. den when i go MRT station.. dun kw how, got thorn under my leg.. from no where sia!! ji tao so painful!! den~ i dun kw wat to do la~ wonder got anything i can take out the thorn~ i den use my keys~ but cannot sia~ well~ end up i remember something!!!! NAIL CUTTER!! hahaha!! den i faster take out de thorn~ liew~ pain sia~

den meet up Peh Shun and Charlton~ haha~ my finger CANNOT pause a moment sia~ know why??? coz since i wake up~ phone non stop ring~ sms a lot~ haha~ busy woman seh~ and hoh~ people telling me they will be late.. i ji tao sian 1/2.. they say canot be late de wor~ end up they late themselve~ lol~ *faint*

den~ done a lot of stuff.. after tat~ we relac a bit~ coz told ivor ytd ma~ he emo kid at nite~ den i say go chill out~ cheer up a bit~ end up =.=!! all go home after eating lunch at billy bombers.. haiz~ wat to do le~ now home nothing to do le~ sian~

haiz.. seriously hurt myself badly.. was so hungry.. so went to cook.. but.. the oil somehow bomb! and i was injured.. both my hand burn by the oil that burst.. my rite eyes also.. haiz.. till now.. my hands and eyes still hurt.. i put medicine.. but.. still very painful.. got new scar le.. haiz.. my left hand got 5 burn.. right hand for 6 burn.. den burn my right eye lit.. lucky de oil never went into my eyes.. who knows wat will happen when i hurt my eyes?? haiz.. sad sad..