u are just a fucking bastard.. u just taking ppl around u for granted.. why dun u just fuck off and die.. u son of a bitch!! ma de.. this kind of fucking attitude.. just let me remind of her.. use fren as a ATM machine? when need help, even money help, ppl help him.. end up? not returning back de money.. oh fucker.. ppl trust him.. yet he like this.. i am sure he will go to hell..

damn.. i so hate tat dreamze.. last time outing.. wolf pay for all de expenses for the outing.. and he trust dreamze and put money into his account.. since he is the guild leader, he find that there is a need to pay for the whole day expense.. tat jerk say until help wolf save money until so wat.. macham he the saver like tat.. end up? say return.. but NEVER! so many months.. i see until i cannot tahan le.. take money tat dun belong to him.. bad stuff sure raise upon him.. bad ppl sure will encounter bad stuff..

his fucking attitude is really so bad.. he is so self center tat everyone dun like him.. i endure him.. but tat time i really cannot endure anymore.. stupid attitude.. who will tahan.. he tot he is the king.. PUI!! he is bullshit!! he wan help, he ask us for help.. den?? when fren wan help, fucker.. he dun even care a bit.. so he take fren like this?? in order to survive, he use his fren.. and when fren need help, he just sit there and hack care.. i am so sure if something were to happen, he will be the first one to run.. such person.. must well be dead..

I HATE PPL TAKE OTHER PPL MONEY FOR GRANTED!! i got used once.. tat why i cannot endure to see this.. but it dun seem like i can help.. tat that fucker just dun return.. now great.. he now blocking us in msn.. so??? u think i cannot track him?? i am so piss off~ is so easy to find out where he work.. i even kw where he stay.. his words is just bunch of BULLSHIT!! fucker~ hope he die soon.. waste natureal resources.. cheat other girls feeling.. such jerk can just fuck off!!



sorry for the bad words.. DAMN PISS OFF~

i really dislike my life.. more and more.. must i really need to go thru everything again and again.. when den can i get rid of all the sad and bad stuff.. so wat if my birthday is coming.. should i thank god that it let me suffering additional 1 more year..

why other people can live happily.. why i cant? simple stuff what i want also so hard.. simple thing that i wanna change from my life also cannot.. den wat the point of me living in this world.. u really a idiot ruby.. a wrong path u choose again.. how many path have u dig out?? FUCKING LIFE!! tot birthday coming can really enjoy myself.. but things un seem right anyway.. who care abt my birthday anyway.. having a birthday a not is not impt to anyone.. really so tired.. if not becoz of my parents.. i would long be gone from this world.. and becoz of u too.. u are somebody impt to me.. as well as another reason for me to continue living..




My heart is getting deeper and deeper,
As deep as the ocean.
No one could hear my voice,
No matter in which conversation.

I wish I can exist in this world,
Where everyone would love and care for me.
I wish I could end this suffering,
For a better life for me.

Who can hear me calling?
Who can save me?
Who can bring me out of this world,
To a world of happiness?

I am lonely in the ocean,
Where no one could hear me.
I wish I can be in heaven,
Where angle would guide me.



seem like.. i just wrote a poem.. hope life can be better.. where no harm will occur.. where no sadness will filled in me.. haiz.. seem like.. i can no longer smile like before.. trying to strike harder.. yet nth gd come out.. haiz.. so discourage.. if i disappear.. hope no one will remember me.. just let me bring this hated for eternity.. should i get use to this?? i fight so much.. really tired.. just be gone.. and like tat bah.. will there be anyone that can hear me calling for help even without me asking??