think.. i am really a failure.. haiz.. i old enough to make my own decision.. who know what will happen to me.. haiz.. when one person suffer enough.. they got no way out.. and me?? digging hole to save myself.. but tat me that is digging for a way out.. start to loss its energy.. lost hope..
i am a girl.. grew up like this.. i dun even who am i already.. just.. haiz.. wearing a mask is tiring.. i also not a good person.. seem like i disapoint some people.. sok mui.. xiong.. even herman.. haiz.. i can see that me and xiong is not longer tat good fren anymore.. they drift far apart now.. last time.. we can eat together.. chat everyday.. but now?? 1 month.. chat not more than 5 time i think.. sok mui le.. knowing something inside u that u wun wan to let ppl know.. think u also start to hate me bah.. having me this fren really very bad hoh.. think i need to apologise to u too.. dun kw.. just feel that i need to.. and herman.. i cant return anything.. u being supporting me and cheering for me.. when i down u will be there.. but den.. just something is not right.. certain of me.. u just dun kw..
haiz.. talketive me.. still remember.. when in primary school.. teacher always give me remarks saying that i very talketive.. even frens also say that i very talketive.. maybe i wanted to communicate bah.. wan to seek ppl attention.. i still cannot overcome the fear in me.. haiz..
accidentally hurt so much people around me.. but.. think soon.. i wun hurt anyone le bah.. let see how long i can still dig my way out.. if till i no energy and i still cannot find one way.. den that the end bah..
why do i always need to face this thing again and again.. this way wrong.. that way wrong.. seem like i only can say all my voice out in my blog.. i endure ppl attitude.. outside world is so... haiz.. why must i always live under ppl hand?? what they say is all right.. and i have to follow.. if i dun follow.. if i got any objection.. i will end up getting shoot badly.. that what i encounter in school.. my life is not gd.. even in poly.. life is not getting much better after all.. i tot things will become better.. but i think i still tie to the problem..
HATE IT!!
firstly.. got to clean my blog web.. haiz.. currently in school.. and guess what.. i am sick!!! I AM SICK!! after so many days of bad weather.. i finally.. GOT SICK!! T.T haiz.. my head hurts.. energy lost so much.. and also coughing.. dry cough.. haiz.. really feel like sleeping.. sleep liao dun wake up.. very tired.. tired of my life.. haiz..
let me see.. school with ton of projects.. i do till i really wanan die.. haiz.. dun kw why school got so much project.. SO MUCH!!!! T.T haiz.. my brain really cannot works.. ahhhhhhh chuuuu!! haiz.. maybe i catch a cold too?? haiz.. brain not working.. just now math class.. really feeling terrible.. haiz... sob..
JIU MING AR!!!!! who can save me!!!!!!
