ok.. time to update my blog.. need to clear all those spider web leh!! *sweep sweep wipe wipe* ok~ clean liao.. let me start blogging..



ROAR!!!! went to chalet was like.. wth.. haiz.. i pay $14 for it.. and kw what?? i didn't even eat a single bbq wor.. i spend my own money on potato chip(to kill time coz no one entertain me) den spend on mac to settle my dinner and supper.. and half boil eggs for mine breakfast.. and i spend the whole nite at mac chatting with one of the people tat somehow is my schoolmate.. haiz..


forget abt the money.. haiz.. there was fire everywhere lo.. not those bbq fire.. but.. HUMAN fire.. end up i being so wu gu.. didn't kw guys is so childish.. haiz.. oh well.. we were happily running end up he say we all attitude.. what the heck.. is there a problem running?? haiz.. end up they quarrel.. and i wu gu kanna also.. oh pls.. i reach there.. i dun kw majority of the ppl there.. no one intro to me.. and i only kw those OLD fren.. only 5 ppl i kw.. and everyone busy playing their stuff.. and me?? end up sitting there eating potato chip alone.. no one talk to me.. no one entertain me.. wth!! expect me to do what?? den 30 over ppl at the bbq pit there.. oh pls.. i all dun kw.. suddenly so many ppl.. what u all wan me to do.. sing finish birthday song.. of coz run la.. is there a problem?? cant i just afriad of the people there.. if dun kw de.. will tot they wanna have gang fight.. den we 3 girls.. was like.. ehhh.. all dun kw.. den ok lo.. sing song finish we sneak away.. but who knows end up not sneak but pi pi piak piak.. run so loud.. haiz.. eventually let then find out la.. haiz.. why just no ppl think for me leh.. haiz..


we den talk talk.. who knows.. they called back end up scolding.. wth.. got wrong meh.. 30 over people there.. we 3 ppl mean nth de lo.. need to scold de ma.. haiz.. fire so big.. i so scare.. wanna call for help.. but the sms forgot send out.. haiz.. cmi cmi cmi..


at least.. after tat.. when lesser ppl.. things get better.. den.. i play mahjong.. 3 players de.. so.. one set of the shape is taken out la.. we take out all the "wan".. and kw what?? i go try to make "13 yao".. liew.. when abt to clear.. den i remember.. EHH!! dun have "wan" hoh!! like tat how to do "13 yao" sia.. haiz.. i loss all the way.. except the last round.. and kw what happen to the last round?? i am second ma.. so i will aim 2nd flower.. and guess what.. 1st flower, 3rd flower and 4th flower all 6 pieces i got it.. but.. die die 2nd flower is seperate among them(2 girls).. liew.. den i was like.. ROAR!! why i got all flower.. but except my own flower!! haiz.. take so many also no use.. and.. finally!!!! my first win!!! and tat is the end of the game mahjong.. haiz..


talk a lot ar.. haiz.. whole nite talking.. den.. gastric act up.. 1 year i will big pain 2 time.. guess.. today.. i big pain one time leh.. haiz.. i was in pain.. starting was gastric.. end up kanna stomach.. and like.. my liver also start to pain.. den kinda cramp.. T.T and i forgot to bring my medicine!!! HEY!! I GOT EAT!!!! but how come still pain!!!!! liew... if i never eat and it pain i understand.. but i GOT eat!!! haiz.. was so pain till i came back home..


was with desmond.. we went back together.. we took bus.. i kw i in pain.. but i dun wan alone.. coz.. we took bus together lo.. we chatted quite a lot la.. relationship.. character.. bla bla bla.. and one thing!! he trim my nails.. gosh.. he is gd at it.. my nails really shiny.. oh well.. eventually we fall a sleep in the bus.. and without my notice.. my hand just slip down.. and i woke him up.. haha.. oops.. den he ask me get off amk.. coz nearer.. den ok lo.. we were inside a double decker bus ma.. last time i walk still can leh.. this time.. cannot sia.. need bend liao!! haiz.. and b4 i knew it.. i buang my head to the dun kw what at the staircase there.. gosh!! i dun kw what happening sia.. i cannot see ma.. just BUANG!! so many ppl look at me.. SO MA LU!!!! den i faster get off.. den.. i realise.. i pass someone house... and i didn't notice it.. gastric is super pain.. i really cannot take it..


so i try to held a cab!!! ROAR!!! NO CAB!!!! walk here.. no cab.. walk there.. no cab.. den go mrt there de taxi stand.. GOSH!!! 8ppl infront.. NO CAB!!! den i was thinking.. should i take mrt?? haiz.. but i went to amk hub there... see got taxi stand.. so i go see la.. NO CAB!!!! so wu lu wu lu.. den i think.. so early.. who will come amk hub.. cfm wun have taxi de.. den i go to the road.. NO CAB!!!!!! haiz.. den saw got one family come amk hub!! den i faster go held tat cab.. awwwww.. finally... got a cab!!! den i faster come back home.. body pretty weak leh.. haiz..


i was like keep on eating mac mac mac!! need to cut down!! or else high blood pressure may find me.. hmm.. i wondering.. mama going check up on 2nd april.. should i check up for my gastric as well?? haiz.. dun kw.. ask my mama see how bah.. haiz.. now i am home.. eaten my medicines.. both cough and gastric.. dun wish ppl to worry abt me~ haha..


and also.. got ppl guess my age from range 17 to 22.. lol.. not bad la.. not much ppl say 20+.. all 18 or 19.. haha.. and.. say i very mature wor!! lol.. tat is gd.. at least i am mature.. lol.. and guess what.. got this guy.. 182cm.. i 178cm.. and i TALLER den him.. wth!! dun tell me i grow taller again.. he told me tat he measure abt 2 months ago.. and.. got one 185cm de.. i was like.. almost same... WA LIEW!!! is all illusion!!!!!! i am 178cm.. haha.. is all illusion.. I DUN ADMIT!!!! ROAR!!!


T.T i lost my favourite book mark.. T.T wan cry leh.. why go chalet so many stuff happened.. T.T i love tat book mark most.. coz very unique.. T.T haiz.. sad..

oh well.. feel like writing.. but den.. see this page.. gone speechless liao.. haiz.. got mood den write bah..

happy leh bah?? hurt leh bah... tat is wat u will get.. why am i always so foolish!! WHY!!!

gosh.. sadness filled in me once again.. today i'm not myself.. shocking, sad, happy, depress.. everything happened today.. end up.. i drinking alone under my block when i going home.. reach home very late.. haiz.. i should wait for yiyi to finish work de.. but.. i feel so sad.. den i just go off.. haiz..


was reading chicken soup when i wait for yiyi.. i was at the "relationship" section followed by "friendship".. haiz... root-be-er cross my mind when i was at the "relationship" section.. when reading.. i sense the sadness of the author.. memories.. got this part.. talking abt looking back to its past.. the author look back to his past.. haiz.. den i was like.. lost and sad.. going back to the past.. izzit the best way?? zhu xiao mei told me.. trust him.. haha.. ya.. trust him.. i trust everyone.. for now?? i treasure every single moment.. good moment tat wun last for long.. it will be hard.. but.. 笑一笑，没有什么是过不了。。 i just got to keep smiling.. the smile may be a fake one.. but at least.. wun have much ppl worry for me~ i treasure every single moment with root-be-er.. got time will find him.. coz.. i kw the time is running out.. i wun have much time with him anymore.. when the time getting close, i kw.. i kw what will happen to me.. but, he said.. treasure now.. tat what i can only do.. since u already kw what will be the ending.. den no point keeping a hope that will never come true.. but somehow.. deep inside me.. this hope still maintain there.. zhu xiao mei also told me.. if the other parties is happy.. it good enough already.. at least.. he found his right one.. u should happy for him.. but.. the aching feeling wun gone just one night.. it gonna be hurtful.. knowing i will be hurt.. but i still keep this hope.. love is blind.. this is true alright..


today, i automatically woke up at 8am.. no matter how tired i am.. this few days.. i keep woke up at 8am.. and the first thing i will check my phone.. did root-be-er find me?? haiz.. tat is how much i treasure now.. but, everytime i think tat the time is running out.. the aching feeling hit me.. how much time is left?? 1 day?? 1week?? or even 1min?? what will happen the next minute?? maybe i will die the next minute.. but at least.. i did not regret.. the first time.. i face it.. be brave.. no matter what is the outcome.. how hurt it can be.. i just need to keep smiling.. in front of ppl.. i am a gal tat always brighten up their day.. a gal tat always smile when they look at her.. i just need to maintain tat smile.. when no one is there.. i can just take down the mask.. and truely cry my heart out..


haiz.. so long he is happy.. i think tat is enough for me leh bah.. is not the first time anyway.. i just gonna hide everything deep inside me.. when everything is flooded inside, i just got to cry my heart out.. and continue to hide.. i got too much stuff hiding inside me.. stuff that i can never spoke to anyone.. coz.. i only can keep it in myself..


den when i read "friendship" section.. haiz.. another blow to me.. haiz.. treasure what i have now bah.. no point looking back to the past.. since its hurt one time.. mean there will be another.. for me?? i hurt once again and again.. forgive and forgive.. and now?? i cannot forget abt the hurt i got.. will cry alone.. just like just now.. i drink again.. i sit alone under my block.. finish the whole bottle.. tears need came down.. the reason i left mac without waiting for yiyi coz i scare i break down.. i did break down at mac before.. hiding myself crying.. i dun wanna yiyi to worry for me.. yiyi very good wor.. he wun ask me what happen.. he just give me tissue and leave me alone there.. i still remember.. tat time.. i crying alone outside.. try to hide myself.. somehow yiyi kw i am crying.. den he take tissue and smash my face.. like rubbing the face.. and try to crack joke.. haha.. yiyi is a very very good man.. who ever got him, sure very xin fu de..


why izzit so hard to forgive, forget and move on?? i just can't make myself to forgive.. and i can never forget.. end up?? blood dripping while i move on.. who can stop the blood from coming out?? i bleeding real bad inside my heart.. time can heal.. but.. before it heal.. another scar appear.. how to heal like tat?? how to heal when i keep getting hurt and before it can heal, another hurt came again.. man.. i scare of this life leh.. i am like a human shell without soul.. my soul is not with me.. i dun remember what today date.. what happened just now.. what happened ytd.. haiz.. what more scare me is that.. i got a cut on my hand while working.. and i dun kw it is bleeding.. it dun hurt.. is a small cut only.. haiz.. where i get this cut from?? i dun kw..


haiz.. when i on the way to mac.. i almost get buang by moto-cycle.. tat uncle.. dun kw look at where.. look at the side.. and i am just abt to be in front of him.. i see him like tat.. i STOP myself from walking.. end up stay at the center of the road.. lucky no car la.. if i never stop myself from walking, 100%.. nono.. 200% i sure kanna knock down by him.. dun get it.. ride yet never look in front.. haiz.. i am blur.. but i not tat blur.. at least i kw how to take care of my life.. coz i kw.. if anything happen to me.. i confirm my family gonna break down sooner or later.. my family need me to keep things in place.. i need to take care of my parent health.. and scold tat twin brothers of mine.. i got so much need to settle.. so much waiting for me.. but.. if something happen to me, if i kanna knock down.. i hope i can lost all my memory.. at least.. remember some of those i WANTED to remember.. and forget all the rest.. i dun kw what i should do sia.. this not successful.. tat one not successful.. this thing hope to happen.. but end up wun.. hope to complete tat task nicely.. end up last minute all the problem come.. haizzz.. CAN AT LEAST GIVE ME SOMETHING TAT IS SMOOTH!!! i dun ask for more.. i just wan someone i love.. T.T


i never had a dream come true.. even if i pretend tat i will move on.. but who know deep inside me.. what am i thinking?? and i tot i finally found the one.. but think, when the alarm ring, i will wake up from the dream.. and everything will stay as a memory.. and a dream that will never come true.. haiz..

well.. since i so boring.. and still sometime before i go to work.. let me share with u all some photo.. this one is one of those tat i taken using my hp.. and this one is so beautiful!! i like this one best.. the colours combination is so great.. hohoho..

"Yet regardless of whether you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them... it matters not. Because once they come into your life, whatever they are to the world, they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls, and you say a million things without a trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitably consumed within the rhythmic beatings of their every heart. We love them for a million reasons. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt."

by Kimberly Kirberger, taken from Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul II, On Relationships.




I just read this page saying reasons about why guys like girls.. well.. Not sure whether isn't true.. But the paragraph I wrote on top, I like to emphasis the last 3 sentences.. "It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt." root-be-er.. If u got the chance to take a look at this few sentences.. Maybe u will understand and know the reason for the answer that you keep asking..


Love is something sweet, I suppose.. Something that will make one man do the wrong thing. Hey people out there, don't think the wrong stuff. Please kindly think more "clean".. I seen so many kind of relationship out there.. Not my own relationship, but others. I will learn various lesson from them such as the problems face together, the happiness shared together, etc.. I found out that "understanding" is extremely important so that to ensure a lasting relationship.. Without basic or even further understanding, some problems will just pop out automatically.. Problems such as misunderstanding(obviously), quarrelling, mistrust, etc, will occured.. Without the most basic understanding, mistrust will take place.. No one will dare to say, "without trust, the relationship will still go on".. for a successful relationship, understanding, trust, care and concern is a MUST.. Without these few points, a relationship cannot take place..



Understanding :

to perceive the meaning of; grasp the idea of; comprehend; to be thoroughly familiar with; apprehend clearly the character, nature or subtleties of; to assign a meaning to; interpret; to grasp the significance, implications, or importance of; to regard as firmly communicated; take as agreed or settled; to lean or hear; to accept as true; believe; to construe in a particular way; to supply mentally(something that is not expressed); to perceive what is meant; grasp the information conveyed; to accept tolerantly or sympathetically; to have knowledge or background, as on a particular subject; to have a systematic interpretation or rationale, as in a field or area of knowledge.



Trust:

reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety; confident expectation of something; hope; confidence in the certainty of future payment for property or goods received; credit; a person on whom or thing on which one relies; the condition of one to whom something has been entrusted; the obligation or responsibility imposed on a person in whom confidence or authority is placed; charge, custody, or care; something committed or entrusted to one's care for use or safekeeping, as an office, duty, or the like; responsibility; charge; to rely upon or place confidence in someone or something; to have confidence; hope; to sell merchandise on credit; to have trust or confidence in; rely or depend on; to believe; to expect confidently; to commit or consign with trust or confidence; to permit to remain or go somewhere or to do something without fear of consequences; to invest with a trust; entrust with something; to give credit to (a person) for goods, services.



Care:

a state of mind in which one is troubled; worry, anxiety, or concern; a cause or object of worry; serious attention; solicitude; heed; caution; protection; charge; temporary keeping, as for the benefit of or until claimed by the owner; grief; suffering; sorrow; have thougt or regard; have a special preference; to make provision or look out; to have an inclination, liking, fondness, or affection; to wish; desire; like.



Concern:

to relate to; to be connected with; be of interest or importance to; affect; to interest or engage; to trouble, worry, or disquiet; something that relates to pertains to a person; business; affair; a matter that engages a person's attention, interest, or care, or that affects a person's welfare or happiness; worry, solicitude, or anxiety; important relation or bearing; a commercial or manufacturing company or establishment.





On top are some of the defination that I found at Dictionary.com. But the understand, trust, care and concern is not easy to be define.. This is because you need to define using your heart and soul.. Not just those words in the dictionary.. Love is not a dead non-moving object.. Yesh, love can be spread by you and me.. All kind of love, family, friends, buddy, love one.. Love cannot be define using explaination in the dictionary.. You need to feel.. FEEL the love.. Once you feel it, spread it out to everyone out there.. This is because they may not feel that way u feel.. The happiness you gain, don't keep it to yourself, spread it.. Let everyone knows the feeling of LOVE..

never slp.. 1 day.. i never slp.. i got so much to talk abt.. i dun kw what happening to me.. me is like not me.. i just shoot everything out.. i dun kw why!! normally i wun dare.. coz i scare.. but.. i just shoot all out.. we have a long chat.. the longest chat ever.. we both stay up till morning.. a day i can never forget.. coz.. i grow up again.. i got brave.. listen to my blog song.. is by Babyface. the song title is call "Reason For Breathing".. this song just suit me now.. i just keep on repeat and repeat this song.. bu zhi bu jue.. i listen this song for 9 hours plus constantly..


i got work early in the morning 10am.. 9.15am got to wake up leh.. but.. i never slp at all.. we chat all the way till 7 plus in the morning today.. haiz.. early morning got lighting and thunder.. and i tot i gonna get strike.. the lighting is like so close to my hse.. the beam of light is so strong till i am really scare.. but.. he accompany me.. keeping me safe.. and knowing i got work.. he ask me to rest a while.. he accompany me all the way till i wake up.. coz i scare i might not be able to wake up.. tat why he pei wo all along.. first time in my life.. i feel so safe slp-ing.. even he is not by my side.. but i can sense his present.. just like he is beside me watching me when i slp.. i slept for a while, abt 1 hours plus.. did cry a lot.. tat why my eyes very pain.. but, when wake up, can hear him.. really feel very very very happy.. is that called happiness?? he never slp also.. he keep himself awake so tat he can wake me up at 9.15am.. knowing that he got plan for the day, but he still keep himself awake.. gosh.. tat was a touching one..


haiz.. bo bian.. still got to go work.. really very tired.. but still pull myself up!! every single second i dun wanna waste.. got time will contact him without fail.. but.. seem like my working today.. is a terrible one.. not much customer today.. and tat is gd.. den i start to read newspaper.. actually is playing Sudoku.. coz inside the newspaper got Sudoku.. so i play.. haiz.. den.. tat idiot came along!! arghhhhh!! tat stupid ah seng!! come and KOK my head.. and is real hard KOK u kw!! at that spot i tot i having concussion.. damn him sia!! tat xiao di di!! i older den him by few month but he die die dun wanna admit.. so childish!! he kok my head.. i ji tao take the newspaper and smack him!! not 1.. but a few time!! tat idiot!! dare to kok my head.. never die before..


haiz.. was quite hungry.. den i go for break la.. but.. dun kw why.. when i was abt to finish the food.. something inside me is wrong.. i feel like vomiting.. i haven even eat finish.. den i go throw away the food.. den i run to toilet.. i RUN and move as fast as possible.. coz i really dun feel very gd.. once i reach toilet.. haiz.. vomit lo.. what i ate.. what i drank.. all went to the ocean liao.. i vomited quite a lot sia.. my tummy feel so bad.. really bad.. the feeling when u vomit is so.. terrible!!! is like u wanted to vomit out all ur organ like tat!! terrible.. really dun kw how..


i look into the mirror for my reflection.. gosh!! is tat me?? i look so pale!! i really feel very weak.. den i slowly make my way back to mac.. rest a while.. den continue work.. but fadhilah very good la.. she let me off.. arbo i work till 5pm de.. but coz i feeling unwell.. she let me go early.. but aunty ah suan say i fake de!! liew.. so bad sia.. haiz..


so now.. i at home lo.. my tummy feeling so bad.. maybe is becoz of the vomiting bah.. making me now feeling so uneasy.. haiz.. i cannot slp!!! i gonna wait for him.. if not cannot slp safely.. haha.. haiz.. qiu ping just called me sia.. ask me go help pick up her sister.. haiz.. wrong timing!! i sick!! how to help her~ haiz.. if i not sick.. i still can help.. but if later i faint half way.. how sia.. haiz.......... *waiting in progress*

i did not slp.. i all along never slp.. i heard everything.. is not clear.. but some how can guess it bah.. i didnt kw wat i was talking all along.. i was half dead.. but tears came out.. and i dun kw why.. i dun even kw what is happening.. i have totally no idea what i am talking about too.. what i really wanted anyway?? ruby ar ruby.. u kw it all along rite?? u kw the ending.. just take it as a dream.. once u wake up everything wun make any changes.. world wun stop just for u.. bla bla bla.. sian.. console and more console.. console words i hear till sian leh.. everytime say all these to other ppl tat in need.. now ownself need some console.. but all these just cannot enter my head..


oh my bloggy~ what should i do.. what should i do!! feeling cant just develop like tat rite.. i cant stop my feeling from coming out.. i am lost of words.. lost of everything.. tong guo le.. xiu xi yi xia.. life still got to move on.. move on~ move on~ i always continue move on.. but the path in front is making me weaker and weaker some how.. why izzit so hard.. but i always move on.. maybe.. now.. i think i should stop moving on.. tired leh.. scare leh.. pain enough leh.. scare of everything tat will happen all over again..


why act happy hurt me tat much.. every single "haha" my heart like breaking into million pieces.. i cannot stop my tears from running out.. every heartache really hurt me lots.. i feel like hiding myself.. hide myself from this world.. i feel like taking a few step back and turn back and run away.. run all the way.. even in my dream.. i am hiding.. hiding alone.. why am i lying.. i am not happy.. not happy at all.. i am sad.. really sad.. everything went thru my head.. again and again.. tat phrase just cannot stop running thru my mind.. i am not happy!! but i got to fake myself.. tears just pop out.. i cannot control.. maybe.. i should just hide myself.. at least.. wun feel the aching.. i dun even kw what i am thinking.. i didnt slp well.. my whole body went numb.. i just hope tat i can just rewind everything.. T.T i very scare.. very very scare.. scare tat i will end up like what happen when javier broke up with me.. cry in bus.. cry in class.. no mood to do anything.. no appetite.. why love is so hard to search.. ppl tat willing to give.. i dun dare accept.. ppl i wish to they can give.. they cant..


when i go to work today.. my gastric not really good.. but i have no choice but to work.. lucky i at kitchen.. at least.. wun need to fake tat smile.. haiz.. once start work.. do wrong thing.. i put wrong sauce.. HAHAHA~ haiz.. shamane went shouting "WAIT".. i dun kw what happen.. den yiyi also shout wait.. everyone shout wait.. but i still dun kw what happening.. den shamane told me tat "this one is big mac leh.." den i say "ya.." i still dun kw what is going on.. after a while.. den i realise.. i put wrong sauce.. haiz.. i dun kw what i am doing.. my soul like not there.. hand hit here hit there.. knock here and there.. i really dun kw what happening to me.. when no customer, i start to daze.. all those words he said.. went thru my mind again.. i think and think.. think and think.. i just cannot stop thinking abt it.. cannot stop missing him.. i refuse to talk.. i keep quiet all along.. yiyi den tell me.. dun so quiet leh.. so attitude.. haiz.. oh well.. nth make me feel better anyway.. and things cannot be any more worst rite?? haiz.. mood getting bad lo.. what else can i do.. i just keep quiet..


yiyi kw abt me not feeling very well.. yiyi always take gd care of me.. he keep asking me abt how i feeling.. is my gastric still pain.. yesh.. i am in pain.. both heart and gastric.. but i dun feel like eating.. or having my break so early.. i still got a long way to go.. early break only make me worst.. lucky got yiyi there.. help me.. or else i die.. i do wrong thing.. so scare he will scold me.. my speed drop until really CMI.. cannot smile.. den i do wrong thing.. i really so scare yiyi will angry.. but he didnt.. think today de yiyi got think for me.. tat why he never scold me.. but a little scolding still got la.. who ask me.. do wrong stuff.. haiz.. but.. i really do what he said ma.. how i kw he say wrong.. but i never argue.. i no energy to argue also.. i need to keep energy to fight with my gastric.. but.. super much ppl buy fillet.. 12?? should be.. haiz..


i just keep daze.. no soul in me.. cannot smile.. oh ya.. carol gave me chocolate today.. i have no idea why.. she just smile and give it to me.. i was like.. "huh??" she is such a cute girl.. like her a lot too.. such gd girl really hard to find.. in her, i see some of the me in the past.. but i can never smile until like no trouble anymore.. no way.. can no longer do tat anymore.. got a small cut too.. a very tiny little cut.. coz i take stuff ma.. den hand hit the wall(inside freezer), maybe kanna cut by the box bah.. haiz.. sze yuen see me.. he tot i am tired.. haha.. sze yuen also a very nice boyboy.. but.. got to torture him.. haiz.. sorry ar sze yuen.. when i get better, u wun so xin ku leh.. who ask u got such a lousy PC.. a PC tat is so weak.. T.T


i wanna drink.. but stop myself.. coz of my gastric.. i cannot drink.. if i drink.. my gastric sure get worst.. but whenever i in this state.. i dun kw why.. i will buy drink.. haiz.. why will i heartache.. why.. who can tell me the reason why.. i keep listen to this song by babyface "Reason For Breathing".. i.. i just.. like what the song is saying.. haiz.. so what is the reason for me to continue breathing?? if i cry like a baby will u change ur mind~~~~~ man.. i cannot stop listening this song..


i got this nightmare.. somebody wanna kill me.. i dun kw is who.. "kira" de feeling.. i was like.. at this building.. running and running!! trying to get out.. this person wanna kill me.. this building is like a hospital or something.. i run.. no one save me.. i hide under table.. den run to staircase.. i keep going down.. and was like.. basement.. i very scare.. T.T very scare.. no matter is where.. so long is basement.. i scare.. but.. i have no choice.. i run down.. den i finally get out.. i still remember.. i take a look back at the building.. den i turn and run.. i call for help.. no one hear me.. no one help me.. until this little girl.. i dun kw who is this little girl.. i asked "got phone?" coz i only think of calling police.. what a stupid way to call police rite?? i told her.. got ppl wanna kill me.. den she said "come in.. inside is safe.." inside is.. weird.. her hse is weird.. i dun kw why.. den i take the phone.. call police.. and den she said.. "he is coming.. coming very near.." the killer is near.. i was like.. so stupid!! i tell the police got ppl wanna kill me.. but.. the police like not much response.. never ask for address also.. den that little girl went out.. den i go hide myself.. den i heard tat girl shouting "he is here!!".. gosh.. i dun kw what to do.. i hide myself inside the cabinet.. i dun dare to make a sound.. i really so scare.. no one help me.. i wanna call for help.. but i got no one to turn to.. i so scare..


this scare feeling.. will stay in me forever bah.. whenever i sad.. i just hope i can see some stars.. but nope.. not today.. only dark cloud.. no stars.. no way i can feel better rite?? tat aching feeling i can never stop it from coming.. haiz.... listen to the song for 3hours plus leh.. tml got work early in the morning.. need to wake up so early.. haiz.. wonder how i will feel tml.. cry for 3 days leh.. 1st days cry for other thing.. this 2 days cry for same thing.. haizzz.. wonder tml.. will i smile?? or will i just still be the same.. maybe i should take a step back and run away.. or should change something.. change the routh i taking.. maybe.. i can find my happiness?? haiz.. dream on~ the one i care abt.. are no where to be found~ u r my reason for breathing~

oh well.. i burn my hand today.. i was working ma.. den hoh.. when i was cleaning the grill machine.. den my finger go bua the hot plate.. haiz.. den my hand is burn!!! after i settle my order, i faster go put my hand under running tap water.. after tat i faster run to the manger room take first aid box.. haiz.. den i faster put some cream or what la.. den put one plaster.. gosh!! the pain still there.. the pain torture me for like.. very long.. haiz.. dun kw how it pain so much lo!! haiz.. this is the 2nd time i burn my hand.. first time burn de more jialat la.. haiz..


oh well.. haiz.. after abt 5-10min after i put my plaster, den yiyi kw i burn my hand.. oh well.. he a bit too late kw leh ba?? haha.. yiyi pull my ear also.. today!! just now!!! arghhh!! i hate him pulling my ear.. coz will super pain!! he like never control his strength!! den PULLLL!! woah!! my ear ji tao red.. T.T so pain lo.. i went shouting like a pig going to get killed.. T.T haiz.. so ke lian hoh??


oh ya!! yiyi ask me go see doctor.. coz ytd i vomit ma.. den gastric today act up very badly.. when i go to bed, gastric super hurt.. during my slp, my gastric also hurt.. when i woke up.. my gastric still hurt.. man!! how sia!! den i faster go take hot drink lo.. den i go work.. haiz.. who knows.. my gastric still act up when i working.. gosh!! really make me very very xin ku.. den my boss give me go break.. haha.. den i eat leh.. still pain!!! haizzz.. who ask me never bring my medicine.. never bring medicine also kanna scolding by yiyi.. T.T arghhhhhh!! sob sob..


for yiyi, vomit is already a very jialat sickness leh.. tat why he ask me go see doctor!! but i dun wan!! liew.. i hate doctor u kw.. and hoh!! i gonna kok the one tat invent this phrase.. "An apple a day keep the doctor away".. PUI!!! i eat 2 apples also same!! still will fall sick.. haiz.. today, when i start counter, gosh.. regular customer ji tao say "OMG!! what happen to ur voice".. haiz.. think my voice really cmi liao la.. haiz.. oh well.. no ppl care anyway.. *ahhh choooo*


today i start my day REAL bad.. all thx to my both idiotic brothers.. man!! how wish i can move out of the hse.. so tat i no need to face them everyday.. the only time i can have peace is when they not at home or when they are asleep!! tat why i prefer to stay up at nite!! gosh i can relax and have PEACE!!


man.. my gastric now act up again.. haiz.. but my boss very chek ar.. kw what he say?? i told him this.. "coz of my gastric.. i lost 11kg for the past 1 year.." den he say.. "den u should continue have gastric.. u need to lost more den tat..." LIEW!! den he still say very fun!! wa kao!! this kind of boss also got!! T.T he so big bully sia.. so fun to bully me.. liew.. where got like this de!!!! haiz.. oh well.. nvm.. use to it liao.. T.T haiz.. ke lian de wo..

i am back.. home of coz.. currently not feeling very well.. i just finish work not long ago.. T.T haiz... sadly, i did not say goodbye to my workmate and the managers.. i just run out of the store like tat.. this is the first time wor.. coz i went to vomit.. i really dun feel very well.. tat why i just run out.. and siti shouted for me, coz she see me run out.. coz she is outside ma, den see me, think she wanna say hi.. but i cannot control myself any longer.. so i just faster get to the grass there and vomit.. feel so bad... i wanted to turn back and say hi.. but.. i cant!! coz really cannot control myself.. den xiao ming chase after me la.. coz he stay opposite my block.. so we go home together.. den he waited for me to finish my food also.. den i just run out.. was telling him abt ella show de story.. den i start to keep coughing.. den run outside.. after vomiting, siti kw i not really feeling well.. she very good wor.. she gave me wet tissue.. haha.. thx you siti..



on the way home, i dun really feel very good.. i try to break my concentration on thinking abt vomiting.. but!! feel so terrible.. feel like calling for help.. T.T but cannot.. at least i am safe in one piece.. but, i dun feel good.. T.T i feeling so... haizzzz... just now, my gastric suddenly act up.. den suddenly this thing cross my mind.. is what the doctor told me before.. "if ur rite side in great pain, it mean appendicitis".. gosh.. at tat very moment, it did feel hurt.. but it never last long la.. while working, i dun understand why!! i feel quite weak.. when i had a drink, i feel like my heart is stopping.. suddenly feel weak.. izzit me going to have a heart failure?? gosh.. i feel so scare.. T.T



now i recall something.. tat time while i going to school, my gastric suddenly in GREAT pain.. den i wanna vomit.. but i can't vomit in the bus or call the driver to stop rite? coz we at the expressway.. and if stop, there is no way i can held any cab or bus.. and i also cannot let the whole bus de ppl wait for me.. so i try to control.. ENDURE ruby.. u must endure.. i did endure.. and very lucky, i never vomit out la.. but, i broke into cold sweat.. and is sweating like dun kw what.. i feel so cold, yet i keep sweating.. and my leg feel so weak.. i bend lower and lower.. and i tot i gonna white out.. coz my eyes suddenly like, got white light like tat.. couple of time.. and i tot i fainted.. but i still tahan until i reach my stop.. when i got down from the bus, gosh!! my leg really weak.. once i step on the ground, i almost fall down.. weak all over.. i dun kw why.. i never got all this before.. i did not board the bus tat going to my sch.. i feel very very very terrible.. and i kw.. if i got up the bus, i 100% vomit out.. i still remember tat time.. javier still my bf.. but he is so worst!! i just dun understand!! his gf is there suffering like dun kw what.. and almost fainted.. yet he cannot be found.. i wanted him to take me home.. coz i dun have confident tat i can be home safely.. but i waited and waited.. no reply from him.. so i called my dad.. tell him what happen to me.. my dad told me to take cab home.. so i just sms my classmate tell him my condition and ask him help me look out for tat day sch work..



i by the bus stop.. just hope tat javier.. somehow can just response.. but no.. i getting so weak.. i think i sat there for abt 30min or so.. no response.. den i get up.. those white light again.. damn.. how wish somebody can just hold me and help me get a cab.. no one notice me anyway.. who care.. i slowly walk.. one step at a time.. try not to faint.. no matter how weak i am tat time, i cant ask for help.. why?? u ask me why.. coz when i most terrible.. the one tat i most wanted to help me.. is not there.. so what for?? nobody care for me anyway.. other den my family and some of my frens.. i very scare to cross the road.. coz i almost got knock down by car a few time already.. when i was a little girl, i still remember i was chasing my brother.. and was running across the road without noticing a car in coming.. like what shown on tv, i stop at the middle of the road.. luckly the car brake just in time.. or else.. i think i might not be here.. not only this.. when i was in K2, my mum held on my hand and cross the road when the GREEN man is shining.. and guess what? this red car just dash pass the traffic.. hey!! is not red man u kw.. why he pass?? lucky my mum never take me walk fast.. or else.. i think i die another time.. tat why i very very very scare to cross road.. if u notice, when i with my fren, when crossing road, i sure will hold on to their bag or shirt.. to keep me safe..



when crossing the road alone with such a weak condition.. i really dun kw what will happen to me if somehow a car just dash towards me.. after i cross the road, i really like no energy.. i faster sit down.. but i need to held for a cab!! nobody will help me!! tat is what i told myself.. after i rest a while, i stood up, and held for a cab.. is not easy to held a cab.. i did held for 45min but none of the cab is there.. and tat make me late for school.. i very very very lucky.. a cab is there.. so i get in.. try not to think abt vomiting.. and guess what?? javier finally reply.. AFTER so many stuff i being thru myself.. damn!! what the hell is he doing anyway!! but what make me really mad and sad is that.. "i also not feeling well.." hey!! what is this?? none of the words is showing care and concern abt me.. hey!! ur gf is here dying.. fainting.. bla bla bla.. and yet? u say nth abt her health? i really very very disappointed.. he is the only guy, tat make me disappointed till the core.. if u all kw what happen in our relationship-ed, u will kw how disappointed he made me.. and i dun think, he is more sick den me.. and cannot be sick until cannot even come and concern abt his gf here.. so how?? nvm.. and i tot he will at least bring me to doctor since he also stay yishun and also at home.. NO!! he did not.. he just go for his slp.. wth!! i dun believe this.. in my whole life, i never go visit a doctor ALONE.. everytime, no matter how sick i am, i wun wan to go see doctor alone.. i die die will ask my parent or my fren pei wo go.. but, no choice.. i am really very very sick.. what else can i do?? i got to go alone.. i hate being alone.. i just HATE it..



what can't i just find someone tat i love.. and he is willing to love me too? why izzit so hard.. and why ppl just like to break my heart just like tat.. izzit tat fun? i dun think so.. having such a failure bf, i really got nothing else to say abt him.. he is very very worst.. he broke up with me coz he in love with other gals and get together with the gal once we broke up.. kw how bad i feel?? all his words is bullshit!! jerk jerk jerk!! how could he do this to me.. if that is the case, den why wanna start a relationship with me?? heaven u are so unfair!! why u wanna like this treat me.. T.T



now i realise something.. i only can feel heartache.. other den heartache.. nothing else i can feel.. there is no happiness.. no happy.. only heartache.. with javier.. i never feel happy.. only disappointment and heartache.. every single day.. heartache and more heartache.. why i will heartache? why other ppl treat me bad i wun heartache?? or izzit tat only ppl tat stand a important position in my heart den i will feel the pain they gave me?? fate love to play prank on ppl.. everytime when someone decided to go on a NEW life.. fate will start to play prank.. maybe tat is why it is so hard to lead a new life.. so many time.. i wish, can i just have an accident or hit my head?? maybe i can lose all the memory.. at least.. i wun feel so hurt anymore.. maybe tat is the only way i can lead a new life.. where is my happiness.. why i just cannot feel the heartbeat tat is inside me.. am i really dead inside me?? why all this is happening to me.. i just dun understand.. can someone pls tell me?? why must i go thru all the big and small stuff.. and all the stuff tat happen to me, is getting bigger and bigger.. and is more and more tough?? oh pls.. can someone just pls help me.. at least accompany me thru all the big and small.. i already scare to overcome alone.. everytime, cry alone.. no one will kw.. frens will just ask me what happen.. how am i suppose to tell them?? other den "nothing.." i really have no words to tell them.. i wan someone to be with me.. but i dun like to add or give trouble to ppl.. so end up?? still alone.. haiz..



be strong.. be strong.. in others eyes, i am a strong girl.. what on the outside is totally opposite on the inside.. my closers cousin once said.. "dun see her tall like so strong.. she is very weak inside her heart.." wow.. my cousin.. she can see tat.. who else can see tat?? being weak.. is not what i wanted.. outside i seem so strong.. tat is why ppl tend to have a more higher expectation in me.. oh come on!! i not tat strong.. i dun wan to look weak tat why i act strong.. but no matter how, i still weak.. i wanna be strong.. i dun wanna get bully anymore.. i wanna had a easy and simple life.. but i can't!! my parent health is getting bad and bad.. my 2 brothers now lost their job again.. in this family.. i the only one they can depend on.. why can't my 2 brothers just be more sensible.. they older den me by 9 years.. and yet?? their thinking is like primary school kids.. what they kw is just make me angry and keep on irritate me.. hey!! u all think i like to keep on shout at them?? oh pls.. i am their sister.. they still my family.. u all think i like to shout at them?? but somehow i just hope i can just scold them so tat they can be more sensible.. i try to study well.. be the best i can.. so tat my parent wun need to worry abt me.. try to work so tat i can dun need to take money from them.. but how?? papa finish heart operation not long ago, now den go back to work.. mama health was getting super bad.. coz her blood pressure is very high.. 200 plus.. every single news is tearing me apart.. and she got to go for a heart check up.. to check wheather she got any heart problem.. who can understand me and help me?? i dun kw how long more i can tahan all this.. my own health is not going any better.. for the past 1 year.. i lost 11kg.. tat is how bad my health was..



i also dun like to scold my parent.. but whenever they eat wrong thing.. i need to scold!! if they not careful abt their health.. more thing is happen.. they not young anymore.. they getting older.. and this is the period of time tat all the illness will come attack them.. and both my damn idiot brothers dun kw how to do anything abt it.. so i need to tackle!! nag them.. nag them.. nag nag nag nag nag!! how long more can i take it?? whole family.. they 4 add together.. 100 over years old.. and need me this haven even reach 19 de girl tackle all this?? wth!! why must i do all this.. i not superwoman!! i not a god.. i.. i just a normal human being tat got its own limit of tolerance.. T.T



why must i always cry alone in the night.. whenever i am crying.. i dun dare to tell my family.. coz i cannot let them worry abt me.. i the only one they can depend on.. if they see me so weak.. they sure will stress.. i only can choose to cry alone in the nite.. not letting anyone kw abt it.. i must be strong.. be strong.. be strong!! pls.. ruby!! u cannot cry like this!! T.T but i am really lost!! really lost.. who can just help me up?? who will just show tat pair of hand and lead me to happiness?? who can be with me when i am lonely?? who!! who will be there when i need someone most.. T.T



i am lost.. really lost..

Lonelyness fall within me.. Tummyache happened in me.. So sleepy.. haiz.. ping ping called me.. T.T ask me go 2pm instead of 11am when i already on the way.. haizzzz.. end up.. U-turn home lo.. sian.. the time pass so slow now.. it is good la.. but later work.. how wish it can pass FAST!!!! have no mood to work anymore.. T.T haiz... sian.. run out of cash also.. T.T die liao.. pock leh!! haiz..

so boring now.. nothing to do.. so sian.. disturb disturb wolfy ge ge.. lol.. as usual.. never fail to disturb him.. hahaha.. oh well.. so boring.. skype with wolfy ge ge.. go disturb him.. haizzzzz.. but now.. still very sian.. wonder what i can do sia!! YAWN.. tml got work leh.. today rest like never rest.. my eyes still kind of swollen.. haiz.... sian.. work work work.. my holiday is damn boring!!! haizzzzz.. still got one more month to go.. sian ar..


haiz..... hungry... today i cook my own food sia.. den now.. wait my brother buy food home.. HUNGRY.. T.T

ytd... do so much stuff... to cut it short... i work from morning 10am to 5pm.. den go home prepare go swim swim.. den WALK all the way to YS to meet summer.. den 6 plus go swim swim.. den swim until 7.30pm.. den bath liao 8pm.. den after tat went northpoint.. summer bought some bread(TAT I HATE MOST) and she ask me get some too.. but i die die dun wan!! hohoho!! who ask me dun eat bread de..


den i say i wan go Mac.. coz i wanna buy milkshake.. tat time i drink Mocha de.. ehh.. i dun like coffee la.. but somehow i like to drink that.. haha.. well.. den saw Zhi Xing there.. zhi xing got come to my store attactment.. den.. very gd to disturb!! hoho.. didnt kw he work till so late.. so!! MUST DISTURB LA!! who ask him say he do de McFlurry very nice.. so!! lalala.. die die wan him to do!! he say i buy he do!! lol.. den on la!! i buy lo.. i buy mocha milk shake and McFlurry.. hohoho!! den he do... weeeee... but den.. mocha plus ice cream.. too much leh.. too much milky stuff..


den i went back to mac.. den saw uncle martin.. and ji kian.. lol.. dun kw how to spell his name la.. call him ben la.. lol.. den play baketball.. liew.. i lose.. haha.. expected de la.. i always lose to them.. lol.. long time win one time nia.. haha.. den.. went back home lo!! so tired man!!! lol.. den play a while audition.. den.. chat chat a while.. den.. watch youtube.. lol.. den i KO!!! hohoho..

this is me with my new glasses.. haha.. $170 glasses wor.. nice?? ehhhhh.. haha.. in photo maybe not tat nice bah.. man!!!! my face look so chubby lo.. haiz... am i getting fatter?? gosh!!! how sia!! my glasses is red de wor.. hoho.. got 2 glasses ma.. one is light purple de.. another one is this lo.. from this 2.. i choose this one.. haha.. den yc say this spec, look like the "old" me.. last time de me.. lol.. true also.. oh ya!! when i try those glasses... got one glasses i wear leh wa lao eh!! look like 20 plus... look so mature and old!!! aiyo!!! of coz wun take tat photo la.. haha..

hohoho.. i look so different in this photo.. very pretty hoh?? haha.. i very surprise when i look into the mirror myself.. hohoho.. i look so pretty.. lol.. nu da 18 bian.. think tat also suit me bah.. lol.. i did change a lot also.. hohoho... tat underage say i look like model.. LOL.. lame!! den say wan intro me be model.. oh pls!!! i dun have tat body.. dun have tat face.. liew.. den wan me be model.. what sia.. lol..

haiz... my throat now so pain.. just now i went to watch "Just Follow Law" omg.. is freaking funny!! i cannot stop laughing lo.. hahaha.. but den.. funny is gd.. but the story is not good... coz like nth special leh.. hahaha.. but den.. i love the funny joke inside la.. haha.. hmmm.. i spend $70.40 on chicken soup sia.. i bought 3 of the books.. man!! if i got popular membership card.. i can discount $7 leh!!! liew.. $7 is a lot u kw!! i pay a little bit more i can buy another book leh.. haiz... man.. so heartache.. $7... LIEW..

lol.. den i also play a game of "cya cYa" lol.. i think i won the game.. but den.. not tat sure yet.. hohoho.. oh well.. yawn... so tired.. think i go rest leh.. yawn..

happy birthday to sok mui~ hehe.. today is her birthday.. just now we went to vivo.. den went to orchard.. oh man.. my leg breaking lo.. and my bone is cracking.. haha.. i spend nearly $112 today sia.. seem like i always spend so much when i go out.. lol.. i went $22 over on chocolate sia.. lol!! now i finish the 2 box of chocolate leh.. lol..


shop so much sia.. haiz.. den heard tat my mama high blood pressure... 200 plus leh.. haiz.. den she went to TTSH for check up.. now she on the way coming home leh.. wonder what the doctor say sia.. haiz.


hmmmmm.. 24/7 date is so fun~ lol... 24/7 is not july 24th hoh.. is 24hours 7 days.. LOL!! i wun say must abt it.. lol.. but is very funny and fun and enjoyable la.. hahahahaa.. at least can smile more~ hohoho.. merry christmas.. lol.. and a happy new year.. *sing*


haiz....... so much stuff coming on leh.. geil mummy de chalet.. lol.. gonna have lots of fun this time.. hohoho.. lol.. i talking to my bear bear now wor.. seem so stupid lo.. lol.. haiz..... sian ar!!! cannot sleep until my parent reach home.. must kw what happen to my mama first.. and.. 100% must nag my mama.. ROAR!!!!!


ok.. let me say one story abt me working.. got this idiot customer... ROAR!! really make me piss off.. kw what happen?? let me tell u.. i was 1 hour late for work.. becoz i remember the wrong timing.. oh well.. nvm.. den.. i go work lo.. was raining very heavily.. but, i cannot find my umbrella.. coz dun kw where my mama put.. so.. no choice.. have to walk under the rain.. plus my shoe soooooooooooooo slippery.. never fall down.. already very good leh..


the first thing when i reach mac was tat.. I AM SHOCK!! so many ppl buying Toto.. so much until the Q reach CPCC there.. and i heard tat my aunty Q for 4hours and by the time reach her turn, the 7-11 close leh.. LOL.. wasted for 4hours Q-ing for rain nia.. oh well.. continue my story.. the rain very very big.. my hair from dry become wet.. haiz.. not enough crew... so i solo counter.. the first customer.. jitao very weird lo.. "hip-hop" those type.. but from what yiyi say, that customer a bit ehem ehem one.. lol.. well, he order his stuff la.. and look at me in a very very weir weird weird view lo.. see leh my hair stand.. den i faster serve him den serve other customer.. phew.. but den.. PISS OF STUFF COME!!!!!


this adult guy, is damn sarcastic lo!! as usual.. greeting first.. "hi, good afternoon sir, may i have your order?".. den he said "1 hot tea".. from the counter 6-step, i must suggest selling.. so.. i suggest fries.. "any fries to go along, sir?".. guess what this customer say?? "i dun eat fries.. i only eat HEALTHY food".. den i was thinking.. only eat healthy food? how come he wanna come McDonald?? dun u all think very FUNNY meh.. oh well.. den i go prepare the HOT TEA for him.. den i put sugar and the creamer on the tray.. den kw what he say?? "give me one fillet.." den i was like.. WHAT?? FILLET?? i tot u only eat HEALTHY food.. den still wanna eat fillet?? wth... nvm!! den i key in fillet.. den i turn back and tell aunty "aunty, yi zhi fillet.. (一只)" well, in mac we always use "yi zhi" fillet one.. den hoh!! tat bloody customer.. shout behind me and say "miss, ur chinese very lousy leh.. fillet is use "Yi Ge" or "Yi Tiao".. where got ppl use "Yi Zhi" one.. u really no face leh.. chinese say until so poor.." WTF!!! he is damn bloody sarcastic u kw!! i really feel like scolding him lo.. he has no rite to insult me!!! well, den i DIE DIE put a smile on my face.. den i serve him lo.. den i say "total is $xx.xx.. ur fillet got to wait for a while.. i will send it to u later.." den i collect de payment la.. den ji tao!!! he take de sugar and throw on the table.. den say it in a super sarcastic way again "i dun need these".. WTH!! how on earth got this kind of sarcastic ppl exist!! serve finish.. i went to de kitchen.. and i stomp the floor!! den i buang the door!! ROAR!!!!! SO ANGRY!!!


den the manager was like.. "huh?? what happen to u" coz i am very scary also la.. hahaha.. hardly can see me so piss off.. now i recall back.. i think i should say "sir, this is ur HEALTHY fillet tat deep fry with lots of oil just like de fries.. hope u enjoy ur HEALTHY fillet.." lol.. if i say this.. i sure kanna complaint one!! lol... but i never say la.. den the whole day was like.. SO MANY WEIRD PPL!!! and hoh!! weird until u cannot believe it lo.. got this customer run inside the counter.. den ask me listen the phone.. i was like.. HUH?? den she ask me to tell the person in the phone where is she.. den i tell lo.. i was like.. blur all the way.. den so many ppl ask me for direction.. so i look like the directory?? weird weird lo.. internation weird weird day.. tat is what i told my boss.. den in the evening.. that FIRST customer came back.. when i was preparing stuff, he came to say hi to me.. den i was like.. -_-!! huh?? what the.. say hi to me for what.. den i stunt a while.. den i say hi.. den i run away.. den i came back to serve him.. he was acting like hip hop lo.. eeeeeee.. so weird.. he is a weirdo.. den he order one hamburger.. den i order lo.. den when his order ok liao.. and i take de carrier and wanna pack, he stop me and say in a yo yo way.. "hey.. dun need the bag.. just give me the buger will do.. sabe environment.." den yiyi also stunt lo.. his reaction was so... ehhh.. WEIRDO!! haiz..


den kanna extend 1 hour by boss.. den when i finally can knock off from work, boss came inside to the crew room without any footstep.. den... DEN!!! "BOOO".. he shout behind me.. and ji tao i shouted also lo.. i think i shout quite loud until de lobby can hear.. den yiyi aks what happen.. lol.. den boss still very happy say he scare me.. WTH!!! where got this kind of boss one!!!! stupid lo!!! so childish!!! scare me also fun.. ROAR!!! haizzz.. at least.. still ok ok la.. hahaha..


yawn..... wolfy ge ge listen me write my blog until i think he fall a sleep liao.. i need to shout until he wake up.. like tat.. his ear will blow.. HOHOHO!! see.. i so cruel.. but is good for him la.. LOL!!! hey hey!! just kidding ok!! hahaha.. haiz.. stare wall.. so sian.. oh ya!! i bang wall 2 time today.. when i vivo city.. bang 2 time within 5min.. or should i say 3min?? haizzzz... ke lian.. ke lian.. hao ke lian.. sob sob.. now i left one more box of chocolate leh.. i tml den eat la.. arbo i sure die.. LOL!!