hehe.. shhhhhhhh.. haha.. this photo i took on CNY also.. coz nothing to do ma.. den zhi lian a bit lo.. hahahahaha.. nice photo nice.. maybe i should take more photo.. all different type of sign or what lo... hahaha...


i went to work today... mannnnn.. SO SLEEPY!!!!!!! so tired.. haizzzzzz... well.. at least i clear today de stuff.. liew.. i go ST stuff from YS today again.. somemore.. abt the same time as ytd wor.. and the sun.. haizz.... SO BIG!!!!!!! den... guess what i take?? ice cream de mix.. 5.2kg!!!!! SO HEAVY!!!!!!!! YS to mac.. say far not far.. say near not near.. but.. today i take like a few years to complete de task.. haiz.. anyway.. now i clear my work leh.. hohoho..


woahhhhh.. so busy today.. need to settle so much stuff.. chalet and more chalet.. WOAH!!!!! *faint*

ROAR!!!!! very angry now.. coz my iPod kanna corrupted.. wtf.. why my stuff forver spoilt within one month!!! bicycle, use 1st time spoilt.. lappy.. use st month also spoilt.. my hse de new modem.. also spoilt within 1 month.. no matter is what.. reach my hand.. confirm spoilt within 1 month.. I THINK I KANNA CURSE LIAO LA!!! today is de 24th days my iPod with me.. DEN SPOILT!! niao niao.. wtf is this.. i dun believe i am tat suey!! why forever like tat de..


why my luck is still so bad.. why nothing good is happening to me?? why my life is so terrible.. WHY CAN'T ALL DE UNHAPPY STUFF JUST END!!! why god wanna torture me so much.. why god give me 2 so noisy de brothers.. and why god set this curse on me.. why no matter what i use, confirm spoilt within 1month.. hey god.. dun u think is very unfair?? why can u treat me so unfair.. i never do bad stuff.. i always be a good girl.. and what u did to me was let me get bully by others.. not 1 time.. not 2 time.. is dun kw how many YEARS.. and now?? this.. WHY U SO CRUEL!!


and why!!! u treat those bad guy so good.. and all de good guy so bad?? ah ma is a nice person.. den why u bring her so much stress.. and me?? WTF U WAN!! damn u!!! i dun care if u r god.. i dun care if u can just take my life away.. but u treat ppl like ah ma like tat.. JIU SHI NI BU DUI!!!! ah ma is a nice gal.. she is a nice person.. even if she is short, but she is tall in my heart.. coz i can never be like her.. she is brave.. but.. what u do to her?? if u did exist.. can u PLEAE kindly stop all de nonsense from her relative?? can being some peace to her?? since u treat me tat bad leh.. den just treat me bad la.. what for go treat my friend bad.. WTF U WAN!! how can u do tat.. good ppl, u torture them.. bad ppl, u give them happiness.. U R SO UNFAIR!!! i tot god should be fair and good.. but why are u doing this.. u like to see human suffer so much den u happy izzit.. u like to see human cry izzit?? WHY CAN'T U JUST CONTROL!! u r god.. if u cannot control.. no one can!!!

ehhh.. currently mood so down.. haizz.. dun kw what the hell is happening also.. haiz.. why my mood swing sia?? oh well.. my body is warm.. feel like having fever.. haiz.. maybe becoz lack of water bah.. never really drink water today also..


hmmm.. woke up at 11.30am today.. coz need to go store lao yu sheng.. haiz.. so tired lo.. think of dun wan to go de.. but.. cannot like tat la.. so.. prepare lo.. den yiyi called me.. ask me to pei him go.. haha.. he late wake up ma.. den... i go northpoint meet him.. haiz.. de bus is so late.. den i walk all the way there lo.. well... meet yiyi, den take bus back to store.. ehhh.. a bit lame leh... go den back.. what sia.. LOL..


well.. today de yu sheng.. not bad la.. quite nice.. haha.. den... eat some food... den come back home leh.. well.. play maple and audition.. i break my audition record leh.. pass 400k.. also FM today.. coz keep chiong 188.. de first game is de best one.. den... the rest.. all off form.. haiz.. den keep maple lo.. now i at lubi there.. aiyo.... so jialat.. haiz.. play till a bit sian.. hahahaha...

oh well.. guess what how i start my day YTD.. well.. coz yiyi ask me to accompany him go buy yu sheng for TODAY.. haha.. hmm.. when i woke up, of coz go toilet la.. haiz.. after finish going toilet.. and when i take de first step out of the toilet, I SLIP!!! BUANG!! aiya!!! injured my back and my leg.. haiz... my leg now blue black leh.. and my back is aching.. maybe my back also blue black liao bah... haiz... tat toilet.. i use for 18years plus.. i still can slip??? oh well.. i try to get back on my feet la.. leg so pain!!!!! den my hse phone rang!! wa kao.. WHAT A GOOD TIMING!!!


den i run lo!! ehh.. i mean... try to walk fast la.. my leg so long.. no need few step can reach my phone leh... is my mama call de.. she ask if my dad is at home.. den ask me to eat.. haha.. den i tell her i fall down.. T.T den i forgot what she say leh.. haha.. well.. den i try to rub my knee cap la.. but.. still blue black.. haiz... sad case.. den i online play game a while.. den yiyi called.. hehe.. den i go prepare go meet him la.. i go toilet again.. lol... AND!! I SLIP AGAIN!!! wat the hell.. who can slip at de same spot for 2 time?? some more is own hse??? and at the same day??? think only me bah.. haiz.... so ke lian.. T.T lucky never injured my head!! arbo sure die..


and readers... dun worry... my hse floor is 100% safe.. no hole!! for ppl like xiong sure think my hse floor sure big hole.. haha.. too bad... still so flat... not a single hole.. bleah..


hmmm... i go meet yiyi.. haiz... i never see him at OCBC bank.. so.. i call him la.. den i heard him saying he at arcade.. den i go TIMEZONE find him.. but.. i walk 2 rounds.. cannot find him.. den i go GV there de arcade... i hate going inside.. but no choice.. but... CANNOT FIND YIYI!!! hmmmm.. weird... den i head back to northpoint.. den i ask.. where is he??? den he say.. "u dun kw where is sakae sushi izzit".. OMG!! he is angry!!!! haiz.. liew.. sakae sushi and arcade.. so big different!! and i can hear wrong!! haiz.. i think my ear got problem liao la.. haiz.. T.T well.. i tot i gonna get a big scolding from him.. haiz... i keep think.. since cfm die.. at least die pretty.. prepare a bit.. den go see him.. when i found him, he on de phone... liew.. the atmosphere so weird lo.. i very very scare... coz yiyi fierce, ehhh.. U ALL WUN WAN TO SEE!!! very very scary!! lol... i stand there.. try to smile la.. den look here and there.. phewwwwww.. HE NEVER SCOLD ME!!!! phewwww.. really put down a stone.. i tot he will scold me!! T.T but i always so blur de ma.. sob sob.. den let him say i dun have time management.. T.T first time ppl say me no time management.. lieww...


hmm.. den we choose yu sheng lo.... but.. a bit sian la.. reach northpoint 15min den go back leh.. ehhh.. den i come out for what?? i thinking la.. hahaha.. hmmmmm.. den we headed to mac lo.. hmmmm.. den i buy spicy meal.. hohoho.. den yiyi say.. burger later take la.. u coming down later rite?? lol.. den.. i take other de stuff and left de burger at mac.. LOL!! den i headed home.. hmmm.. play game a while.. den meet yiyi at abt 4.55pm.. LOL!! he work at 5pm ma.. but very close nia... so wun late la.. haha.. well, i got my lappy with me.. den.. i eat my spicy lo.. LOL!! SO HOT!!!! and SPICY!! aiyo.. i keep drink water lo.. it gonna take BIG courage for me to eat spicy.. coz.. i cannot really take spicy food la.. haha.. hmmm.. i already treat regular customer, this xiao di di, ice cream cone.. LOL!! i just love small kids.. hehe.. den i play lappy lo.. haiz.. MAC de internet... really CMI!! change untill so unstable.. keep DC!!! so many problem.. haiz.. dun kw what they thinking also.. complaint!!!!!


hmmmmm.. xiong came down also.. den we play lo.. oh ya!!! at nite, before xiong went back.. HE LOST HIS WALLET!! lol.. he search.. but cannot find.. aiyo.. den i tot he never bring out.. so he called back home and ask his mum... but his wallet is not at home wor.. hmmm.. den.. haha.. lost leh.. den i see him.. like nth wrong leh.. den i ask.. "u lost ur wallet.. u wun worried de ar?? got IC, POSB cards.. bla bla bla.. if me, i sure cry.." liew.. he said... "if not u wan me to cry ar??" lol!! gd answer anyway.. haha.. well.. den he went back la.. well, i continue play my lappy lo.. den my phone ring.. is xiong la.. he asked.. is de store phone put nicely?? i think.. he cannot get thru bah.. haha.. den i check.. OK.. nth wrong.. den he hang up.. den.. store phone ring.. ehhh.. is xiong.. LAME RITE?? since he call me.. still hang up and call store.. STUPID RITE??? lol.. nvm.. den he told me tat.. the long table de gals.. keep staring at him when he go out.. well.. i kw what he is thinking la.. den i told yiyi abt it.. den i go check lo... haha.. guess what.. i saw xiong wallet on the floor.. den i go pick it up la.. but den... BUANG!! a loud sound... coz i go his de window de.. the pull pull thing la.. haha.. aiyo.. so paiseh.. den i take de wallet.. faster run back to the manager room.. LOL!! den i called xiong lo.. saying i got his wallet.. den i check his wallet.. hmmm.. everything there..


and kw what xiong said?? "u take out.. i a bit paiseh dun dare go in.. meet u at toilet there" LAME!! what for paiseh sia.. LOL!!! den i go pass him his wallet lo.. haha.. hmmm.. den he go buy his stuff liao.. den me?? continue play lappy lo.. i waited for yiyi to knock off.. all the way till 11pm.. hmmmm.. seem like i whole day stick with yiyi wor.. yiyi den send me home.. hehe.. so late leh.. and he always send me home when late.. ^-^v so good of him.. den i play audition lo.. GUESS WHAT!!! 188bpm.. i FM again!! total 2 FM leh.. and.. i break my high score.. and also new record la.. 16miss.. new record sia.. and my score.. LIEW!! 235 more to 400k leh!!! haiz.. dui ar.. *hit heart* haiz.. but.. got new record also gd.. and by luck.. i can chance level 8 de move sia.. maybe my speed improving.. when i at mac.. i play audition.. MY HAND SO SHAKY!! coz got ppl see me play ma.. den shaky untill i cannot stop it from shaking!! haiz.. so hard to play lo.. also dun kw i nervous what sia.. LOL!!!


well.. just now at 4am, which is... 1hours and 15min ago.. =x i went supper with yiyi.. LOL!! seeee.. stick with him whole day sia.. lol.. we go eat laksa.. LOL!! hmmmm.. now full leh.. but.. i also drink teh bin... NOW!! tummyache liao.. who ask me eat hot and cold.. LOL!!! but nvm la.. haha.. later at 12nn need to be at store.. coz need to Lao Yu Sheng.. lol!! yiyi 11.30am go take de Yu Sheng from Sakura.. hmmm.. wonder if i wan to go a not sia.. dun kw can wake up a not sia.. LOL!!! haiz..... my papa nag me liao.. ask me go slp.. HAIZ.. k la.. den i write till here.. LOL!! anyway, top part is YTD happen de.. bottom part is TODAY happen de.. coz pass 12 leh.. LOL!!! k la.. slp time.. nite nite..

woahhhh... last nite.. i fall a sleep sia.. well, fall a sleep nth wrong la.. the problem is.... i play my lappy till i fall a sleep.. my lappy still on my tummy!!! den i fall a sleep... LOL!!! very stupid rite?? ji tao.. abt 4hrs later... den i woke up.. den find my lappy on my tummy.. OMG!!!! my tummy SO HOT!!!! think all the hot heat enter my body liao lo.. haha.. maybe can kill fats?? hahaha.. but den.. thx to my lappy.. i got tummy cramp when i work up after i have enough slp.. HAIZ!!! what a great cramp to start my day sia.. haiz....





huiling called me.. well.. she wanna call me go eat de.. but den.. a lot of stuff la.. haha.. den never go.. i also finish my Wei Xiao Pasta de vcd leh.. awwwww.. is nice.. but den.. i dun have much feeling for this show sia.. omg.. i getting heartless??? or what sia!!! haiz.. but.. the JING SHENG!! must learn.. even fall down.. also must climb up.. dun scare u fail.. only scare u give up.. inside got one line.. "xiao yi xiao, mei you shen men shi shi guo bu liao de".. which mean.. so long u smile, there is nothing u cannot overcome.. hehe.. kinda like this phrase also.. coz.. i always do this what.. LOL!!! ROAR!!! *fire eyes*





den... oh ya!! yiyi asked me out.. coz he wanna buy his D&D clothes.. well.. also with stanley.. i met up with yiyi at his hse downstair.. LOL!! first thing he say when he saw me.. "why whole body white??" LOL!!! coz... my shoe is white.. my toes is white.. my skirt is white.. my t-shirt also white.. really from head to toe PURE white.. hahaha.. yiyi also wan wear white de he say.. but he never wear.. AIYO!! lucky he never wear.. if not become couple wear liao.. LOL!!! hmmmm.. den haiz!!!! very jialat.. before i reach his hse downstair, i injured myself again.. my hand go buang the handle.. T.T PAIN LEH!!! wa lao eh... the day before, when i work.. I ALSO HIT MY HAND!!!! the same hand.. but my hand go buang de corner of the wall.. ji tao my hand numb lo!!! haiz.. lucky never injured my bone ar.. arbo i die leh.. haha.. well.. after meet yiyi.. i also almost trip and fall.. HAIZ!!! jialat la!!! but lucky never fall.. PHEW!!!! *collect sweat*





hmmm... we went to tanglin mall and find stanley.. the path of road to tanglin mall.. very long.. but den.. got yiyi pei.. so ok la!! haha.. hardly can go out with yiyi de wor.. hohoho!!! nan de he bring me out!!! muahahahahaha.. yeahhhhh.. ehhhh... stanley den treat us STARBUCK!!!!! HOHOHO!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!! CAN DRINK MY CCCF!!!!!!!!!!! HURRAY!!!!! lol.. and hoh!! i drink till chocolate kanna my face.. haiz.. den i make it worst by using my hand so remove it.. aiyoo.. coz i not hand.. maybe hand also kanna chocolate.. tat why more worst.. hehe.. den yiyi help me wor!!! hahahaha.. sooooo sweet of him..... lol!!!

hohoho... this is stanley treat de wor!!!! me, yiyi and stanley de share!!! HOHOHO!!! the back one is chocolate cream, the front 2 is CCCF!!!

hmmmmmmmmm... oh ya!!! we went shopping.. i bought a cap wor.. den i also put a letter "R" on it.. i wan to put all 4 letter "RUBY" one, but den yiyi say not unique.. den i put one "R" lo.. very expensive leh!!! one letter $5... haiz.. den tat cap cost me $18.. woahhhh.. so expensive.. but i think worth it la.. see below.. tat is my.. but without de letter "R"...

so kawaii neh!!! weeeeee.. am i cute?? LOL!! *thick skin*

hehehe.. den we went for movie also.. we watch "Norbit".. muahahha.. and hoh!! yiyi addict to tat song liao!! "dun you wish ur gf just like me.. dun wish you wish ur gf hot like me.." LOL!!! on the way back home.. we keep singing lo.. LOL!!! addicted liao.. LOL!!! tat movie really very funny lo.. i laugh tilll siao.. hohoho!!! starting... already give so much of thing for us to laugh.. LOL!!! can laugh ur stress out sia.. HAHAHAHAHA!!! me and stanley laugh really very loud sia.. laugh and clap.. LOL!!! so funny!! u all should go watch.. good for destress wor.. ^-^v


hmmmmm.. watch ella tat show.. untill ep 10 leh.. hahaha.. seem ok ok to me la.. dun have much feeling also leh.... aiyo.... is my feeling dead or what sia.. cannot feel anything de.. haiz... so jialat.. T.T hahaha.. hmm.. yiyi went back to maple liao wor.. den ask me play with him.. since we 2 holiday liao.. aiyo.. i dl for 5hrs leh!!! haha.. now ar.. he at 110 coffe shop sia.. 4.17am.. LOL!!! he watching soccer ma.. tat what.. aiyo.. heard tat he morning 9plus go mac.. wonder if he can wake up ma.. hahaha.. yiyi always so gd de... lol!! he kw i still dl.. den ask me slp early.. hohoho.. MUACK~ yiyi... ai shi ni le~ lol..... but i wonder.. tat pink shirt.. u wear liao... look like what sia!! LOL!!!! and..... TAT HAIR!!! HOHOHO!!!!!! MUST TAKE PHOTO!!! DEN MUST SEND ME!!! is a must wor!!!!!! hohoho.. million years see one time leh!!! dun forget ar.. oh ya.. xiong having exam LATER.. haha.. wish him all the best bah.. JIAYOU!!!!! GAMBATEH!!!!!! ROAR!!!!!

First, let me greet all my readers, HAPPY OINK OINK YEAR!!! it been too long since i last update my blog.. because, i got one perfect excuse.. LAZY!!! hahahahhhaa!!! Mr Lazy come and visit me not long ago.. and decide to stay with me for a while.. den i become part of him liao.. HAIZ!!!! but now... Mr Lazy went to find other people liao.. SO!!! i can update my blog leh!!!! i think, at this moment, u all sure... -_- till... LOL!!!!! NICE ONE BABY!!! lol..


i miss so much of stuff to update sia.. since is a NEW YEAR!! den i shall start from de first day of new year!!! which is CHINESE NEW YEAR!! LOL.. so lame!! hmmmm... let me see... 1st day of chinese new year... i went to my grandma hse.. which is at 4th aunt there.. coz grandma currently stay with 4th aunt.. well.. i woke up so late.. at 11 plus?? till i miss my aunty!!!!! because they will come and visit us before my family go visit my grandma.. AND!!! due to i slp untill so "EARLY" ar, i miss them!!! haiz.. sleep also got ang bao take.. not bad sia.. LOL!!! but den... very bad la.. coz i 1 year see them one time nia.. haiz... oh well.. den i prepare lo.. MUAHAHAHAHAH!!!!! first time.. i am de last to prepare finish!!!!!! lol!!!!!! muahahahahhaa...


reach grandma hse.. as usual.. hear all de same thing.. "u getting taller... u getting slimer.. getting more and more pretty" aiyo...... this few phrase.. keep continue coming into my ear... haiz.. they just keep repeat de same thing wor.. den compare my height la.. bla bla bla.. sian leh.. lol.. but ang bao.. also take a lot la.. hahaha.. den whole day.... i sit there.. eat all de goodies.. den.. LOL!! eat a lot of ba gua.. den found out that.. becoz of ba gua, make a lot of ppl sick.. den my 1st aunty kanna.. eat ba gua liao sick.. LOL.. haiz.. i sick also because of ba gua... lol.. hmmm.. den whole day.. stare at TV nia.. from afternoon stare till night.. so sian lo.. nth to do.. haiz... den gamble a little.. and i won $7.20 in 10min bah.. LOL.. we play "in between" a game my cousins teach me de.. haha.. so fun.. maybe coz i win bah.. hahaha.. but.. they went off after the game to their relative hse.. haiz.. den i stare TV again lo.. lucky the show still ok ok ar.. arbo i sure die.. haha.. watch till so sleepy man.. T.T


den 2nd day.... i stay home de.. den play audition.. den my cousin sms me.. ask me go her hse.. haha.. well.. den i play a while more den go lo.. HOHOHO!!!! den guess what.. i 188bpm FM!!!! hohoho.. so happy lo.. den go my cousin hse liao.. ehhhh.. also got gamble.. 1st round.. i won $2.50... den 2nd round i won $0.70.. den total.. i won $3.20 for tat day.. LOL!! whole new years, i won $10.40.. hahahahaha.. den at night.. so funny lo.. we play mahjong till so fun... so many laughter.. hehe.. but also very blur la.. LOL!!!!! nth wrong much la.. hahaha.. at least i did having fun..


den 3rd day, which is ytd, i got work wor.... haiz..... kanna bully when i reach store.. wish boss happy new year end up my hand kanna press by him.. somemore is 2 time..... why i so stupid ar.. 2nd time also kanna.. haizzzz.. so bad so bad.. den my hand blue black sia... oh ya.. i keep having lots of injury sia.. i got cut on my hand where i dun kw where i got them.. seem like a deep cut but no blood.. not tat hurt.. den work also kanna injure.. small and big injury all got.. haizz.. why i so jialat one.. den at home.. also very jialat.. almost fall down 2 time.. HAIZ!! somemore is in my own room leh..... where got like tat de sia.. T.T sob sob sob... oh well..


haiz.... today slack at home liao.. so tired lo.. maybe chiong my vcd... best ar!!! lol...

let me see.. midnight 3am climb up and study... study for 1 hour den KO liao.. den went back to slp.. total slp 6 hours... coz tat dreamze force me to slp.. if i dun slp.. he will ignore me.. haiz.. use frenship press me!!!! den bo bian ar.. got to slp loh.. haha..


well.. morning wake up... so sleepy!!!! so tired.... body so weak... T.T sob sob sob sob sob T.T well.. let me see.. in bus keep wanna doze off.. coz very sleepy ar.. den read the notes till i wanna vomit.. haha.. nth wrong with my notes la.. is the way the bus driver drive.. and plus me sick.. den a little bit motion sickness.. den hoh!!!! bo bian lo.. still have to go sch.. oh well.. hmmmmm.. safely reach bus stop.. but really feel like fainting.. coz a little bit wanna throw out de feeling.. i tot i can rest a little while b4 i take another bus.. but den.... haiz... 184 come so fast.. when i wan the bus come fast.. it dun wan come.. now i dun wish it come so fast.. IT COME!!! haiz.. den i sit a while.. den bo bian la.. coz scare late for school.. den... i got up the bus lo.. haiz.. i kw i cannot stand long in a condition like tat.. but no choice.. i listen to my iPod.. the more i listen.. the moe terrible i feel.. nth wrong with the music la.. i dun kw why la.. just feel very weak and sick.. hmm.. den untill half way.. i really cannot take it.. i cough till i feel like vomit.. i faster press de bell.. i alight at the bus stop.. still a distance from the school la.. and is impossible for me to walk there.. so.. i rest a while at the bus stop.. when sitting at the bus stop, i tot of calling herman asking him come fetch me home.. coz i really feel very very sick.. haiz.. but den i never la.. haha..


den i see the sign board.. see other den 184 what bus can reach sch... den.. i dun kw i saw what number.. den.. this bus come.. den hoh.. i blur blur just got up tat bus.. den got this uncle.. keep staring at me.. SO SCARY!! feel like piak piak his eyes out.. ROAR!! see what see!! never see gal b4 ar?? den... guess what???? I TAKE DE WRONG BUS!!!!!!!! haiz... i dun kw what is happening to me also.. den i faster get down lo.. also forget what bus i took.. just kw got one "7" jiu shi le... haiz.. den hai wo walk so far... the sun so bright.. haiz.. bo bian.. still have to walk.. T.T leg long ma.. can walk fast rite.. T.T but.. too sick liao la.. never faint.. already xie tian xie di liao.. *Cough cough*


haiz.. den i go take exam lo.. never read my notes much.. den bo bian lo.. just go for it lo.. but lucky sia.. the paper seem to be quite easy.. i can get abt 67marks.. haiz.. if i got study.. SURE CAN GET HIGH MARKS ONE!!! haiz.. too bad ar.. never study.. :x


as usual.. i first to leave in my class.. i took 1 hour to finish the paper.. haha.. haiz.. lucky i feeling better after tat.. den went back home lo!!!!! got my breakfast.. and a drink.. warm one of coz.. if not somebodySSSSSS gonna nag me till... HAIZ!!!!!!!! lol... lalala.. so tired.. now finally 3pm.. can eat medicine liao.. eat liao can go slp lo!!!! HURRAY!!! sleeping WAN SHUI!!! lol...

i feel so numb.. i just woke up.. i feel so sick.. cough like getting worst.. i feel myself so numb when i woke up.. i feel like i am just a living dead man.. why my heart dun feel anything.. where is my heartbeat... i dun feel it.. i 1 day never slp.. in the middle of the night.. i went to his hse.. i told him that he will never walk alone.. haiz.. dun kw la.. i only kw now i very weak.. very sick..


haiz... i got so much to say.. but think.. i wun say now.. is time go heal and rest.. stanley told me.. the only way to rest is die.. haha.. maybe i feel like dying.. maybe i dun feel like dying.. stanley is not in a good shape now.. me also.. maybe.. i will die soon also.. haha.. time is drawing near leh.. is getting more and more tired.. stanley lose to fate leh.. fate is a very strong apponent.. so hard to beat.. maybe i will give up beating him.. i told stanley tat dun give up himself.. but now.. i think i need to stop the fight leh.. the motivation is gone.. haiz..

i just woke up.. ytd was chatting with uncle wolfy and jackson using skype.. wooah.. we play audition and chat at the same time.. and hoh!! tat jackson!! cannot let him po de.. he po = i miss.. sob sob.. nvm de la.. at least we all having lots of fun rite.. haiz.. ytd was such a suffering for me.. keep let mosquitoe bite.. bite untill.. i really cannot tahan.. think kanna bite 20 plus.. or what la.. a lot jiu shi le.. lucky now dun have leh..


well.. i dun really remember what was the conversation leh.. coz when i sleepy mood.. my brain is shut down.. they chat what i also dun kw.. i only kw my eyes is close and lying on bed sleeping.. but.. when i heard my name.. i woke up.. haha.. i dun kw what happen la.. coz very blur.. ehh.. i only kw.. uncle wolfy hang up first.. den left me and jackson.. ehh.. den i remember jackson nagging at me.. asking me drink salt water.. coz now my body very jialat.. keep on coughing.. but den.. my throat super pain.. den when cough.. more jialat la.. coz super pain.. even i talk also pain leh.. haiz.. see how lo.. jackson is a nice person.. coz keep nag at me.. lol!!! but i too stubborn liao.. bo bian ar.. haha..


oh ya.. i remember.. ytd.. my dad also nag at me.. T.T saying abt me never eat.. haiz.. not i dun wan eat de leh.. is no appetite.. but den.. now my appetite coming back liao ma.. slowly a bit ma.. liew.. so bad..


oh well.. i got a weird dream.. i dun kw what is happening la.. coz my body is too weak leh.. den very heaty.. haiz.. maybe tat is why i having weird dream bah.. let me see.. i dream.. i at this hawker center.. den.. like got this stall de Chao Guo Tiao very nice.. den i order lo.. den i find one seat.. and somehow i sit with a group of people.. erm.. i dun kw why la.. having weird feeling when i at there la.. den i look behind.. i saw this guy.. wearing blue hat.. den very very weird guy.. i dun kw is who.. after tat.. the one sitting next to me.. a guy la.. i dun kw what he say la.. i remember i went shouting very very loud.. think is scolding or what la.. very very loud.. well.. my voice can go very loud u see.. haha..


well.. den i found out that.. we were sitting with a group of ghost.. except him la.. who is the one sitting next to me.. but den... all the ghost is friendly ghost.. ^^v but den.. ppl can see we talking to thin air la.. den we try to hide our self lo.. and.. the Chao Guo Tiao.. very nice to eat sia,, the type i like it much de.. den got one guy.. wanna come and eat my plate of Chao Guo Tiao.. he come and steal my hum!! ehh.. i dun kw english call what la.. but hokkien call hum.. haha.. i love to eat hum a lot.. hehe.. oh well.. of coz i fight back la.. get my hum back.. so cute.. lol..


well.. den suddenly.. i found myself walking home.. with one guy beside me.. i not sure who is he la.. but hao xiang is "lai-son" ehh.. i dun kw how his name spell la.. licence?? lol!! sound like tat.. but i think dun spell like tat la.. :x oh wel.. in my dream.. somehow he getting kind of lame u kw.. he trying to act handsome.. o.O den take comb out la.. "see.. like tat more handsome.." lol.. a bit lame ar.. oh ya.. i also got information saying that i will have danger.. den need to be careful la.. den i try to stick to lai-son as close as possible.. den... i saw this group of people.. they were telling me to keep right.. and.. one of them look like xiao ming.. ehhh.. a bit weird.. haha.. somehow.. is like.. keep me away from danger.. den ask me keep rite.. so i do as what they say la.. but den.. lai-son walk fast suddenly.. den keep me behind.. and... something caught my eyes..


SO BIG THE DOG!!!!!! woahh.. i think is the size of the dog tat bite me when i was a very little girl.. very very very very very big.. i think is the size of the dog at northpoint there de pet shop.. SO BIG!!! den i kind of scare liao la.. coz.. i think.. tat is the DANGER.. hmmm.. den i try to walk steady steady a bit.. coz cannot run.. coz run dog will chase.. den.. when i about to pass de dog.. i increase my speed.. liew!! den i kanna caught!! TAT DOG BITE MY LEG!!!!!!! T.T ahhhhhh.. jiu ming ar.. i ji tao scare la.. but den.. instead of force.. i keep sayang the dog.. smooth de dog emotion i think.. coz i read a book.. they got say animal attack coz they feel fear.. or sot of stuff la.. den i keep sayang.. sayang de dog till.. finally.. the dog let go of my leg.. is a relieve la.. den.. the huge dog say.. "thank you"... ehhhhhhhhhh.. dog talk??? liew.. getting weirder and weirder.. haha.. den i say "u r welcome".. ermmmm.. why must i say welcome to tat dog when he bite me ar?? welcome him for biting my leg??? ehhh.. lol... lame sia..


hmmmmm.. den the blue hat man.. somehow appear a little bit la.. he was like protecting somebody den die.. ehhh.. tat blue hat man is a good guy.. i suppose la.. haha.. ehh.. den i forgot what my dream leh.. coz i woke up.. den slp again.. den no dream liao.. i only kw.. throat super pain.. i wan cough.. but den.. like dun wan cough like tat.. make me feel so suffer.. dry cough.. i think tat is what i having now.. haiz.. i gonna study leh.. i going mac liao.. finally.. my iPod is up to use liao.. hmm.. later herman coming and acc me also.. hmm.. haiz.. go bath bah.. gonna study real hard today.. GAMBATEH!!!!!

ok.. yc complaint that my post so lazy ytd.. lol.. oh well.. gonna complete my post by today.. of coz lazy la.. so long.. haiz.. hmmm.. let me see.. ytd me yc and my didi wen jie went out.. hardly see me will go shopping one.. ermmmm... let me see... what we do ytd..


First stop.. orchard road.. we went to wheelock to buy iPod.. weeee.. i discuss with my parent.. and they let me buy iPod.. weeeeeeee... haiz.. if i kw.. i got so many things to put.. i should buy 4GB at the first place.. haiz.... but everything is too late now.. as i said ytd.. i spend $406.65.. wooah.. first time in my life i spend so much in a day.. pocket really got a big big big big hole.. hmmm.. we see see look look.. finally.. i buy a 2GB iPod nano.. haiz.. (pocket so big hole.. T.T)


one thing super amazing happen.. guess what?? the first thing tat give me a shock was... *play drum* was!!!!!! when i open de bag.. well.. is good to see see a bit ma.. but den.. think again.. i buy one iPod.. but the bag weight like got a lot of stuff inside.. so i take a look.. and!! guess what i found.. BA GUA!!! pork slice la.. chinese new year(CNY) goodies... one of my favourite food in CNY.. hahahaha.. but den!! very very funny rite?? Apple company.. give Ba Gua to customer?? hahaha.. and... the ba gua.. is from some wu lu wu lu shop.. but den.. i still think tat mei zhen xiang de ba gua taste best!! ROAR!!!!



oh well.. after tat.. was so tired lo.. hmmm.. well.. i gonna buy something rite?? de silicon cover.. buy from apple there.. too expensive liao.. pocket already big hole.. so.. yc say.. we go PS buy.. coz she buy her cover at PS.. den.. instead of taking mrt to Dhoby Ghaut i suggest walk all the way there.. liew... walk half way.. i regret never take mrt.. coz really very tired ar.. T.T lol.. on the way, got this guy approach me!! liew.. wen jie taller den me.. yc shorter den me.. but why they aim me!!! liew.. oh well.. since i got time den i do de survey for them.. haha.. den one guy come towards us.. this time.. kanna wen jie!! lol.. den yc there ji tao say.. haha.. u all do.. i dun need to do.. something like tat de la.. lol!! den.. another guy pop up!! den kanna her!! LOL!!!!!!! so funny.. oh well.. and one of them say.. u dye ur hair red izzit becoz of the recently soccer??? lol.. LAME!! haha.. den we go off lo.. walk walk walk we reach PS!!!


haiz.. ARGHHH!!! my post just now gone.. den now got to re-write.. haiz.. i cut short liao.. haiz.. at PS, i buy de silicon cover.. den i go starbuck.. den i put de screen protector over my iPod.. den when i take out my ipod.. i found one scretch there!! liew.. so bad sia.. new one = got scretch.. oh well.. coz i too noob liao.. den got air bubble.. haiz.. after tat.. we go shop a bit outside PS.. den we went to bugis..


nothing to see much at bugis also.. den we went to bugis street.. oh well.. nth to see also.. end up i bought one sun glasses.. hehe.. look cool wor!!! see see!! cost me $10.. hahaha..

see!! i look so different!! chio hoh!! hahaha.. oh well.. cut it more short.. coz really very very long.. oh ya!! we went to the wallet shop.. very very idiot leh!! i bought this wallet for $36.. and!!! yc also buy one too.. but is diff price and design and also colour as well.. well.. after we paid... and yc wanna keep her money and stuff ma.. so i take her wallet bag with me.. so i one person take 2 wallet bag.. well.. i headed to de door.. BEEP BEEP BEEP!!! wth!!! so ma lu lo!!! the thing sounded.. and.. so many ppl looking at me.. liew.. very ma lu lo.. den they go and take out de bar code thingy.. den go test test.. and kw what make me really T.T.. tat guy.. tat service provider.. liew.. say sorry to yc instead of me.. WA LIEW!! i am the one tat kanna the ma lu thingy.. and he never say sorry to me.. end up say sorry to her.. haiz.. bo hua..

well.. and also.. after that we went to take neoprint.. too bad now my scanner not with me.. if not i will put here show u all.. but i will show u all sonner or later de la.. haha.. haiz.. and.. nth gd happen also.. haiz.. kw why?? after we finish taking de photo.. we decorate ma.. den yc dun kw press what.. is like.. "do u wan to end? yes or no".. well.. normally.. yes is on the left.. no is on the rite.. STANDARD de ma.. den i go click rite side de lo.. LIEW!!! den end all.... T.T wa liew.. can be more lame lo.. whole day lame till dun kw how.. haiz.. haha.. haiz.. but ok la.. neoprint take liao also not tat bad..

hmmm.. now my throat is super bad.. i think fa yan untill very very bad.. i talk also very pain.. T.T haiz.. drink water also pain.. den wan cough also very jialat.. haiz.. dun kw how liao la.. gonna really study.. sian.. i still kanna affected sia.. T.T what should i do..

oh ya... i dream of somebody today.. guess who appear in my dream.. chen hui.. omg.. how come is him sia.. well.. my dream de him.. is de him tat i always wanted.. lol.. is not him la.. is the one.. the character.. haiz.. only if got this kind of ppl exist..

omg... i spend so much today.. i spend $406.65 today sia.. aiyoo.. haiz.. kw why i spend so much ma.. coz i bought a new ipod.. weeeeee... hahaha.. i bought an ipod nano.. weeeeeeeeeee... den now yang ching is at my hse sia.. she is sleepin on my bed now!!! i hope she wun drool.. LOL!!!


tml den continue today my story.. so many interesting thing happen sia.. hahahahaha.. :x

i feel hurt again.. seem like he gonna make everything so clear ar?? oh well.. cannot get affected... but.. is impossible for now.. i dun believe.. he is so childish.. haiz.. why can't i get thing straight.. i know it.. i know everything.. but yet.. i dun wan to believe.. why sia.. i am hurt alright.. deeply hurt again.. oh man.. guys is really jerk... i really dun understand what they are thinking.. from research... most of the guy.. simply think of XXX nia..


i just told wen jie.. "how wish life can reformat just like a computer.. like tat.. wun so suffer.." but is impossible too.. i coughing quite badly.. gosh.. i really kanna affected.. oh ya.. i check my weight just now.. since my last measure.. i lost 5kg.. say seriously.. i really did cut down lots of weight.. and most of the weight is due to me not eating anything.. my appetite is getting back.. but.. whenever i think of those stuff tat hurt me.. i lost my appetite totally.. just now this afternoon.. i eating so fine.. but.. i suddenly stop eating.. and i run back to my room and lock myself up.. i haven get over with it alright.. haiz..


i cry damn badly... reason being.. i am watching naruto.. SO TOUCHING!!! but.. is also good tat i can cry.. crying always make one person feel better.. i went laughing and crying.. untill my dad tot i crazy.. haiz.. coz i cry real bad and laugh real loud.. *cough cough* hmmm.. wonder when den i can finish the anime.. is like.. A LOT LEH!!! haiz.. nvm..


i now at northpoint de mac.. 4.13am now.. today yc put me aeroplane.. haiz.. at least can tell me ma.. make me worry.. but.. she now ok leh (i hope).. at least.. she is fine.. wen jie say i suddenly got this serious look sia.. i think it did scare him a little.. how can i dun serious.. i just dun believe he do tat.. nvm.. seem like he wun contact me anyway.. so.. what for upset abt it.. u are strong gal ruby.. GAMBATEH!! dun forget.. u still got ur fren around u.. is all abt thinking... think the correct way.. and everything will be alright.. song did change ur mood ar..


one advise to u all.. when u sad.. LISTEN HAPPY SONG.. it will motivate u.. i can tell u all what song.. some song help me.. maybe they can help u too.. the beat u carry u into another lvl of height.. and will really motivate u.. and now.. my eye is burning... i am determine.. i dun need guys.. i dun need a bf.. xiong.. i gonna prove u wrong that i desprate for one bf.. coz.. i dun need them.. they are the cause of my hurt and my pain.. instead of getting all those.. i vows.. unless is the right guy.. or else.. NO RELATIONSHIP!! and i mean it this time.. and i never will have a relationship untill my exam is over.. this time.. i gonna open my eye big.. i being trap inside illusion all along.. i breaking thru this time.. so.. DUN TRY TO BEAT ME!!! I WILL NOT FAIL!! once i am determine.. mean THE END!! and nth can change it.. never ever provoke me when i am determine.. coz.. i dun care who u r.. coz.. in this state.. i am the rule.. whenever u see this eyes of mine.. the eyes of determination.. better dun try and provoke or irritate me.. coz tat will only bring u doom.. trust me.. coz i wun scare of anything.. and i am most confident in this state.. and i never will fail.. we will see... I WILL BEAT U!! I NEVER LOSE TO U "FATE".. I WILL NEVER LOSE TO U!!! u may beat me now.. but i will be the one laughing at the end.. u will see..


i only can see confidence in me now.. my mind is so clear now.. i may be blur.. but one this pair of eyes appear.. dun try to fool me.. coz u never will.. it being long since this pair of eyes appear.. let the battle begin.. U LOSE FOR SURE!! ROAR!!!!!!!!!

i think my fever is coming back.. i think i still cannot forget about him.. i miss him so much.. haiz.. xin hao tong.. why will end up like this.. what is happening.. but.. think think... 3bf tat i have before.. none of them give me a heartbeat feeling.. is this call puppy love? i dun kw..


i xin dong too easily... tat why i always hurt.. haiz.. izzit me got problem or guys tat the one got problems.. why am i always stuck here.. u will get over wif it.. rite?? but wtf is happening now.. arghhhh.. take a deep breathe... BUT I CANT!!! my room is only filled with sadness... i being curse or what sia.. arghhhh.. **** it all..

i flunk my exam today.. even my eddie so surprise tat i did not do well.. everytime.. i first to go off.. but today.. i am the last.. both of my program cannot even compile.. i think.. i really fail leh.. haiz.. i knew it.. i knew it!! i knew it that i will score so bad!!! haiz..


well.. ytd i wish tat my senior royston have nightmare.. but end up.. he dun have nitemare.. but me having nitemare!! haiz.. is not surprise to see me have tat kind of nitemare that what royston say.. and.. he told me something... gals have long hair.. is those emo type.. well.. he say.. if i so disagree.. den prove him wrong.. but now.. i think.. i cant prove him wrong.. my hair is super long.. den i am super emo also.. well.. i kw me.. emo cause my greatest wrong.. i try to change it.. but.. when something happen.. gosh.. i just cannot stop... i never beat my emotion.. and i never will.. hey ruby.. think positive.. there's a will.. there's a way.. keep it up.. u are trying real hard.. it doesnt matter how others look at u.. so long u kw tat u never do anything wrong.. and u are clear of what u are doing.. who care what others say and look at u??


bla bla bla.. say all this is easy.. but.. ruby always wanted attention from others.. why?? i dun kw.. but i just need to have attention from others.. i dun kw why i wan this so much.. i really dun kw.. even me myself cannot get it.. izzit becoz i lack of attention?? sad song accompany me thru my nite.. i am lost of words.. i start to feel heartache.. why am i in this state.. i no longer myself.. xiong told me just now.. "i 5 years got 3 gf.. u 1 years got 3.." haiz.. i did feel hurt.. he knew tat what happen to me currently.. but.. he still say tat out.. some more.. he still say "u give me a feeling that u very desperate for a bf".. oh well.. for those tat know everything abt me.. u all should kw how badly i am hurt bah..


i already so hurt.. trying to over come what happen to me.. and yet.. xiong just give me another scar tat need to be heal... hao xin ku.. xiong kw what is gd for me.. he see everything very clearly.. but.. now i see him.. i start to feel.. distance.. a big distance.. we no longer the fren we use to be.. u kw that rite?? haiz.. nvm.. u will just think tat i just getting emo.. maybe i am.. but i start to fear of u.. u kw what i scare of most.. rite?? or maybe all along u dun kw.. the sense of secure i got in u.. already gone.. at least.. come comfort for me?? what i need most now.... haiz.. nvm.. not important anyway..


where can i find the secure?? joke around.. smile around.. tat is what others see in me.. but tat is not me.. tat is the mask i wearing.. someday.. maybe i can really joke and smile around with the REAL me.. now think back.. i can so good with yiyi and xiong.. maybe is the sense of secure they give me.. tat why they are my very very best fren.. but.. once this sense of secure is gone.. i think.. tat is the end of me.. haiz..


think i need to keep myself busy bah.. to stop me thinking of anything.. no matter wat i do.. no matter where i go.. i got hurt everywhere.. and i start crying in the middle of the night to heal myself.. that is my life.. haha.. so pathetic.. senior.. is not i wan to make myself sound so pathetic u kw.. other den pathetic.. i cannot find any other words to sub it.. everyone around me.. some more worst.. some more better.. some dun even care.. den me?? which cagetory do i fall in?? ha.. we will see how bah.. if i gonna fail my exam.. i think i will drop out liao.. i dun wan study leh.. haha.. stupid idea rite?? bla bla bla.. no ppl care also..


*cough* haiz.. die le~ dun kw how good.. haha..

woah... is time to say goodbye to the past man.. think from the very start.. gosh.. this background music.. is uncle wolfy send me de.. i just like this song.. coz this song suit me a lot.. haha.. try to catch the lyric bah..


haiz.. past 12 leh.. mean.. LATER is my exam.. compro.. i never study at all.. untill just now den i remember tat i got test.. die liao la.. sure flunk it.. sob sob.. haiz.. die leh suan leh..


well.. herman very ping ming for me sia.. i was in a terrible state just now.. but i always find him.. haha.. haiz.. starting.. i really very very jialat.. but no response from him.. and i kw.. i cannot alone.. so i contact stanley lo.. at lest.. i feel better a bit la.. den.. also sms yiyi.. yiyi still got his method to make me happy.. but den.. he never use la.. i end up disturbing ppl.. i disturb yiyi.. den disturb my senior royston.. well.. disturb ppl.. seem like making me feel better.. den i feel better after tat.. well.. bullying my senior.. is such a great fun man..


oh well.. herman.. he rush home.. just to contact me.. he even hurt himself on the way rushing home.. gosh.. tat sure very hurt.. haiz.. hope he get well soon.. is me tat cause him like this de.. sob sob.. but he always so caring to me.. when i need him, he will be there... this kind of fren.. where to find sia.. T.T when he call me.. i get better all already.. well.. at least he got call me.. but.. he dun sound good la.. everytime something happen.. he sure emo de lo.. easily hear what happen to him.. lie or not.. listen to his voice jiu kw liao..


oh well.. tat senior!! so pervert!!! ROAR!!! but den.. he say.. i am a diff type of gal.. liew.. i wun fall for this kind of stuff again.. he said.. "i like the way u carry urself and all u are one unique gal.." liew.. still say what i got the x factor.. o.o!! and say what.. got one cannot describe de feeling.. pleasant, unshallow, look confident and cute.. WTH!!! I WHERE WILL LOOK CONFIDENT!!! i kw i cute la.. lol.. thx you.. :x but.. the rest i dun understand liao leh.. his unshallow mean.. a substantial person not some simple materialistic person.. LIEW!! so chim.. how to understand.. year 3 student bu kui shi year 3 student.. talk de language all so chim.. say it simple "different and unusual person in a good way".... liew.. i remember.. i first time see him.. keep on K him liao lo.. beat him here and there.. keep beating give him this feeling??? liew... den i tell him.. if whole world beat him.. like tat whole world give him that feeling liao lo.. LOL!!! den ji tao!! he say he wanna strangle me... liew!!!! correct what.. a gal tat beat him.. is unique coz normally gal dun do tat to one senior ma.. if that is the case.. mean beat him = unique.. unique = give him tat feeling.. mean.. beat = give him tat feeling.. LOL!!! den ji tao.. he let me bully untill so shiok!! lol.. but.. PERVERT LA HIM!! arghhhh.. talk like my ex-s.. sian.. he say he wanna make me suffer if see me in school.. but.. I SURE MAKE HIM SUFFER LOTS MORE!! ROAR!!!