well.. ytd i left my lappy to my boss.. he help me dun kw do what to my com la.. den.. he said my com.. jialat la.. dun kw do what to do liao.. haiz... nvm... dun care also..


well... ping ping said... 9th of next month... we all go steamboat.. hmmmm.. i stay in sch till 6pm tat day.. coz help out in school.. haiz... after that den go join them bah...


today work.. totally failure... careless... den hit the ice cream there de spoon... den all drop on floor.. liew... 30 le~! haiz.. today help qi feng cover some shift... extend to 8pm... but what make me really.... haiz.. my counter short of $10... hell... every single change... every single money i count properly liao den give lo... at the end short of exact $10... den end up?? kanna violation report.. i dun believe that this kind of stuff happen on me.. what happening??? this month, this is the 2nd time... i always very careful abt money de lo.. how can like this... today i wan a star de lo.. end up?? short of $10... how could this happened.. i really cannot take it lo.. this kind of thing happen, mean that i dun have the responsibility to take care of my drawer... and end up causing this kind of stuff to happen...


when i finish work... really affect me a lot.. can't smile at all... can't think of anything also.. just feel like get LOST in this world.. i dun like running away... tat why i have to face it.. haiz.. uncle martin playing basketball outside... when i go out, he ask me to sit down and chat.. but i chose to walk away... den... i walk back again... sit down there see him play basketball lo.. haiz.. coz dun really feel like going home.. mood very down.. den sit there... do nothing.. drink water.. ping ping saw me outside... she is worried abt me.. scare i feel too bad or what.. I AM FEELING BAD... but den.. i dun wan to let her kw or worried abt me.. end up?? i just smile and say nth wrong with me.. haiz..


uncle martin wanna send me home.. but i refuse to let him do so.. coz.... i more feel like being alone... coz.. already use to it.... when something happen, i always alone.. no one cover me... no one take care of me.. i am just alone to let the wind blow off.. what did i do wrong anyway?? why money being missing in my drawer nowadays?? this month... so many ppl de drawer short of so much of money.. tat's what ping ping told me.. haiz.. but... i dun believe i really did cause tat money to be gone... violation report... what a joke.. i tot i will never get that.. and now?? i got it.. 4D also dun have so lucky.. money missing.. I HATE IT~! i hate it when it come to money... coz have to throw ur character, personality, responsibility all down... and now?? when money gone.. mean ur character, personality, responsibility all gone... FAIL~! that is what going to my mind.. fail.. u are such a failure.. $5.55 tat day.. today $10... oh come on.. ruby... normally u wun more den 50cents.. and now?? IS DOLLARS~! what the fuck is going on.. before u take counter today... a feeling of missing money go thru ur mind.. tat why u check carefully before give any money to the customer... but now??? tat feeling come true... congrate to u...


haiz... no matte feel like sms who.. is seem like.. is no use.. coz.. i just feel that it is useless... msg yiyi.. he reply one "Y".. den no more.. no reply.. feel like msg xiong.. but den.. haiz.. think he wun reply also.. what am i seeking?? consolation?? or what?? violation report.. nth much what.. is just a report.. why u feel so bad abt it.. den why can't u just move ur finger and msg who ever u feel like msg-ing?? let them kw how u feel.. what u feeling.. what u thinking.. haiz.. but i just can't.. coz the more i feel like msg-ing them.. the most i feel that i am a burden to them.. or maybe.. they will just laugh at it.. haiz.. i have no confident le.. i scare of counter le..


everything getting more and more bad... my life getting more and more "COLOURFUL".. haiz.. my knee cap dun seem to be alright.. thursday... my knee cap was having a very bad pain.. i cannot even walk.. when i squat down.. i cannot stand up.. it will have a super bad pain... i can't move.. CAN'T MOVE.. i dun kw how scare.. what if i cannot walk anymore.. no more fun and games for me.. no me basketball.. no more shopping.. no more hanging out with my friends.. all no more.. i dun kw how scare.. when i home, my knee cap start to blue black a bit.. but it not tat hurt anymore.. i tend to get blue black SUPER easily nowadays.. haiz... dun kw la.. die also no one kw..


when my knee cap in great pain.. guess who appear ine my mind?? xiong wor.. some memory appear in my mind.. i still remember i sec 5 tat year.. when i play basketball, my leg cramp... den the next day in sch... xiong gave me some medicine.. he ask me to eat it.. coz can cure the pain a bit.. coz after the cramp, my leg is very painful.. cannot walk properly.. due to he pain.. and he bought the medicine and gave me.. i tot no one really notice abt me.. but he did.. he kw what i undergoing... kw wat pain i having.. and trying to ease my pain.. really very touch tat time.. coz no one did done that b4... even i hate medicine so much.. i still ate it.. how wish time can stop at there... i rather have the pain... den have it pass... but.. nth i cna do to stop time from flowing.. i am just a pathetic human being... haiz.. how wish i got tat time de xiong... so caring and will notice me de xiong.. but.. his care and notice.. is no longer on me anyway.. he got another person tat he wanted to care... and tat person is not me.. haha.. haiz.. cannot dun admit that time really can change one person.. haiz.. i only can swim back to my memory.. stay in that gd memory... life is hard for me in secondary school.. but i still got sweet memory.. bla bla bla.. time to burst the bubble.. is just a memory afterall.. cannot Yue Xian Yue Shen... if not i cannot get up again... i already made my decision dun i??


haiz... cry finish... now feel better le bah.. i think.. man... so pathetic..

liew.. early in the morning.. got pervert sia... staring at me.. liew.. when pass me he said.. "WOW".. wth~ what he trying to do sia??? arghhhhhh... so hate it... my clothes got what?? arghhh... why keep staring at my breast... he so pervert.. arghhhhhh...


haiz.. bring my lappy go cal2.. tot of reformat.. everything prepare liao... end up they dun wan help me reformat... they help me transfer my memory in my d drive to my c drive.. haiz.. now my lappy got space le.. oh man... so tired...


arghhhhh... so headache now... think i do too much c prog liao.. everybody do untill like 3.1 or so.. me le?? i do till 5.1... wan to die liao... head so pain.. haiz.. now still in school... arghhhhhhh... head so pain... help ar~ tml got work somemore... arghhhhhhhh...


hmmmmm... haiz... hungry...

lol.. i eating pocky in class... yummy... even have Soya bean for my drink.. but i drink finish already... lol... so sian lo.. haiz.. having nightmare nowadays.. i have a terrible dream last night.. and was really dun feeling very good lo.. haiz.. didn't really have a good sleep.. but lucky i have energy now.. if not gone case...


well.. just now on the way to school, robin was in the bus too.. haha.. took the same bus with him today.. but never really talk la.. just say good morning to him nia.. den i shut up le.. lol..


haiz... 8 hours lesson today.. only 30min break.. i wonder the break... enough ma lo.. haiz.. lucky i buy snack.. if not die lo.. now i eating snake.. haha.. coz nth to do.. finish all the work lo... lol... sian.. wanna start to feel sleepy le..


early in the morning i went mac to have my breakfast.. coz.. i kw today break time sure not enough time eat.. so i rather have a heavy breakfast den to have one rush breakfast.. haiz.. so full lo.. T.T haha.. aunty ah suan so blur today... draw wrong drink.. but i dun wan to drink ice lemon tea too bad... hahaaa...


liew.. ah boon play CS in class.. lol... dun kw CS got what fun sia.. lol.. lalala... hope he lose his game... lalala... oh... he dead... wahahaha...


liew.. wonder the teacher wanna have lesson a not sia.. haiz... so sleepy liao.. nvm... continue eat pocky.. *yummy*

woah... today service in sia.. do till i wanna die.. first time in my life.. i cook 7 filet in a row.. woah... so shiok.. lol... but really run till siao la... haiz... so many ppl today.. T.T


oh gosh.. i forgot tml got test... die ar... never study.. T.T what to do le.. nvm la.. tml 12noon den start sch... wake up a bit early and study lo... wun how de la..


eh eh... xiong come to store today sia.. he finish work den come... hmmm... he seem tired... or what le... but den he suddenly shout.. "i have no girlfriend.." den i was like.. -_- this kind of thing also need to shout.. weird lo.. aiya.. soon he will have one de la.. but he and me same.. scare.. lol.. i understand how he feel.. lol...


today hoh.. yiyi also very playful la... liew.. coz my earring.. is "LOVE" de ma.. the word.. den he say.. "you in love ar??" lol... -_- where got sia.. earring got love mean in love?? what logic lai de.. but den.. a lot of ppl comment on my earring sia.. lol... den sze peh also say so... liew.. i where got in love.. i say.. "love in one me... on my ear"... lol... den i say.. i am single and avaliable.. den yiyi add one.. "are u hinting me something?" liew.. *Faint* yiyi ar... this kind of thing mai play play la... sian 1/2... but den.. muahahahhaa... i say one thing to yiyi.. den ji tao he nth to say.. "got more pimper liao wor.." MUAHAHAHA... den he sian diao.. wahahaha.. dun kw why... yiyi tend to be more cheerful liao wor.. can play more on him liao.. wahahahha.. so fun...


eh eh... look like xiong de chinese also cmi... hahah.. i edit him wor.. den everything i tell him tat word wrong.. den after he change liao he say "where got.. u think too much.." liew.. standard de words lai de... peng...


yawn... tml 12nn den start lesson.. bag super heavy... with my lap top.. and ALL the books.. i mean ALL... this sem de module.. those tat need books de.. ALL le... haiz.. heavy lo... will die lo.. got one lap top already can die liao.. still plus so many books.. hope tml can survive.. T.T

Story Began....



One day, a guy call xiong went to popular and buy some stuff... after paying, he went to the exit... but... the machine sounded... this time... the stuff over there came over and see what happen... the stuff told him to put down his bag and den head over the door and try... but the machine still sounded... lol... den he take out his wallet and everything inside his pocket and den head to the door again... but... still sounded~!~!~! den the stuff there bring him over to the office... den... police came over too... well.... the police search his body... in the end found nth... den they said... "hey boy... i kw u keep inside ur UNDERWEAR... faster take out..." (LOL~!~! of coz he say no la.. wa liew..) den... guess what... the police ask him to take out his shoes... end up... they found one price tag under his shoe wor... den they apologise to him..


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~THE END~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~




lol... boss told me this story... and seem like this story start to spread liao wor.. lol... tat qi feng also keep spreading.. :x muahahaha... me also wan revenge... also spread a bit.. well.. is qi feng la.. but den he say not very clear.. den i add on.. :x WAHAHHAHA... boss ar... pro sia... coz tat xiong came over mac ma... den... bully me.. arghhhh.... den i hit him like crazy... punch him... kick him... pinch him... muahahhahaha... evil rite... anyway, he bully me... den boss pass me a wooden stick.. lol... this time he really die liao sia... boss still the most pro de... but... very idiot lo.. tat stanley join in the fun and shoot me... T.T so bad... haiz... beat him like crazy... maybe he too miss me hitting him liao bah... but... he dun dare to hit me... well... maybe... he dui bu qi wo too much le... make me cry so much.. tat why take this as a repay?? lol... maybe... who knows... at least he still not bad la... will bring liang cha give me.. normally all the time is me buy for him... this time is he tat buy for me.. well.. maybe not for me.. well.. i saw boss and stanley also got.. den when he pass to me.. stanley add on this.. "he buy for me de... den i dun wan..." haiz... heard this liao.. a bit sian diao lo.. tot he really did care abt me for tat bit... and can return some care to me too.. haiz... but den.. while we were playing around.. i still feel that... is not the real him le.. the feeling is not rite... is not him.. he still putting a mask on??? i dun kw... just feel different... haiz.. but den... a bit disappointed... coz... he buy becoz boss is not feeling well... haiz... tot he will so good buy for me all becoz he care abt me... liew... look like me.. is just "shun bian" one... haiz... if i never work today.. will he buy for me too?? in my dream bah...


i getting more and more like goong ye man wan fei song liao... the sad and the feeling... i kind of like it... maybe i stay in this kind of feeling too long liao bah... tat why... bla bla bla.. ytd kind of depressed... coz of tat xiong la... maybe when he saw this... he will say.. "what i do..." lol... i wun tell u.. and u dun need to find out.. but den.. most likely he wun visit my blog bah.. since he is so busy with his girl... so lots of gal around him.. today just got one with her liao.. lol.. den i got liang cha from him.. maybe they will jealous... haiz... think i should siam as fast as possible.. evaporate from this world better... suddenly feel like... go other country and enjoy... maybe that can call evaporate bah.. evaporate from singapore... and not the world.. lol...


anyway... i finish up the liang cha le.. a little bit of bitter... but i finish it... Ku Kou Liang Yao... but i just cannot take bitter... hmmmm... liang cha... liang cha is also another memory.. lol... coz when xiong was working in store, i tend to buy liang cha for him.. 2 or 3 time bah... he die die will drink finish... if he dare to waste it, i sure kill him.. haha.. at that period of time... i think... me and him is the closers time... haiz... now is all over lo...


hmmmmm... kind of worry abt yiyi now... coz boss say that he wasn't having a gd time out there... he working at other store ma.. wonder how is he now... haiz.. wan msg him.. but den.. dun kw how to say sia... hope he is alright...


haiz.. now think bad... i think i really hit tat xiong a LITTLE bit too hard le... hahaha... hope he is alright.. (*^-^*) aiya.. wun die de la him.. let so many gals hit.. sure train untill very steady de..



The Power That Signals Success Is A Power Of Your Thinking And Doing...

gosh... suddenly feel so sad.. starting to cry.. haiz.. feel kind of hurt inside me.. 25million years later... people u met... things tat happen before to u.. will replay all over again... i dun wanna this kind of thing happen to me again.. is too hurt...

well... i in school now.. nothing to do during lesson.. so write my this little bloggy.. hmmmmm... just now teacher say something to me wor.. wahahaha.. can fly liao.. he said that... "if all my student like you, i dun need to worry liao" lol... soooo... happy?? haiz.. if behind is like this gd lo.. infront coz i come across before that why easy for me.. haiz..


eh eh.. today 4hours break become 5hours.. or should say 4 and half hours.. haiz... really much to do sia... the food in canteen 1 is really not nice.. cannot even bite it.. haiz.. next time i really dun wan go canteen 1 liao la.. haiz.. T.T well.. after that we went to the library... stay all the way there till 3.50pm.. holala.. done finish my MOL.. now left with my math tutorial liao... muahahaha...


hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....... CHIONG AR~!~! haiz.. sad.. tml got work.. T.T

so... ARGHHHHHHH... haiz.. suan le... go work... ppl show me black face... say hi to them... not a single reply.. how to work in this environment?? den some more got order, do nothing but just stock up.. end up, i do all alone.. wtf... showing me attitude some more.. idiot sia.. so hate it..


haiz.. today go sc... 8am to 10am nia.. liew.. go sch for only 2hours.. den go back home.. haiz.. sian... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... TODAY JUST SO SUCK MAN~!~!

arghhhhhhhhh... today is a super suey day wor... firstly... i gonna late for school today... den guess what?? I decided to take cab over to school… haiz… know what happen??? The driver drive me to nan yang poly…. Arghhhhh… I say go ngee ann poly.. he go nan yang… liew… cost me a bomb.. at least he still kw he wrong, charge me cheaper by $4…


haiz.. I thinking of complaint him.. but.. haiz.. nvm la.. give him a chance la.. who wun make mistake?? Cannot coz of one mistake and give him a dead sentence.. haiz.. well.. next time say CLEARLY lo.. say.. “I wan go ngee ann poly and not nan yang poly..” like tat sure can le..


liew… so many ppl laugh abt it when I told them…….. arghhhhhh… stupid sia.. T.T haiz… nvm la.. at least I never late for sch… haha… well, having quite a lot of fun when doing practical… haha.. coz is so easy… hmmmm… today 1pm start lesson… super nice.. can slp till shiok… holala… den lesson all the way sia… so rush.. haiz…


and… when I buying the C prog book… haiz… saw matthew… den… WHEN THEY SCAN THE BOOK, den he say he got the book can give me… WA KAO~! Waste my money again… arghhhhhhhhh… idiot lo… haiz…


anyway… nth much affect me today la.. but den… someone say he fond of me.. gosh.. what should I do sia.. I dun really wanna have a relationship with him… coz no chemistry bah… haiz… I got what gd sia?? Haiz… why do ppl I dun like, like me… den…. Haiz… nvm…



The Difference Between Failure And Success Is Doing A Thing Nearly Right And Doing A Thing Exactly Right...

oh man.. school start liao.. haiz.. so tired le... working for the past few days.. den after work i watched vcd... watched till morning 8am - 9am.. haiz.. den today morning 5am den slp... haiz... tired sia.. in school super tired.. and i got to spend over $80 plus for books.. haiz... so ma fan...


yawn.. so tiring.. just now reach yishun... 7plus.. haiz.. after tat went to mac.. boss working today.. den disturb him a while.. den hear some of his story.. hehe.. i love talking to boss.. coz very fun.. after tat i went back home take my laptop.. den go back mac again... well.. i do my C programming... hmmm... very fun le.. i thinking of doing more of it.. hehehe.. wonder how fun can it be...


tired le.. haiz.. finish the vcd le.. haiz.. but the ending.. not very gd sia.. if the ending can longer a bit.. showing how happy they are... it will be better... haiz.. but den.. dun kw why sia.. i kind of like the male lead... i mean as in the character.. well.. i still like single eyelid de guy... awwww.... the prince is handsome.. the another prince also very handsome.. well... ytd... i at store wait for yiyi ma... till he knock off... den somehow... got abt 2 or 3 time.. i feel the yiyi got tat prince de feeling... maybe certain look, look like bah... hahaha...


well... yiyi is the best wor.. hahaha... but see yiyi somehow look stress.. not look.. but is very stress.. wonder how he gonna handle his stuff... haiz.. wish him all the best... (*^-^*)


weeeeeeeeee... i continue go play with my c prog liao.. weeeeee....

nth i can say... only kw i cry for a damn ass... being such a idiot.. 重色轻友

paiseh... so many days never update.. hahaha... thx godness tat the haze has gone better... hahaha... hmmmm... these few days keep working wor... no time to update my blog.. hahaha.. well.. today i also got work... den after work i gone swimming with summer.. haiz.. coz i tot i late.. den i go take cab down... end up?? she late... she 45min late.... haiz...


hmmmmm... bought 2 shirt just now at northpoint... hahahaha... hmmm... not bad la.. i bought white and yellow de... hehehe... eh eh... tired sia... these 2 week will be very hard for me.. coz keep work... sob sob... T.T leg so pain... T.T


tml also got work sia.. sad case.. T.T weeeee... yiyi let me shoot sia.. hahahaha... so happy... well.. is not happy la.. is just that.. nan de i can shoot him... hehehe... normally shoot him... sure kanna scold by him... well.. one thing for sure is that... yiyi de temper getting better liao... hahaha...

hmmmm... fully repair my lappy liao.. haha.. now i can use the bluetooth.. wahaha.. hmmmmm... hse today renovate another toilet.. so noisy.. early morning 8plus need to change room slp.. arghhhhhh... so ma fan.. anyway.. still able to slp la.. till very shiok.. eh.. maybe not tat shiok la..


now.. i wanna put all of what i wanted into my story... like tat.. izzit some kind of healing?? bla bla bla.. all rubbish.. i still got some stuff still haven sot out in my head... it is making me headache.. and also trouble.. if there is a place.. no ppl... no stress... dun need responsibility... full of enjoyment... i wish i will be there..


lalala.. nvm.. saw boss at the mrt station just now in the day... haha.. call him a lot of time den he answer me sia.. hahaha... anyway, whole store seem so happy when i got perfect score for them.. wonder what is going on?? maybe i helped them pass something?? dun kw... hahaha...


having some chat with joanna now.. hmmmm... lalala


haiz....... suan le..

man.. stupid lappy.. now even the touchpad there de left button key also siao siao liao.. wtf sia... later at 3plus i meeting yang ching.. we go acer there and repair our stupid computer.. arghhhh... all becoz of our stupid computer... have to run all the way to jurong.. wa liew..


haiz... well... kanna the same person again.. the gap buster lo... and.. i score 100% again.. holala.. first 2 time kanna 100%.. not bad not bad.. holala.. hahahaha... boss said.. ask me buy whatever i wanted den give him the receipt.. but of coz.. within $10... hahaha.. wonder what can i buy sia.. special incentive le.. he said.. holala..


hmmmmmmm.. maybe gonna dye my hair again on thursday?? haha.. this time maybe i buy my own dye and dye.. go saloon really waste money sia.. hahaha.. and now.. cannot anyhow waste money liao... coz... haiz.. nvm...


hmmm.. friday is mooncake festival.. wonder who will ask me out?? haiz.. nvm... not important anyway.. seem like i gonna plan my own thing and den celebrate lo... but this year, yang ching will sure be there.. still remembered when i am small, i used to light all the candle and put them outside my hse, playground.. bla bla bla.. oh ya~! and going to blk 108 there de RC and celebrate and also help out... this year.. wonder will it be the same.. coz last time i use to being all the children and walk around yishun.. coz.. i am the leader.. hehehe.. cool ar??


anyway... my eyelid twitch again.. and is the left top one... tat day i was rob coz this particular side twitch.. but nth happen sia.. phew.. tat was lucky right?? hahaha... yawn.. kind of tired le.. haiz.. but 7am have to wake up liao.. why?? coz have to change room slp.. coz my hse another toilet got to renovate.. wtf lo.. renovate one liao.. now got to renovate another.. very noisy de le.. hope tml i can slp very peacefully.. haiz.. yawn...


ytd drink bird nest.. and after tat.. whole family cannot slp... well.. i not sure if my brothers can slp or not.. but... me and my parents can't slp... maybe is the bird nest bah.. coz we take before we gone to bed.. sob sob.. and make us all cannot slp.. T.T well.. after i can almost doze off.. haiz.. ahhhhhh chhuuuuuuuuuu... dun kw is ppl cursing me.. or tat i catch a cold.. keep on sneezing.. sneeze abt 5-6 time in a minute?? hahaha.. tat is really terrible.. well.. and when i woke up, coz my nose is block.. make me cannot breathe.. sob sob.. den no choice got to wake up lo.. and.. i was freezing cold in the morning.. i think got rain bah.. i not too sure.. coz every morning i wake up, SUPER COLD.. and i will cover myself with blanket... my hse dun have air-con.. and i already cold till like tat.. i cannot imagine if i slp with air-con.. what will happen to me.. maybe become ice?? hahaha...


oh ya... today my dad workmate came over and visit him.. i was quite blur when they came over to my hse.. haha.. anyway, as what i always do.. try to get away as far as possible.. the best way is to hide inside the room.. wahaha.. and.. they disturb my hamster.. sob sob.. and.. i think.. is time to change my hamster cage.. it being a while since i last change them.. hahaha...


well.. phone call keep ring in the afternoon.. my aunty staying next door was ill.. and her.. dun kw what pigu call over to my hse.. and kw what she say?? "aunty ar... can go call ah yan(my aunty staying next door) come to ur hse and listen the phone??" wtf.. i 100% tat old lady on the next line is dun kw how many times older den me.. and she call me aunty??? liew.. maybe she mistook me and my mum bah... arghhhhhhhhhh... so hate my relative staying next door.. haiz... suan le...


having such a stupid day... haiz... nvm... i feel that my character getting good to bad.. haiz.. what happen sia.. arghhhhhhh.. stupid stupid stupid...

Hmmmmm… I told le.. I got told Stanley abt it.. den also told yiyi.. but not much… well.. things is not like what I tot.. haha.. lucky la.. but den.. I still dun kw who took my $10… T.T haiz…


Hmmmmm… I start to eat a lot nowadays liao.. haha.. these 2 days… keep eating… hahaha… hmmm.. hope wun get fat fat wor.. hehe..


Hmmmmmm… I kanna gap buster today.. haiz.. today only 3 crew lo.. me counter.. den the rest one kitchen one lobby.. haiz… dun kw will get 100% a not sia.. haiz.. sad sad sad… coz I never ask for repeat selling… haiz… this is the 2nd time I kanna.. work for 9month plus… going 10th month liao… den kanna 2 time gap buster.. got ppl work 2 years not a single time they kanna sia.. haiz… and.. IS THE SAME PERSON… is the same person tat I kanna the first time.. sob sob sob… will he give me 100% like what he gave last time?? Haiz…


Going to Acer company… dun kw at Wednesday or Thursday.. haiz… this time gonna repair my Bluetooth.. if not can throw away this computer liao.. hahahaha….


Haiz.. sian.. my stupid brothers ask me plau UNO.. lol.. k la.. go play with them… if not they nag nag nag liao.. haha.. tata…

Wtf… I kanna robbed… my $10 gone sia.. I remember tat I bring $24 out… den… I buy one regular fries… one medium milo.. and one McFlurry… all cost abt $6.. den I should left abt $18… but when I on the way home, I go Cheers.. den I wanna buy some stuff… den I found out I left $8 instead of $18… I dun remember buying other stuff.. den what happen to my $10??? Did somebody stole it?? Man… go mac.. never take care my stuff.. see la.. money lost liao la.. haiz.. whose fault??? Haiz.. who ask me never take care my wallet.. wa lao eh… $10… liew.. my $10 gone.. who could have stole my $10?? Who is the one tat stole it?? Gosh.. should I tell yiyi??? Should i?? or should I not?? My money lost when I in store.. if I tell… what if things get really big.. like tat my life there sure very jialat.. what should I do.. if I dun tell… maybe will have another this kind of stuff happen.. man.. what should I do… tell or dun tell??? Arghhhhhhh… how sia…


I VERY SURE~!~! before I buy McFlurry… inside my wallet got 2 $10 notes… den I use one… den after tat Rash give me the change… den I put it in… and den.. I never buy anything liao.. therefore 100% got $17 de NOTES… one $10, one $5 and one $2… the rest coin la… BUT~!~! when I go cheers… the $10 gone.. wtf… no wonder my eyelid keep on jump today… DEN I KANNA ROB~!~! wa lao… how can like this sia… T.T sob sob…


I keep on recall what I buy.. I really should have one more $10 inside.. what happen?? If there really a thief, den I really should report… but how… haiz… tian ar… but I dun really dare to tell them… how…. What should I do… how how how… T.T


I also hurt myself when at mac.. I toot toot go take the milo.. den the whole box drop down and hit my leg… as well as my hand.. haiz.. no wonder hoh.. eyelid jump so badly… man… so suey… and…. When go toilet.. got cockroach.. wtf… SEE~!~! EYELID JUMP SO BADLY… this is all what I got… haiz… is my left top eyelid… wa lao eh… asshole la… should I report ma??

I now so full… hahaha.. so long never eat like this le… I ate 2 bowl of rice.. waahahha.. I helped my mum do the cooking… weeeee… hmmmm… really very full.. wahahahaha… anyway…. I feel very great, after so long, this is the first time I ate so much at home… hahaha…


Hmmmm…. Me morning 6 plus den slp wor.. haha.. slp till 2 plus.. waahahaha… well.. also received a call from mac.. haiz.. they ask me tml go work early.. at 3pm… haiz.. I should start at 5pm de.. den end up 3pm lo.. sob sob… bo bian.. haiz…


Hmmmmm… ytd play audition.. wahaha.. so happy.. I break my own record.. now I can FM for 140bpm… wahahaha.. really very happy.. den very gan jiong some more.. hahaha.. heartbeat so fast… hehehe.. but I successfully done it… lalala…


Hmmmmmm… dun have much thing to say sia.. sian… coz today never do anything much sia.. hmmmm… anyway, I wanna change my blog skin… wonder which skin to chose sia.. hahaha…

Woah… today having great fun?? Well.. not too bad… well.. just now went go city hall.. go to marina square and celebrate Darren birthday… hmmmm… well… very sad tat all his fren ps him.. end up left me, yiwen, herman and my cousin… oh well.. left the 4 of us.. well.. is fine with me.. hmmmm… we go watch movie… guess what we watch?? We watched “Rob-B-Hood”.. well is a JCE movie.. Jackie chan de… man.. I love the movie so much.. if ask me watch another one more time.. I will be very willing to watch.. coz the show really very good…


The baby is really SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO cute… so adorable.. really very very very love tat baby... the show is super funny too.. well.. very touching too.. getting to like Jackie chan show more and more.. haha.. I LOVE THE BABY… so cute… and… wahhahahahaha… the show is really funny… I give 5stars out of 5 stars… haha.. maybe it suit my taste bah… tat why I think is nice..


Well… after tat we went to Kenny Robers and eat… hmmmm.. the food taste not bad.. specialize with their chicken, but I feel a little bit too salty… hahaha… hmmm.. we total got 4 person eat ma.. mean total got 8 side kick… let me think.. 1,3,4 cold de… 1,3,5,6,8 hot de.. lol.. I still remember the numbering.. not bad ar.. haha.. I am the champion… tat what my cousin keep saying.. but I am the last one tat complete my main food le… haiz.. but I still can take in food sia.. until, the mashed potato… haiz.. the taste really.. arghhhhhhhhh.. pui pui pui.. maybe becoz cold liao.. tat why.. but one thing I confirm is that I wun go tat restaurant anymore.. know why?? Becoz the stuff is damn idiot.. coz is Darren birthday.. den earlier on we already put the cake there.. den I try to excuse myself to tell them to serve the cake as we finish our food already… well.. I told one of the stuff that 19years old.. den I repeat myself 2 time.. and he say ok… den after I went back to the table.. guess what?? This one more stuff.. come over… and guess what he said?? “did u all put a cake here?? How many candles u all wan ar??” WTF~! I really wanna kill the stuff lo.. can’t he see is a birthday cake?? And does he kw tat is a surprise we giving?? End up like this.. WTF~! Really wan to complaint le.. idiot sia… well.. after he left.. IS NOT A SURPRISE ALREADY~! What the hell… really idiot sia.. den after tat a gals came over.. she trying to hint me.. can serve cake?? Well.. I hint back say ok.. ONLY IF THAT STUPID GUY CAN DO THIS ALSO~! See la.. not surprise liao la.. if got feedback letter, I sure write until very bad lo.. I die die wun forget how he look like.. short short.. fat fat.. liew… what a let down lo.. haiz.


After that.. we decided to play bowling.. but.. it gonna take very long in order for us to play some games.. end up we go play pool.. coz I suggest de.. hmmm.. first game.. me and Darren.. starting.. I lead by 3 balls.. after tat.. I kanna trash by him.. den he win.. haiz.. den 2nd round.. we play pair.. Darren and my cousin VS me and herman.. well.. we still lose.. haiz.. my cousin learn quite fast sia.. and also.. she play cheat de sia.. haha.. nvm la.. coz she first time play… T.T no choice.. haha..


Hmmmmmmmmm… I still love the baby so much.. well.. the baby in tat movie.. haha.. well.. I headed back Yishun at around 11.25pm?? reached Yishun abt 11.55pm.. haha.. well, when I was at city hall, I asked yiyi see if he wanted to wait for me to go back home together.. haha.. but end up he say me siao charbor… hahaha… haiz… when I reach mac, boss was working wor.. Stanley also… haha.. surprisingly tat is boss the one tat do counter.. hehe.. den he treat me drink… YEAH~! Free drink… wahahahaha… den saw yuying.. well in this late hour… saw yuying.. very surprise sia.. haha.. den we went back together… hahaha…


Hmmmmmm… oh ya… in the afternoon… I remember one thing.. coz I saw jia lun at ocbc bank there.. den… suddenly I saw one guy… is xiong… and.. he 100% never saw me.. guess what I do… I give a hit on his head.. wahahhahaha.. den he bang to the wall… lol… den I run away… oh man.. his hair is so ugly… so short… eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee…… well.. he also very dao.. sms him.. die die dun reply.. now I thinking.. coz of him.. I quit… and now?? Not a msg he wanted to reply?? What does this mean?? Well.. look like I gonna ignore him for 1 week from now onwards.. since he dun care whether I here or not.. who wanna care him… den boss just now told me he sick.. well.. seem like he is lying ar.. if sick.. still can go out with jia lun.. and so happy sia.. still can laugh.. more KE HEN is he never reply me.. he always like this.. Ta Zhuo Chu Yi, Wo Zhuo Shi Wu… since he like this.. fine.. I wun give a damn either… now I think think… why I so stupid sia.. care him = useless… coz he wun give a damn too… haiz.. dun care him.. got me or dun have me dun mean much also rite.. 1 week?? Maybe too short.. but just stick to 1 week bah…


Just hate it when ppl dun reply my sms.. if busy also just sms one say busy la.. dun reply.. so rude.. haiz… nvm... he is tat kind of person.. bla bla bla..


Hmmmmmm.. I saw something in my cousin today.. the orginal-self.. now I kw.. I being forcing myself to change the way I live.. the way I behave.. the way people wan me to be.. and.. I am not happy… today.. saw my cousin.. she being herself.. and got a boyfriend too.. hmmmm.. for me?? Only know how to force myself become another person… hmmm.. maybe tat why I lose the feeling in my heart… coz I am not myself.. coz I force myself change to another person.. tat why my feeling gone as well.. haiz… tian ar.. I still dun wish to be in a relationship anyway… haiz.. coz got no faith in guys.. cannot trust them anyway… no matter how many ppl say tat they love me.. they will make me happy.. bla bla bla… all this no use to me sia… well.. I got a gd imagination.. all kind of surprises, all gone thru my mind before.. tat why hardly got ppl can really touch my heart… oh well.. what else den I do?? Haha.. in my world.. fairness must be there.. if I cannot commit, and only one side is commit, I only can say break up.. haha.. and now… becoz of this.. I rather stay single.. until I can really commit.. till now.. nobody can really touch my heart.. maybe got only one.. but is all over now.. coz I am very determine liao.. I dun kw when.. den I can really become myself.. I really got one question I like to ask…


“The Ruby You All Used To Know, It What Kind Of People?? Last Time And Now.. What’s The Differences??”


Maybe this is very common question I ask.. but what the different?? Haha.. ppl may say tat I always think so much.. maybe I got some problem inside me.. maybe I am a person tat gonna go tat special chalet.. or somebody that is totally useless.. dun kw what the hell she is thinking… what the hell she is doing… have totally no idea what is happening.. haiz.. dun kw la.. who is me.. I also dun kw.. aiya.. dun care la.. if life like this go on.. I gonna dead sooner or later…


Hmmm… dun kw la.. haiz.. “dun know” is the word everyone will use.. why?? Coz is the best way to excuse themselves.. haha.. can’t get to slp.. haiz..


I wan to get my smile back.. where are you ruby… I want u back… come back to me.. without u… I am hopeless… I am useless… I am just nothing without you.. come back… come back to me… I will wait for u quietly inside the room deep inside…