hmmm... everyday.. as usual.. when i wake up.. first thing i do is to see my hp... well.. got a msg today.. hmmm.. wonder who izzit... oh my god!!! is xiong!!!!!!!! this is the 2nd time he auto msg me... hehe... well... so happy!!!!!!! hehe.. he said tat he was so boring there.. aiyo... i wonder.. there got ppl ma??? haha...

when i reach store.. ping ping got told me tat xiong called store.. haha.. saying abt what he ST... lol.. well.. look like it really nth to do at there... when i finish work, got a msg!! xiong msg again!!!!!!! hoho.. he said tat he work opening very successful... well.. is a great news... but.. i reply him.. he never reply!!! why he always like tat de... always never reply me de... haiz... den look at my phone.. on the way home.. wonder if he is replying me... den... i slip... almost fall on the road... but lucky never fall la... cannot afford to have another fall.. already a lot of injury liao.. haiz.. in the end.. still never reply me.. dun kw what i waiting for.... maybe waiting for another slip??? haiz... ytd nite.. so worry abt xiong... coz.. he suddenly said he lost the key... wa liew.. i was so worry... coz.. lost the key.. sure very jialat de... in the end.. he was bluffing me.. he play nia... this kind of thing also can play... do u kw how serious this thing can be??? i almost rush out of the hse and go down find the key... den.. everything is just a joke??? but make me more sad is tat.. he said "if the key lost.. also i in trouble.. u worry for what???"... some sot like this reply... haiz.... why he give this kind of reply??? why!!!! wanna kw why i worry so much??? coz this is not a small thing... u may end up in black list... or more serious punishment... all becoz is u... haiz... in the end.. play a fool with it.. haiz...

today.. work continuous for 5.5 hours... without break.. really can die... very tired.. very hungry.. time pass so slow... service keep in... in till.. i need 2 manager help me in kitchen... whole day in kitchen... do till i really very du lan... very tired... haiz... really energy very low le... T.T today.. the hot oil kanna my hand.. lucky dun have much hurt.. only... pain for a while nia... erm.. maybe.. a little more den a while bah..

arghhh!!! die!! i cannot stand up straight!!! my leg.. very pain... knee cap there.. once put straight... very pain!!! arghhh... tml work 8 hours le... haiz.. wan die liao la me!!!

wow!!! xiong reply me!!! haha.. well.. found out tat.. he never reply me just now.. becoz... he was sleeping.. coz he read book till slp.. coz too tired le.. well.. tot of wanna have lunch with him tml b4 i work... but.. he work morning.. well.. look like cnanot have lunch with him le.. hmmm.. how abt dinner??? haha.. he said he cannot promised me... T.T haiz...

sian ar... xiong!!! u owe me one milk shake wor!!!!!!! hahahahaha!!!! :x

yawn... early morning.. have to wake up le.. coz meeting summer... going orchard... haiz.. buy mui de present... i wan die sia!!! shop till my leg wanan crack... den dun kw what to buy.. well.. in the end bought one bag for her... haiz.. dun kw she will like a not le.. haiz.. oh well.. i also buy one bag for myself.. well.. when go poly can use...

hmmmm.. feel so tired... feel so sleepy.. my leg really no energy seh... in mrt.. phew.. lucky got seat.. can let me rest a while.. well.. when shop half way.. stanley called.. well.. everytime b4 work.. got his call.. sure nothing good will happen.. well.. he ask me go YRR take things... haiz.. sian.. why!!!! why a sunday like this de!!! T.T but lucky la.. in the end no need to take.. but.. very heavy le!!! take so many things... haiz.. when reach mac.. i go change my uniform... lol... lyson said tat he 3 plus there liao!! but i never saw him le!!! i 4 plus den saw him.. haha...

well.. today work lyson shift... as usual.. he saw me.. call me rugby!!! arghhh... see la!! now everybody called me rugby.. i dun like ppl called me tat!!! well.. yiyi and stanley keep call me rugby.. arghhh so angry liao lo!!! i got a limit de le... keep play play play... macham i wun hurt like tat... haiz... when i finish eating my EMC... i went out to tat long table.. coz yiyi they all seating there ma.. wa liew.. when i seat down.. yiyi and stanley stand up... they doing tat same joke again.... this time i really du lan liao... i ji tao walk inside the crew room.. yiyi pull me ma.. but i shake off his hand... really... they too over liao le... really cannot take it liao...

haiz... when yiyi wanna go back.. he come inside the crew room wanna say bye bye to me.. but... still very angry lo!!! keep play a fool using my name.. and me!!! haiz.... but... yiyi is my yiyi.. cannot angry with him also.. well.. as usual.. i angry one day.. den finish liao.. tml is another fresh day... haha...

well.. tat lyson!!! arghhhh... lame till!!!! haiz.. funyn till!!! haiz..... i laugh till tear all over the place.. the money joke... and the stupid coin joke.. haiz.. everytime work with him... well.. can say today is the 2nd time... will laugh till seh!!! really very funny le!!! well.. at least this time is much more better den last time... coz.. this time.. he not tat fierce look liao.. haha... count money.. also not fierce liao... but.. money still count very fast... $.$ haha...

hmmm.. after work.. well.. very surprised!!! coz.. xiong msg me!! wow!!! very happy.. coz... he will auto msg me!!! hmmmmm... is the first time bah.. i think... everytime is i msg him de.. he dun msg me... haiz.. but!! today he msg me!!!! oh my god!!! so surprised!!! hehe.. well.. he told me tat he tml work opening at parklane seh!! alone!!! omg... well.. got a feeling wanan accompany him go work.. den afternoon den come back yishun.. den continue my work at cpcc.. haha... but... i think he sure say.. "go for what???" haiz.. rather den hearing this kind of thing tat i dun wish to hear.. i must well dun say anything... at least wun feel sad... hmmm... i waited for him in store... i finish work at 10pm.. but i waited for him till 11 plus... haiz.. is another day i waited for him for more den 1 hours liao... hmmm.. it seem like.. i always wait for him de.. but.. he never even wait for me to finish work b4.. haiz... how wish.. someday.. he will wait for me for a few hours.. T.T but.. i think wun have tat day bah.. well.. i cannot qi wang too much for this to happen.. coz.. the more i wish.... the more i fall.. my si wang will be greater den anyone else.. so... rather dun wish.. hmmmmmm... he hoh!!! very bad also.. when we go home together... see me take so many things.. also wun help me!!! haiz.. so heavy seh!!! my own bag heavy.. the bag got 2 bag... got clothes.. jacket... and a meal... haiz... i already no enegy liao.. haha.. but.. i think.. he more no energy den me bah... coz.. he can walk so fast.. sure ok de lo.. i carry so many things... wan me walk so fast.. very eat energy de le... haiz... well.. he told me a lot of things sia... hmmm.. today suddenly got a feeling.. tat the original xiong is back.. the xiong i like most is back.. but... is this temporary only?? or... what??? haiz... how wish he wun change...

Jiu Rang Wo Ai Ni.. Zhen Ming You Qi Ji... How Wish... "Qi Ji" Will Happen On Me...

very tired le... haiz.. sleep less den 7 hours... i wun have enough energy if i dun have at least full 7 hours sleep... T.T when working... will die seh!!! morning service in... afternoon service in.. evening also service in... whole day... 80% of my time is service in... haiz... will die le.. totally no energy... so tiring... T.T

well.. xiong suddenly came seh... hmmmm... msg a person... dun kw who.. he refused to let me see.. T.T he got secret!!!! haiz... sian diao lo... but... got a feeling that xiong got change le.. he is the the xiong i kw in the past le... after he become manager.. everything changes... i prefer last time de xiong.. coz.. tat xiong.. is much more caring towards me... much more nicer... much more funny... much more better... but now de xiong.. different liao... feel very mo sheng... how wish time will stop at tat time stanley birthday tat time.. coz tat time de xiong is more caring towards me... give me a more protective feeling... and tat is the xiong i like most... but now... haiz... he become another person.. tat i dun kw well le...

yawn... so tired.. hui ling just came to my hse... well.. she asked me out for teh ping... haha.. well.. ok lo.. well.. everytime i drank teh ping, i feel very good.. coz.. wun sleepy.. but now... still very sleepy.. well.. maybe is really too over le bah... work till wanna siao liao.. T.T even a off day.. also not enough for me... hmmmm... hehe.. finally.. got comebody notice my watch!!! and tat is hui ling... sound weird calling my own name rite?? lol... hui ling is my neighbour.. lol... she is the da hui ling.. and i am the xiao hui ling...

yawn.... so tired man... long time never have this kind of feeling le... work till crazy... den tired tired slp... well.. den wake up.. work again.. haiz.. this kind of living.. i dun wan!!!! such a boring living... no advanture.. not interesting at all... T.T so tired... well.. gonna buy mui present liao le... her birthday coming.. den... dun have time also.. tat why tml must buy.. coz today too tired liao.. yawn... tml meeting summer... go orchard... dun kw what to buy also le... T.T help... sian.. mean.. have to bring my uniform go... sian.. got what clothes fit my black shoe??

hmmm... think.. after buy the present.. i buy some clothes for my own bah... well.. my hse got damn little clothes nia.. so have to buy.. arbo when go poly.. dun have clothes.. haha.. haiz.. with this new blogskins... sian lo!!! i dun like.. i wan black de!!! T.T sob sob..

hmmm.. when working... i hurt myself... coz my shoe step on too much oil le... den i at counter.. wanna take the straw box... i reach out my hand.. well.. a bit hard to take ma.. den i tip toe.. haiz.. take the straw liao.. ubt.. i slip and fall... i landed on my rib cage... den.. i slip all the way down... so painful... now when i touch.. still very pain... blue black le... haiz... hope never hurt inside... but it is very painful!!! i feel tat it is swollen... like something pop up like tat... T.T haiz.. tian ar... my stupid brother.. damn lo so.. i hurt myself.. den they macham wanna tell whole world like tat... damn idiot... haiz.. talk so loud for what.. wanna open a party for them??? let them tell everybody i hurt myself???? haiz.. damn it... hate when they are by my side... i need some fresh air.. i need the beach... T.T

today is my off day.. haiz.. today sleep till 1 plus in the afternoon den wake up.. very very tired le... well.. kanan woke up by my stupid brother.. coz they talk so loud.. haiz.. well.. today my papa gone oversea again.. haiz... b4 he gone, he gave me $20... haha... hmmm... when i check my blog.. aiya!!! got problem seh!!! the previous blog.. cannot use anymore.. so i change to this.. well.. dun have time to choose ma.. so anyhow choose one.. haha.. now finally can le..

yawn... today i went meet yiyi and jasper... coz they gone to CITI ma.. den i meet them after tat.. hmmm.. den we at bugis.. wa liew.. eat mac again... why a off day.. still must with mac??? but... eat liao.. really feel like throwing out le... coz.. kanna cheated.. everything... haiz.. upsize.. coz they say until so gd... but.. in the end.. never give me upsize.. but charge me upsize de money... den the food was very very not nice le... arghhhh... er xin!!!

den... on the way to Sim Lim Square... well.. saw a lot of watches shop.. den i bought one.. i like it a lot!!! coz.. i always wan a watch like tat... haha.. well.. also thinking of buying one for xiong... coz he got said tat he wan one... but... too many watches le.. cannot find one tat suit him... see a few store.. haiz.. dun have one tat suit him... den never buy... den we go Sim Lim Square... arghhh.. walk till my leg wanna crack.. coz very tired... hmmmm... den we went to Si Ma Lu and pray pray... wanna kw what i pray??? hehe.. i dun tell u le... well.. hope what i pray will come true...

hmmm.. den jasper gone back and bring my mei mei ivy home.. den me and yiyi went to city hall.. Funan The IT Mall.. den walk till.. leg also wanna crack.. very tired ma.. well.. called xiong also.. coz very near ma... ask him for dinner.. haha.. he asked who i with.. well.. yiyi asked me not to tell him.. den i never tell him.. but.. kanna scold by him for nothing.. c* la.. say le... haiz.. i still tot of buying watch for him... den ask him for dinner... in the end kanna scold c* by him... haiz...

when meet him, i ask him... " do u think u need to make a apology??".. den he said.. "what apology??" haiz... after i told him.. den he said... "apology ur head la"... haiz.. tian ar... why..... why like tat... hao xin mei hao bao... haiz... now i wonder.. worth it do so much ma?? since he take it as nothing... T.T

oh well... his hse got some problem.. his father got in a car accident.. well.. lucky nothing happen.. but i think hurt his leg... hope he get well soon... well.. he should wait for joanna de... den go back home.. but.. coz he worry abt his father... den he go home lo.. haiz.. since he make a promise... now... cannot make it... den i help him continue his promise lo... haiz... but... not even a thank you... i was tired like hell man... still got so many things to do.. now already nearly 1am.. i tml got work le... den this stupid blog got problem!!! haiz... oh well... 4get it.. hao ren nan zuo...

Wei Ni Fu Chu Le Zhe Me Duo... Ni Que Mei You Gan Dong Guo.....

haiz.. so many things happen today... haiz... i slept for 11hours.. but.. still not enough sleep.. still very sleepy... very tired... hmmm... go work... haiz.. sian lo... well.. so many things happen during work... starting.. yiyi... very scary lo.. haiz.. becoz of lyson.. well.. he dun like ppl compare him and lyson.. hmm... den he give me one eg on how he feel.. but.. the eg he gave.. very cruel... haiz... well.. hope tat eg wun come true... or else.. maybe i will cry whole day long... dun kw how long den can heal... well.. is hurt.. i kw... yiyi under a lot of stress today seh... becoz ppl compare him and lyson, make my life very hard... coz.. yiyi refused to talk to me.. den... i also very scare to talk to yiyi.. coz.. i ask him what... he will reply tat stupid answer... go call lyson.. haiz... why he wanna like this le?? yiyi is yiyi... lyson is lyson.. no ppl can dai ti yiyi de... well.. coz.. yiyi is my yiyi... the best yiyi ever...

well.. headache seh... haiz... 3 plus in the morning den reach home... now a bit headache... coz.. too many things happen today le... well.. can say tat today talk to yiyi a lot... but i dun kw he got listen in a lot.. coz.. he may think tat i talking rubbish... haiz.. well.. i thinking of bring yiyi to beach.. and relax his mind.. but... he keep talking rubbish to me.. haiz... oh well.. i think yiyi will be better after a sleep bah...

hmmmm... when the fight happened.. i was so scare.. i dun kw what to do sia... i called xiong... but.. in the end... haiz.. still kanna found out by yiyi... arghhh... oh well... nvm... at least yiyi never scold me... i first time see yiyi so angry... i damn scare... den only can call xiong... haiz... starting was having fun with yiyi de.. den.. the fight happen.. everything change...

but... i was thinking abt the eg yiyi gave... yiyi will say tat... confirm got some meaning inside de... haiz... how wish wun happen.. how wish tat eg wun come true.. well.. if tat really happen... maybe.. i will give my bless to them... since i cannot get it... he is happy... is enough already.. maybe i will regret for not zhen qu... but... so long as tat i can see him happy, see him smile.. i think is enough le.. i dun dare to ask much... just let me do something when he is in trouble.. let me do something... small..... but liang cha or what... haha.. but... yiyi ar!!!!! u very cruel le... u should kw i very sensitive de... oh well.. after those drawing on the freezer door... and these... really can pull me down from the sky... and!!! pls delete the pic in ur hp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! if let anybody see it!!!! i gonna gone case.... T.T jia ming ar.........

oh!!! finally.. watch finish my cartoon le... hmmm.. time now is 4.49am... oh dear!!!!! so "early" liao.. by the time i wake up.. dun kw what time liao le.. T.T hmmm.. finally off day le.. so happy.. haha.. well.. maybe can go beach??? see lo.. see what time i wake up.. haha... k la.. time for bed le... nite nite... <(^(oo)^)>

(*^.^*) hmmm... well.. let see... how am i going to start??? haiz.. like this start hao le... erm... today, i met up with xiong and have lunch... well.. ytd nite he said tat he cannot promised me tat he confirm can go lunch.. well.. he also very tired... hmmm... me wanna buy chicken essence for him.. but he dun wan... haiz... me gd heart wanna buy for him.. den he flood the whole screen with "dun wan".. haiz.. oh well.. he dun wan me to waste my money... T.T hmmm.. see him like tat.. also bu ren xin.. den wanna bu bu his health.. he also dun wan... haiz... hmmm... maybe... hmm.. i got an idea.. hehehe... oh well.. maybe some cheap stuff will do.. at least he wun say much...

hmmm... we went to 110 and eat our lunch... well.. so coincident... we both got the same type and pattern of the food.. haha.. well.. he treat me drink... but... when i wanna pay him back.. he dun wan.. oh well.. he always like tat.. hehe.. nvm... hmmm.. someday.. i will treat him back... hmm... den we both go mac together.. haiz.. aunty they all see me and xiong go mac together.. their eyes... tell me something wor... den... work lo... den when i inside store room.. i heard something.. kamariah shouting.. "rubyyyyy"... oh well.. tat same meaning again.. hehe.. hmmm.. xiong take taxi go work... aiyo... everyday liket his work... sure very lonely.. rite?? haiz... heard tat.. his store.. girls more den guys... den a lot of aunty.. den.. aunty they all not peaceful... den keep down manager.. and down crew... in this condition... how can... he sure tired till... haiz.. sad... well.. heard tat he gonna being varified liao le... in 2weeks time... so fast... den.. sure got even less time to see him de.. can't even see him in person liao... haiz.. sian.. also dun kw when he off.. well.. he said tat he cannot promised me go beach... but.. at least got 50:50 rite?? got and dun have... hmmmm.. how wish.......... can go...

hmmm.. today work.. feel like crying... msg xiong also no use.. he never reply.. haiz.. maybe he is busy bah... oh well.. i do wrong thing again.. i wasted 15 ice cream cone... T.T this is the 2nd time le... sad..... i feel so bad... even if is a small thing... if i kw tat i do wrong, i will feel very bad... coz.. is me the one tat do wrong... T.T well.. should be 8.5hours today de.. den change to 7.5hours.. but.. i work 9hours today... so tired... so stress out.. totally wore off.. i need some thing to cheer me up.. need somebody to give me more energy.. need someone to help me bring my fire up.. my dou zhi... very small.. i need to power up!!! haiz.. who will kw how den i will power up?? who... well.. dun kw.. dun kw who really kw me le.. lalala

yawn.. so tiring... cheng guan came seh... haha.. he and hui xin... well.. a bit dun recorgnise hui xin liao.. coz.. her eye.. very diff le... well... sian lo... nth to do.. haiz.. hohoho.. cheng guan!! went back to our primary sch.. den!!! he told me!!!!!! wahaha!!! somebody gonna kill me.. but.. nvm!!! he said at... our pri sch teacher.. say him change le wor!!!!!!! hohoho....... change to what le?? he kw.. i kw.. lol!!!! wahahahahahaha... oh well.. better dun say too detail... or else.. i gonna get kill.. haha... hey xiao qi gui!!!! i never said out wor..... well.. today saw him.. first thing i do is give him a punch... wahaha.. what a nice opening.. hohoho... well... after i finish work.. we went to chong pang and eat lo... wa liew.. only i eat nia.. haiz.. hmmm.. den on the way home saw eric.. lol... well.. he saw me and cheng guan walk together... den.. eh erm... anyhow talk talk liao.. haiz... liew.. for goodness sake.. cheng guan is my pri sch fren.. my good bro lai de... how can it be my eh erm... no way... haha.. well.. as usual.. he send me home.. haha.. coz.. same road ma... see... he so good.. bu kui shi wo de hao brother... stay at 200 plus.. still send me home.. haha... no bad no bad...

yawn... SO TIRED!!! i wan drink soup... T.T he said he wanna cook for me!! lol!!! let see if he is for real.. haha.. what a good brother hoh??? hehe.. see.. hey cheng guan!!! see!! i write u till so good.. dun forget my bear bear wor!!! i wan big big de!!!! wahahaha.... TAKE A DEEP BREATH!!! ok!!! continue!!! kambateh yo!!!!!!!! fri will off liao!!!! must jiayou!!!!!! tahan!!! one more day... after tat can rest le...

everyday like this work... i gonna die soon... keep having a feeling... keep wanna find a spot.. and cry... cry my heart out... reservior.... but... too tired to go anywhere.... AHHH!!!! dun kw why... i keep having a feeling that... no long... soon... i will go there... why??? i dun kw... i think... i really... very tired liao... haiz... tian ar.. why i so easily get affected??? one things... can make me stress till like tat... and took me one day to change all my view... T.T oh dear... my negative thinking is back... T.T

okok.. ruby.. let sot things up... now... u must kw what to do.. u must control ur thinking.. and not let the thinking control u... and.. u msut control ur feeling.. and how let ur feeling control u... oh well... whatever... let it be bah..

haiz.. today work... no feeling.. no energy... feel so tired.. time move so slow... feel like dying soon... arghhh.. whole day never eat... only have a meal when working nia... really wanna faint... well.. lucky my dad called me.. oh.. i love my dad... coz.. got crab eat!!!! *.* yummy.... but!!! got cockroach fly into my rice.. arghhh.. i dun dare to eat liao also.. T.T haiz... oh well.. tml still got work.. but... have no heart to work le.. haiz... i need some entertainment... i need some soup... haiz... i wanna drink soup... but... no ppl cook for me.. T.T mama also not free.. she work liao.. den very tired.. den slp... no time to cook for me also.. haiz.. maam wun cook de.. tat why no soup... only special day got... haiz....

xiao michael... i wanna beng kui le... how... i need a lot of fresh air.. i feel like going to the beach... but... no time.. i stress till i wanna cry liao... everyday work 7.5hours.. i really very very tired.. no time to release stress... today i can't smile... keep day dreaming... fadhilah also can see tat i very tired... she understand... but... no ppl will understand what i undergo... T.T

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO........ i dun wan........ very stress... everyday work.. i bring a very very very heavy heart go... when go back home, i bring back the heavy heart.. plus more heavy... arghh.. i wanna throw all these "heavy" to the sea.. plus poly coming.. i more jialat.. more stress.. i dun kw what i am thinking now also.. who can help me...

yawn... haiz.. only morning den can write liao.. coz.. too tired ytd... reach home at 3am plus... went having supper with yiyi.. coz.. i hungry!!! T.T hmmm... the food not nice... bleah.... eat liao... feel so... fan wei le!!! T.T

hmmmm... when i bathing, ping ping called my hp.. but.. i dun kw.. coz i never heard it.. i put my phone in the room ma.. charging... tat why never heard... she called my hse... well.. lucky is after i finish bathing... she asked me to go to YRR... take things... well.. yiyi also pm me... haha... he pei wo go YRR... hehe... after we take the things, we went to buy milky shake... i try the chocolate milk shake... well.. kw how it taste like??? haiz.. macham drinking ice cream like tat... T.T well.. after drinking.. feel like... have just eaten one box of ice cream...

hmmm... den i work after tat... arghhhh... feel so... different... well.. yiyi work at 6pm.. but he accompany me... hmmm.. he so good... well.. when working... lyson came... wow.. he come and return the safe key... haha... arghhh... feel like killing him... coz.. "rugby".... tian ar!!!! i will very hot de le!!! when he called my rugby... i will shout and said.. IS RUBY!!!!! hahaha... hmmm... well.. yiyi saw him also... well.. ping ping face... LOL!!!! oh well... yiyi face also... WAHAHA!!! funny seh... i already said tat first time see lyson.. sure have yiyi de feeling.. see... now they kw le.. hahaha... but.. he also walk very fast... when he gone.. also dun kw where he gone to... but i heard tat he coming to our store to work on the 26th... wondering will workthe same time with him a not...

jasper also came le... haha.. find yiyi.. they talking abt their study... well.. i study lo... haiz... when i in store room.. yiyi said something... it make me really... no mood to work.. can't smile... and... canot do anything... make me really feel very bad... haiz... oh well.. yiyi kw le... but i think yiyi can be trusted... arbo.. how to be my yiyi le??? (*^-^*) yiyi dote me le... send me home till my hse downstair... unlike xiong... haha... xiong came to store later on... was surprised to see him... but... dun have the mood.... coz.. yiyi de words keep flying here and there in my mind... but.. b4 he come... i got a feeling... xiong will walk him by the door... den when i stare at the door.. HE CAME IN!!!! -_- why.... why always like tat!!!! why everytime his thing.. i so sure it will happen?? haiz.... this make me even feel more worst... how wish i dun kw him so well... how wish i wun so sure what things will happen...

after i knock off.. i went and press money... well.. i have to buy my solution for my contact lenses... den.. i bought a book... doraemon book... hmmm.. when read finish, just in time for doing stock taking... haiz... me and yiyi sit inside the store room... count count and count.. how wish got more things for me to count.. at least can make me stop thinking of something... hmmm... now also kw how to do stock taking liao bah... a bit... kw how to do.. coz.. i help yiyi do the coffee powder de... haha!!! so good... yiyi praised me... well.. feel so goood when being praised... at least can make me smile... haiz.. i do so much.. izzit becoz of "praise"??? well.. is true tat when being praised by someone, u can do things better... hmmm.. i got 2 GEMs cards today... haha... hmmm.. saw one of them b4... got come mac eat b4.. tat why i kw...

hmmmm... tat xiong... haiz... i feel so stupid waiting for him to finish work last time.. T.T everytime waited for him.. for a few hours.. but den... ask him waited for me... 20min only.. he dun wan... coz his mum cook le.. ask him go home eat... T.T haiz... a few hours... a few min... all mean nothing... oh well.. what really make me wanna kill him is... when go.. never even say he go liao... oh well.. at least it tell me something abt it... i gonna soon grow up again... haiz... he sure will say.. grow up good... can kw everything better... but.. he wun kw... when i said grow up, it mean tat i had suffer something... something tat hurt me so much till tat i grow up... i have enough of growing up le... since tat time... i really scare le... one time is enough... tat what i told yiyi.. one time is enough.. one time is already very hurt liao.. dun wish to have another time... but... yiyi also can band wall le... after so many things, and... oh well... he can bang wall le... haiz... in the world word.. only 4 people kw... plus me is 5... and i hope... wun have more ppl kw.. coz.. i dun wan to GROW UP!!!!!!!!!! yiyi said one thing to me... and.. tat what i always tell ppl... but.... maybe what he said is rite... if ownself never do anything, tat sentance may not be true... but... one time is enough... let it be bah...

stanley called me sia... arghhh.. ask me go YRR again... sian.. go take the stupid things again... sian.. oh well.. i ride bicycle go bah... at least can make me relac a bit... oh well.. b4 i work.. i scare my phone rang!!! coz... nth gd will happen... coz sure asked go take things de... T.T and... everything kanna de is me... why.... T.T

hmmmmm.... maybe.... tat ending.. i get use to it liao le.. tat why everything think of it, will think of tat ending again... everytime i close my eye, the ending will appear... when will i have a beautiful ending le?? haha.. ruby ar ruby... dun think so much la.. u like to anyhow think everytime... when den u can learn??? if u wanna like this carry on, one day u will gone insane... no ppl kw what will happen rite?? why dun give it a try??? maybe, it may not be the ending u wanted.. but.. at least u wun regret... well.. i will said all these.. anything come from the mouth is easy... but hard to do... maybe i need someone... to give me a big slap... to let me wake up... haiz... life still go on.. rite??? T.T nobody will understand me... except my xiao michael... rite??? whenever i saw xiao michael playing, it will cheer me up.. but now... nth can change anymore.. xiao michael is gone.. and tat mean gone... nothing can replace xiao michael... xiao michael.... do u kw i am very sad now???? do u kw when i cry, i miss u so much??? haiz... xiao michael... can u take the pain away??? i had enough of the pain liao... T.T haiz.. whatever... go work bah... work can make me stop thinking... at least can try to keep myself busy at all time.. den will not think abt it... ya.. think tat will do the trick... haiz.. go work bah... cya... xiao michael... love u always... no mouse can replace u in my heart de... coz.. u r my xiao michael rite???

In This World, There Is 2 Ending... The Good And The Bad.. But, Cannot Because You Are Afraid Of The Bad Ending, And Not Try.. Because, If You Do Not Try, You Maybe Will Regret Forever... But.. I Rather Choose To Regret Forever Den Trying.. Coz.. I Dun Wish To Hurt Again...

aiya!!!! today i remember my timing for working wronging.. or should i said see wrongly.. haiz... i tot i work 4pm.. but is 3pm.. well.. den si hui den called me.. liew.. keep shi mu shi mu call... T.T oh well.. i faster packed.. den ride my bicycle down.. i ride as fast as possible.. but when i reach... my leg soft like jelly.. coz.. i ride too fast too long too over liao... tat why no energy... well... i do counter whole day long... starting when do... really cannot cool down.. coz.. ride bicycle make my whole body too hot liao.. den.. energy use up too much... blood pump too much le.. den ask me cool down do counter.. very hard... a bit giddy when i do counter... well... me and sze peh do counter together... den... do 1/2 way... suddenly a guy wear manager clothes.. came into the store.. den walk inside manager room... me and sze peh got the same feeling.. and tat is.. YIYI!!!! the size.... and feeling... like yiyi so much seh!!!! when he walk in.. he never smile.. den look very fierce... very scary!!!!!!!!! but when he smile... hmm... not bad le.. quite handsome... haha... well.. totally same with yiyi.. coz when yiyi never smile.. i very scare.. when yiyi smile, look so great.. tat why i prefer ppl smile den fierce look... tat manager called lyson(sound: lai shen) well.. den sze peh said.. ask him got car lisence.... lol!!!! so funny... well.. he was a very fun person.. work with him not bad... quite happy.. at least wun get ignore... he keep entertain us... but... one big problem... when he count money, very scary.. coz when he look serious.. HE LOOK DAMN SCARY!! DAMN FIERCE... den i asked summer come.. coz i very very scare.. i ask summer stand beside me.. den we both move far far from him.. den we talk abt him ma.. well.. we just beside him nia.. he should had kw what we talking.. but.. he dun kw seh!! haiz... he count money also very fast... macham robot seh!!! my eye stund!!! i look at him count money... really very fast lo!!!!! the fastest i ever seen... den... when i look how he count money.. i heard something... lala said something... haiz... oh well.. she said somebody will jealous... who le??? she dun wan to say...

hmmm... got a bit sad when doing counter.. coz.. customer ma... haiz... den was day dreaming... well.. lyson was just beside me ma.. coz we 2 do counter... den he tot i see what thing sia... well.. as what i always do.. smile and say nothing happen.. just day dreaming... haiz... it seem like i always do this kind of thing le.. hahaha... hmmm.. i got star drawer today... hmm not bad not bad.. coz a lot of big note seh... T.T hmmm.. do one thing wrong today... customer wan M ice milo.. i key R ice milo and collect M ice milo de money... cute rite?? haha.. den lyson do something abt it lo.. hehe.. well... nth happen den... hohoho...

hmmm... i ride bicycle home today... haiz.. so sian.. alone go work.. alone go back... life just like tat nia... nth special... haiz... how wish... how wish tat... haiz.. nth...

well.. when i reach home.. when i put tat nick.. i got a sense tat xiong will pm me.. oh well.. when i wan to change tat nick.. xiong really pm me!!!! >.< why everytime i guess de all correct le... everything abt xiong i guess de all correct... why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why wun wrong le?? this make me very scare de le... oh well.. we chat chat lo... abt lyson... hmmm.. den talk abt ice cream!!! i asked xiong how many ice cream he can draw with one hand.. he said 5!!!!!!! oh my god!!! 5!!!! wonder why i asked him?? coz today lyson do 3... den tell me abt some ice cream story... abt him and his manager... they both do.. do 9.... his manager do 6 he do 3.. haha.. i think so... arghhh.. now i only can do 2 nia... T.T when den can be like xiong le?? i dun kw le.. haha.. haiz.. tat xiong.. give he crew eat... never bring for me... so bad le him... haiz... oh well.. sometime things cannot be asked... or else.. something bad will happen.. hmmm.. why le?? i dun kw.. coz sound very shun.. so type lo.. haha.. LAME!!!

hmmmm.. xiong work 9.30am tml wor... me le!!! 1pm!!! i never see wrongly this time.. i check and check and check le.. confirm is 1pm!!! haha... i wun be late this time... today is first time i late le!!! arghhhh... so angry... WHY I SEE WRONG TIME!!!! T.T hmmm.. i send a gd nite msg to him.. but den... what he reply.. arghhhh... T.T hurt me seh... oh well.. den i re-do the msg.. den send him again.. haha.. wonder how he will react le.. and hoh!!! he.. nightmare also spell wrong.. he spell nightmate... -_- haiz... his english why can get B4!!!! WHY!!!! spell also spell wrong.. den can get B4... i spell correct and i only got a C6... WHY!!!! is not fair!!! T.T oh well.. tml have to work 7.5hours le... i hope wednesday wun come!! coz have to work for 8.5hours... T.T but.. like this earn a lot le.. at least can earn what i have lost for the past few day... haiz... sian... k la.. i go slp liao... hmmm.. hungry.... but... no choice... slp bah... nite nite xiao michael... muack...

haiz.... just now cut apple.. wan give my hamster eat de.. den become i eat... coz.. my hamster dun really like apple... oh well.. when cutting.. i cut a small part of my skin out... no blood la... but got skin come off... haiz.. my knife skill... still very bad... must learn more...

erm... my brother.. is damn idiot... damn hate them... keep disturbing me... just beside me nia, den talk so loud... i must shout den can... me already no voice liao... den have to like tat shout... wa kao!! really very angry lo!!!

hmmm... early morning 9am work... starting work kitchen... after tat counter... oh man!!! so terrible!!! down crew seh.. everything so hard... long time never had this kind of feeling liao le.. busy till siao... well... busy can make me dun think of anything else.. haha... can la... at least wun stress so much...

wee... xiong send me a msg... hmmm.. happy... he long time never send me msg liao le... those greeting or fun msg.. haha... well... he off today... no wonder will send me msg... when he working, he never send a msg seh.. hmmm... last phone call... is abt 2weeks ago le.. a phone call tat is automatic call de.. well.. hardly got this kind of phone call de... T.T

boss bring his son le... haha.. when i doing counter, they came in.. two of them nia... well.. kw what the first thing boss son tell me??? i lvl 50 le.. u lvl what??? arghhh... sian... becoz my stupid com like this.. i hardly play le... dun even play also... haiz...

hmmm.. headache... my head so pain now!!! it feel like my head gonna tear into parts... arghhh... i still tot of going to watch my liu xin hua yuan le!!! cartoon one... but... head now too pain le.. maybe go to bed bah.. den tml den continue watch...

sian ar!!! from today onwards... the next few day.. me work everyday... den.. all is 7.5hours and above.. wednesday work 8.5hours le!!! wa liew.. first time work more den 8hours... wonder can tahan ma... *cough* T.T when cough.. it hurt!!!! T.T oh well.. sian.. dun kw what to do also.. keep wondering where i can write my story... coz i wanna write in chinese... blog cfm cannot.. coz.. blog somehow cannot read chinese.. tat why sometime when i write chinese... u all dun kw what i am saying... zZzZzZz... sian ar... nth to do... oh well.. go watch tv bah.. when finish the show.. den go slp.. den... watch tv again... haha!!! hmm!! oh ya!!! i wanna see the comic!!! haiz.. i see till i 4got which book... sian.. think i see all over again bah... hehe... k la.. tv on!!! gonna watch le!! haha..

well.. dun really kw what to write today... my mood today is totally unknown... i feel very lost today... dun kw what is happy.. what is sad... like a living undead... with no emotional.. and everything.. but what i kw is.. my nose still a bit block.. den.. keep on coughing... whole day coughing non-stop... also dun kw what the hell happening to me... what i kw is.. i dun drink water le... when i was little.. i always drink water.. but now... dun even drink... haiz...

hmmmm... whole day never eat le.. only have a little bit of food nia... no wonder my gastric problem back la... haiz.... tml got work... sian... work morning... haiz... i feel tat i cannot work morning.. coz.. sure sick... i found out tat whenever i work morning, i will caught a flu... den will sick for a few day... me now.. flu abt to recover liao.. but.. cough.... haven...

today, i took out my vcd and watched... it seem like these few day, i keep on watching vcd... today, i took liu xin hua yuan cartoon de and watched... hmmm... very nice... sometime i thinking... will there be anyone like dao ming shi at there protect me?? haha... well.. sometime all these drama will coz me a lot of trouble.. coz.. i will be thinking here and there... whenever i watched a drama, i will be super emotional... expecially love one... i sure cry till siao... coz.. very touching... haha... i like taiwan drama a lot le... coz very nice.. and always give me the feeling... a feeling that i dun kw how to say... haha..

hmmmmm... my mother bought something for me... haha... after i bath.. smell so good.. one of my greatest wish is to have a milk bath.. haha.. well... must have a bathtub de.. but.. my body so long... also dun have my length la!!! haiz... hmm.. nvm!!! take it as a Dai Ti Ping!!! smell so good!!! but.. must put under my nose i den can smell it.. coz my nose... block!!!!! T.T

tat feeling is gone le... since tat time... gone le... i tot it have come back liao... but today.. whole day feel so.... lost... feel so lonely... as if i am the only person in this world... i can't feel anyone around me.. even if someone is around me, i dun have any sense of living... everything like... dead... these few day.. i felt hurt.... but... dun wish to say out... i dun kw what i thinking.. what i doing also... everything is so.... different... i started to imagine things... started to talk to myself... started to change into the ruby tat shut herself up in the door... i have walk out of tat door.. and taste the world... now... gone back in again... i was wondering, should i or should i not??? i dun kw how.. it seem like i always trap here and there... walk here and there... and.. things keep on repeating.. and ending all the same.. i am too tired of the same ending all over again and again and again... it torture me so much... i still have to continue to go on my life.. and.. the biggest step is poly.... once step out, there is no turning back... i must be prepared... but.. i am not... i am totally shut down...

*cough cough cough* oh man!!! i keep on coughing.. wun stop... i gonna die soon... haiz... touch wood touch wood... well.. today i done one thing... one thing tat i dun kw i will do it!!! well... nvm.... nth... haiz.. i go slp liao.. working at 9am... haiz...

arghhh... gastric so pain now... haiz.. i no voice le.. voice sound so bad now... haiz... after a bad flu.. den become bad cough... den now.. bad voice.. really very bad lo... still keep coughing le... feel so terrible when cough.. feel like got a lot of knife keep throwing on my neck... very painful... haiz... today... finally.. i can slp till i auto wake up.. wow.. i feel good... but.. not really tat good.. coz headache.. haiz...

sian.. morning nth to eat also.. den never eat... den afternoon.. cook mee eat.. also never finish it.. the rest my brother finish it... well.. my brother eat almost everything... haiz.. no wonder he so fat la!!! haha...

well... me and summer gone swimming in the evening... arghh!! my heart so pain!! coz i buy a google... $35.70... haiz.. i can buy a lot of thing le!!! can buy.. 5 clothes u kw!!! also can buy tat skirt i wanted!! plus 1 or 2 more clothes u kw!!! haiz.. bo bian... coz i buy got degree de goggle.. haha.. coz dun wanna wear contact lenses... coz.. scare liao.. eye will very blur.. feel very scary...

yawn... cough like hell!!! hmmm... just now.. when i swim.. hmmm... my stamina not bad la!! never drop... when i finish 1 lap... summer only finish 1/2 lap... haha.. maybe my hand and leg too long le bah... tat why more fast.. hehe.. Mr Leong and Mr Yow.. miss me so much seh.. well.. can say all of them miss me... coz very long never saw me liao ma.. well.. all of them.. FA FU!!! stomach so big now!!! aiyo!!! dun kw they got work or not le!! stomach so big!! well... they say summer was abt my age le!!! oh dear.. if they kw tat summer was older den me by 9 years old.. they sure shock lo!!! haha...

well.. swim half way.. my gastric start to pain seh... arghhh... and veru hungry also.. well.. this time pain.. is 100% confirm is hungry.. was so hungry... den cannot swim seh... haha.. den we stand at one spot.. talk talk.. omg... all those ghost story... me hear liao so scare... summer is those can see de.. same with me... but.. i sometime can see nia... oh well... she told me all abt her experience... arghh!!! so scary!!!! den i thinking... how to go home later.. coz i very scare...

well.. after swim swim... we went to northpoint eat eat.. den i msg xiong... how wish he was outside... den i can go home with him.... T.T but.. he was at home.. haiz... well.. no choice den... have to go back alone... lucky.. when i on the way home.. those ghost story is not in my mind... phew... how lucky seh!!! if all those story in my mind when i walk home... believe me.. i will be very scare.. scare till i will call fren up and chat.. or whatever... den my cecum very pain... pain till i cannot tahan sia... haiz... oh well... den i go store see see.. stanley on shift.. haha.. den i buy ice cream eat eat.. arghhhh... cough cough...

arghhh... so tiring... haiz... trying to make the html thing... whole day liao... den cannot... so angry... do till i really give up liao... haiz... gastric still very pain.. time to eat my medicine liao wor.. haha.. maybe not.. sian.. dun feel like eating.. hohoho...

oh... what a vanlantine day... so lonely... and very very sick... arghhh... ytd was doing my course de thing... do till... i really beng kui le.... i cry out... i was so stress.... stress till i cannot take it anymore... i keep asking xiong.. what should i choose... what should i do... arghhh.. i was so stress.... he den asked my not to think so much... have an early rest... but.. i can't... i must finish it... oh well... after xiong gone offline... i slowly think abt it.... den.. i decided to go back to business... haiz.... i do till 3 plus in the morning... my head so pain... so tired... coz xiong said tat meet 10am in the morning... but... i really feel not very well.. den i send a msg to him telling tat i slp till 11pm... hehe...

haiz... my head so heavy now... so tired... but... i got so much thing to say... oh well... vanlantine day... first person i talk to is xiong... lol... he got D&D today seh... hmmm... wear the shirt tat time he wore on stanley birthday... haha... just now at northpoint... i saw one shirt... tat very shirt i saw tat time... well.. when saw tat shirt.. xiong fly pass my mind... well.. it look not bad on him.. haha..

when woke up this morning.. oh man.. my voice was so... bad seh... i feel very sick and weak... and start to cough also.. haiz... feel like buying ju hua cha... but.... never buy... haiz... after doing the o lvl stuff... we went back mac... liew.. xiong go inside manager room... den left me outside... arghhh... so sian... he never come out... keep waiting for him to come out... but never seh... oh well.. den i called sok mui lo.. coz she said she wanna accompany me go buy summer present... haiz... den i left mac lo.. since no ppl feel i am alive!! i told xiong tat i gone lo... haiz.... sian.... den i buy something to eat... Yu Rou Mi Feng... haha.. i like this food seh... i being eating this for 3 days liao.. haha...

at least for mui mui pei wo talk... not like xiong throw me outside... T.T well... she came my hse later in the afternoon... doing the o lvl stuff lo.. oh well.. my printer really no ink le... print thing out... is blank de... haiz... sian liao lo.... after tat we went and buy present liao... hmmm... at mini toons!!! i saw teddy bear!!! i love it so much... like it so much... and... was quite cheap le... got one.. big big big de... $39.90... arghhh.. i wan................. but.. no money le... haiz... spend so much today... i really pock liao.. i think i use nearly $100 today... sian ar.... oh well.. nvm... earn money.. is to use de.. so.. dun regret!!! but... use money... included injury... den a bit wun worth it le... coz i wanna take tat $39.90 or $39.95 de bear bear... i tip toe... den.. my leg hit the shell.. haiz.. my skin come off seh... so painful.. think will blue black le... pain till i knee down and sayang my feet... T.T so painful... but... coz i wanna see tat bear bear... no choice... arghhhh... who will buy tat bear bear for me!!! sian... what a vanlantine day... no ppl give me present.. but.. i buy present... haiz....... zzzzzz....

wonder tml will recover a not le... if not... dun kw how liao... hmmm... tml... i sure die... no hand lo... the present so big... den.. i still have to take the cake... u think i will have the hand ma?? got la.. both hand... each hand take one... but den!!! how to tap ez-link card?? in mrt.. sure very jialat de lo... haiz... who will help me sia??

i watched "i not stupid too" just now... very nice le... i laugh till siao... so funny... but.. very meaningful... all parents must really watch tat le... i got cry le... cry coz laugh too much... and cry coz very touching... but... funny more den touching la.. but the touching feeling... so great... when i walk out of the cinema... my eye... small like ant seh... almost cannot open... coz.. sick and cry ma... eye become very very small... hmmm.. so dark eye ring liao le... well.. it really show me tat i dun have enough slp... hmmm.. today.. i must slp till i happy... who also cannot find me... also cannot disturb me... wan find me?? after i wake up la.. haha...

well... vanlantine day... no flower.. no chocolate... no nothing.. but... bought a set of clothes for myself... it look quite nice... the pants also... very nice... arghhh... i never buy the skirt i saw tat time... tat skirt so nice!!! haiz... price also very nice... but.. i pock liao.. cannot buy.. T.T

my head very heavy le.. very tired... yao qi met me up after my movie... den we went eat eat... den.. go back home.. haha.. have quite a lot of fun... well... yao qi always let me happy... coz... can play with her... hehe....

k la... cannot tahan liao.. have to eat medicine liao.. haven eat my medicine today... hehe... den can slp till i happy.. hohoho... cya....

hmmm.... early in the morning.. i met up yiyi... go TP lo... haha... called xiong... he didn't pick up the phone.. oh well.. think he is sleeping bah... hmmm.. we waited for taxi... so hard seh!!! den!! i saw yiyi gonna bang onto the lamp post or something... den i say... careful.. dun turn back... oh well.. he saw it.. but still band on it!! lol!!! he den said.. i got see.. but is another one.. lol!! coz got 2 post ma!! hahaha... so funny!!!

haiz... so sick today... flu haven recover.. arghhh.... go CITI after tat... look so scary seh.. and a bit lost also... haha... well.. den we went to junction 8 and eat MOS burger... arghhhh... so sick seh!!!

hmmmm... when reach yishun... rain seh!!! arghhh... yiyi den pei wo go buy panadol.. coz.. i need medicine!! too sick liao... den we go guardian... but.. the medicine look like not working seh.... i still sneezing.. and running nose so bad... i dun kw how many sneeze i made liao!!! arghhhh... help!!! hmmm.. when at mac.. boss at there wor!!! hmm... he still look the same... stomach look a bit more bigger as b4 le... hehe... shhhh!! dun tell him!!! hohoho... well.. me and xiong sit at that long table... i sit on my favourite chair... and xiong was beside me... den.. boss treat me hot milo wor.. hehe.. so good.. den xiong went buy also.. and gave me some also... hehe... well.. at least it keep me warm... hmmm... boss show me one present... a vanlantine present for his wife... oh... so sweet seh... the present so cute also... oh... how wish i can have a vanlantine also... haiz... oh well.. me and xiong sit there and do our poly thing... so many course... haiz.. choose till siao.. i haven choose seh... oh well.. we went to shop n save... walk walk lo... den i bought ice cream... arghhh!!! so expensive!!! cost me $7.90 for one box... ahhh chuuu!!! oh dear... flu getting more worst... oh well.. back to story... after tat we went to chong pang market and buy my dinner... hmmm... xiong today look a bit different wor... look much more gentle today... haha... not bad not bad...

haiz... feel extreme terrible seh!!! hmm.. yao sheng told me something wor... my secondary school... rebel today... hohoho!!! today morning, assembly.. den tat apolo come talk.. den... he greet the students ma... den all the student hack care... after tat they greet him with ''good moring mr apolo sssssssssssss'... then he say yes you all had say correctly and plz dun make fun of one person name... den ask them greet again... then they greet :''good moring mr apolosssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss........drag till about 3 sec... den he angry... ask them stay back at 1.45pm.. and they also saw Mr Ng(DM) turn back and laugh also... den when 1.45pm..
whole sch go hall lo.. den wait abt 10 min... he came to the hall.. when he talk.. they make a lot of noise... then he say ''very well school take out your books and read while 2.30pm then i come back to talk'' den they all... OIE.. CB.. KNN... KP.. all out... (dun mind my words.. coz.. not i write de!!! i copy paste de...) den he really 2.30pm come back... den they make a lot of noise again...
then he agian say ''well i should extened the time till 3.00pm''... den many of the pupil walk away sia!!! then teacher in staff room came out to control the manner before the pupils rebel... HOD of science... HOD of art... HOD of english... came out.... den many students walk off... the teacher ask them to go back.. but they dun wan... my junior class more worse.. left 2 gals 8 boys nia... den abt 3 plus... he let them off.. coz he cannot do anything to them... and den off back home seh...

oh well... i kw one day this will happen... with the new vp... i dun kw what will happen le... hahaha... oh well.. gonna look for more course le.. haiz... hmmm... tml vanlantine le... sian... i was all alone den... haiz... hope tml can recover... have to buy some clothes tml... and present for summer.. haha.. hmmm.... sian.. so tired...

hmmm.. ytd too tired to write my blog.. now also very tired... but.. must write... i work 8hours ytd... today also.. arghhhh... tired till.. haiz.. no time to choose my couse for my poly also... now pass 12 le.. mean... only have 2days time to decide... i just send an email to my ex-vp sia... Mr Jin... haha.. telling him abt my gd news.. he will be very happy de..

ytd.. after i knock off from work... i went to buy a lot dessert.. for everyone lo... haha... also buy some very very bitter de dun kw what drink for june... coz she lost her voice ma.. and!! she really can take the bitterness le!!! aiyo!! pei fu pei fu... den i also buy liang cha... the what 5 hua cha.. haha.. i saw it wrote.. for cooling or what de... den i buy lo.. coz xiong got come to store ma... coz.. he need some liang cha.. i tot of giving him chicken essence de... haha.. but.. if i will see him in morning.. den i will give.. if nite.. give... later he cannot slp... den see lo.. when will see him...

when on the way home, we went to cheers.. hmmmm... i go and buy the toy.. $1 de.. outside cheers... den turn turn turn the thing.. den the toy pop out... the first toy.. so cute... but.. when i open... the whole bottle crack into small small pieces... haiz.. and cut my hand... lucky never go into my skin.... oh well.. small cut.. think wun have problem de la... i see the toy so cute.. i buy one more.. turn turn turn den pop up.. hehe... when reach home.. was so tired... den slp liao...

morning 8am work.. arghhh... so tired... whole morning sick seh... i caught a flu... haiz.. morning still a bit ok la.. but in the afternoon.. cannot make it sia.. i work split shift today ma.. coz got event... den afternoon i went back home.. and slp a while.. coz very tired.. den.. my flu get mire jialat liao... i slp for abt 1 hour.. i woke up liao... coz feel very terrible... den i go ate some medicine... after tat den go slp... well.. at least can slp a while... but.. very sick... feel like dun wan to work le.. but.. cannot.. haiz... when working... i was so sick.. i feel so terrible... my nose wanna break liao sia.. keep ah chuuu.... keep running nose... for goodness... got event today sia... yiyi make one flower using the balloon... hehe!! just for me wor!!!! yeah... so happy... but... when on the way home... the flower... one side kanna the fries... den... gone... when reach home.. my brother touch.. den.. tat it.. no more.. the flower gone... T.T yiyi gave me de... gone liao.. haiz.. a flower for valantine wor... well.. xiao ming also gave me one... hmm.. some sot of perfume flower... well.. coz.. he owe me one ren qing.. tat why he gave me tat flower.. haha... ok la.. smell quite nice... well.. in my whole life.. dun have vanlantine present de sia.. and.. these 2 gd guy gave me.. haha.. so touch...

arghhh!!! ate medicine le.. feel so sick... maybe i go eat one more... haha... k la.. very tired liao.. time for my bed... cya...

hmmm... got my o level result le... hohoho... so happy... i passed... i passed my english.... and!!! my humanities PASSED!!!!!!!!!! yeah... i was so happy... hohoho... i got 19 points for my L1R4... hmmm... english and humanity i very happy with the result... but.. the rest... chinese... math... science... under my expectation... haiz... i aim for a A1 for my math.. but i got a A2... i aim for a A for my chinese.... but... i got a B3... and!! i knew it tat my science will get a B3.. becoz.. tat day i no energy to study.... haiz... oh well... at least i passed.... now... the problem is... what course and what poly to go... any idea for me??? haiz... no business course for me... hehe.. hmmm.. have to slowly think...

hmmm... after tat went to mac lo.... hmmm... xiong got gd result... yiyi le... hmmm... got a bit not gd.... haiz.... at mac... i found out tat hoh... i am eligible for almost every course... but only 2 or 3 course cannot.. courses like law.... mass com... etc.... coz... too pro liao.. cannot make it... haha...

went to CWP with xiong, yiyi and stanley... hmmm... go shop shop... haiz.... very happy de... den ji tao down mood liao lo... haiz.. stanley got see me like this... sure kw something wrong happen.. oh well.. but i refused to tell anyone what happen... haiz... i cannot tolerate when people keep Ren Sheng Gong Ji... when inside shop... pass bra section... xiong ji tao say... u dun need to see la.. dun have ur size de... what the hell... i ji tao bad mood liao lo... damn head ppl attack my body parts... not this small la.. den tat big... i dun need any comments on my body ok.... i can wear a not also dun need u to worry... just mind ur words lo... after so many years... i had enough... why people must keep say me here big there big... this cannot wear.. there cannot wear??? really feel very bad lo... den i become very quiet liao... everytime something happen tat i dun like.. i will keep quiet... well.. since xiong like tat attack me... i keep quiet lo.. i dun talk lo... say wrong thing later kanna scold... den... at man section.. tat xiong said.. u dun come man section le... wa kaoz... nvm lo.. i walk away lo... at the shoe section.. i almost feel like crying out... i try shop my own... try not to have any eye contact with them... den stanley found out something wrong with me liao.. den ask me what happen lo.. well.. dun wish to let them kw what happen.. i just shake my head.. what he ask i all shake my head.. dun wish to use my mouth and talk...

when on the way home... inside taxi... wa liew.. more jialat lo... yiyi, stanley and xiong... 3 ppl say de thing... haiz... make me wanna cry in taxi also... all those milk la... whatever... i also a human... i got feeling de le... i not a robot or a stone... everything have a limit... over a certain limit... will explode... becoz is xiong, yiyi and stanley... i dun wish to say anything out in front of them... what i wanna say is... dun make fun of me in any part of my body... i can take joke... but... not these kind of joke...

when reach mac.. i all the way walk inside... waiting for stanley to pass me back my result and some booklet... den... i walk away... i tell yiyi to go back home first.. dun wait for me.. i go back myself... i need some time to be alone... need sometime to cool down... well.. i went to buy some food for my mother.. coz she haven eat... after tat i went home lo... trying to cool down... saw cheng guan... well.. gd news tat he got a B for his math... at least our hard work pay off.. he only lack of confident... well.. see him so happy.. at least can put a stone down liao.. now he can start a new life liao... the down and moody side of him have gone i think... hehe... those midnite oil we burn.... at least never wasted la... not bad not bad...

oh well... after a bit of sad sad time i got... now feel better le... well.. say out everything... make me feel gd... hehe...

hmmmm.... what yiyi said is rite... valentine days... i can save money up... oh well.. tat dun kw is a good news or bad??? haiz... oh well... only in my dream i can have a sweet time.. hmmm.. oh well.. this valentine... stay home bah... stay home is more better den go out see so many couple rite??? only will make me feel bad nia... wonder... when den i can get a rose for my very own... a present for my very own... and from my very one... haiz.. when will it be?? this year??? next year?? or... 4ever wun have?? haiz... let me off bah... all this only will make me gone insane... better stop dreaming... and see clear everything...

hmmm.. dun kw when... start to listen to techno... hmmmm.... sian... the poly book so thick.... how to read!!! haiz... have to read all b4 i slp.. have to settle everything b4 15th... and.. 15th is summer birthday... haiz.. help!!!! i need more den 24hours a day!! pls!!! how wish tml i can dun work... dun really have the feeling to work.. haiz... sian..

Valentine Day..... is what??? my dictionary haven print this word yet... what does this mean le???

hmmm... yiyi and me went for lunch today... we go eat Bee Hoon... well.. mine de.. so salty.. arghhh... hmmm.. abt noon time i reach mac le... working at 12.30pm... haiz... today work full 8hours... so tired man... i do counter... den... in kitchen... den back to counter... and... ping ping kanna gap buster wor... haiz... how wish i can kanna... but i also got serve the gap buster... after her meal.. she bought some home... den i serve wor.. den... service keep in just now... 8+ till dun kw what time la... service in till i very gong...

today whole day work... i almost dehydrated... feel so giddy... when i have break... my gastric pain also... but... i 4got to bring my medicine... haiz... den have to bear the pain... T.T haiz... when i look myself in the mirror... look a bit pale wor... haiz... sian..

when do counter hoh, i hurt my hand again... the skin drop... but... just abt 2mm like tat, i will hurt my wound... den sure very very jialat... i see my wound... i so scare seh... look so scary... haiz...

arghhh... when finish working, tot finally can go home... but cannot........ sob sob.... stanley ask me go YS mac take thing... 32oz cup... T.T the road so dark... plus the haunted hse... haiz... i run all the way there.. den i saw so many beautiful car... i think is chingay de... still got the frog song... beep beep... haha... i run and go see... wha seh.. so many police seh... got traffic de.. and those normal police... oh well... i got try use my phone take photo.. but... cannot see seh... haiz... oh well.. den i run and take the things.. well.. the road so scary... den i msg yiyi and xiong... but... they never reply.. haiz.. tot they can chat with me when i walk in the scary road.. but... well.. i get disappointed... haiz... when in mac... liew.. macham never on air con... so warm and hot inside... den... saw miko... the crew there... haha.. say hi... den i run back to cpcc mac le... long time never run le... now run.. feel so great... but.. so giddy... on the way run back to cpcc mac, my dad call me.. coz my dad still waiting for me... den i run to coffee shop and find my dad.. den this time... xiong reply me... well.. at least there is somebody will reply my msg... haha.. yiyi also not bad la... got reply also.. but not tat reply.. is another reply.. hahaha... oh well.. very blur rite?? lol....

when reach home, i ate something... den... feel so giddy again.. feel like vomiting again... haiz... ahhh chuuu.... T.T wonder who scold me... hmmmmm... when having lunch with yiyi, i keep sneezing seh... den when work... nose feel so weird... haiz... T.T so tired... haiz.. tml work full 8 again... haiz... help..................... T.T

yoyoyo... me here again!!! surprise to see me ma??? lol.. what a weird opening... wait!!! let me go toilet first... ok... back... haha... feel so relax... haha... was feeling so stress ytd.. but now.. ok le... life is like tat.. got up up and down down... lol.. is in chinese de la... i translate de.. lol!!!

last few days... my life was in a mess... keep doing wrong things... well... at least... now i get better le... after the rain... there will be sunshine... and my sunshine is here.... hohoho... well.. a bit dun sound like me today le... lol....

today.. i do counter... counter 1... me and yiyi using the same one seh... and.. got a STAR!!! yeah.... at least it make me feel much more better.... den i go kitchen... hmmm.. not bad not bad... at least i do something do... but... got burn my hand... the stupid pie!!! haiz.. oh well... lucky not tat bad... hmmm.. my rite hand.. tat time kanna de.. when near heat de thing, will pain le.. haiz... now got one hole like tat.. wonder when den can recover.. haiz.. sure got scar le... T.T my hand not nice liao la... den.. i got cut tomato.. arghh.. the knife cannot make it la... very hard to cut... lucky never cut my hand... hohoho!!! my skill not bad... i use xiong de style... the way he cut.. hmm.. can can... at least got a bit of skill... my 1st time but tomato.. coz i dun eat tomato.. tat why... hehe... but.. the knife need to do something on it liao.. if not.. hard to cut things...

hmmm... i work till 11feb le... after tat.. i never work liao.. coz.. i wanan settle my o lvl stuff first.. hmmm... hope i can go poly... hmmm... i wonder... who will be in the same school as me le??? who will be in the same course le??? haiz....

oh well... xiong called me!!! HE CALLED ME!!!!! for goodness!! he called me!!!! i dun believe it!!! i tot he forget abt me liao le... an unknown number called me... i wonder is who.. when i picked out.. i feel so scare.. coz is a guy sound... i scare if those guy i damn scare of de... well.. xiong do kw who i scare... den... i ask who is it... den.. he said "miko"... i was so surprised!!!! is xiong le... he use his mac de phone called me.. haiz... he work closing today.... he also told me... reach home, will be abt 4am le... oh dear!!! so "early"... haiz... he sound so.... different!!! was so happy tat he called me... i wonder when he will free seh... buy him liang cha... or... something else... and yiyi too!!!! cannot 4get abt yiyi... yiyi is my BEST YIYI!~!~! take very very good care of me... he is the best yiyi ever...

i heard fm xiong also... tat boss de maple kanna hack wor.. 12MILLION GONE!! OMG!!!!!! tat really scare the freak out of me... for goodness sake!!! maybe tat why boss sick??? hmmm.... dun kw le... hope boss get well soon... hmmmm.... yiyi going boss hse tml wor... i cannot go... coz i got work... haiz... working 12.30pm tml le... tml is full 8hours... wa liew... will die le... haiz...

hmmm... time to do some excerise le... den wash up a bit... den prepare to go sleep anything wor... hehehe... k la.. stop le... oh... my hamster.. so cute... but... xiao michael more cute.. hehe... cya xiao michael... see u tml... if i got the time.. coz.. may be very tired after work.. haha.. k la.. tata...

There Will Always Be Sunshine After The Rain... And Rainbow For Bonus...

haiz.... so sad.. today do counter... den... minus $1.70.... for goodness sake... what the hell is happening to me!!! why like tat... today i very sad... customer wu lai wo!!! customer ownself say wanna order this de lo.. i even double check with them... they say ok ok ok... they ownself say de lo.. den... when send order.. say nonono... never orer this.. is order tat... wha kao... den... got one customer... ownself order single... ownself say de lo.. i double check untill very carefully lo... den... yiyi came tell me... customer said got drink... but... i got ask the customer wan drinks a not lo!!! and she OWNSELF SAID DUN WAN DE!!!! what the hell... haiz... customer is always right.... my face really black liao lo... my mood more down liao lo... lucky yiyi make me in kitchen... but heard i minus $1.70... my mood more down...

i one person in kitchen... do till i very stress... haiz... den yiyi said tat friday o lvl result come out liao... wa liew... i more sad liao... feel like crying also... what the hell happening to me... hai.. so sad sad sad sad sad.... so many things i have to do... summer birthday also.. i gonna hold a small meeting... but... respond not so gd le... haiz... oh well... i gonna plan on friday... but... result come out on friday... and i feel tat i wun have good result... arghhh... dun kw will have the mood or not.. coz.. i feel i will cry on tat day... haiz.... very very very sad....

my mother told me she is cooking... i was so happy... coz... she dun cook unless got special event... even mother's day ar... father's day la.. we all will go out eat... finally my mother got cook... i so happy... but.. when i reach home, my mother told me tat my brothers ate everything up... even my mother haven eat... wa liew... my brother can really eat the rice lo... make me have to cook my own... i got a special feeling when i cook myself... oh well.. maybe i being cooking since i start working... hmmm... i cook rice and egg... i help my mum cook one He Bao Dan... the very first time so nice de le... well... i was very very happy with the egg i cook... den i cook one egg for my own... i dun like He Bao Dan... so.. i mix the egg den cook... hmmm.. not bad la.. at least i finish one meal...

today when working counter, yati asked me wheather i free a not on the March 10... well.. she is having a birthday bbq... she like to invite me go... hohoho.. does this mean tat i being a very good girl when working??? well.. it seem like i doing a gd job le... haiz... but... life not always smooth...

ytd nite... siti bought us some drink... well.. thx goodness she bought hot de.. coz i was cold like ice man... hmmm.. i can't open the packet!!!!!! den xiong help me with it... well... i was playing stanley laptop ma... i from 100% play till no batt.. hohoho.. power... i so powerful seh... i do complete my blog.. den... maple.. i never play much la... coz.. dun have the mood to play also... see xiong and yiyi studying there... xiong look so stress..... wondering... how much sleep he get each day??? he was like.. early go out.. late late go home... yiyi also.... looking more and more fierce... scary le... everytime i dun kw why... very very scare... how wish yiyi can smile more... rather den no smile... he smile is much more better... at least give me a warm feeling and not scary feeling... yiyi sometime nth to do... will come my blog de wor.. but.. still die die wun tag... hmmm... i kw yiyi dun like to tag... haha... reason?? i think is becoz of his personality... he dun like in nature... so... no use asking him tag when he dun like to do... no ppl like being force to do something rite??? and yiyi de "NO" mean no... and no way can make it become "YES"... his word very powerful de lo... very scary also.. haha... no 2nd time de... tat why when i talk to him.. must open ear big big... he told me tat he dun like keep repeat himself de.... but... i must repeat den can understand ma... but... no for yiyi.... coz... if ask him repeat... will get scolding de... so... must train my ear le.... yiyi very scare of o lvl result also... i wonder what will be his reaction when he get his result?? hmmm.. i wondering.... will it be scary or warm... o.O!!! better dun think!!!! coz.. i will be very scare of my own result also... well.. i need to prepare... my mind and physically... from today onwards... start on diet liao la... den train myself at home... den... wear nice nice to school... at least a sweet memory... a sweet memory till b4 get result... coz.. after result.. it may or may not be a sweet one... oh well.. if i meant to be pass, i will pass... everything is already set... no point worry rite?? but i kw tat.. i never put my very best in o lvl... for my science... my math.. i put my best liao... but not for my science and humanity... humanity.. is my weakest subject... i failed in N lvl... O lvl.. will it follow the path?? i hope not... what i can do now is.. pray hard... and train hard...

RUBY!!!!!! u can do it de!!!! hmmm... i wanna write my story le... but... dun kw write at where le.. if write in blog.. will it be very weird??? haiz.. write in book.. not gd... coz.. i dun have faith in my hand writing... maybe i gonna write in web... haha.. maybe open another blog... ya.. i think i will do tat.. den write my story... my very own story written by RUBY!!! and tat me.. but.. i always got.. the interesting part.. and not the starting part.. i always stuck at the starting part... hmm.. hope this time can success...

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Early in the morning, I meet up Addison for breakfast before we start work... Because we work same time... We went to Xiao Ming favorite place eat... He Li Mi Feng... Addison is a very cute person wor.. Haha... I trying write formal le... Aiyo!! Very hard.. Sian.. Dun wan formal liao.. Hmmmm... Let see... After the breakfast lesson with Addison, we went to 7-11 bring some sweet.. Hehe... I bought the "Warheads Extreme Sour Lemon Sweets" Well.. I feel it not so sour le... Last time more sour.. Now not liao le.. Wondering still got what sweets sour... Haha... I
love sour... Haha... Dun know why so many people dun like le... I go store be Santa haha.. Give out sweets.. But not many people want le... Because is sour de...

OK!!! NO MORE PROPER WRITING!!! sian ar... today work... after break... kanna transfer to YS mac work... haiz... whole store no people wan to go... den fadhilahcalled me and sze peh go... oh well.. since is not alone do de... i say okay lo... haha... den we walk there... we work fm 1pm to 5pm... tat 4 hours.. say long not long.. say short not short.. is torturing me!!! or.. should said torturing us... i starting in charge of the Fantastic thingy... den i become PC... haiz... den i do loh... liew... damn pek cek... i say equal never say sia.. they one ear in one ear out... ask them do this... they say ok ok ok.. but in the end never do... i do all alone... arghhh... the beef thingy i haven do before ma.. den i dun kw where they keep their product.. where is here... where is there.. den i ask.. no ppl reply... den i ask for one product, must say many times... untill i really shout liao... den they listen... haiz... be PC, can train my attitude also... well.. at tat store be PC, can train me also.. from easy den to hard... i feel store de more harder den YS le... haiz... sian... when finish working, i go back the crew room take our stuff ma.. den sze peh in washroom... doing her hair lo... den i help her take her bag la... arghhh... i sit on the chair.. and.. i dun kw is wet!!! den my pants is wet liao sia... arghhh... lucky is black colour... cannot really see...

me and sze peh take taxi back sia.. coz her leg cannot tahan liao.. very tired ma... haha.. den we take taxi lo... when we left, start raining... den when we step out.. rain stop... haha.. so weird... oh well.. hard to get a taxi also le... hmmm... $2.70... use $0.40 nia... haha.. me and sze peh keep saying see who guess the correct amount of money... starting she said $2.70 de.. den she change.. den i take $2.70 lo... haha.. i won.. lol.. is a small game nia.. we make so much noise in the taxi seh.. when reach my own store sweet store (refined from home sweet home), i saw uncle martin... haha... well.. when reach store, saw xue leong playing maple... den me see see lo... we whole group sit at the long table.. my favorite table.. on my favorite sit... den... Addison said he also got an a/c at bootes.. den... he pass me his messo and item... den hoh!!! when log in!! i first thing is WHA!!! 100 watermelon... kw how much HP and MP it give?? 1000 each!!! u say should i wha a not le?? well.. 100 is being divided among us.. me, yiyi, xue leong and stanley... yiyi and xue leong de still with me... hmmm.. hope i wun use up their de.. haha... make sure they faster take.. if not.. i use liao.. i dun kw ar... haha... my life... 1000 can la.. but mp... 1000 is far too much... maybe i keep first... when i go potion shop, i see see... the watermelon can said worth 3.6k each... no wonder so expensive la... one watermelon dun kw can last how long liao...

when i at home, so boring seh... but phone keep ringing... yao qi and alvin called me... yao qi ask me got library card a not... but i dun have la... well.. den hang up liao... after tat.. alvin turns.. he ask abt o lvl result release date.. he said tat danish said tat tml is the release date.. but.. impossible lo.. i told alvin tat i check at the MOE website first den tell him.. but.. it never mention anything abt the o lvl result release date... oh well.. if is tml, newspaper and tv sure keep repeat de lo.. den sure got a lot ppl telling each other de lo.. but... dun have.. so i think is fake la... hahah... so scare abt the result seh...

hmmm.. den went to mac with yiyi.. haha.. me and yiyi play a game.. guess what colour xiong is wearing now.. red or blue.. den.. i guess correct!! i guess red... hahaha... well... so far haven saw xiong wear blue yet... hmm... now in mac lo.. using stanley to complete this post... stanley lend me his laptop becoz he dun wan me disturb xiong and yiyi studying... doing their "work".. haha.. the book seem so thick.. wonder when they den can finish doing and reading... look so hard... they now discussing seh... hmmm... better not disturb them... xiong ask me to get away from the long table sia.. coz he 2 days never touch computer le... den scare he cannot control... haha... stanley let me play maple!! yeah!!! just now.. i wan play.. but... no batt seh.. now... 100% batt... hahaha... i can play till i siao... hohoho... k la.. can start play maple le... see ya...

hmmm... ytd.. i went to ivy hse and bai nian... hmmm.. got me gail and sok mui.. only we 3 nia... daniel and jieyi working seh.. haiz... sian... 3 ppl only... wheather very very very hot le!!! hot till.. i dun wanna bring the small jacket.. just wear like tat le... 1st time le!!! i dun dare de... but... got my hair cover... should be ok la... arbo u tell me like tat wear... kill me better... haha... in ivy hse... eat KFC again!!! oh man!!! fast foods.... no way...... will fat till siao... last year also fast foods le.. also KFC.. haha.. hmmm... we play cards at her hse... very sian le... i win a lot of the games sia... win till they dun wanna let me give the cards... haha...

i went to mac after tat... wait for yiyi... coz meet yiyi go eat eat ma... hohoho!! yiyi first day be FM wor... well.. he still a TFM.... bo bian... but i think soon wun have the "T" in front... haha... saw him do all those paper... hahaha... well... me and yiyi went to PS and find xiong... well... do promise yiyi tat must write this.... "Yiyi de station knowledge very good" haha... but... soft serve de all wrong... hahaha!!!! 20mg 2 shot.. he said 1 shot... 170g sundae.. he said dun kw how many... haha... we went to buy a jacket... but... only i buy.. yiyi never!!! well.. coz we saiad wanna go watch movie... den what i wear... sure cold till siao de... den i buy lo... hmmm.. $19.90... very cute... got dog paw de... red colour de... quite nice... hehe... tat what i think la... well.. when reach PS, i tot i lost sia.. coz.. diff from the PS tat i know.. lol!! maybe i too long never go out liao bah... well.. yiyi wearing FM clothes ma.. when reach xiong store... all ppl stare at him... haha.. another store de manager come mac.. of coz will stare at it de... well.. tat xiong.. also very toot la... we stand outside so long... den he kw... haiz... when he come out... wa liew... his tat eye.. like saying why i wear till like tat... macham i am a monster sia... haiz... sad.... i tot i wear not bad sia... well.. look like is not... yiyi also very careful abt my dressing... coz.. the skirt.. he feel a bit short le... den scare i kanna flash... tat why he got take care of me la... oh well.. tat xiong so long le... finally!! we can go liao... den.. i heard yiyi reply him "coz she go ivy hse bai nian".. well.. den xiong reply "bai nian wear black meh".. haiz... so obvious is saying me lo.. ask how come i wear till like this.. T.T sian... den keep kanna ren sheng gong ji by xiong... i dun like ppl ren sheng gong ji me... haiz.. den i remain slient again... well... we go food court... they eat only.. i never eat... hmmm... xiong and yiyi bought an drink for me... starfruit juice... xiong said tat hot day u think will be more cooling.. if cold day drink will freezy cold... hmm.. but i still very hot le... haha... well.. den they a bit dun wanna watch movie liao sia.. haiz... when go cinema... very cold seh... i wear my jacket... haha... but... hot again!! when get out... oh well.. they wanna go back yishun... den in mrt station!!! guess what we saw!!! oh dear... LES!!! our hair stand seh... xiong almost vomit out seh... lol!!! den inside mrt... what yiyi scare of..... come true!!! yiyi scare tat the les... will stand infront of us... oh well.. really seh!!! and.. i am facing them... oh dear.. i cannot tahan also... oh well.. den we go back store lo...

haiz... sian... nothing to do in store also... den i keep wanna watch movie... in the end... yiyi and xiong see me so wish to watch... they say go watch lo... qi feng come along also.. but... i can see xiong very very tired... hmmm.. this make me a bit sad liao... coz... he so tired i still insist on going for a movie... T.T den we walk there la.. i ask xiong help me take my jacket... den he put inside his bag... well.. gd tat he got bring a bag... we went to Burger King b4 the movie start.. coz still long ma... den my gastric start to pain liao... we buy something eat eat lo... xiong look so sleepy... his eye got a bit red red... haiz... we watch Zodiac, The Race Begin... well... xiong sat beside me.. followed by yiyi dne qi feng... the show very cute le!!! haha... well.. i got 2 show watch wor.. one is the movie.. another is xiong... he was sleeping... oh dear.... he really very tired le... den i feel even more bad... he sleep more quite long le... slp untill his phone got ppl send him msg... oh dear... he really very very tired... when he work... it look like service in till very jialat.. no wonder he look so tired... T.T haiz... den i ask him wheather he really tired a not!! den... he ask me shhhhhhhhhh... T.T haiz... concern him also cannot... why wan ask me to shhhhh le?? T.T sad sad sad sad sad.... after the show... i dun have the mood to talk... den all the way home.. yiyi so good... will concern me... haiz.. yiyi called me ask me wheather i reached home le ma.. coz very late liao ma.. 2am plus le... very danger... i also feel danger... but at least got qi feng pei wo walk a distance la... den i walk my own... when i reach home.. i wash up den go bed le... coz got work early morning 9am... haiz.. replace qi feng lo.. arbo i no work de... oh well.. b4 i slp... i send an msg to xiong... i said sorry to him... i kw he very tired sia.. den still go movie... i told him tat.. if tired tell me ma.. den dun watch le... haiz.. i feel so bad... see him so tired... heartbreak seh... den i wait wait wait... he no reply... i wait till i fall a sleep with my phone on my hand... when i woke up... i so tired... eye so pain... den i saw xiong msg... he got reply me!!! well.. he do kw tat i will worry abt him... i saw the time... haiz.. if i tahan for a few more minute.. i can see his msg... haiz... lucky computer cannot use ytd.. arbo he sure play maple till dun wan to slp... he everytime like this.. make me very worry lo.. now work so hard... den so late slp.. i wonder his body can take it ma... haiz... too bad i dun kw how to cook... haiz.... if not i sure cook something bu bu xiong and yiyi health... maybe i can learn learn le... maybe try ask ask my mother...

hmm... finally.. can write something abt today... oh dear.. i so tired now... i being writing and watching tv at the same time.. no wonder write till now still cannto finish... hmmm.. by this time.. xiong should be finish work liao... haha... yiyi should be sleeping now bah.. yiyi working 8.30am tml sia... me at 9am.. yawn... i feel so tired... tml work 7.5 hours sia... arghhh... work till 5pm... sian ar... today kanna extended untill full 8 hours... so tiring... last 1 hour... very hard sia... kitchen very hard to do... service in... den.. ppl very less.. den i have to do a bit of pc job... arghhh... very xin ku... haiz.. today also my bad day.. i dun kw what happen to me... whole day keep do wrong thing... this wrong... tat wrong... haiz.. do anything also wrong... sian.. i really having a bad day today... den i hurt my hand again... when handling grill product... becoz i do wrong thing... den my hand kanna burn... qi pao very pain... den... fadhilah help me put some medicine on it... when taking things.. also burn my hand... xiao ming put the tray on top of the rice machine... den i go take... den i burn my hand again.. coz very hot... metal transfer heat very fast ma... den xiao ming take cloths take the tray give me... den i do McChicken lo... well... burn my hand again when take out the tray.. coz still hot... and i 4got... my hand keep kanna burn today... den... qi pao there... very pain when my hand inside the grill when taking meat... got gloves also pain... well... at least got xiao ming there... den i try not to hurt myself.. but... sian... still hurt...

just now i cook something eat... i cut something... den ALMOST cut my finger... haiz.. what the hell happen to me!!! why i so suay!!! both hand blue black haven recover... den have new injury liao... T.T why!!!!!!!!! still painful when touch it le!!! i mean the qi pao!!! sian... so tired... think is time for rest...

Xiong And YiYi... You Two Must Take Good Care Of Your Health Le...

hmmm... ytd nite... xiong make me so angry... haiz... all those smoking... make me so sad... almost make me cry in my bed.... den early in the morning.. woke up... feeling so tired.. and refused to wake up... just continue stay in my bed for a few hours... when wake up... chat with yiyi lo... den go maple play with yiyi... but... kanna scold for nothing... i talking to yiyi in wisper... den... dun kw is boss or his son... should be his son... scold me and yiyi sia... sian.. my mood gone even down as i heard something tat i dun wish to heard...

den kw tat yiyi never work.. arghhh... den i called yiyi for lunch lo... den tat xiong le.. so dao... sian... den i log out liao... after tat.. i met yiyi... den saw xiong... haiz.. waste my msg... well.. when saw xiong... recalled abt ytd smoking incident... haiz.. den sad liao... i gone very very quiet... coz dun kw what to say... den... yiyi and xiong keep talking... abt PS la... newspaper la... manager la... girl la... whatever... sian.. my mood even down... dun feel like talking anymore... den when go mac... arghhh... i also keep quiet... stanley tot anything happen to me sia... haiz... got a bit feel like crying when sitting inside mac... feel like staying alone... starting start work.. also no mood... talk also feel very uneasy... also can't smile... at nite.. den i feel better.. smile also back...

i feel i grow up again... coz... my feeling... tell me... i grow up le... my feeling tell me... i think too much le.. i dun even dare to tell... in the whole world i only can tell rongwei... coz... he is the only one i can turn to.. and tell everything... i only kw how to cry?? why!!! i feeling so bad now... everytime... tears... will make me lose something... haiz... xiao michael.. why u wan to die so early?? if u never die... i kw.. u will listen to me... but now.. i only can miss u... xiao michael.. do u kw??? if i confess... maybe.. i wun be so close with him anymore... maybe he wun treat me as a fren anymore... he will keep a distance from me... i feel i thinking so much... maybe he only treat me as a close fren.. a sister... maybe i too sensitive... i always so sensitive... i make a lot of thinking this few days, i keep thinking wan or dun wan... people will say.. say la.. why not... xiao michael.. u kw why??? i told u b4... when u r still alive... how wish... xiao michael....

Wo Hao Xi Huan Ni Ah.... how wish i can say this out to u... do u kw??? after so many months... spend with u... i kw... everything is so clear... these few years thinking is all clear... very clear... i am very happy... very happy to kw u... u play an important role in my life... what i wanna say is... i really like u... thx for being with me all the while.. Xie Xie Ni... Arigato...