bloggee... i never had this fear before... never...!!! i dun kw wat happen.... i now very scare.. izzit a dream or wat??? i check the calander.... and i think.... think is not a dream.... i slept for less den 5hours... and my dream..... like a few days.. tat dream... is so scary... is not a ghost or wat... is just that... i dream tat yiyi and xiong dun wan me anymore... things change so fast... starting... xiong and i were running... dun kw fm who... and to where... but... i kw that... it is a happy thing.. and not a sad thing... nor a scary thing... but... just like one flash of light... so fast... everything change~

the song "Right Here Waiting" keep going on and on in my mind... and in my dream~ i dun kw wat happen... but i kw that i am totally hurt... i kw that yiyi and xiong dun wan me... i also dun kw why... it hurt so much.. i was at CPCC... den suddenly... got a girl voice... talk to me.. said that xiong dun wan me anymore~ he choose another girl... i dun kw why.... i was like.. shock.. stunt... and cannot do anything but crying... i keep crying non-stop... and it was really very hurt... i tot of calling yiyi... but... yiyi was ignoring me... no matter how i call... he ignore me... he do heard me crying.. but... he didn't ask anything... not a thing... den... i dun kw wat to do... the voice... like keep saying me... no ppl will help u... u r alone now... u just a baby... cannot live without others... and so on... i went crying non-stop in my dream.... i was alone.. sitting next to the pond in CPCC and cry.. and the song... keep repeating and repeating... den... i woke up... i know that i woke up already... but... my eye cannot open... den i dun kw why... i started crying... crying when i am awake... i kw tat i am crying.... tear is flowing out... but.. my eye not yet open... and the song... "Right Here Waiting" keep on repeating... again........

when i open my eye... i found out that i just slept for less den 5hours... i see the calander... hope that i was just dreaming.... and i somehow... think that i am dreaming... i msg xiong... but... he didn't reply... i now stilll cyring... nearly 1hour now... my tear still flowing out... the fear.... i dun kw... very scary... when i wake up, my mind is blank... i just keep on crying and crying... i cannot stop it... i hope that it was really a dream... but.. xiong... never reply me... i dun kw wat i going to do now... i only kw that... without yiyi and xiong... without them in my life... i dun kw wat i will happen... wat trouble i'll get... i just hope that this dream..... hope is just a dream.... a dream that wun appear to be real... my mind is very messy now... i got no one to turn to... coz.. they all still sleeping... i only kw that... bloggee.. u the best.. whenever i need someone to talk to.. u will always be here... thxs...

Wherever You Go, Whatever You Go, I Will Be Right Here Waiting For You.......

haiz~ saw tat pervert... so call my relative... living next door... haiz... PERVERT!!!! i already said i dun wan to go home early... now... see la... kanna disturb again!!! arghh.... last time.... early in the morning... when i wanna go to school... he will wear ALMOST NOTHING!!! and play with his.... haiz... arghhh..... he at my hse...... sian..... i wan to go out!!!!!!!

haiz~ xiong... u hoh.... make me so disappointed... u said those kind of thing... haiz... was so angry with him.... i dun believe it.... he said those kind of thing... make me so sad... tear almost wanna come out... but.... i control... it never come out... but... so hard to control... xiong ar xiong... dui ni hao si wang... see u already like very stress liao... haiz... wanna release stress also cannot like this de ma... the more i say u... the more u feel bad... the more u angry... wat the point??? the best way is to control.... i have to control... if not.... sure fight till no ending... sometime.. u wanna play.. is ok with me... but den... this kind of thing.. u like this say... i really.... very sad.... i tot u kw my feeling... i tot u kw me well... haiz...

T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T

i go touch my my hair today... hmm.. look more better... after tat, xiong.. me.. yang ching.. we go eat lunch.. and a cat... entertain us... after tat we go mac... den 4pm... i meet zhenhe.. take my present... hmm.. 2 pair of earing... after tat.... we go buy my rubber band... den go back mac again... den we saw yiyi... after talking a while, we sent yiyi back to school.. coz he got camp.. NPCC de... after tat... we go 7-11 buy my chocolate... yang ching den go home~ me and xiong den walk back lo... saw ping ping... haha~ we 3 den walk to northpoint.. why?? coz we gonna bring the seaweed shaker to np mac... den we lend out hand to ping ping.. den xiong and i went back to cpcc mac again.. to pass the paper... we den go shopping for our hamster... my hamster?? hehe~ got a name wor.. call michael!! i always call him xiao michael.. name it after xiong.. coz he also call michael...

haiz~ too sad now... MICHAEL!!!!! wo dui ni hao si wang... sob sob.... u so bad...

wow~ i woke up at 5pm today~ haha~ no choice~ coz i 7++am den slp~ i stay overnite outside at CPCC mac~ hmm~ let me see~ ytd, my didi siqiang ask me wanan go watch movie a not.. den i said ok~ we watch Zathrura~ hmm~ interesting movie le!! coz i like things abt out of space~ all those stars... haha~ but dne.. the show... a bit... not creative... coz like watch b4 already like tat~ choon han... si qiang... jun xuan... and me... we go watch~ aiyo!!! choon han hoh!!! now very tall liao le!!! when he in sec 1... shorter den me~ now le... 188cm... taller den me by 10cm!!! haha~ si qiang also grown taller~ but.... a bit fat liao wor~ lol!!! should say chubby~ haha~ we watch 11.45pm de show~ by the time the show finished, it was abt 1.35am in the morning~ den choon han accompany me walk to CPCC mac~ as for si qiang.. he went home~ becoz choon han stay near my hse~ well... den he send me to mac la~ coz same path~ and i make sure they reach home~

in mac~ saw yiyi... xiong... wei ren... elvis... stanley... shikin... xueliang... hmmm~ i think tat all bah~ all guy le!! except shikin... haha~ lucky tat chikin at there~ den can go toilet!!! haha~ dun kw why... i not scare le... coz everytime walk tat path of road toward the toilet... i very scare~ but this time... i not so scare~ haha~

1st time see xiong dye hair work... aiyo~ feeling all different seh~ haha~ but look more mature... really!!! i prefer this time den last time de... i reached there.. tio shot like siao~ all say i dye macham never dye!!! aiyo!!!! this make me so sad!!! den tat xiong keep making his hair... wanna me jealous... but den... i like his hair!!! haiz~ why my hair cannot absorb?? coz too black liao~ haiz~ at mac... xiong so good.... give me eat things... haha~ but also abit BHB!!! coz he said i go mac look for him de.... even yiyi also say~ aiyo!!! nvm!! look for him.. also ok~ look for yiyi also the same~ stupid xiong!!! skin also very thick~ i cold like hell inside... he not cold at all seh... haha!!! AND ONE THING!!!! wahahaha!! i told him tat i will write in my blog de... he hoh!!! wanna play a game with shikin... the game call "ji-gu-ba" haha~ but... kw wat he said?? "ji-go-bei" wahahaha!!!! so funny!!! his paiseh till... aiyo!!!

but... my gastric problem come again... and medicine seem like not working liao... i had great pain 2 time... but... ok la.. i still can manage... haha~ dun really wanna show the pain look~ hmm.. i wait till xiong and yiyi finish working... they play deck in mac seh!! lucky today very little customer... haha~ at abt 6++am, we go market.. they eat bee-hoon... coz i already ate something in mac liao.. so dun really feel like eating...

hmm~ let me see.. today... dun kw why le... YIYI AND XIONG KEEP SCARE ME!!!! arghh... tat xiong... everytime... when i overnite at mac... will scare me... and make stupid face outside the window... and.. everytime i will scare by his stupid face!!! arghhh... as for yiyi.... while i playing my games in my hp... he will walk behide me.. and den BOOOM!!!! den i shout dun kw how many time... arghhhh... maybe bcoz they keep scaring me... tat why i not scare when going toilet... i also feel tat xiong today a bit different.. coz fm his eye... i feel tat... he suddenly very gentle... aiyo!!!! am i wrong??? i dun kw~ but i really feel tat he is.. very different... maybe... becoz of the hair??? i dun kw... just feel tat he is different... and... i prefer this xiong.. haha~

Problems - The Best Way To Escape From A Problem Is To Solve It...

oh~ i go dye hair today~ haiz~ i wanna dye reddish brown~ but den~ dun kw which one~ den i chose one a bit more red de~ but not very red la~ but now..... like no colour.... or gold.... i wan red!!!! sob sob~ if a few more day~ not really the colour i wan, the aunty said tat i can go back~ yang ching also not very that good... colour not tat clear also~

haiz~ only xiong de hair good... after he dye~ handsome seh~ haha~ his colour.... really very good loh~ become so handsome seh~ before and after~ change so much!!! haha~ sure got a lot of gals chase de~ haiz~

i sit for.... abt 5hours seh!!! sit till i cold like hell!!! in the end... xiong and yiyi ps me~ haiz~ was so angry!!! but den... also cannot let them wait at there rite??? haha~ angry only for 1 sec nia~ hmm~ but also very gd la~ xiong got come out pei wo eat dinner~ i tot he wun come seh~ coz everytime ask him... he will say no~ dun kw why today~ say yes~ hehe~ quite happy~

he said a lot of thing abt his ex-gf seh~ aiyo! dun kw wat happen to him.... say this kind of things out~ dun look like him sia~ hmm~ tio shoot by him also~ coz he saw me.... 1st thing he said is.... dye like never dye~ still so black~ HAIZ~ i wanan cry out seh~ i wasted $80 to cut and dye~ in the end... not the colour i wan~ and... my neck almost break~ lucky i still come back alive~

when reach home... even my mum say i dye macham never dye!!! ARHHH!!! i wan to cry liao la~ haiz~ i wan my reddish brown....... sob sob~

Habits - Bad Habits Are Like A Comfortable Bed, Easy To Get Into, But Hard To Get Out Of...

hahahaha!!!!!!!!! WAHAHAHAH!!!!!! xiong~ u should kw why i laugh rite??? lol!!! since u dun wan me to write~ hmm~ let see~ should i write?? haha~ saw jia li and her mum at northpoint today~ haha~ hmm~ dun say le~ somebody wanna kill me liao~ hahaha~

well.. today go find job with yiyi and xiong... hmm~ dun really like tat job... haha~ before we go find the job, we go northpoint had our lunch first~ haiz~ i cannot finish my food seh~ salmon furai~ a japanese food~ haha~ haiz~ i think my stomach really got problem liao~ xiong ask me go see doctor!! but i dun one!!!!!!!!!!!!! coz i hate doctor!!! haha~

yiyi, xiong, yiyi de sis and me eat liao den we go timezone~ haiz~ xiong hoh!!! win a teddy seh!!! so zhun!!! but me le.... ALMOST LE!!!!!! sob sob~ if can tahan a bit longer~ i sure get the dog~ haiz~ i miss the chance again~ sob sob~

when on the way going home, xiong wanna dye hair~ i also wan~ but den~ too many ppl~ den never dye~ tml..... tml~ we go dye~ haha~ dun kw how much le~ sian~ haiz~

hmmm~ i wanna dye reddish brown!! haha~ si qiang also say this colour nice for girl~ but dun kw suit me a not ma le!! scare le!! haiz~ see lo~ yawn~ so tired!! i go slp lo~ nite nite~

War - Mankind Must Put An End To War, Or War Will Put An End To Mankind...

wow~ ytd so happy~ uncle martin~ yeah~ he go timezone win one winnie the pooh give me.. i and yiyi die die cannot win~ haiz~ everytime the one i wan... let ppl take~ sob sob~ but yiyi mei mei si pei hoh~ wha seh~ very lucky seh~ go play the 1st time win liao~ haiz~ but den~ i got the big pooh~ very happy liao~

ytd.. we waited for xiong to finish his exam~ wait till..... haiz~ we go buy hamsters~ we went to 2 shop and see.... haiz~ i saw one.. infact 2.. hamsters... very cute~ cost $15 each~ haiz~ but never buy~ sob sob~ den we go buy another shop de~ haha~ when on the way home... my hamster and xiong hamster keep fighting!!!! wun stop seh!!! den at nite.. they sleeping... haha~ i put at xiong hse~ haiz~ coz i haven ready yet... sob sob~

later at 2pm... start my o level LAST paper~ science paper 1~ hmmm~ haven study yet!!! how!!! meeting xiong and yiyi at 11.30am~ we go eat liao den go study~ afrer tat go examination hall~ after tat~ YEAH!!!! CAN PARTY!!!

hmnm~ tml... find work~ yiyi say got work... but i scare scare~ coz i dun have any experience~ dun kw can a not... haiz~

gonna pack~ if not i gonna be late~ sob sob~ feel like..... sick soon seh~ haiz~

Work - The Devil Finds Work For Idle Hands...

yoyoyo!!! aiyo!! play maple whole day~ play till i wan to vomit blood!!! keep cannot de le!!! aiyo!!!! stupid computer!! ARGGG!!!! ytd nite.. papa come home~ i all the while playing maple... or should i say today?? coz past 12 liao~ hmm~ me play with yiyi~ hehe~ den we were on the phone and playing maple!!! gd team work~ yeah~ we play till morning 5.30am~ wahaha~ he cannot tahan den go slp~ i 6am den slp~ coz i go wash up.. brush teeth... den during the game, yiyi told me tat hoh~ xiong also playing.. haha~ but he dun kw wan go where~ aiyo!! stupid xiong... dun kw how to call us de(yiyi say de)!!! hahaha!! uh oh~ gonna get kill by yiyi liao~ xiong ar~ dun tell yiyi~ shhhhhh!!!! arbo i die~ :p

b4 i and yiyi slp... he said tat see who wake up first!!! well.. i say OK LO!!! haha~ aiyo~ so many ppl disturb while i sleep!! got msg ar... got my stupid brother la~ walking in and out... so noisy!!! i waked up a few time... but den... i refused to really wake up!!! den i sleep all the way till my stupid brother walk in again!!! aiyo~ when i see my hp, 4++!!!! oh dear~ so late liao!!! guess wat~ i never off my computer ma... got a few fren pm me~ but den.. dun kw why... kanna dc le~ my msn~ haiz~ sian~

haiz~ see~ i haiz again~ while palying maple... i and yiyi keep sneezing!!! me ar?? sneeze till siao!!! ytd nite.... till now... AHH CHUUU!!! haiz~ hope wun catch a cold... AHH CHUUU!!!!

hey hey~ my papa win 4D again~ wahahaha!!! mean.. i got money again!!! haha~ my papa so gd... buy chocolate give me... ONE BIG BOX OF FERRERO ROCHER!!! wahaha!!! oh~ i so happy!!! haha~ see the ferrero rocher~ haha~ i remember~ a few day ago.. i saw many box of chocolate!!! i gonna buy the chocolate for my fren during christmas~ hmm~ give who le~ yiyi, xiong xiong, qiu ping.... hmm.. maybe other fren... one chocolate each... but yiyi and xiong xiong sure in box de~ hahaha~ den others... one each~ (*^-^*)

OH!!!! SO HAPPY!!! MY FERRERO ROCHER!!! here i come~!! i love chocolate!! YEAH!!! dun worry~ i wun share with u!!!! hehe~ WAHAHHA!! the more i see the box of ferrero rocher!! i wanto eat!!! ar!!! MUACK!!! here i come!!! HURREY!!!!

Honour - Rather Fail With Honor Rather Than Succeed By Fraud

OHHHHH~ so touch today~ haha~ xiong xiong buy me chocolate!!!! wahahaha!!!!! haiz~ as usual~ he refused to take the money~ haha~ i keep asking him pei wo go buy... but he keep dun wan~ coz scare ban will kill him becoz he never pei ben go buy newspaper... but den.... kw why i touch?? wel.. mac hoh... just now out of stock of new teriyaki bun... den xiong was asked to go take from YS mac... he and ben go ma..... haiz~ dun let me go... coz he say need strong ppl help him... haiz~ den left me all alone in mac~ waited and waited~ so long seh~ he gone for very long... abt 30min??? think so... but gd tat yiyi come back~ haha~ at least got some ppl pei wo liao~ but.... when saw xiong come back... aiyo~ only little things nia~ no need strong ppl also~ haiz~ but..... i saw ban take a bag of thing fm 7-11... omg!! is the chocolate!!!! den i asked ban.. who buy de... he said is xiong... oh...... so touch.... he go buy the chocolate.... i tot he wun... coz.... not really the same road... if he got buy... mean he take taxi till outside 7-11... den go in 7-11 buy chocolate... den all the way from 7-11 carry the bun to mac... HOW CAN I DUN TOUCH!!! AI SHI NI LE!!!! xiong ar xiong.... haha~ arigato~

ytd... happen so many unhappy thing... in the nite... today morning also very sad... ytd nite.... i cried.... today morning... a little bit of tear coming out fm my eye... coz... listen sad song... den anyhow think again... well.... wat is over is over... no point looking at the back...

with xiong and yiyi.... i kw i will be happy... haha~ yeah~ later papa coming home~ abt 12++ in the mid.. i wan to wait till he back~ hehe~ only abt a few more hours... now i think he in the plane liao... oh... i wonder wat he buy for me... hehe~ happy~

Experience - Experience Is Not What Happens To You; It's What You Do With What Happens To You...

haiz~ care for somebody also let ppl say till er xin~ wa lao~ where got like tat de!!! sob sob~ suan le~ really suan le~

haiz~ 2 day ago... i buy my favourite chocolate!! kaoz!!! like..... GROSS!!!! the look is suk!!! the taste more suk!!! Expire date 2006... lucky i never get food posionly!!! but ok la~ i go go back change~ i dun dare ma~ but den yiyi de sister and stanley say can change dun worry~ haha~ den i pull yang ching go with me~ hehe~ yeah~ i got a new one~ but den~ a bit scare scare also~ but the taste is back la~ the look also back~ haha~ but i do have a tummy ache!!! haha~

haiz~ my Geo.... i study agriculture.... in the end.... i do manufacturing.... haha~ geo ar.... at least this time better den N lvl~ hope i can pass!!! PLEASE!!!! if never pass i can really.... haiz...

now i finally go relac liao~ coz only left science paper one~ hehe~ 40mcq~ should be easy~ wun be so stress~ haha~

haiz~ guess wat~ i fat liao~ i must go do a lot of excerise le!! arbo sure let tat stupid xiong laugh!!! argggggg sad~ haiz

Success - You May Be Disppointed If You Fail, But You Are Doomed If You Don't Try...

well~ this is the second post today le~ hehe~ well, now my dad should be in Thailand liao~ this is not the first time but then... i still miss him~ without a papa in the hse... i feel so unsecure~ sob sob~ papa!!! faster come home~ without u in the hse~ i no money!! lol~ no la~ coz papa can save me fm being bully by my brother~ haha~

let see~ wait till 12+ 1+ den uncle open his bike shop~ haha~ i ask xiong pei wo ma~ cost me $45 to repair~ very cheap liao le!! coz the part i change cost a lot!!! but... instead of repairing my bike... i feel tat we are having picnic~ let see wat we ate there~ hmm~ 2 jolly shandy, 4 ice-cream, 2 packet of twisties.. den i had extra food, 1 bar of chocolate~ but it melt so fast!! coz weather very hot~ haiz~ xiong also give me one pack of erm... fries?? some sot of snack la~ haha~ not those in mac or western food shop~

xiong he also change his tyre~ haha~ one big one small now~ see liao feel so weird~ we go for a small ride la~ around the neighbourhood~ den he go back home take geo thing~ coz we go study ma~ aiyo!! he take very long le!!! i waited till wanna sleep~ haha~ but i never slp la~ well, we cycle to mac~ yiyi den come also~ wahahaha!!! i confiscated xiong deck.. coz hoh!! THEY WAN PLAY DECK!!! haha~ but den... xiong still get it~ by the help of stanley!! haiz~

yiyi hoh!! aiyo!! say arcade!! den i keep ask them go play~ sob sob~ but xiong dun wan~ sob sob~ i keep asking and asking!!! go arcade dun wan~ play deck wan~ aiyo!! where got like this!! haha~ well, xiong lost 2 round~ lol!!! den i asked him pei wo go but some antacide.. coz my gastric started to ache!! aiyo!! very pain le!! me ar~ every 1/2 year will have a big pain~ haiz~ but ok la~ never die~ (*^-^*) haha~ at the pharmacy.. wahaha~ so funny!!! we keep walking here and there inside the pharmacy~ den.. i found some hair dye~ hmm~ i wondering... dark reddish brown or reddish bronze?? haha~ which one suit me best le?? dun kw le~ wahaha~ tat xiong hoh!! LOL!!! WAHAH!! cannot say~ bo bian~ haha~

after that... yiyi went home.. den me and xiong cycle go 900++ there eat~ aiyo~ a lot le!! wahaha~ xiong on hse~ so gd~ so touch~ the soup!! oh man!! $6~ a lot seh~ but den.. hehe~ i cfm cannot finish coz my gastric not gd at the moment~ den hoh~ i push more den 1/2 to him.. wahaha~ he said that he fat come find me!! aiyo~ die liao!! coz just now... i think can fat la~ kw wat?? i saw one kitten!! oh~ so cute!!! especially when the kitten playing with the leaved!! VERY CUTE!!! got take picture la~ but was in xiong hp~ haiz~ but!! the cat really so cute!!! till~ oh man~ haha~

after that~ we cycle home~ aiyo~ i dun believe tat xiong send me home seh!!! wahaha~ so touch~ aiyo~ dun believe it!!! HAO GAN DONG WOR!!!

Relationship Is Just Like A Crystal.. You Don't Know How Much You Love It Untill You Break It..

haiz~ later at abt 4.45pm my dad going to fly lo.... haiz~ wow seh~ my dad give me money again!!! haiz~ i just wanna take $10... he give me $30... omg... my dad hoh.... always force me take money... ARGGG!!! he hoh!!! very very very naughty!!! always force me take money... when i dun wan take... he put in my wallet... oh man!!!! how on earth got this kind of father?? ppl go out.. wan take money.. their parent dun give... me le?? wan go out... already got enough money liao... they force me take... if not cannot go out.. aiyo!!!!!!!!!!! wo hao xin fu.... haha~ papa... wish u yi lu shun feng..

well~ later go repair bicycle lo!!! xiong pei wo go.. hehe... after that go study... haiz~ wednesday got Geo O level~ let see... please!! i have to pass with good result!!! PLEASE!!!!

Success - Success Always Occure In Private, And Failure In Full View...

MIND UR OWN BUSINESS WILL U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KNN!!! CBCBCBCBCB!!! FUKER!!!!!!!!!!! IF U THINK U ARE SO GREAT... GO BE GOD LA!! CB!!! u always say me say me... den ppl say u le... stupid black face... i also a human ok... i also got feeling de ok... WHO U THINK U R!!!!!! MY MOTHER??? PLEASE LO!!! U HAVE NO RITE TO SAY ME!!! KNN!!! CB!!!! BASTARD!!!!

aim good grade got wrong... paper so easy... of coz aim high la... just mind ur own business and fuk off.. if u think u so clever.... go have a good grade la... still at here talk so much... who u think u r?? pro?? please lo.. u also not pro lo...

KNN!!! got confident let ppl say till action... WTF!!! got confident got wrong ar?? aim gd grade got wrong ar?? need to let ppl say till so bad ma?? please lo~ think b4 u act lo.. u think everybody can endure meh?? i also got my temper.. also got its limits... once it reach the limit... and its gone..

and stop using 2years ago de thing and say me... me is different now.. 2years ago de me already gone.. stop acting tat u are so great.... NOW DE ME, IS NOT THE WEAK ME AGAIN!!!!! after so much things happen, i learn my lessons... AND I WUN FAIL DOING MY PART!!! I NOT LIKE U!!! MAD OVER SMALL MATTERS!!! STOP MAKING UNREASONABLE DECISION!!! DUN FORCE ME!!! I HATE BEING FORCE!!!

I REALLY WANNA KILL MYSELF!!!! DIE DEN SUA!!!! AT HOME!! LET STUPID BROTHERS DISTURB!!!!!! OUTSIDE LET PPL DISTURB!!! PLEASE LA!! MY LIFE NOT TAT EASY ALSO!!! STOP IRRITATING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EXAM ALREADY MAKE ME MAD... NOW.... EVEN MY FAMILY MEMBERS MAKE ME MAD... I REALLY WANNA GONE BONKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DUN WAN STAY HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAN I LEAVE HOME?????????? I DUN WANNA SEE TAT STUPID BROTHERS OF MINE.... I ALREADY STAY OUTSIDE TILL MID... SO THAT I WUN SEE MY BROTHERS... BUT DEN??? WTF!!!!!!!! WHY DUN THEY JUST FUK OFF.. SO IRRITATING.... HOW WISH I CAN MOVE OUT... HAVE MY OWN HSE... WITH MY OWN LIFE... WITHOUT ANYONE FORCING ME... MY OWN WORLD...

i dun kw when....... when i den can move out... i hate being in this way... stop taking me as a toy.. wan.. keep playing like hell.. dun wan... see also dun see.. i not a toy!!! I NOT A TOY!!!!!!! I NOT A MAID!! call den come... dun wan den go... i am MYSELF!!! FROM TODAY ONWARDS... I GONNA CHANGE!!! CHAGNE INTO A DIFFERENT PERSON!!! i dun kw i have to change how many time den ppl will treasure me.. in this world... who will treasure me?? my parents... i kw they will.. how abt me fren?? they take me as a small character in their life?? or take me for granted??? or just take ma as a passer-by??? I DUN KW!!!! I ONLY KW TAT THIS LIFE!!! I CANNOT TAKE IT!!! I DUN KW HOW LONG I STILL CAN TAKE IT!!!!!!!!! I DUN KW WAT I WILL DO.. OR HAPPEN TO ME WHEN I REALLY CANNOT TAKE IT... will my fren by my side... or just leave me at there and let me die?? i really cannot control anymore longer... since i cannot get wat i wan at home... or my fren.... maybe from god??? who knows... i really confuse... i really very confuse... please!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAT TO DO!!!!!!!!!

Character - Character Cannot Be Developed In Ease And Quiet.. Only Through Experience Of Trial And Suffering Can The Soul Be Strengthened, Ambition, And Success Achieved..

wee~ today i have a good rest~ haha~ go out with xiong and yiyi today~ we went to 110 coffee shop eat eat~ xiong den gave us sweet~ very nice le the sweet~ they ate chicken rice, i ate porriage~ yiyi eat finish his chicken rice my food still having come seh~ haiz~ we went to SBW mrt station.. coz yiyi wanna repair his Ez-link card~ coz need time to repair ma~ so we went to arcade play~ wow~ we play for very very long le!! haha~ let me see~ yiyi lost to me!!! WAHAHAHA!!!! hmm... but den.. his basketball very good!!!!!! keep in seh~ he record today is 136.. xiong le.. 50++ me le.. haiz~ 40++.. oh mummy!!! why i so lousy!!! haiz~ they wanna change one bear bear give me.. but den.. not enough~ haha~ after o lvl we den go play again.. den sure win..

raining today seh~ when on the way going to CPCC Mac~ dirty our leg le!! haha~ dun worry~ i wash clean liao~ hmm~ at mac... saw aunty siti~ haha~ i like aunty siti.. coz she very gd.. very cute also~ always joke around~ haha~ we got study math.. but macham never study~ but still got do some revision la~ but den... see xiong... after hearing what stanley say... i kw he feel very confuse.. he dun kw wat to do... but den... i hope he will concentrate in o level 1st~ those thing, after o level den think~ coz now cannot get disturb!!! but he.... dun kw why le... i keep feeling that he got a lot of xin shi... but he keep sayig no.... i wanna find out what he thinking~ he... like very stress... he dun look like himself... what can i do to let him be himself?? he really.... a lot of thinking... i know de xiong... kw how to handle things.... all by himself... but now??? i feel that he need someone to help him.. somebody to lend him a pair of hand.. xiong ar.... dun like tat do to urself... dun scare me...

DANIEL TAY BIG BIRD DISTURB ME!!! bird... u say de... i write liao...

Hope - Most Of The Important Things In The World Have Been Accomplished By People Who Have Kept On Trying When There Seemed To Be No Hope At All...

well, i told yiyi and xiong that this post!!!! wahahaha~ guess what~ when on the way home after all the exam today hoh, wahaha!! at the bus stop there... a white cat jump here and there den run.. at first the cat run very fast at my side.. i shout ma~ coz too sudden~ den u kw wat!!! whahaha~ yiyi and xiong shout more loud den me seh!! wahaha!! xiong scare of cat wor!!!!! a hero scare of cat(said by yiyi)~ really very very funny le!!! when i shout, i tot they kw~ who know tat they didn't heard i shout~ see, now i can laugh for a few days~

well.. back to exam~ today... FINALLY!!! i can relac a bit le~ today very very hard to survive... coz today got 3 paper!!! really very tiring!!! had my English Language Paper 1 and 2~ Plus Physics~ haiz~ my physics done not very good le~ bo bian~ last minute.. less den 2 hrs b4 exam den start study~ who will pass like this?? well, but den i am quite happy that the english paper is not tat difficult~ first time i think i done very well~ haha~ but den... very very angry!!!! coz i tio scolding by tat examiner!!! haiz~ english paper 2~ so many paper~ my table so messy~ den they said check paper... i open lo~ den the examiner accuse i reading the passage!!!!! wa lau~ and the time can start liao lo~ den still scold me~ very loud le~ my fren all laugh at me~ really very very angry lo~ i kind of show attitude le~ she hoh!! very.... ARGGG!!! she in the wrong... still act till like tat!! really very what lo!!!

very sad le~ really wanted to scold her back~ but i scare i cannot sit for the paper~ see her.... i keep scolding her inside my heart~ and hoh!! very suay lo~ idiot!! saw tat "ABC" inside toilet~ guess wat i did.. i wash my hand.. den saw her ma.. i shake off the water and said "SUAY AR".. quite loud le~

yiyi so good!!!!!!!!!!!!! he brought me chocolate ytd~ haha~ very very happy!~ yiyi so good to me.. can i say sudden?? haha~ yiyi just like my brother~ so gd~ hehehe~

wow~ guess wat~ my mama cook today seh!!!!! 500 years one time~ but den i was chase out of the kitchen!!! haiz~ but den... i still go in help la!! bo bian~ a gal.. have to kw how to cook.. but me... haiz... no hope la~

haiz~! who will willing to cook for me?? haiz~ i dun kw how liao le!! i am very very eager to find my Mr Right.. how?? why i like that feel?? who can tell me?? i keep searching... dun kw who is the one... haiz~! wait for it to find me bah~ but... when?? haiz~

hamster!!!!!!!!!! i wan!!!! tat xiong said that he wanna buy one after o lvl.. i dun kw i can have one ma~ haiz~ dun kw la~ after o lvl den say~ yawn!! very tired!!! lucky tml no exam!! hehe~ good nite bloggee..

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wow wow~ today start o level others paper le~ today got math paper 1 and social studies~ oh my god~ today see the math paper~ i really wanna laugh till dead seh~ kw why?? coz 1st question~ Q: 10 - 7.56 <<< BELIEVE IT OR NOT!!! pri school question le!! who get it wrong, sure no face!!! this year de o level math~ MORE EASY den last year de~ haha~ i aim for a 75/80 for paper one~ coz i got one question 1mark de dun kw how to do~ coz question very blur~ haha~ den social studies~ haha~ 1st time i not scare~ hmm~ question come out Conflict in Sri Lanka, International Conflict and Rise and Fall of Venice~ haha~ i do Sri Lanka~ hahaha~ N Level tat time~ i die all becoz of Sri Lanka~ now O Level~ i met Sri Lanka again~ this time~ is Sri Lanka dead not me~ haha~ now i must put more effort in Geography~ to get a very good result~

Tml is chemistry~ haiz~ but not energy le~ my mama brought me chicken essence~ oh man~ drink liao wan to vomit~ at mac~ xiong also force me to drink~ arbo cannot study~ haiz~ i drink one mouth, cannot make it liao~! den my stomach....... i feel so terrible~ i hate the taste!! adrian still say very nice to drink!!! EEEKKK!!! totally very very very bad to drink~ i rather drink other thing~ no more chicken essence~ haiz~ i hold tat botter~ in my kitchen~ stand there for more den 30min~ drink one more mouth~ kaoz!! really cannot take it~

i feel so sleepy~ but must study~ arbo... haiz~ tian ar!!!! still got wat way to keep me awake~ other den chicken essence~ anymore ways??? really need le!! keep having exam nightmare this few day~ tat time drink social studies nightmare~ today english exam nightmare~ AR!!!!! very scare!!! how?????

hmm~ i nearly 5am reach home~ outside study with yiyi(aunt/ahyi) and zhixiong~ tat zhixiong~ haiz~ cannot tahan~ go home first!! left me and yiyi at CPCC mac~ well, i think we have more fun den study le~ die die~ den when i sleep, abt 5.33++, i dream tat hoh~ i dun kw anything for my exam as i in the exam hall!!! I VERY SCARE LE!!! how!!!

wahaha~ as i said~ this post~ zhixiong and yiyi name sure appear a lot of time!! dun worry!! sure gd thing de~ haha~ let see~ let say yiyi first~ guess what~ he hoh!!! spill his coke all over the place~ lucky never tio my note!! arbo i sure kill yiyi!! but tio the paper zhixiong gave him~ haha~ we also damn lame!! play sissor paper stone there~ childish rite?? but i lose him!! ARGG!!! but tat me and yiyi haha~ yiyi is such a gd gd gd aunt~ can cheer me up very easily~ haha~ i also bully him a lot le~ finally~ he die under my hand!! lol!! not tat die ok?? is lose!! haha!! he also go CPCC de toilet me with and i more gal~ haha~ the road!! tat time walk with zhixiong and yiyi~ i scare like hell~ and the exit light so scary~ den yiyi still said~ look up the 2nd floor or 3rd floor u can see a guy standing there!! omg!! scare me like hell!! but~ 1st time go guys toilet le!! dun worry~ yiyi never go in~ only me and the gal~ well~ heng never saw ghost inside~ but den~ i think guy toilet bigger den the gal toilet le!! NOT FAIR!!! haha~

now~ let say zhixiong~ OH~ he so good~ haha~ he really buy one bar of chocolate to me~ i anyhow write in the "wholivesnearyou" there say he owe me chocolate!! haha~ he really buy!! xiong ar~ can i say AI SHI NI LE!!! or~ HAI SHI WO LE!!! ai shi ni becoz i was so touch~ haha~ hai shi wo coz my throat pain pain~ but i still eat~ hehe~ Huo Chong Kou Lu(accident come from mouth). this is so true~ let see~ wat got happen~ he forgot to bring his wallet today~ haha~ maybe to rush le~ never bring~ abt 8.30++ yiyi and xiong went home~ i stay mac alone~ at there chat chat with mac crew~ den hoh~ got a bunch of bad guy!! oh man~ they disturb summer(a FM there), den still talk so loud~ i very very very scare seh!!! den i go call for help!! hehe~ i sms zhixiong~ ask him faster come down~ coz i kw yiyi still watch soccer~ well, was so please to see him~ coz really scare scare~ when he reach hoh, like one big stone disappear in thin air~ hehe~ feel so secure with him and yiyi around~ coz at least got somebody is protecting me~ was so touch by them~ especially zhixiong~ hehe~

xiong: see i so gd~ write u till tat gd~ let me think wat can i still write~

zhixiong is such a GD MAN~ WONDERFUL MAN~ CLEVER BOY~ HERRO!!! SUPERMAN~ WONDERWOMAN!! lol!! wrong wrong wrong!!

god: sorry!! i dun mean to lie!!!

hehe~ just kidding la!!! dun angry~ but den~ really thx a lot le~ yiyi u too~ thx for being with me when i need u all~ haha~ haiz~ but den~ all these~ just now at 5++ i can write~ but den website down~ see la!! now waste so much time~ haven bath!! must be quick~ arbo zhixiong and yiyi sure wait for me very very long~ cya bloggiee~ wish me good luck~

aiyo~ today wasted whole day seh~ haiz~ today~ so many thing happen~ yang ching called me~ crying seh~ haiz~ i dun bear to see her like tat~ bo bian~ i asked her wat happen~ wow~ i dun believe it!!! tian ar!!! her POSB card gone~ tio stolen~ guess what~ the person that stole it~ is another Primary school fren~ dun believe she become till like this~

Haiz~ go police station~ stay there for dun kw how long~ think abt 2hrs?? haiz~ so long~ my father called my when i inside the police station~ well, i go outside talk la~ haha~ i was fighting with my dad seh!!! coz he told me not to go police station and make everything so big~ but den~ i fight back~ haha~ i know yang ching since i 3-4 years old~ i cannot let her tio bully lo~ haha~ after chatting with my father~ i went back into the station~ wha seh~ she said i talk very loud~ omg~ my face wanna red liao~ she heard everything~ haha~ now den i kw~ police station de door~ not gd!!! haha!!

haiz~ today must study le!!! arbo i die!! really wasted a lot of time today~ oh well~ my stupid brother!! ate my cup noodle!!! hai~ now midnite i got nth to eat liao!! i must ask him go buy!!!! hahaha!!! k la~ bloggee~ i go relac a bit liao~ arbo later cannot tahan~ haha~ cya~

bloggee~ i am so touched!! one of my didi, si qiang hoh~ wanan buy lunch for me~ omg!!!! coz he kw i haven even eat my breakfast... omg!!! i so touched!!!! so happy to have a didi like him~ omg~ i almost cry out le!! coz very touch!!! i never know i have such a wonderful didi~

4 more day to o lvl exam le~ other papers~ now i keep doing my social studies~ haha~ i hope i can pass my o lvl!! PLEASE!!!! GOD I PLEASE YOU!!!! i must pass~ i cannot lose my other cousin~ they all done so well~ i cannot go ITE~ i cannot retain~ I MUST PASS!!!! i kw i can!! i dun kw if u exist~ but i kw u r watching over me~ keeping my safe~ i gone so far~ tat period~ is really a very.... very... very... hard time for me~ i gone thru it!! i hope u can let me... pass my o lvl with flying rainbow~ i dun ask much~ i just wish i can pass~ i know i can do it~ please~ help me!!

no matter wat!! i do i can do it!! YES I CAN!!! no ppl can help~ unless u help urself~

Didi SQ: i am so happy to have u as my brother.. hope... we remain as sister-brother 4ever~ i love you SQ~ i love u as my didi 4ever~

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