let me see~ today is the last paper of my prelim exam!!!!!!!! YEAH!!! LET PARTY!!! tml i going play pool~ hahaha~ but den.... tml midnight i going to study~ ahaha~ with my fren jason~ haiz~ have to teach him math ma~ den ask him help me other subject lo~ haha~ bloggee!! u kw ma!!! he damn pro lo~ all subject A1~ only math cannot let A1~ haha~ he fail math de~ too bad he kw me too late~ hahaha~ today ar~ 1hrs paper~ 40mcq question~ 20 physics and 20 chemistry~ haha~ i took 28min to finish all the question~ den i slowly take my time to shade~ haha~ after tat~ haiz~ the time still got a lot seh~ den i try to take a nap... but slp abt 2min, Mrs Chin use the test paper on her hand and hit me~ ask me to wake up and check my work~ but den... me very blur~ also lazy to check~ coz my eye is 1/2 close 1/2 open~ haha~ got 1 page hoh, the question got 1 baby de~ den i use my pencil and colour~ haha~ white baby become black baby~ hahahaha~ but den... i do spot some mistake la~ only physics~ coz i very lazy go check chemistry~ i hate chemistry so much~ hahaha~

guess wat~ before i come to sch, i heard a damn funny joke seh~ is fm my aunt... wen hao~ haha~ wen hao is a guy wor~ wanna kw why i call him aunt??? coz he and my ah ma jasmine is sister lai de~ den i call him aunt~ haha~ well~ back to the story~ he had a very very weird and funny dream seh~ u kw wat bloggee... he dream tat he wore a very very very very short de short~ like army those kind de~ den he walk walk walk and den lost~ he dun kw where he is~ but the place look somehow like northpoint~ but in his dream, he dun kw~ den he began to get very worry!!! he pick out his phone, wanna ask for help~ but den hoh!! u kw wat!!!!! he took out a nokia phone~ very big de~ den he on the phone~ but den the screen suddently black out~ den he wanna take a look wat happen ma.. so he wanna take out the battery~ HAHAHAHA!!! u kw wat he saw?? he saw the battery is Samsung de~ a BIG nokia hp with a very SMALL samsung battery~ hahaha!!! very weird rite!! still got more le!!! after tat hoh, he can switch on the phone~ but den, cannot make any phone call seh~ but.... instead of calling, he log into MSN~ tot of asking help in MSN~ hahaha~ when the msn load hoh, when the page where the contact should appear hoh, guess wat happen~ MSN become Maple Story~ hahahahahaha!!!! i hear liao keep laughing!! LOL!! den hoh, got 1 gal appear in his dream~ but den dun kw why le.. aunt keep having a running nose in his dream~ den he go toilet!! the gal follow seh~ den aunt ask the gal to wait outside the toilet~ haha~ coz diff gender ma!!! hahaha~ BUT DEN!!! KW WAT HAPPEN NEXT!!!! he go toilet hoh... after tat hoh..................... after tat hoh!!!! His clock rang... is time to wake up~ hahahahhaa~ lame rite!!! stupid dream also!!!

bloggee~ after exam hoh, i play computer at home~ haiz~ i wan to slp de~ but den tat jasper suddently say wan come my hse~ haiz~ den i cannot slp~ so sleepy seh~ coz 4pm meet jason they all study ma~ i teaching him math ma~ haha~ yawn!!! hmm~ jason hoh~ quite easy to teach~ coz he very easy get the hang of it~ we study at mac~ we study till abt.. or should say play till abt 11++pm~ haha~ today also got basketball match see~ haiz~ DAMN BORING SEH!!! all uncle playing~ old liao le... aiming also lousy~ plus free ball also can air ball!! haiz~ stupid game!!! but den, after mac, jason, carrot and me go reservoir~ den i call guo li tag along~ haha~ he fat le!!! hair also damn long~ haiz~ is time for him to cut his hair!!! when reach reservoir, haiz~ my butt very pain!!! coz sit on rock!!! they keep tlaking abt ghost... and xiao qiang(cockroach)~ haiz~ keep scaring me~ we stay till abt 12.20am den we go home~ carrot and i go home together~ but at the end i also alone go home la~ today reservoir not nice de~ haiz~ but one thing very nice is tat hoh, i didn't get bite by mosquitoe~ hahaha!! i wear skirt le~ plus non-sleeve shirt~ hahaha!!! lucky le!! scare later tio dungue fever!! haha~ i nearly 1am den reach home seh~ haiz~ so sleepy now~ think i have to slp liao le bloggee~ haha~ see u tml bah~ but den.. tml i going study overnight~ haha~ anyway... dun miss me wor~ haha~

PS: The Greatest Value Of Emotional Discipline Is In Its Potentials To Increase Your Power To Choose, And Most Notably, To Choose How You Feel~

To NiNi: haha~ do chat at the chatbox on the right side~ chat anything u wan there~ hehe~ and now hoh~ i decided not to think of anything except study~ hahaha~

yeah~ finally~ i can have a nice break liao~ just finish my prelimary exam~ hahahahahaha~ pass few day so hard seh~ study study and study~ nothig but study~ now finally can relaxz a bit~ ubt not for long~ o lvl is round the corner~ bloggee~ time for me to rest now~ later at night den come find u bah~ cya~

wow~ very very lucky tat i go CPCC mac study today~ got 2 basketball match seh~ haha~ very very interesting le!!!! the 1st match hoh~ 1 is my senior team called the CPCC bla bla bla de~ another team is wat jurong de~ guess wat~ the score is 64-28~ omg!! diff of 36 le!!! keep keep kept a diff of 20~ den my senior they all won!!! haha~ the 2nd match is Min Yi vs kill...ney(dun kw how to spell)~ the score is76-24~ wha seh~ more big diff~ 52 le!!!! the kill...ney score 9 point until the 2nd part 4min 32sec~ den a layup let them gain 2 more point~ haha~ but in the end still lost~ the score diff too big liao~ very hard to chase back~ haha~ i also saw them rolling on the floor bcoz they wanna snatch the ball~ aiyo~ injury also got~ fly here and there~ haiz~

bloggee~ today hoh... i happy also got.. sad also got.. angry also got.. haiz~ mixed feeling so much~ i sad and angry all becoz of tat STUPID IDIOT GUO LI!! haiz~ wait for him to reply me hoh.. i really can agnry till death~ haiz~ he gonna make me gone insane~ he make me so angry and sad till.... haiz~ lucky i never cry out~ sian le~ but den still ok la~ only wait till siao nia~ haiz~ but den i do ask him to cheer me up.. guess wat he said... "can say i miss u"~ omg~ wahahaha~ i laugh out loud seh~ oh well~ it do cheer me up~ haiz~ but den... just now i waited for his msg for 2hour 30min~ den he reply!! coz he go find thing to eat!!!! aiyo!!! i never eat also never die!! he bo eat will die ar??? haiz~ but den, wat really make me sweet deep in my heart is tat he say he wanna walk me home when i finish studying~ oh~ isn't it sweet??? but den... i reject also~ haiz~ just now hoh... i wanna give him chance de~ but den... he so late den call me back~ by the time he call me back i reach home liao~ haiz~ he sound so tired seh~ haiz~

i wanna ask him 1 question~ but den... he didn't reply me!! haiz~ think i gonna wait till next day liao~ bloggee~ u kw wat i wanna ask?? i wanna ask him.. if i 12am den go home, will he walk me home as well????? haiz~ Tml chinese prelim exam liao le~ dun kw can pass ma~ hack care liao~ no mood to study also~ coz saw tat stupid bitch!!! haiz~

The more you try to avoid suffering, the more you suffer... Because smaller and more insignificant things begin to torture you in proportion to your fear of being hurt~

bloggee~ bloggee~ bloggee~ suddenly feel so sad~ coz i dun kw wat my heart really telling me~ when can my reality feeling come back~ but i do sense it coming to find me~ but just can't find the correct door~

just now my family so noisy~ wake me up seh~ haiz!! BLOGGEE!!! i feel so vexed!!! i dun kw should i tell him or not!! haiz~ i do feel i started to like him le!! but den... i not sure izzit he the 1~ haiz~

Still got 2 more prelimary examination paper left~ haiz~ tian ar~ wo de xin hao ran~ wo bu zhi dao yao zhe men zhou cai hao~ HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bloggee... i dun kw why suddenly feel like crying~ tat stupid idiot wan to smk~ i hate ppl smk~ but den.. wat i said got use meh~ wat can i do?? i tot he never smk de~ but den... he got... he told me he 2day never smk liao~ he bth liao~ haiz~ if he wan smk, dun tell me.. y i feel so sad?? y i feel like my heart is crying~ ask me y i am hurt~ haiz~ why hurt always come and find me de?? y happiness wun come find me??? happiness is all bullshit~ i never get any happiness~ my heart is hurt today~ hurt now~ ruby.... must tell urself cannot cry out~ if not u not strong anymore~ u must be strong... correct bloggee??? but no matter how strong i am at the outside, i am very weak in the inside~ i started to feel miserable~ wat to do??? fine den~ since tat stupid idiot wan to smk, go ahead~ i wun stop~ the most i dun talk to him~ but den.. i can't do it~ maybe let him learn his lesson?? haiz~ this day wun come de~ i not any1 to him anyway~

P.S. : Let Time Tell Me Everything~

hi bloggee~ haiz~ i dun kw why le~ suddenly feel so sad~ sob sob~ hmmm~ u kw wat?? i kind of...... haiz~ dun kw is true or not le~ dun kw should i a not le~ dun kw wat the thinking also~ coz when i heard sad song, i will think of the negative way.. but den~ i kw i shouldn't de~ but den... i cannot control wat my heart is telling me~ haiz~ sometime i do feel positive... sometime negative~ but one good thing is tat i starting to think positive liao~ but den... negative thinking wun go away~ haiz~ why am i haiz-ing so much??? adrian also cannot tahan me le~ coz i always haiz..... he see till sian liao~ hahahaha~ oh well... his temper very good de la.. no matter how i haiz... he wun angry~ hmm.. let me think... adrian ar~ when i sad or wat i do find him~ let me recall...... i kw adrian fm gunbound~ haha~ long time never play liao le~

haiz~ 1st time afternoon come find u le bloggee~ everytime night time den talk to u~ haha~ today physics exam very hard le!!! i A1 student think also cannot get good result~ haiz~ SEE!!! HAIZ again!!! i just can't stop haiz-ing seh~ haha~ i found out tat hoh.. i like to haiz and haha infront of u~ maybe can't think of anything to write bah~ haha~ oh well~ later dun kw got go CPCC mac study ma le~ must see yao qi lo~ she say she wan have a nap 1st~ after nap den see wan study a not~ haha~ haiz~ now i feel hungry seh~ ytd buy de cup noodle haven eat~ hehe~ after this maybe i go cook and eat~ haiz~ morning didn't really eat much~ eat 1 You Tiao and 1 cup of Soya Bean Drink... den cannot take it liao~ and still feel like vomiting seh~ dun kw why le~ everytime hoh.. after i eat hoh.. i cannot sit down.. coz i continue sit down, i will feel sick and feel like vomiting~ haiz~

I buy my hp ear piece liao le!!! cost me $13~ haiz~ now i bo money liao le!!! how!!! hmm~ nvm~ me never eat so much this few day... so can save up~ hahaha~ den got money liao!! but den hoh.. my gastric problem come back again~ haiz~ i hate most is gastric pain~ coz it make me pain till eat also cannot eat... only can drink~ but drink too much water not good for health le~

haiz~ feel so tired~ but dun feel like sleeping~ i wan watch movie!!!!! i wan watch "Shen Hua" and "Corpse Bride"!!!!!!!!! but den~ now exam period cannot watch~ haiz~ also dun have ppl wan watch with me~ sob sob~ bo bian~ if really no ppl pei wo watch, i watch alone lo~ i miss so much movie liao~ cnanot miss this 2~ haha~ heard from fren tat "Shen Hua" very nice le~ very funny~ but den i dun kw la~ haha~

back to topic~ bloggee.. i feel tat i like some1 le!! how ar!! but den~ i dun kw leh!! maybe.... maybe.... MAYBE only.... maybe i will accept??? haha~ after waiting for 17year... maybe i will accept!! but den... i dun kw can ma~ coz i got a stone in my heart~ coz i scare being cheated~ haiz~ see bah~ maybe he is not the one le?? sometime i got ask myself... when den i will have a guy by my side when i need him?? i so WISH i can have tat Mr Right of mine~ Really hope can find it~ haiz~ k la~ i go cook my noodle liao~ but den... after telling u all these, i dun feel hungry liao le!!! aiyo!! so weird~ haha~ anyway, i still cook la~ if cannot finish push all to my brother to eat~ they wat also eat de~ hahahaha~ k den~ at nite den come find u bah~ if i got the energy~ tata~

Life fill with sadness and happiness.. If not for this, there wun be a world tat is so heartless..

today wake up at 12+pm~ haha~ wow~ ytd chat on phone for damn long seh~ abt 6hrs 1min 45sec~ hahaha~ haiz~ wake up so blur again~ den play computer till 1++2pm~ den go study lo~ i meet xue juan @ CPCC mac~ but den, she late la.. coz never tell the place properly~ she tot i 3pm go~ but i didn't say~ den we eat out food~ haha~ i had MacWing today~ haha~

den do my physics note liao~ well~ we switch place for 3 time seh~ haiz~ so ma fan~ den saw xue juan godbro.. 4get his name liao~ a bballer la~ haha~ after tat, at abt nite time bah, we got talk about ghost story~ haha~ den i go buy ice milo drink~ den stanly ask me go inside mac... well, starting i also dun kw why.. after tat den i found out tat he buy new laptop~ haha~ den i use to check friendster~ den i gone out~ well, continue my note for tml physics exam again~

haiz~ sob sob~ Mr ASEAN bully me... i never pei him go eat.. den he angry... sob sob.. i just now do note till 10++pm~ if pei him go eat~ i sure do till dun kw wat time~ haiz~ but he dun ti liang wo~ sob sob~ haiz~ so hungry seh~ hmm~ i go eat liao wor~ haha~ good nite bloggee~ yawn

If only we'd stop trying to be happy, we could have a pretty good time..

haiz~ ytd tat stupid guo li let me wait till very very very long~ let me wait till 2++am~ haiz~ talk to him, den never reply me!!!! hahahaha!!! den found out tat he 6++am den reach home... haiz~ lucky i never really wait till 6++am, if not i sure become panda number 1 on earth!!! DOU SHI GUO LI DE CHUO!!! hahahahha~

yang ching called me today.... she asked me to go swimming!!!! yeah~ she never ps me!!! i tot she got "ABC" dun wan me liao!!! hahaha~ we go swimming together!! only we 2~ today, yishun swimming complex(ysp) so many people!!! haiz~ so many people till i cannot swim!! only at there bao shui!! haiz~ but den, also have fun la~ got talk to Mr Yao, My Andrew, Mr leong and some coach tat i dun kw there name1!! haiz~ Mr Andrew and Mr Yao tease me seh!!! But Mr Leong the best~ he wish me good luck for exam~ hahaha~ but den~ theyy all keep forget i sec wat le~ haiz! they still tot i sec 4~ haha~ but den, i also pay back their own coin!! they tease me, i also tease them back~ haha!! i win in the end!!

i also got have fun with yang ching~ well, we talk about ourself de thing~ haha~ den, after tat we went to northpoint have our dinner!!! i treat her eat!!! den after tat we went walk walk~ we also talk about dying our hair!! after o lvl~ haha~ we had a interesting talk~ we went to chong pang after tat~ we went to see the price of dying the hair~ den we went to 7-11 and buy drinks~ haha~ so fun~ den i send her back to bus stop~ den i walk home~ well, guo li called me and chat with me~ haha~ idiot him~ hahahahahaha~ till now he still chatting with me~ he bully me!!!! lol~ just kidding~ he bully his brother seh~ haha~ now i den remember he same age with me!! hahaha~ well~ tml is the start of a brand new day, so, enjoy bah~ tml have to study again~ bloggee ar!!! exam le!!!! haiz~

Happiness is as a butterfly which, when pursued, is always beyond our grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you..

haiz~ today i have geography prelimary examination~ gone case for sure~ i plan to wake up at 3am in the morning.. but my hp alarm didn't wake me up.. i didn't hear it rang~ haiz~ today last minute look thru.. haiz~ think if heng can pass..

wahaha~ qiu ping come my hse today~ she return me my cd~ den we play computer.. haha~ she kw how to cycle liao seh~ i dun believe it~ hahaha~ *qiu ping!!!! hope tml wun see ur name in newspaper* hehe~ seh~ so chek ar le me~ haha~ no la~ just kidding~ haha~

reach home fm exam... after qiu ping gone back home, time for me to relax~ play computer a while, den on radio LOUD LOUD~ den i went to sleep~ haha~ i can really sleep when radio on very loud le~ i can sleep seh~ i sleep till 7++pm~ haha~ den play with my parent a while~ haha~ we were playing like 3 fool sia~

Yeah~ my dad bought my favourite food~ haha~ i enjoy eating very much~ haiz~ bloggee~ i never sleep properly this few day seh~ plus not enough sleep~ today is my resting day~ haha~ tml den have to study physics liao~ coz i heard tat Miss NG(my physics teacher) set the paper very hard~ coz chemistry very easy~ haiz~ KAMBATEH YO!!!

Happiness is a state of mind, not a set of circumstances.. You can never find happiness by "searching" because the moment you do, u imply it is found outside urself. Happiness isn't outside urself. It is a feeling - the natural feeling of your innate healthypsychological functioning.. When you understand that happiness is nothing more than a feeling, you can help it grow and maintain itself when you do feel it.. Happiness requires no effort at all.. In fact, it's more of a letting go of unhappiness than it is a striving for happiness..

now is exam period~ prelim le~ haiz~ so stressful~ :( i think my social studies, chemistry and geography sure gone case~ haiz~ today just take chemistry prelim exam~ haiz~ paper so easy... but i never study~ sob sob~ too bad~ social studies think also..... haiz...... no hope liao~ tml is geography... but just now study 1/2 way slp~ dun kw how liao~

guess wat, i found new evidence against yuru liao~ ZL call my in msn~ den i ask him... he told me that yuru got tell him she like him~ but detail he never tell me becoz he busy~ haiz~ see~ how bad she is~

today jasper and yao qi come my hse 1st.. after tat we go yong ming yong quan hse study.. at abt 2++ 3pm, "ABC" called jasper hp sia... she ask where is jasper... den he said tat he with yao qi at his stall there(khatib mac). coz he cannot say with me ma~ den hoh.. WAHAHAHA!!! new story again~ she gain more experience for acting seh~ she dun kw is real cry or fake cry~ but i dare to say tat she only wanna act infront of her boyfriend~ i tou tou listen wat she said ma.. can hear tat she is faking~ can 100% confirm~ den she said all those thing la~ abt yao qi de~ haiz~ say wat... "i where got say bad thing infront of her..." since she never talk in front of her... she sure talk behind her wat... hahahaha~ say all those rubbish thing de~ haiz~ now i become yao qi de bao biao liao~ tml meet her go school together seh~ let see how..

sometime i wondering... should i 4give her??? but she hurt me tat much that nothing can change my mind... but... in school... see her like tat hoh... sometime feel sorry for her... but den... tat her retribution... she now dun have fren liao... coz she chase all her fren away... since she wan to chase everybody away... no point felt sorry for her..

she like to talk bad thing behind me rite... but den, in front of me, she dun dare to see me.. she dun dare to look into my eye.. coz wat she done, cannot be erase so easily... she kw wat she done.. tat y she dun dare to face me.. now... i ask ZL to tell me the story.. after i kw everything, i got full evidence to go against her.. den let see, who will talk louder... now, so many ppl stand beside me. becoz she chase off all her fren~ den they all find me.. haiz~ have to help them... so stress~

Tian Ar!! Wo De Ming Hao Ku!!!

haiz~ bloggee... so many thing happen!!! i get betray by a fren... fren is a base on trust rite?? haiz~ tat fren of mine betray me.. she hurt me so much.. she is no 1 den "ABC"(named her as "ABC" bah).. haiz.. know her since primary school le.. yet she make use of me.. take advantage of me.. backstab me.. talk bad abt me.. and when abt $$ sure find me~ bloggee.. this kind of fren worth it a not?? she hurt me a lot le~ i cry so much for her.. yet wat i get is just hurt and nth else.. haiz~ is a long story le~ thing getting worst till haiz... let me tell u the story..

i wun start the story by... once upon a time..... haha.. ok be serious.. hmm.. during chinese new year, every classes in my school have to decorate the class ma.. den we discuss lo.. and u kw wat, "ABC" they all ask me to pay for everything den use class fund return me... i said ok lo.. since i will get back my money.. den i buy everything for decoration.. it cost me $10.. well... "ABC" should return me the money back rite.. but she said tat her cousin phone spoilt, and her cousin cannot tell her parent.. so she help her cousin lend money from me.. well.. i dun kw her cousin at all.. but i trust "ABC" la.. so i lend her money.. the $10 tat she have to return me, she lend her cousin.. i dun kw wheather she really lend it to her cousin or wat... after a few week, i asked her "is ur cousin returning back my money??" she replied "ya..ya..ya.. i meeting her soon". oh well~ since she said soon, i wait lo.. after a few more week i asked her again "hey.. u meet ur cousin liao ma??" she said "ya.. i meeting her soon.." well~ the same answer.. she keep repeating this answer for abt 1/2year le~ till 1 day, i very dulan with her.. i asked her in a very annoyed tone "hey... when will ur cousin return me back the money.. so long liao le" well~ is ok for me to angry rite... $10 le... more den 1/2 year le~ aiyo!! is her resposibilities to take the the money rite?? but den... she like scolding me back seh.. said "how i kw ar~" kao!!!! how on earth got this kind of people in this world.. i really damn angry liao lo!!! well.. a few more day is Enterprise Day~ well, our school on National Day will have this event.. everyclass will sell thing/food and earn money... i also involve ma.. haiz.. after she use this attitude said me hoh, i totally have no mood liao.. actually we going buy food for enterprise day de.. i sms jie yi said tat i will be MIA(missing in action) for whole day.. i wun picked up any phone call or wat.. the next day, "ABC" called my hp.. but i refused to listen.. coz i still in bad mood.. well, the food so light.. no need so many ppl go buy rite.. wat make me really angry is that the next day, yuru called my hse.. i picked up the phone ma.. the 1st thing she said is tat "do u kw ytd i finding u?? u really very CB le.. i called u, u dun picked up.. do u kw tat we r going to buy food.. u really very CB lo" i replied "i already tell jie yi i will be MIA the whole day.. and buy food only wat.. why need me go.. small thing need me to go for wat.." den she said" u very CB lo" den she hung up the phone.. oh man.. i damn angry!!! tat day, i was on the way going to play basketball at 219 basketball court.. on the way going there, i called sok mui.. i told her wat happened.. she very angry seh.. i cry in the bus.. when i reach basketball court i still crying.. oh man.. so many year of frenship.. and no matter how angry she were, she wun scold me bad word de lo.. den she scold me till like tat.. do u think i can accept??? she never think of my feeling loh.. just scold wat she like.. she dun kw how hurt i am lo.. i so hurt till.... i dun kw cry how many time for her.. but i still forgive her.. but now i regret doing tat..

A mirror, when drop on the floor, it break into pieces.. no matter how u fixed it back, the crack remain there 4ever.. wat if the mirror drop the 2nd time?? there will be more crack.. can't even see your own reflection.. after hurting me so much, do u think i can still be as good as before with her? is impossible rite?? well, she hurt me.. tat is a fact!! and time cannot be reverse.. i also dun kw y i 4give her.. actually it is because of a deal.. well, i shouldn't have this deal.. but, wat is done cannot be undone.. see yuru cry until like tat, i 4give her la.. i dun really bear to see her like this..

And bloggee.. u kw wat.. she very gd at acting seh.. if got "Best Acting Award" she sure get de.. she can act until very gd le.. u kw wat.. She can act till hoh, push all the wrong(she wrong de) to others le.. wow.. no ppl can win her this.. she steal my fren away.. dun kw why le.. dun kw is becoz she jealous of me or wat.. she try and ivestigate me le!! she wan kw everything le.. haiz~ i like tat say maybe u wun understand.. let me tell u the story.. if u dun kw her well, and just by looking outside of her, u wun believe the story i telling is true..

this story, hurt me most.. it totally hit me to the bottom of the sea.. i like 1 guy.. he call ZL.. before i quarrel with "ABC", i intro ZL to her.. she kw i like him a lot.. i told her everything abt him.. told her abt the sms he send me... wat i send him... every single thing... ZL at tat time have feeling towards me.. den i very close to him.. i chat on phone with him.. he sing tong hua give me listen.. play my favourite song let me listen.. we just like sweet bird... Got a period i quarrel with Ron(a very pervert person), den i write wat happen from head to toe on 2 pieces of paper.. den ZL wanna kw the full story ma.. den he meet me after my school end.. he come my school wait for me seh~ 1st time got guy like this wait for me.. after my school end, i meet him.. i pass him the paper.. den i ask him wheather he wanna join me and my fren for lunch.. he said ok.. den we go KFC eat.. got yang ching, sok mui, ivy, "ABC", daniel, soo an, jasper and ZL la.. ZL sit infront of me.. "ABC" sit beside me.. sok mui sit infront of yuru.. becoz they keep teasing me and ZL ma.. den i get very angry.. i sms ZL and apologise to him for all those teasing.. but he say is ok.. and lucky his fren not there.. if not will be more worst.. well.. i seem so stupid sms-ing him when he is just infront of me.. after lunch, ZL, me, ivy and yuru go northpoint.. we go there walk walk.. after tat, we go foodcourt sit sit.. ZL and me go buy drinks.. he treat us le.. i so touch seh.. den at there, he read the 2 pieces of paper i gave him ealier on.. after tat we chat chat chat.. ivy went home 1st.. after tat i accompany ZL go mrt station.. "ABC" tag along also.. after tat "ABC" and i go CPCC mac.. at there.. i told her the whole story of me and ZL.. i like him more and more.. haiz.. got 1 time outting, i call yuru go also.. well ZL also there ma,, we go play pool.. we at Causeway Point play.. we have lot of fun..

On my birthday tat day, i invite ZL to come to my party.. we all go marina bay eat steamboat.. tat day got quite a number of ppl.. got qiu ping, yang ching, sok mui, yan ni, jin hui, daniel, soo an, ivy, jasper, eric, "ABC", jie yi, daniel(niu niu), suwanno, winson and ZL... we have lot of fun there.. i get sabotage till very jialat.. but i very happy.. enjoy a lot.. after steamboat, suwanno, sokmui, me and ZL go watch midnight movie.. we watch "The Maid"... after tat we go ton.. we ton at coffee shop.. slp at there seh.. coz too tired.. well..

another event.. that the main part liao!! tat i really very sad.. after my birthday, is jie yi birthday.. well, they all kw ZL liao ma.. but.. i cannot call ZL come the birthday party.. becoz is not my party... is jie yi de.. i cannot call him come without jie yi permission rite.. well...when i think is time to ask jie yi for permission to ask ZL come rite, i heard another thing.. i heard tat ZL coming... sok mui and ivy come and ask me.. "huiling.. u ask ZL come ar??" i said" no ar.. i haven ask.. i have to ask jie yi permission 1st wat.." they said" but... ZL coming le..." after tat i den found out tat is "ABC" go call de.. i also found out tat when "ABC" ask ZL to come for jie yi birthday party rite, jie yi totally dun kw abt it.. oh man... fren come and ask me.. how come is "ABC" go call him to come jie yi birthday party and not u call de le??? well.. i got nth to say.. On jie yi birthday tat day, i heard a very bad news.. i almost cry out.. i heard tat "ABC" called ZL phone at night and chat.. chat for a 1hour plus.. "ABC" tell everybody abt it... she tell him not to tell me.. but she talk to loud till i can heard from the place i sit.. i heard tat they chat so sweetly and happily.. they also sung tong hua.. and ZL also play my favourite song.. at this period of time, my heart really got a big blow.. i really feel very terrible.. i feel so hurt.. i feel like she is showing off.. and trying to make me jealous.. during MT lesson, we went to AVA watch video ma.. "ABC" sit behind me.. sok mui sit beside me.. well.. after hearding so much thing, i totally dun have the mood to talk to her anymore.. i sms ZL without letting "ABC" peek who i sms-ing.. well.. sok mui saw it.. i know la.. but she is the only 1 i trusted most and can say anyhting to her.. i sms ZL.. and i tell him how i feel.. but, after hearing wat he said, i feel much better.. i continue to sms him CAREFULLY!!! At the last 2 period, we at hall ma.. yuru den ask sok mui who i sms to when in AVA.. i really cannot take it when ppl investigate.. well.. sok mui didn't told her.. well.. sok mui kw me very well.. In hall, i was sms-ing another fren.. den "ABC" ask sok mui who i sms-ing.. well, sok mui say she dun kw.. den "ABC"any how guess la.. den she sms the 1 i was sms-ing.. oh man.. i get scolding like hell!!!! oh man!! y i am the 1 get the scolding... y not her.. i not in the wrong le!!! is not fair!!! after school, we all go northpoint de foodcourt celebrated jie yi birthday.. ZL also coming ma.. he got sms me tell me tat he reaching.. well.. when he reach rite, i saw him at the other end.. but "ABC" like movement very fast walk to ZL there and bring him here.. omg.. more big blow.. sok mui and ivy come ask me "why is "ABC" go bring him here and not u.." i really very sad to say anything.. den sok mui and ivy also told me tat "ABC" keep looking at ZL.. when, me jie yi and ZL got take 1 photo.. i sit left, jiy yi middle, ZL rite.. den sok mui tell me tat yuru keep looking at ZL.. isn't it too OBVIOUS tat she like him??? so many evidence can prove tat.. behind still got more strong de evidence.. after celebrating, we go causeway point... we at there walk walk.. jiy yi and ZL stay at the art corner and draw the art thing.. den me, sok mui, gail, "ABC" and 1 more person i 4got who go walk walk.. den "ABC" keep saying tat "u see.. they 2 on top le.. 2 person only".. and keep saying and saying.. can this proved she like him also?? still got more strong de.. 1 fren told me tat, "ABC" call ZL and tell him that she like him.. i heard this i really cry out.. my heart is crack more den the mirror.. And she still acting tat i am the 1 tat backstab.. oh please.. who hurt more?? who is the hurting parties?? no ppl know how i feel~ how hurt i am~ and how i gonna overcome it..

In class, "ABC" told jieyi another version of the story.. she say tat i accused her as the 3rd parties.. and say till tat i am a devil~ she GOOD in acting till she pull 1 classmate inside the toilet and said (wan to cry like tat) "why huiling dun wan to talk to me.. i tot we r good fren.. we always play basketball together at 219.. we always stuay together at mac..." i heard tat i really very hot!!!! how can she said tat!! she is the 1 hurting me... and now, she said till i am the 1 tat is wrong.. i the 3rd parties.. i the 1 tat cause all the trouble.. As from wat i heard, "ABC" told jie yi till jie yi think i am the backstaber.. i the 1 tat is the blame.. oh!! wat should i do?? this is the "good fren" she meant all the while ar?? when can get advantage will treasure like gold.. when got nth to gain from, care also wun care.. i see thru her liao..

she said my bad thing infront of other ppl.. i dun kw she is such a "GOOD FREN" untill tat person come and tell me.. she keep asking for my infor.. and steal my fren.. but i wun scare.. coz, those stay with me de is wat call a "good fren".. not like her.. she take everything for granted.. but 1 thing is tat, i will grow up.. i also kw how to take action.. eric also ask me to 4give her.. but in this rate?? can i?? can i 4give her?? i cry so much.. in school, at mac, at home, at public places.. all becoz of her.. who really kw how much i suffer?? wat can i really do?? i really very xin ku liao.. i feel very terrible.. a fren since primary school.. like this treat me.. should i still take her as a fren?? she attack me using wat she kw abt me.. all my weakness.. pls!! give me comment!!! i really need help!!!!