oh dear~ saw robin le!! ar~ today is the 3rd day i saw him~ haha~ me dun really dare to see him le~ any eye contact also dun dare~ but got shop with him le~ ar~ so gd~ today he wear so different sia~ everytime see him he sure wear jersey and basketball short~ ar~ he wear jeans le~ so handsome wor!!! maybe he just finish school~ ar~ he look tall and tall sia~ sian~ yuru they all hoh~ all bully me sia~ keep pushing me to him~ haiz~ my face damn red till siao~

today yuru they all go china sia~ we all meet meet and have dinner~ den chat chat~ shop shop~ haha~ the best part is with Robin~ haiz~ tml is the last day le~ btw~ i do saw Robin peek at me le~ but real a not i not sure~ ar~ i think he got a bit feeling for me le~ haiz~ but hoh~ i dun dare to make any conclusion le~ sometime i really tot of telling him tat i like him~ haiz~ but he already kw le~ but hoh~ the word he said to his brother kept appeared in my mind whenever i wanna say i like him~ haiz~ "be fren only bah" haiz~ tat wat he said to his brother~ who know what wil happen in the furture~ but i really like him le~ but this word stop me from telling him~ coz i scare being rejected~ and cannot be fren~ coz if tio reject, see him, sure very wat de le~ haiz~ but he wun tell the girl he like tat he like her~ haiz~ but poly le~ sure got a lot of girl de~ haiz~ maybe i wun stand a chance~ as wat i always say, let time settle everything~

Today O lvl exam le~ wha seh~ i count hoh~ save save also only get 70.5 for the overrall~ die le~ i sure get a "B" for this paper~ maybe i will take end of year de paper~ haiz~

My arm so pain!!! blue black is more clear sia~ stupid brother~ always bully me~ he elbow me le!! haiz~ sian~ now touch it hoh! can make me pain till siao~

Robin how i wish i got the confident to tell u~ But i really dun dare~ Can u tell me how??

saw robin today at Mac sia~ he call my name le~ den i Xia Yi Tiao~ haha~ my face gone red sia~ den whole body become so hot~ den heartbeat beat so fast~ aiyo~ den Yang Ching and Geok Hong said my face very red~ aiyo~ i see him i so timid sia~ haha~ Den my face start becoming so red le~ haiz~ finally see him le~ so many day never see him liao~ see him so handsome wor!!! he wore an orange colour jersey today~ he style his hair today le~ wow~ so handsome~ haha~ Ivan and robin fren also at there~ robin fren name is Alvin~ aiyo he so short man~ haha~ see them play match~ haha~ Robin when he come in Mac hoh~ he said: "Hi, ruby~" aiyo~ so sweet le~

he also got make ice contact with me le~ haha~ aiyo~ he so cool man~ so handsome~ like him more and more le~ after seeing him, all the bad feeling gone le~ den hoh~ i dun wan to give pu on him on 31st le~ haiz~ seeing his SMS and those sweet gd nite msg~ i feel tat he got some feeling toward me liao~ haha~ maybe i think too much bah~

when reach home, yuru call me~ she said that her wallet lost~ sia la~ i run down to bus stop straight away~ run till i no breath~ i helped her find~ but still cannot~ thing happen so much today~ haiz~ den i called Robin ask him how~ but that idiot keep making fun sia~ haiz~ ask him how!! wat to do~ he also dun kw~ haiz~ keep saying he wanna go bath~ haiz~ hack care him liao la~ finall settle all the thing sia~ haiz~ waste my energy so much~ till 11.10 den settle totally~ haiz!~ it gonna kill me le~ haiz~ when reach home, saw robin online~ den chat with him~ sian~ but he said he got project to do~ den i never disturb him~ but i do said tat NICE HAIR STYLE!! haha~ so happy see him today~ wel~ his basketball skill drop down till haiz~ but become more handsome liao wor~ haha~ maybe more girl like him liao~ haiz~ maybe i wun stand a chance~ haiz~ everytime see his msg~ those sweet de~ i will sure think tat other girl sms him de~ well~ guy wun send this kind of msg to guy rite~ haiz~ sure is gal~ SO SWEET the msg~ well~ sure a lot of gal like him liao~ well~ anyway i like him most~ haha~ now my feeling is back le~ haha~ only him will give me the feeling~ haha~ YEAH~ HAPPY DAY~

wEe~ tHiS iS mY nAmE~ Carmel aka Garvin help me do de~ today in school so tiring~ so little holiday homework~ great tat during the holiday i can go back to school~ hehe~ today bao bei call me 2 time~ chat with me sia~ haha~ hardly see him call me~ haha~ so fun today~

Carmel help me this this ruby hoh~ do till he wanna vomit blood~ haha~ anyway, thx him a lot~ haha~ let me see~ wat have i done today? in school so hungry till i wanna faint~ Stupid Mr Li Bin~ keep us for 1 hour~ should be 30min de le~ wa liew~ i hungry till siao sia~ Den zhi xiong go eat eat with me~ ahahaha~

Reach home play computer whole day~ haha~ Mirc play like siao~ Frenster ppl add me till like siao~ haha~ well~ tody not bad la~ hahaha~

wat do u all think abt guys? i think they are all jerk~ they all behave the same~ why can't they just try and kw the girls better?? today i finally find out why i behave this few week~ All because of Robin tat why~ After knowing him, my life change~ but now, i will change it back~ coz i feel tat i dun really like him~ so do i really like him?? Even if i really like him, it is only me tat like not him~ since he dun like me, i dun think i will wasted my time on him~ Be fren is the best~ haha~ i make up my mind liao~ but~ i do promise tat the last day of this month is the last day robin show his feeling to me~ if he still dun have any reaction, hehe~ i gonna give up~ den i will be the original Hui Ling~ I think "LOVE" has make me change a lot~ hmm~ think i should say it in a way tat i had grow up~ Robin has let me gone 1 step further~ he had let me seen another side of myself~ now is only matter tat the last day of this month come faster~ so that i can totally give up on him~ Sometime my fren will say tat i a bit Hua Xin... very fast change target~ But.. they wun know the reason for giving up on somebody~ i change new target becoz i wanna 4get the previous 1~ Y i wanna 4get?? sometime is becoz of myu fren~ maybe my fren like the same person tat i like~ and i dun wanna steal it~ as frenship mean a lot to me~ Still got other reason~ BULLY~ tat why~ ppl keep saying me this and tat~ and it make me wanna give up~ haiz~ so many reason~

i miss my bloggy so much~ so long never write liao le~ haha~ it time for me to get back to my life~ hmm~ Feel life is so hard for me le~ Think is a new step to my life.. and a very hard step~ once step out, there is no U-turn~ haha~ so many day never update le~ now i think i will have the time to write~ ytd i found out tat i get 8th in my class~ haiz~ my result so bad till.... still can get 8th position~ haha~ mid year done very bad~ 2 A2, 1 B4 and 2 E8~ Haiz~ always failed my english de~ ytd english prelim oral le~ Mr james said tat i very good~ idea a lot~ haha~

Today, of coz~ just now said so many ytd thing~ now have to say today thing le~ My bao bei delicate song to me in Jimmy channel le~ well~ i mean the radio station~ haha~ open window media player and press Ctrl u den put this web http://radio.steam-support.info:8000 into the box~ And den u listen lo~ haha~ In irc channel de la~ haiz~ when i ask bao bei to help me delicate song.. he said tat ask me go irc and do it myself~ but i hate the world there~ haiz~ but he of coz got help me la~ (*^-^*) hehe~ he still die die dun call me jie jie~ haiz~

Kai hui ar kai hui~ u hoh~ haiz~ nvm~ me very busy body meh???? i so good help u den i only get cold water pouring down fm my head~ ytd still said i can help u in math and physics~ haiz~ how to teach like tat~ haiz~ hack care u liao~ u wanna learn u find me myself~ dun expect me and find u~ bleah~

Haha~ Fighting with my brother again~ well~ everyday fight de~ everyday shout at them till like hell~ So angry!! haiz~ in this rate how i pass my O level~ AR!! how to study in this hse!!! scold them also no use~ Put them in jail is the best~ hahaha~ Just kidding la~ just wanna scare them so tat they wun disturb me~ but~ it seem like they just wun listen~ Hmm~ maybe someday... hahah~ hack care~ now i have to keep my life happy and sweet~ if not i going under depression soon~ haha~ i wun let the stupid depression get into my life~ haha~ i will find back myelf~ i will overcome everything~ Even without LOVE i also can live~ Remain single is the best~ but sometime... i really hope somebody is beside me when i need someone~ haiz~ who will it be??

10 more days~ den i will fully put Robin aside~ Since he has no feeling toward me... y i still hold on?? The book is right~ Since he has no feeling toward me, why i still wanna wasted my time on him?? haiz~ time is very important for me le~ dun kw why~ time is getting faster and faster for me le~ Haiz~

Now i have to concentrate with my work~ 30th of this month is my O lvl MT~ I must score a A2 if not i dead~ hope i can do it~

robin: try yr best n dun regret wat u do~ believe in yrself n work HARD

I went swimming today~ haiz~ so stressful today~ talk a lot to yang ching~ all the feeling~ haiz~ should i go tell robin?? coz i scare i will lose a friend like him~ haiz~ make me so stressful~ Like him also no use~ i feel so lonely and lost~ where r u~ When can i find back myself?? haiz~ any1 can help me?? no 1 can help~ only me~ haiz~ Time can help me~ but how long i have to wait?? who know~ haiz.. i need some 1 to help me find back myself~ i need some1 who care love and concern abt me~ but who will it be?? i getting depress liao la~ sian~ when can i find back myself!! HAIZ!! stupid!!! brother keep disturb me~ AR I GOING CRAZY LE LA!! how to relax~ haiz~