something funny happened to me today

after i handed in my punch card to my agency...i went to take pictures of this old abandoned shophouse tat was near the office...i chanced upon it last week when i went down to the agency to settle some matters so i quickly took the chance to take pictures of it when i went down today...before it got torn down or renovated...since i had a new roll of film...i started wandering around the area taking pictures...my exploring took me to this grand looking old building tat was undergoing some kind of construction...i was attracted by the imposing feeling the colonial style infrastructure had n could'nt help wondering wat building this used to be...a genial indian security guard who was out for a smoke saw me looking at the building n told me tat it was the old parliament building n it was being re-constructed to be an arts center n the beautiful cream coloured similarly colonial style building next to it is going to be the asian civilisation museum to be open next march...
seeing me with my camera he must have tot i was a tourist n asked me where i was from...i sheepishly told him tat i'm singaporean n he tot i must have been abroad all these yrs n only came back recently thus accounting for my being unable to recognise the old parliament building...i told him tat i lived here all my life n he laughed when i said i needed to brush up on my history...hee

honestly...although the new parliament building was only occupied recently...i realised tat i could'nt remember how the old building looked like n only on closer inspection of the new asian civilisations museum i recognised it as the old empress place museum where i went often to view exhibitions in when i was in primary sch...it's been given a complete makeover n looks really elegant

i'm starting to love the area around singapore river more n more...everything about it...from the old shophouses to the one way streets to the bumpboats chugging along to the people found there...even the spiked domes r growing on me...i esp love the old shophouses...they're so quaint n beautiful with such interesting infrastructure...i've been in an old shophouse before...to watch a very unique play tat was being acted out all over the whole house...the entire building was the stage...it's an incredible feeling being in there...its liek u're suddenly thrown back to the past...everything else disappears n u're back in the 1960s...the roof beams...the wooden floors...the tall narrow windows...the steep rickety staircase...the backyard...it was so easy for me to imagine myself living there n i began to envision the ghosts of a typical chinese family staying there n their ways of life...after the play ended it was very disconcerting for me to return to the present...like i was walking out of this huge suction force of the past...

nestled right beside the busy business hub of singapore...the main pulse of the island...is this area where time stood still for the last thirty years...little shophouses stood in rows after rows...locking time in its narrow streets n alleyways...the sleepy streets r quiet...a cat slinks by...bags of dried goods r piled in front of an old grocery shop...an old man yawns from his seat in the shade...broken n tattered chairs line one wall...pigeons cooing softly perch on another...the shophouses look down solemnly on the empty roads below...remembering all tat used to be here before...how i wished these buildings could talk...the tales they could tell us...the things they've seen!

helo ppl...notice to all...viv n i wanna go to sentosa for the countdown...any interested parties pls contact me or viv in any way possible before tues...i do hope u guys can come...it'll be fun
oh ya...if u bump ino randy these few days...be careful...he's gone completely wacko...i mean completely
but its nice to be able to laugh like tat...have'nt done so for a long time...almost forgotten how to
1b01 chatroom wackiness...miss it so much

finally...completed the last day of work at last...feels a little strange...i'll miss the ppl there...they're all such fun ppl...i guess i'm lucky to have such a friendly working environment...as weiling told me it's lucky tat i did'nt get posted to her location instead...she says with my kind of innocence n trusting ppl so easily i would have been slaughtered rite away...n prob don know it...haha
i don really trust ppl tat easily...only frenz n ppl i know...with strangers i have this 'wall' tat i put up around me tat could rival Fort Knox...but once someone is a fren...i trust n believe them completely

trust...

a myriad of emotions was going thru me all at the same time these past few days...frustration...irritation...anger...shock...disbelief...hate...disappointment...
now only disbelief n disappointment remain
n sadness...weariness...
i realised i've changed...somewhat mellowed...the me in the past holds grudges deeply...if anybody crosses me...my whole mind will be filled with anger n tots of how to get back at the person n make them so sorry they ever did wat they did to me...i can get quite spiteful...i don fly into a rage easily but when i do i can get pretty scary...cos when i'm angry i can do anything...
now...i feel totally diff...more mellow n peaceful...i guess it has to do with this huge sense of content n appreciation i have now...i am completely happy with wat i have now...it's an incredible feeling to find ur path in life...to be able to follow ur dreams n see a future...i am truly grateful for wat i have...i guess it's becos of tat tat nothing else matters anymore...this feeling of quiet acceptance is nice...

i juz have to remember the words weiling n justin once told me...
"some ppl r not worth getting upset over"
"the reason u feel so miserable now is becos u've lost focus on the big picture...on wat's impt to u n let all the trival things upset u"

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correct! everybody knows angie is one stressed person who can't relax...hahaha...i AM obsessive compulsive

Christmas

Mary's Boy Child

Long time ago in Bethlehem,
So the Holy Bible say,
Mary's boy child, Jesus Christ,
Was born on Christmas day.

Hark, now hear the angels sing,

A new king born today,
And man will live forever more,
Because of Christmas Day.

While shepherds watched their flocks by night,

Them see a bright new shining star,
Them hear a choir sing,
The music seemed to come from afar.

`Now Joseph and his wife Mary,

Come to Bethlehem that night,
Them find no place to born she child,
Not a single room was in sight.

Hark, now hear the angels sing...etc.


By and by they find a little nook

In a stable all forlorn,
And in a manger cold and dark,
Mary's little boy was born.

Hark, now here the angels sings.


Trumpets sound and angels sing,

Listen to what they say,
That man will live forever more,
Because of Christmas Day.

helo all! MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! i juz got back from Midnight Mass at my church...the church looked totally gorgeous...have been looking forward to having Christmas mass in the new parish hall...the service was packed with ppl...all wanting to enjoy the beautiful new building...the only thing tat spoiled my night was tat i was'nt able to sing together with the choir in their special performance tonight...becos of my job i have to give up the choir...i could'nt attend the rehearsals...oh but nvm...there's always next yr...
we walked back home after mass n it was a very cold walk indeed...for some strange reason it was freezing cold...the kind of cold tat hurts...but it was a nice walk...quiet n the sky was very beautiful...i have'nt seen so many stars in one small patch of sky for a very long time...wished i could juz sit outside the whole night n admire them...

Christmas Eve

O Holy Night

O holy night
The stars are brightly shining
It is the night of our dear Savior's birth
Long lay the world in sin and error pining
'Til He appeared and the soul felt its worth
A thrill of hope, the weary world rejoices
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn

Fall on your knees
O hear the angel voices
O night divine
O night when Christ was born
O night divine
O night, O night divine

Truly He taught us to love one another
His law is love and His gospel is peace
Chains shall He break, for the slave is our brother
And in His name all oppression shall cease
Sweet hymns of joy in greatful chorus raise we
Let all within us praise His holy name

Christ is the Lord
O praise His name forever
Noel! Noel!
O night, o night divine

The Prayer (Charlotte Church and Josh Groban)

I pray you'll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don't know

Let this be our prayer
As we go our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your Grace
To a place where we'll be safe

La luce che to dai
I pray we'll find your light
Nel cuore resterò
And hold it in our hearts
A ricordarchi che
When stars go out each night
L'eterna stella sei
Nella mia preghiera
Let this be our prayer
Quanta fede c'è
When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we'll be safe.
Sognamo un mondo senza più violenza
Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza
Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino
Simbolo di pace e di fraternità

La forza che ci dai
We ask that life be kind
E'il desiderio che
And watch us from above
Ognuno trovi amore
We hope each soul will find
Intorno e dentro a sé
Another soul to love


Let this be our prayer
Just like every child
Just like every child

Needs to find a place,
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
E la fede che
Hai acceso in noi
Sento che ci salverà

i finally sold one machine!!!!! yay! me very very happy. christmas time...season for miracles...hahaha...i finally can tell my agent tat i have one sale for her...n it feels so gd to help my buddy a little...the comission from the E30s r split equally between the two of us...no matter how many each of us sells...n i've always felt bad tat my buddy has to share his comission with me...n i was'nt able to contribute...now i did...so me very happy
we did our gift exchange today n i got this lovely soft toy handphone holder...very handy...n oh ya i saw danny in carrefour today when i went shopping there during dinner...he's working as a security guard there...i totally forgot n was surprised to see him...had a very nice day today n i'm totally pooped now...my whole body aches all over
the moon has been totally gorgeous this past three days...i first noticed it like thurs nite i think...i was going to bed n i noticed tat my room seems unusually bright even after i switched off the lites...i looked up n saw the most beautiful nite sky i ever saw...the moon was shining very brightly n the clouds around it were lit up like a halo...the sky had this greyish blue tinge n there were tiny stars all around the moon...twinkling gently by themselves...it was so beautiful...i stood at my bedroom window for a while...admiring the scene with a nice cool breeze blowing in my face...best feeling in the world...n these three nites i have been falling asleep with moonbeams on my pillow...n every time i look up i can see the moon glowing brightly...wat a nice way to fall asleep...bliss

The Fourth Sunday of Advent

When A Child is Born

A ray of hope flickers in the sky
A tiny star lights up way up high
All across the land dawns a brand new morn',
This comes to pass when a child is born.

A silent wish sails the seven seas

The winds of change whisper in the trees
And the walls of doubt crumble tossed and torn,
This comes to pass when a child is born.

A rosy dawn settles all around

You got to feel you're on solid ground
For a spell or two no one seems forlorn
This come to pass when a child is born.

It's all a dream, an illusion now.

It must come true some time soon somehow
All across the land dawns a brand new morn
This comes to pass when a child is born.

helo all...today's work was'nt too bad...though i hardly had any customers at all...as usual...there was this promotion thingy going on at harvey norman in the afternoon today...some djs from 95.8FM was going around the store...promoting the stuff...which was very distracting...we could'nt hear ourselves over the mics
me,jasmine(philips part-timer),eileen(scv part-timer) got into a little festive spirit today...heehee...we were juz walking around after our dinner n we came up with the idea of buying candy canes n distributing them around the store...it was quite a sight...three girls running around the store giving out candy canes...hey its to spread a little christmas cheer n we were dead bored too anyway...we also decided to do a little gift exchange tomolo...each one get a little something below five bucks...i've already got mine...hope they like it
oh ya we've been dubbed the charlie's angels in the store by the full timers becos there r three of us...juz nice...hahahaha...it's nice to have someone to chat with when things r quiet at the store...i dunno how to pass time otherwise

if anyone invents a bed tat throws out its occupant at a pre-set time...tell me abt it...i think i need one...i'm having an increasingly bad habit of lazing in bed n going back to sleep when i shld be up...it got me late for work today...heehee
toking abt work...rich visited me today...after a couple of misses he finally found me...hahaha...today was totally boring...the store was so quiet...the ever bouncy rich saved me fr falling asleep on the machines...thk god time did'nt seem to drag like usual
tomolo another day...another 'stand-a-thon'...
christmas is coming!!!

had a fun day shopping with weiling n yingchao...went to level one n got some nice tops there...am very happy with them
i also managed to find a pair of nice jeans...they'll come in handy for sch
haiz...tomolo's another work day again
another six more days n i'll be free!

hey guys the new class schedule is out...pretty much like last term...only day with morning classes is tues...the rest is all afternoon
IS is on fri again...bleargh...we're prob the only students who hates fris
looking at the class schedule...
i dunno
i wan to go back to sch so much cos i miss the class
but...i'm also afraid
those words keep repeating in my head
help

Another Day (9 Days)

Here's another day, she waits and pulls herself away
At just the right moment to save her face
I watch the time go ticking down, the waters falling on the ground
I catch myself and try to speak with grace
You needed just enough anger, to get you through the door
And you got just enough honesty, to make you want a little more

--chorus--
I wish for nothing but the rain, to fall and wash away
Everything that I've done wrong, find a way to make you strong
If only for another day

When I'm all alone, just me and my ghosts
Standing three deep, just like sentries at their post
They make sure I remember, just a little more than most
They make sure that I understand the consequence of past

You needed just enough anger, to get you through the door
And you got just enough honesty, to make you want a little more

I wish for nothing but the rain, to fall and wash away
Everything that I've done wrong, find a way to make you strong
If only for another day

When you see me chasing daydreams and you know that I'm not there,
I'm not the one who sits across from you, who, returns your stare
And I watch as you grow quiet like you always did
And I wait to get what I deserve
It's the part that doesn't die that makes it hurt...

Here's another day, she waits and pulls herself away
At just the right moment to save her face
I watch the time go ticking down, the waters falling on the ground
I catch myself and try to speak with grace

I wish for nothing but the rain, to fall and wash away
Everything that I've done wrong, find a way to make you strong
If only for another day

If only for another day

i've messed up the lives of two ppl i care for the most...wat gives me tat damn freaking rite?
nothing
my life now is filled with 'if onlys'
if only i kept my mouth shut n juz be an ordinary simple student studying n only doing wat i shld
it's raining like hell now...but it can't wash away all the wrongs i did...how i wish it could
a million 'sorry's mean nothing...it cannot change the past...it does not redeem me
i'm a horrible disgusting person n i don deserve all the frenz the Lord has given me
my frenz r the greatest treasures God has given me...He better retrieve all of them b4 i hurt anymore of them
keep them away from me
i cannot forgive myself

The Third Sunday of Advent

What Child is This

What child is this,
Who, laid to rest,
On Mary's lap is sleeping?
Whom angels greet with anthem sweet,
While shepherds watch are keeping?

This, this is Christ the King,
Whom shepherds guard and angels sing:
This, this is Christ the King,
The Babe, the Son of Mary.

Why lies He in such mean estate
Where ox and lamb are feeding?
Good Christian, fear: for sinners here
The silent Word is pleading.

Chorus

So bring Him incense, gold and myrrh,
Come, peasant, kin to own Him;
The King of kings salvation brings
Let loving hearts enthrone Him.

Chorus

Grown Up Christmas List

Do you remember me?
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you with childhood fatasies.
Well I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child, but my heart still can dream.
So here's my lifelong wish, my grownup Christmas list
Not for myself, but for a world in need.

CHORUS
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grownup Christmas list

As children we believe
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely wrapped beneath our tree
Well heaven surely knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal, a hurting human soul

CHORUS

What is this allusion called the innocence of youth
Maybe only in our blind belief
Can we ever find the truth

CHORUS

this was my favourite christmas song n i used to include it in the christmas cards i wrote to my frens...cos material things aside...this would be wat i wished for...no wars...no sadness...no injustice...n every single person having a fren n being loved...i wish this onto everybody...God bless

helo...spent the whole day at work today watching a really cool japanese animae called Initial D...one of the promoters at my workplace juz bought the set of vcds n was playing it...at first i was watching cos i was bored but i got hooked onto it...so wilson...the pioneer promoter...continued playing it the whole day for me...heehee...the storyline's pretty exciting...its abt car racing...specifically on the winding roads of this certain mountain...they combined computer graphics with traditional cartoon drawings in the races...which makes it really thrilling cos they look so real
i know with animation u can make anything possible n this cannot happen in real life but i can't help marvelling at the main character's driving skills...the way they draw him doing the drift around corners keeps me riveted...wilson's gonna play the rest of the series for me tomolo but if i keep watching i won be able to work n i dread telling my agency tat i have zero sales again...argh!stress

"Satan's biggest trick was to convince humans that he does'nt exist"- End of Days

i can't really remember the exact phrasing...n i juz watched the movie a while ago...my memory's more leaky than a sieve...but i do remember hearing this quote b4...somewhere...by a fren
End of Days has a pretty interesting storyline...if given a powerful cast n a more intricate plot...it would have become a classic
convinced humans that he does'nt exist??i can't figure out y would he want to do tat...so tat humans will think tat there isn't a greater power?tat they r the ultimate power controling their own lives n fates?tat they r slowly causing their own self destruction w/o them knowing it?fooling them into thinking tat they r the supreme beings n sit back laughing as he watches our stupidity n kill ourselves...perhaps

anyway...onto more cheerful matters...today's my parent's 21st wedding aniversary...12th Dec...n they enjoyed a day to themselves...leaving the fate of the house in our hands but we stopped wreaking it every time they left us at home a long time ago...we aren't exactly kids anymore...my dad bought me the two cds today...yipee!!i can't decide which one to listen to first...i can't wait to enjoy them both
we've started decorating the house...will prob put up the christmas tree soon...its beginning to look a lot like christmas!
black n white def looks way better than colour...i got back my black n white photos today...am very happy with them...i need to save up some money if i wanna stick to black n white...its more ex...n the darkroom class can only be taken in the second yr!!!!!!i am def signing up for it

finally got my pay today...they did'nt deduct the cpf from it...so i got a lot more than i expected
first thing i did after banking in the majority was to develope my film at pennisular plaza next door...which was foolishly impulsive
express processing costs almost double of normal
i need to stop being so impulsive

went back to a quiet spot once visited...obviously a place of solitude for others too
was it only two months ago tat we once sat there enjoying the peace??
it seems like eons
the low rumble of the boats...the quiet splashing of the waves...the silent view
nothing else
did'nt stay long...needed to re-capture certain scenes before the sun sets
i realise tat some pictures look horrible in colour...colour totally spoils the whole picture
i can't wait to see my black n white ones...going to develope them tomolo

have'nt had the comfortable feeling of physical weariness for some time now
feels great...it would be nice to crawl into bed now
lena park's 'in dreams'...can listen to it over n over again...has a heart wrenching feeling to it...though i dunno wat she's singing abt

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went swimming again today...will prob make this a habit every tues
feels gd to do some exercise...have'nt done any for two yrs
will prob go back to cycling n badminton too...if i can find partners for them
enjoyed the swim...only thing is breathing becomes really uncomfortable after a session of swimming
me getting pay tomolo...yay!

Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas

Have yourself a merry little Christmas
Let your heart be light
From now on, our troubles will be out of sight
Have yourself a merry little Christmas
Make the yuletide gay
From now on, our troubles will be miles away

Here we are as in olden days
Happy golden days of yore
Faithful friends who are dear to us
Gather near to us once more

Through the years we all will be together
If the fates allows
Hang a shinning star upon the highest bough
And have yourself a merry little Christmas now

slept the whole day today...i think i clocked in more than 16 hrs of sleep
went to bed at one plus last nite...woke up at almost eleven this morning
had lunch...watched a little tv...read a little...then went back to the bed again n did not wake til seven
the nagging headache i had disappeared with a shower
dad cooked prawn noodles today...have'nt had tat for quite a while
enjoyed some christmas music on arts central juz now...lovely...another performance next mon
my dad is gonna buy the two cds by charlotte church n josh groban for me. yay

there's a gaping void in me tat seems like it can nvr be filled
there's a pain in me tat nvr goes away
it's tearing me up inside
making the void even bigger
pain of different magnitudes has raged thru me for the longest time
i nvr tot i could survive
even breathing seems so hard now
cos it hurts so bad
i tot my heart died a long time ago
y do i still feel pain now?

The Second Sunday of Advent

Do You Hear What I Hear? (Destiny's Child)

Said the night wind to the little lamb, do you see what I see
Way up in the sky, little lamb, do you see what I see
A star, a star, dancing in the night
With a tail as big as a kite, with a tail as big as a kite

Said the little lamb to the shepherd boy, do you hear what I hear
Ringing through the sky shepherd boy, do you hear what I hear
A song, a song, high above the trees
With a voice as big as the sea, with a voice as big as the sea

Said the shepherd boy to the mighty king, do you know what I know
In your palace warm mighty king, do you know what I know
A child, a child, shivers in cold
Let us bring him silver and gold, let us bring him silver and gold

Said the king to the people everywhere
Listen to what I say, Faithful peace, people everywhere
Listen to what I say!

The child the child sleeping in the night he will bring us
he will bring us goodness and light let us bring us goodness in light

A child, a child... sleeping in the night,
He will bring us goodness and light.

wahhh...robin muz be in a really gd mood these days...he's been leaving tags at almost everyone's blogs
i expect singapore to snow next

i hate machines n the whole technology stuff
makes me feel like a complete idiot
i've nvr felt more useless in my life
n my legs nvr felt more detached
ow

hey...they r showing 'its a mad mad world' now...the chinese version with lydia sum...loved it when i was a kid...this wacky family obsessed with the lottery...really funny show

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Dreaming of You (Selena)

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I wish on a star that somewhere you are
Thinking of me too

Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you ever see me
And I wonder if you know I'm there
If you looked in my eyes
would you see what's inside
Would you even care?

I just wanna hold you close
But so far all I have are dreams of you
So I wait for the day
And the courage to say how much I love you
Yes I do!

I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me

Corazón
I can't stop dreaming of you
No puedo dejar de pensar en ti
I can't stop dreaming
Cómo te necesito
I can't stop dreaming of you
Mi amor, cómo te extraño

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe
That you came up to me and said "I love you"
I love you too!

Now I'm dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming of you endlessly

Dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room
I'll be dreaming of you tonight
Endlessly
And I'll be holding you tight
Dreaming...with you...tonight

helo...went down to the agency today to hand in my punch card...its lucky tat i did'nt drown in tat heavy rain...it was pouring buckets today...had to hole up in city link for a while to wait for it to stop...so i decided to browse around HMV n enjoy some music...BIG MISTAKE...i nearly killed myself in there...argh!!

barbra streisand has two albums out n one of them's for the christmas season...josh groban's album has been re-packaged n has a new song added 'o holy night' added to it...which made me glad tat i did'nt buy it when it first came out...there were quite a few christmas compliations n i saw one tat my dad n i would love...it has a nice mix of singers from his era n mine...bing cosby...doris day...frank sinatra...mariah carey etc...its really nice...n i saw the dvd box set for the 'Hey Mr Producer' concert!!!!!!!!!! but i could'nt find the cd for it...its a miracle tat i could still walk out of tat place...me getting pay next week...heehee...i'm so going back there...

i spent an hour or so at the classical/jazz section...(if only time at work passes tat fast)...n i chanced upon this jazz compliation...i found out tat there were a few songs in it tat i hear quite frequently on gold 90.5...i nvr knew they were jazz...i've always juz labeled them 'songs from my dad's era'...heeheehee...it was quite a nice cd...considering getting it

Dream a Little Dream of Me (Laura Fygi)

Stars shinin' bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper "I love you"
Bird singin' in the sycamore tree
Dream a little dream of me

Say "nightie night" and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me
While I'm alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me

Stars fading but I linger on, dear
Still craving your kiss
I'm longin' to linger 'til dawn, dear
Just sayin' this...

Sweet dreams 'til sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me

they were playing this song when i was in the classical/jazz section...its a very nice song...i remember an arts n cultural performance we have in JJC every year...n i was involved in the planning n backstage work for the two yrs i was in JC...there was this senior who had graduated one yr b4 me n she came back to participate in the performance...she sang this song...n i could safely say she knocked out half the guys in the audience...all she did was to stand next to the piano n sing but she sang very well...her voice had the same rich tone as Laura Fygi...but her interpretation was more resounding...very nice

helo...am feeling a little odd now...hope i'm not getting sick..bleah

pool today was fun...played with evan n his 'sis' joycelyn...she is one cool chick...she's really pretty...fashion savy n a real shopping queen...she would be real fun to have a gals' day with...the mechmaster at far east was freezing as if they were afraid the pool tables would melt or something...i still suck at the game...the no. of times my cue slipped n the no. of times i missed is so embarassing!!!

What's Going On (All Star's Tribute)

P Diddy:
What's Going On

Jermaine Dupri:
Tell Me

P Diddy:
People Dying
People Crying
Lord help us

Bono:
Mother, mother
There's too many of us crying

Gwen Stefani:
Oh, brother, brother, brother
There's far too many of you dying

Jermaine Dupri:
That's Right

Aaron Lewis(Staind):
You know we've got to find a way
To bring some understandin' here today

Nona Gaye:
Oh my father, father
We don't need to escalate

Backstreet Boys:
You see war is not the answer

Nona Gaye/Backstreet Boys:
For only love can conquer hate

Christina Aguilera:
You know we've got to find a way
To bring some lovin' here today

Britney Spears/Destiny's Child:
Barricades, can't block our way
J.-LO
Don't punish me with brutality

Destiny's Child:
Talk to me
So you can see

Destiny's Child/Britney Spears:
(First Chorus)
Oh what's going on
What's going on
Yeah what's going on
Ahh what's going on

Ja Rule:
What's going on in a world filled with pain
Where's the love for which we pray
What's going on
When our children can't play
Homeless can't eat
There's got to be a better way
What's going on
When we politically blind
Can't see the signs of endangered times
What's going on

Nelly Furtado:
Ah tell me
What's going on in the world today
I'd rather be dead
Than turn my head away
We gotta first world vision to comfty, to lift our
hands in the air and cry for a switch

Michael Stipe(R.E.M):
Father, father

P Diddy:
Father help us, come on

Michael Stipe:
Everybody thinks we're wrong

Alicia Keys:
Oh, but who are they to judge us
Together we can all be strong

P Diddy:
United we stand, United we fall

N'Sync:
Oh you know we've got to find a way

Mary J. Blige:
To bring some understanding here today

N'Sync:
Barricades can't block our way

Darren Hayes (Savage Garden):
Don't punish me with brutality

N'Sync:
Baby talk to me
So you can see

(Second chorus)
Yeah, what's going on
Hey, what's going on
Somebody tell me what's going on
I'll tell you what's goin' on-uh

Nelly:
What's going on 'cross seas
Every minute a child dies by this disease
In record numbers indeed
Got momma's crying out please
My baby hold on
My child ain't done nothing wrong
Still I want to holler
Ask them why they don't bother
Oh no, oh no
Make me turn to my father
And ask him why they all got a trapped soul

Nas:
I can feel what was bothering Marvin
Why his words forever remain
Dealing with these modern day problems
'Cause of ignorance surrounding me and my constituents
Too many infected
Too many lives diminishing
Nobody say Protestants, Jews, Blacks, and Whites, Latinos and Asians
Pray together
Less fight
We better unite
As genocide chemical war
And the rich and the poor
Know that God delivers a cure

Eve:
It's a shame our reality is devastating
People praying for a cure
Dying while they're waiting
Ask the Lord for the comfort and strength to face it
All the kids with dreams
Won't get the chance to chase it
Makes me sad
Think about the lives they would've had
Think about the orphan babies got no moms and dads
How can we sit back and not try to make it right
We gotta come together
We gotta fight for life

Fred Durst:
Somebody tell me what's going on
(what's going on)
We got human beings using humans for a bomb
But everyone wanna live
Don't nobody really want to die
You feeling me right
I can't be watching people die
(die)
And watching people cry
Let me break it down for a minute
If there's enough room here for you and me
There's plenty of room for some humanity

Somebody tell me what's going on
(what's going on)

been watching this song's mtv recently on tv...i find it really cool...love the removing of blindfold idea...all the artisites had long blindfols on them...with words like 'Jew'...'Asian'...'Anarchist'...'Bisexual' etc...n they were removing them layer by layer...revealing the diff words...really funky concept...the lyrics of the song is rather meaningful too...it juz abt summarises how screwed up the world is nowadays...nice...n the song blends pop n rap quite nicely too...not too bad a song

helo...had a very nice day today...full of exercise...hahaha

i was helping my mom clean up the whole kitchen today...had a scare walking into the kitchen n finding her high on the cabinets...i made her come down at once...my mom's kind of accident prone n the whole family nvr allows her to climb onto anything but she juz loves scaring me like tat...so in the end i helped her clean all the higher areas while she cleaned the lower cabinets...n while i'm at it...i started cleaning my own room too
i was sorting thru all the papers acculmulated thruout the whole sem n filing them away...writ com has the biggest pile...i was also looking at our timetable...it made me miss sch sooo much...all the diff classes...every single one of them...i remember the time we first got our timetable...i was looking at it n wondering...we have classes of like three hours straight for each sub...how would they be like?...would i have a situation where i would dread a certain day...where the three hrs would be a drag?? but none of tat happened...i totally enjoyed all of my classes...they were so much fun...loved them
went swimming today with my two frenz...its been a loooong time since i last swam...my arms r kind of sore rite now but the pool ws great...the water was nice n warm...i was nvr a strong swimmer but it was clear tat i have'nt swam for a long time...i could barely do four laps...after swimming i went to meet ana for a late dinner...we had mos burger...yum
tomolo's gonna be another bz day...hope i won be too stiff to play pool tomolo

Which Flower Are You?Find out!

hahaha...i love daisies but i don think i'm innocent or totally sweet...ewww...my sis will prob cough up her entire dinner if she hears anyone calling me sweet or innocent...hahaha

What's Your Personality?Find out!

hihi...it was nice to be able to relax today...to do nothing at all...the weather was pretty good for a nap too...a very nice day...made better by a date with a really cute guy...hahaha...my four month old nephew Bowen...weird name i know...nvr figured out y my cousin called him tat...but he was totally adorable!!!!!!!!! my mom had to bring over some bedsheets she sewed for my aunt today n i tagged along,wanted to play with Bowen...he looked so cute with his big inquistive eyes n fat cheeks...n he's so cuddly too...i had him on my lap for a while n tat guy could'nt sit still...i can tell tat he's gonna be trouble when he starts to get mobile...i better watch out for my ankles soon...his older sis Gladys is also this cute chubby little girl...she's got this feisty streak...i've got the feeling tat she's gonna be this kickass girlpower kind of gal when she grows up...the family will be hearing lots from this young one soon
me n my mom spent the afternoon at my aunt's place hearing her grouse abt her maid...i'm the last one among my cousins who could speak our dialect fluently... so it was a scene of three ladies yakking together...n my aunt was teaching my niece n nephew to call me 'biew yi'...suddenly i feel REALLY old...bleargh
but i wished i had the chance to learn how to speak our true dialect...my family's not really cantonese...my paternal grandparents came from this area within the Guangdong province which has their own dialect...n since its within the province it sounds a lot like cantonese...our dialect group has a small population in singapore n our family adapted cantonese as our dialect to fit in...i learnt cantonese from my grandma n i used to watch the afternoon cooking programmes with her n translating the recipes for her...i remember having to ask my mom lots of times how to say the names of certain ingredients in cantonese...hahaha...tat's how i learnt...thru conversation...my bro n sis did'nt really had the chance to learn...my bro could'nt even hold a conversation in cantonese to save his life! but i wished i knew how to speak our true dialect instead...all my elders can speak it n some of my older cousins too...wonder if i could get them to teach me...hmm...
anywayz...it feels nice to not work til fri comes...lots of ppl know where i work now...i guess i have to prepare myself for an invasion...toking abt tat...rich was so cute juz now...he actually went down to harvey norman to find me but he did'nt know tat i only work weekends so he made a wasted trip...hahaha...he said he's def gonna come down next weekend...lots of ppl seem to be working in the city hall area..i have two frens who work in offices in suntec n milennia walk n they gave me a surprise visit last fri...i think i can expect more visitors...but they will be a welcome distraction to the utter boredom of my job

First Sunday Of Advent

Advent has started n Christmas is coming...my favourite time of the year...I love Christmas...esp Christmas Eve...it literally tingles with magic n peace...
Christmas is the season of goodwill...peace...love...n sharing
For one day in the whole year the ugly world suddenly becomes so beautiful n peaceful...where ppl can show some goodwill towards their fellow men...where they can show some kindness n consideration...its something abt the season tat makes ppl behave tat way...for one day the world is at peace...
I can never forget a story my geography teacher told us once...during the world war two...there were battles going on all over the world...there would be two armies fighting it out in the battlefield...when christmas day arrived...they would cease fire for one day n come together for a celebration...where they would eat n drink n make merry...when the clock strikes twelve n christmas is over...they would go back to their respective positions n start fighting all over again...bizarre isn't it???
It won't be hard to understand y i love Christmas when i was a kid...all those presents...feasts...the decorations...new clothes...it was a kid's best holiday...but there was another reason y i loved Christmas...a bigger reason
I have an aunt who used to live in this lovely three storey bungalow in Simei...the whole family will gather there for Christmas every year...we would arrive there on the afternoon of Christmas Eve...my aunt would be bz dressing up the tree n all my cousins would be excitedly greeting each other n running off to all parts of the house to start playing games...presents tat everybody bought would be placed under the tree n we kids cannot resist peeking to see which were ours...in the evening we would have a simple dinner n watch christmas specials...then everybody will dress up n troop in three...four cars to the Holy Trinity Church where my aunt goes for the Midnight Mass...at tat time the Holy Trinity was one of the earlier churches to have air conditioning n it had a gorgeous interior with a fountain going down the whole main aisle n beautiful stained glass windows all around...our entire family can easily fill up four pews n we'll sit there celebrating midnight mass in our finest...mass nvr feels more special n beautiful...after mass we'll go back to my aunt's place n the fun begins...we kids will be running all over the house...the men will be playing mahjong n the ladies cards...we kids will take full advantage of the chance to stay up the whole nite n create a whole adventure out of it...but we usually end up falling asleep at around 3 in the morning...then on Christmas morning it would be presents opening time!! we'll be playing with all the new stuff we have n watching cartoons all morning...then we'll have a fantastic Christmas lunch...where there'll always be ham...roast turkey n chicken n log cake...yum!!!
tat was how we celebrate christmas when i was a child...n sadly we don have this tradition anymore...we stopped celebrating Christmas this way years ago...haizz...i miss it so much...Christmas has changed...

Where Are You Christmas (Faith Hill)

Where are you Christmas
Why can't I find you
Why have you gone away
Where is the laughter
You used to bring me
Why can't I hear music play

My world is changing
I'm rearranging
Does that mean Christmas changes too

Where are you Christmas
Do you remember
The one you used to know
I'm not the same one
See what the time's done
Is that why you have let me go

Christmas is here
Everywhere, oh
Christmas is here
If you care, oh

If there is love in your heart and your mind
You will feel like Christmas all the time

I feel you Christmas
I know I've found you
You never fade away
The joy of Christmas
Stays here in inside us
Fills each and every heart with love

Where are you Christmas
Fill your heart with love

AAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
If I EVER EVER figure out how to put up music files on my blog...i'm gonna have it played on repeat mode 24hrs a day!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've been trying all sorts of methods n HTML code the whole nite...
I juz can't figure out how to do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so ready to burn up blogspot...................

Heaven Knows (Rick Price)

She's always on my mind,
from the time i wake up
'till i close my eyes
she's everywhere i go
she's all i know

'Though she's so far away
it's just keeps getting stronger
every day
and even now she's gone
i'm still holding on

So tell me where do i start
'cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go

chorus:
Maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows
and all i can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

My friends keep telling me
that if you really love her
you've gotta set her free
and if she returns in kind
i'll know she's mine

So tell me where do i start
'cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go

chorus

Why i live in despair
'cause while awake or dreaming
i know she's never there
and all these time i act so brave
i'm shaking inside
why does it hurt me so...

chorus

heaven knows...

heard this song at work today...never really noticed the lyrics til now...this is one of those classic love songs but the problem with these classics is tat they tend to be made fun of...most of u will prob think tat this song is corny or soppy...but the lyrics r good...

they got me thinking...

guys...wat do u think love is?how would u define it?its prob the only word in the dictionary with a thousand n one definitions...everyone has their own definition of wat love is...nobody is correct or wrong

if you really love her
you've gotta set her free
and if she returns in kind
i'll know she's mine
this line is familiar to most ppl...many muz have gotten this line in an email at one time or another...some ppl believe tat if u really love someone...the most impt thing is for tat person to be happy...if u can't make them urs then let them go n find someone...shld they come back into ur life then u would know tat its meant to be...some believe tat when u love someone u shld nvr give up...go all out to win their hearts...persevere n one day u'll be able to move them...some ppl believe tat...wat do u believe??

i feel tat Man will always be defeated by his emotions...his mind n his heart will always rage a war n his heart will always win...emotions r always stronger then logic n reason...most of us have a list of critera when looking for a partner...looks...character...behaviour...hobbies...ever find urself falling for someone totally against ur list??it does happen...trust me...cos u can't use any rationale when emotions r involved...ur mind will nvr win...

there r some ppl...who would...use their minds to look for love...shld they ever fall for someone tat does'nt fit their critera...they would ignore those feelings n pick someone who fits instead...then i would say tat they r missing out on the true experience...they don know wat love is...how real can ur feelings towards their choice get when they used their minds to search instead of their hearts...they will always suffer...always

nothing matters more to me than to see the person i love happy...even if it means tat i have to suffer for it...becos tat won't matter...juz as long as i know tat he is happy
love is...when u love someone more than urself...when u'll forget abt urself n they become the first thing u'll think of in every single situation...whe they become ur whole world...
wat's ur definition of love??

one semester long over n a new one will soon begin

looking back...the past semester has been a roller coaster ride of all sorts of emotions n changes...i've always felt tat we did'nt go through a semester of juz studying...all of us went through a life changing process
its like all of us were thrown into this huge whirlpool n everyone emerged at the end of the semester...all battered n worn
everyone in class is so messed up...writt com helped in tat... a lot
some lost their bright nature...the witty person they once were
some got lost
some had to face stuff they did'nt want to
some found out new things abt themselves they did'nt know how to handle
some got really tired
friendships were forged...friendships were strained...

do u all still recognise who u r now...or r u all still searching?
we've all changed in some way or another...some a little...some a lot
the hols was a good time for us to take a break...to get away from it all...to find back the bits n pieces of ourselves tat we have lost
recharge n rest...til we r ready to take on another semester

heyhey! juz checked my grade...quite happy with it
had an average of Bs
would love to have some more As but nah...happy enuff
will work harder next sem

helo...shopping on a budget totally spoils it...got the shoes n pants for my bro but could'nt find a jacket...now have to rack my brains abt it...
nearly drove my bro mad today cos i was so particular abt each item...hahaha...but tat's me...i'm particulary picky when it comes to clothes...if i have an idea on a certain style or design...or have a certain ensemble in mind...i can comb thru all the shops possible for the different pieces tat make up the outfit...everything from the tops to the accessories...i usually do tat every christmas n chinese new yr...n it also drives my sis crazy...hahaha
have'nt really fomulated a look for christmas this yr yet but when i do...its shopping time...heeheehee
one bad thing i discovered abt having a bro who's only slightly younger than u is tat ppl often mistake me for his gf...eewwwww!!!!!!!!
yucks
i feel tat both of us look alike in some ways...but not very obvious...both of us inherited most of our dad's physical features...very black coarse hair...dark bushy eyebrows...high nose bridge...squarish jaw line...we both have strong masculine features whereas my sis has my mom's softer more feminine features...she has the sweet-sweet gentle kind of look which most guys adore...which also explains the many suitors she has...me...she says i have the ice princess kind of look becos my features r stronger...makes me seem unapproachable n scares guys away...hahahaha...i quite agree
tomolo's another day at work...hope i'll be able to come up with some results or at least be able to do something else besides standing there like a statue...haizzz

whoa...i've been so bz chatting with mel tat i did'nt notice its almost 4!!
hahaha
the chat juz went on n on...i had no idea at all
man...i have to stop doing this...if the gastric does'nt kill me...my dad will
ow
going off to bed now
nitez

heylo...this is getting to be a very weird holiday for me...my previous holidays have always been spent at home rotting away...but this holiday have been totally different...i have been out almost every single day...for once i'll love to be able to stay home n complete something...
promised my mom to stay home n help her with the sewing today...there's a staggering heap of uniforms waiting for me to complete...but last nite ana was in a severely depressed mood...so much so tat it scared chee yong n qi hui n we decided to go down to BK to check on her...naurowz came along too cos he said he had nothing to do n wanted to chat too...so i had to rush out some for her to pacify her first b4 i made my way down to west mall...we found her in a better mood today...thank goodness...we waited for her break n juz spent the time together chatting n catching up...chee yong was telling us all abt his trip to japan...can't wait to see his pictures
tomolo i need to go shopping with my bro for an outfit for his graduation nite...so i won't be home...again...but i'm gonna make it quick so tat i can be home to at least finish twenty to thirty pieces for her
shopping for my bro would be fun...i enjoy dressing him up cos he's rather lean n most of the times clothes fit him well...i enjoy making him look nice
next week no matter wat i'm gonna spend a day at home...finish up the sewing...or maybe spend the whole day playing age of empires...hahaha...the last time i played was'nt too long ago n tat was like after a yr of not playing n i still have lost my touch...i can still defeat the enemy within half an hour...hahaha...so don call me out unless its a matter of life n death...but calls r still welcome if u really need me :)
oh ya...i managed to spend a few mins with my two little darlings juz now...miss them so much...i had been neglecting them during the semester cos i was so bz...n now i still don have much time for them...but they r still as adorable as ever...love them ;)

ana's in a seriously depressed mood on irc today...am going down to visit her with cy qi hui n jess tomolo...hope we can cheer her up

hihi...the meeting with the agency was ok...they were juz asking for our feedback on our working conditions etc...they were concerned abt whether we were happy at our various locations...the first thing albert...our contact person...said when he saw me was tat every time he saw me i'll have this tired n stressed look on my face...he said it was very cute cos every time he looks at me...my brows r always furrowed...hahaha...as weiling explains...tat's my normal look...i'm always frowning n look like i'm very stressed...heehee
brought my camera out again today...had to make weiling wait for me a couple of times when i spotted a gd picture to be taken...hee...i think i have way too many pictures of the area around city hall...i need to find a new spot soon...maybe i'll go to the beach the next time...hmmm...
met up with yingchao after the briefing n the three of us went walking around...n we caught up with the latest news from each other...turns out tat weiling has a boyfriend!!!!!!!! n i totally had no clue abt it!!!! she sure can keep her lips sealed...its been going on for months some more...she's so gonna get it from me when i see her...so bad...nvr tell me...i'm very curious as to wat kind of person her bf is...weiling's someone who's very picky...extremely high standards even in the little things she wanna get...with our many yrs of frenship we've gotten to the point of telling each other wat we want for birthdays...after buying presents for so many yrs we sort of ran out of ideas for gifts so we juz tell each other wat we want n weiling is known for her expensive taste...watever tat has caught her fancy is usually something very unique n most of the time it comes with a price too...so i was very curious as to which guy caught her fancy....hmmm
but i'm really happy for her...i've always told her to look for someone to take care of her...she's always been my support every time i need someone to lean on...but i could'nt do the same for her cos i'm the one who's always needing her support...tat's one thing i've always regretted...weiling's a confident,tough n capable girl...nothing fazes her...she always leads the way while i'll be the one who's more afraid of new situations n hesitant...i need n depend on her so much n at so many different times in my life...n now she has someone...i'm really happy
since i've never really met either weiling's or yingchao's partner b4...i was saying tat we muz get together some day so tat i can meet them too...but then it'll be so odd with me being so extra...so i joked tat maybe they can wait til i find a partner of my own too...but they'll probably have to wait like hell...hahaha...nah...juz meet sometime soon...waiting for me to find one would be something almost impossible...mite as well don wait...would'nt happen
used to being alone...does'nt matter to me anymore anyway...haizz

helo...was supposed to go down to the agency today but did'nt go in the end...there's a feedback session tomolo...i'll take the chance to discuss the situation with the agency

actually planned to go down together with weiling today...she wanted to quit too...but turns out we did'nt need to cos we r gonna meet them tomolo anyway...but since i'm already out of the house anyway...we decided to hang out somewhere...she needed to get a present n wanted to shop at citylink which i've been walking through every weekend but i did'nt really mind so we arranged to meet there...got there early so i went around the area taking pictures again...i juz bought a roll of black n white film...cost me $7!!! i'm so incorrigible...here i am...totally broke as i've nvr been b4...n i go n spend my precious few dollars on film...i better don let my parents find out...heeheehee...but i know there's some pictures i know which will look fantastic in black n white n i juz could'nt resist...n there's the other roll of film which i took like last week still sitting at my bedside table...waiting to be developed...guess it'll have to wait til i have the spare cash then...haizz...
i took pictures of st andrew's cathedral n the supreme court...n while taking pictures of the supreme court...i lowered my camera to scout for an interesting angle for my next picture...n i saw this grey pigeon sitting on a window sill...it was juz sitting there so peacefully n unafraid as i went closer n closer...this was a rare opportunity so i went as close as i dared to without scaring it away n took a picture of it...but i think i would'nt have scared it away...cos it seem totally unafraid of me...in fact i think i'll probably be able to stroke it if i wanted to...how rare...a bird in the city which still isn't tainted with a fear of Man...the fear animals have of Man sometimes...makes me wonder wat psycho things some ppl have been doing to animals...
met up with weiling then went shopping...but i can only window shop for now...n since we only need to go down to the agency tomolo...we took this chance to tok abt our decisions n the consequences...we were thinking whether we shld reconsider...she told me to stick to it...juz work for the hourly pay n try ur best to promote n if i shld ever feel uncomfortable with closing a deal i don feel rite abt it...i can always don close it...tat's no way to do sales i know...letting the chance for u to earn ur commission slip away juz becos u feel tat u're not doing an honest deal...but i've calculated n analysed my finances...i really need the cash...if they won fire those who have not been bringing in sales then i'll stay on for the basic pay n try my best...if they do sack the poor performers...then i'll juz wait for them to sack me...cos i know i won't be able to make any sales...the only thing now is i feel like i'm being like a bloody hypocrite after my firm statement last nite
argghhh!!! i hate the rat race n the working world n how it always makes me into somebody i hate whenever i step out to work...tat's one of the main reasons y i don like to work...i always find myself hating the change tat occurs in me...i've always felt tat i'm a dreamer n i can't exist in the real world...i don quite fit in...
the world sucks

been downloading songs by the eagles...have been watching a live unplugged performance of 'hotel california' at least once a day at my workplace...hahaha...but for once i'll love to be able to watch the whole performance...they always stop the disc before the song is complete...damn
but honestly...'hotel california' blasting from the superb speakers in the store...music does'nt get better than tat man...only thing tat saves me from a totally boring day at work...fantastic song

Hotel California (The Eagles)

On a dark desert highway
Cool wind in my hair
Warm smell of colitas
Rising up through the air
Up ahead in the distance
I saw a shimmering light
My head grew heavy and my sight grew dim
I had to stop for the night

There she stood in the doorway
I heard the mission bell
And I was thinking to myself
This could be Heaven or this could be Hell
Then she lit up a candle
And she showed me the way
There were voices down the corridor
I thought I heard them say

Welcome to the Hotel California
Such a lovely place
(Such a lovely place)
Such a lovely face
Plenty of room at the Hotel California
Any time of year
(Any time of year)
You can find me here

Her mane was Tiffany twisted
She's got the Mercedes Benz
She's got a lot of pretty, pretty boys
That she calls "friends"
How they dance in the courtyard
Sweet summer sweat
Some dance to remember
Some dance to forget

So I called up the Captain
Please bring me my wine
He said:
"We haven't had that spirit here since 1969"
And still those voices are calling from far away
Wake you up in the middle of the night
Just to hear them say

Welcome to the Hotel California
Such a lovely Place
(Such a lovely place)
Such a lovely face
They're livin' it up at the Hotel California
What a nice surprise
(What a nice surprise)
Bring your alibis

Mirrors on the ceiling
Pink champagne on ice
And she said:
"We are all just prisoners here
Of our own device"
And in the master's chambers
They gather for the feast
They stab it with their steely knives
But they just can't kill the beast
Last thing I remember
I was running for the door
I had to find the passage back to the place I was before
"Relax" said the night man
"We are programed to receive.
You can check out any time you like
But you can never leave"

Perhaps Perhaps Perhaps (Doris Day)

you won't admit you love me
and so how am i ever to know
you always tell me
perhaps perhaps perhaps

a million times i've asked you
and then
i ask you over
again
you only answer
perhaps perhaps perhaps

if you can't make your mind up
we'll never get started
and i don't wanna wind up
being parted
broken-hearted

so if you really love me
say yes
but if you don't dear
confess
and please don't tell me
perhaps perhaps perhaps

perhaps perhaps perhaps

if you can't make your mind up
we'll never get started
and i don't wanna wind up
being parted
broken-hearted

so if you really love me
say yes
but if you don't dear
confess
and please don't tell me
perhaps perhaps perhaps
perhaps perhaps perhaps
perhaps perhaps perhaps

sounds familiar anyone??hahaha...anybody recognise it? found the song very nice when i heard it on tv...its tone is very warm n seductive...not bad a song

helo...i've decided to quit my job at suntec
the boredom i can handle
the aching back is nothing
but going against myself...i can't handle tat

had a customer in today...clearly was here to buy the dvd recorder...went straight to it n started examining it...my 'buddy'...the full time promoter there who has been guiding started to serve him...n as i was specially hired to promote the dvd recorder i stood aside should my help be needed...the customer wanted to see the box the dvd recorder came in...n he started weighing it with his hands n measuring it...turns out tat he wanted to get this machine n bring it abroad so he needed to see if he can carry it aboard the plane...my 'buddy' then told him tat he could have it specially packed to protect it n also suggested tat he can take it out of the box n pack it in his luggage so tat the clothes will protect it...the customer then said he was planning to buy a bag so tat he could carry te machine in it...he asked if there was any store in the area tat sells bags...but we were'nt very sure...he kept on looking at the machine...like keeping a mental note of its size
now the thing is i know tat there's a newer model coming out...its a lot slimmer...n thus it would be a lot easier for him to carry aboard the plane...so i asked him if its urgent tat he get the machine now...cos if not he can wait for the newer model...but he said tat he was flying off tonite so he need to get tat now...furthurmore he wanna use it to record from his camcorder onto dvds...n the dv input in the older model would be better so i told him yes the older model would be more suitable then...he then said tat he'll go look for a suitable carrier n come back later
after he left my 'buddy' came to me immediately n said tat i should'nt have told him tat...he said tat he knows i'm juz trying to be honest by advising him on getting a machine tat would be more suited for his needs but as a promoter for a particular machine mentioning a newer model is taboo cos it mite make the customer buy the other n not urs...n in the end u don close the deal...i told him i can't do tat...i cannot make myself do tat...he told me tat's sales for u...u have to do tat...
i've always loved working in retail cos i love customer service...interacting with ppl n serving them...i love the feeling when i serve a customer n manage to find for them with the perfect item for their needs...seeing them happy n satisfied with their purchase n they knowing tat wat ever they bought either for themselves or as a gift...someone is gonna be delighted with it...customer satisfaction makes me feel happy...i remember once when i was working in giftland...there was this customer who came in n bought lots of stuff...i was running in n out of the storeroom getting items for him...he asked me for advice n also asked if there were different designs for this particular kind of soft toy...this soft toy's whole stock happen to be on the shelves n clearly the design he wanted was'nt there...but there was this big box of new stock tat juz came in which i have'nt taken stock n displayed yet...so i opened the box n rummaged thru the whole thing before i discovered the design he wanted right at the bottom...i showed it to him n he was like 'yes! tat's the one. thank you' ...he came back again the next day n specifically asked for my help again...the satisfaction i got from tat was wat made me love retail...
tat's wat i believe in...customer first n giving them ur best service n attention...no matter whether u r on duty or not...i considered a career in hospitality management n actually got into the course in temasek poly but the dynamics of media n production made me take the FSV course instead...now u wan me to ignore the fact tat there's something else which could be better for the customer n juz sell him wat i'm promoting in order to get my commission...i'm sorry...i can't do tat
i need the job n the money...but bet a new hp n a digital camera which i'll love to get n my conscience n principles...i'll take my conscience anytime...i can live without a new hp or digital camera but i cannot live with myself if i betrayed my conscience

now i juz hope my agency will let me go n not give me a bloody long lecture as to y i shld stay...i hate it when they make me feel guilty...n i have no choice but to stay...but i'll prob be the only promoter with no sales...hahaha
haizz...we'll see how it goes tomolo...

Superman (Five for Fighting)

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird
I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
And it's not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
'Bout a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd
But don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed
But won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
it's not easy to be me

Up, up and away, away from me
Well it's alright
You can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy or anything

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a phoney red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me, inside of me
Inside of me, yeah inside of me, inside of me

I'm only a man in a phoney red sheet
I'm only a man looking for a dream
I'm only a man in a phoney red sheet
And it's not easy
It's not easy to be me

finally...my stupid page can load...am so abt to burn down my whole com...hahaha...lucky i did'nt

Papercut (Linkin Park)

Why does it feel like night today?
Something in here's not right today
Why am I so uptight today?
Paranoia's all I got left
I don't know what stressed me first
Or how the pressure was fed
But I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head
Like a face that I hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face that watches every time I lie
A face that laughs every time I fall
(It watches everything)
So I know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is hearing me
right underneath my skin

Chorus:
It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like a face inside is right beneath my skin

I know I've got a face in me
Points out all my mistakes to me
You've got a face on the inside too
Your paranoia's probably worse
I don't know what set me off first
but I know what I can stand
Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is
I can't add up to what you can
But everybody has a face that they hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches everytime they lie
A face that laughs everytime they fall
(It watches everything)
So you know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is watching you too,
right inside your skin

[Chorus]

(the face inside is right beneath
your skin)

The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me
The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me

(The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me
The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me)

Kiss me Goodbye

We choose it...win or lose it
Love is never quite the same
I love you..now I've lost you
Don't feel bad...you're not too late

So kiss me goodbye
And I'll try not to cry
All the tears in the world won't change your mind
There's someone new
And she's waiting for you
Soon your heart will be leaving me behind

Linger awhile...then I'll go with a smile
Like a friend who just happened to call
For the last time..pretend you are mine
My darling...kiss me goodbye

My darling..kiss me goodbye

dunno y i suddenly tot of this song...but it brings back a lot of memories...i remember...vaguely...when i was a kid...still in primary sch...when ppl still play LDs...hahaha...we used to have quite a few karaoke LDs...sometimes on weekends...me n my family will sing karaoke...my dad loves to hear me sing n esp this song...i used to sing it for him all the time...he enjoyed it a lot
now when i think of it...i find it so weird...i was such a precocious kid...when most of my peers r still into kiddie songs...i was singing 'kiss me goodbye'...n i loved the Bee Gees n Abba when i was a kid...man i was such a weird kid
my dad loves the oldies...he never got out of them...he's stuck in the 60s,70s...never progressed...n when u grow up listening to these songs all the time...n have the radio constantly on Gold 90.5 the whole day...they sort of become ingrained in u...all of them r so familiar tat u nvr really notice them...nvr really think abt them

blogspot has been acting really weird lately...irritating as hell >:|

hihi...finally got myself out of the house to take some pics...went to the area near the esplanade...its slowly becoming my favourite place...its a nice place to juz sit n have some time to urself...took auite a lot of pictures there n it was really hot...but the sunlight was gd...stayed there for a while then went down to bugis to meet robin...was early so i went up to the fountain in another bid to take pictures of water frozen in motion...there were kids playing there as usual...they were really cute to watch...there was this one kid who was like staring straight into the hole where the water usually spurts out from...i ws juz waiting for it to hit him straight in the face...heeheehee...but it did'nt...he did'nt keep his face there long enuff :( hee...me very bad...
met up with robin n had durian strudel...was quite nice...n we juz chatted abt lots of stuff...he had to go off to meet his fren n so i went home...n i don know y but throughout the ride home...tots juz kept flooding into my head...the ppl on the mrt muz have been staring at me cos i was like frowning so much...natural reaction when i'm thinking
there was juz this huge influx of tots tat i decided to walk home from the interchange instead of taking the bus to give myself some quiet time to think...to sort it all out...sat down near a playground near my place for a while...but tat did'nt help...went home...tots were still screaming in my head...it got so bad tat i went straight into the kitchen n started whipping up a meal...my mom was like wondering wat i was doing...i was so restless tat the meal juz became more n more elaborate...ana called while i was in the midst of it n i was like cradling my hp against my shoulder n cooking at the same time...i guess tat did the trick...trying to mulit-task...it gave me no chance to think abt anything besides wat's on the stove n trying to keep a coherrant conversation with ana...my mom kept hovering around me...not trusting tat i could tok n cook at the same time but she juz made things worse cos she kept distracting me...its lucky tat i did'nt drop anything
i dunno if i could sleep tonite...probably have to knock myself out if i still can't stop thinking
argh

helo...went out with ana n her fren today...watched harry potter again...heeheehee...plaza singapura was freezing

toked a lot today with ana...am beginning to feel tat i have another name...voice of reason...but its easy when u're standing away from it...n well ya...its all so easy for me to tok abt it...its the doing tat's harder...so my job was nothing much...if i was involved in such a situation...wonder wat would i do?...would my ability to tok tings out logically help me??would me being such a voice of reason help??
i'm a person who's very into logic n reason...tat's y i could never figure out physics...to me it goes against every bit of logic in the world...it totally does'nt make sense to me...i wonder if its a good thing to be able to analyse everything in a clear logical manner...i find tat i am able to display everything out clearly...to untangle a problem n lay it out...but most of the time i'm not able to see the solution...is tat bad??
hmm...i wonder...

helo ppl...nice to be able to slack today...i hope fri does'nt come too fast...dread going back to work again...

on a happier note...i got re-acquainted with the broadway songs that i have'nt heard for the longest time...remembered them when i watched the recording of the 'Hey Mr Producer' musical tribute to Cameron Mackintosh some days ago...i am so gonna search for the album...when i get my pay tat is...love every single song tat they performed at the concert...now have to make do with downloading them til i can buy tat album...tat's y there so many lyrics appearing now...most of them r broadway tunes...i dunno...they attracted me the min i heard them...i guess wat i love most abt them is their lyrics...i've always felt tat at times when i can't find the words to say wat i feel...there is always a song tat can do it perfectly for me...the tune helps a lot too...sets the mood of wat my msg is...

this is from a song in the musical Miss Saigon...i did'nt watch it when it was performing in Singapore...firstly i did'nt have the money for it...secondly i rather watch Lea Selonga in the role of Kim

The Last Night of the World
...A song played on a solo saxophone
a crazy sound
a lonely sound
a cry that tells us love goes on and on
played on a solo saxophone
Its telling me to hold you tight and dance like its the last night of the world...

my favourite part...wish i could put the music file up...would love to share my favourite songs with u guys...like u all to hear them...

heylo...spent another day juz standing around again...legs aching like hell...am so totally bored...haizzz

tomolo no need to work...yay!!! i'm so going to slack tomolo...

suddenly i miss school a lot...i wanna go back to it...i miss the class...how are you guys??

heylo...feeling a litle tired now...don feel like blogging much...which is surprising for me...supposed to start work today...ended up doing surveys in bugis...i hate surveys...absolutely hate approaching strangers n hear their pathetic excuses...i start formally tomolo...wish me luck...i hope i would be happy working

*WARNING: The following review may be highly biased due to the fact that the writer is a Harry Potter fan. (Heeheehee ;p)

Nah...I'm going to be as fair as I possibly can. I juz came back from watching Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets. It did'nt disappoint me. The movie was fantastic...I can't have enough of the 2hr and 40 mins long movie. Not to say it was perfect of course...becos it was'nt completely perfect. Like the producer David Heyman and director Chris Columbus have pointed out before...the first movie was like a discovery journey...where the viewers along with Harry discovers for the first time this incredible and magical world. Thus the first movie was packed with one surprise after another...the pace seemed faster but that was because there was so much to see and enjoy...because we were seeing everything for the first time. The viewer was able to remain hooked throughout the whole movie...wishing they had a couple more pairs of eyes to take in and absorb everything. For the second movie however...they were able to skip the introduction and go straight into the story...the pace did'nt loosen up but it certainly seemed that way. For the avid Harry Potter fan who knows the story by hard...they would wanna see all the action and get to the climax...and so the beginning of the film might seem a tad slow to them. The film begins immediately at the scene where Harry meets Dobby the house elf and got into such big trouble that he was locked into his room and thus prevented from going back to Hogwarts...which is excatly what Dobby wanted. Dobby is a house elf...a creature that is some sort like a slave...he sneaked out to warn Harry not to go back to Hogwarts as there are gonna be dark things happening that might endanger Harry's life. In order to force Harry to saty at Privet Drive...he got him into serious trouble with his Uncle Vernon. I find Daniel Radcliffe's acting in this part of the movie a little awkward...but if you think of the fact that all he has got to act against is this green ball on a stick...some allowances may be made. Dobby is computer animated and added only in the post production. They created this really ugly...which is wat he was supposed to look like...but really natural looking creature. They had more time for the special effects this time compared to the previous one and the quality is evident. The pace picks up slightly as they move on into the magical world. Harry is rescued by his best fren Ron Weasly in nothing less than a flying car. There's quite a few humorous scenes involving that car.
In this second movie we see quite a few new characters...the entire Weasly family is introduced for one thing. Julie Walters resumes her role as Ron's mom and she portrayed the usual motherly character who always believe that you don't have enough to eat and loves to fuss over you. There was quite a bit of comic relief from her side. Jason Isaacs plays Lucius Malfoy...the father of Draco Malfoy...Harry's archnemesis in school...evil personified. He did a good job seems like he had a lot of practice. His recent roles were all baddies...I guess that's becos he does them quite well. There's also a new teacher in school...Gilderoy Lockhart...the new Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher...played by Kenneth Branagh. There's absolutely nothing underneath that colourful and elaborate facade. He's a total fraud but he still manages to charm the girls in the school. As capable as he may be at charming the girls in the school...the real person...i feel...that has really charmed the girls in the audience is Daniel Radcliffe...or to be more specific...Harry Potter...his role this time is more of the hero saving the damsel in distress...I find his bravery particularly arresting.
One of my favourite scenes was the Quidditch match...it was faster, much more brutal and way more exciting as promised. In fact the Quidditch and the Chamber scenes were the highlights of the show. The Quidditch scene ws furiously fast and really exciting...you won't be able to tear your eyes off the screen as you watch Harry race around the stadium trying to avoid a rogue Bludger which seems intent on cracking his head open and trying to catch that pesky Snitch. When you watch them play Quidditch you can't help but be surprised that they can actually survive a game. I never saw such an exciting sport before...would love to have a chance to play it.
The most difficult scene was for me to watch was the spiders scene. In order too find out more about the Chamber of Secrets, Harry and Ron heeded Hagrid's advice and followed the spiders into the Dark Forest. There they found Aragog...the spider that Hagrid kept as a pet fifty years ago...n which was the scrapegoat for the real monster that the Chamber hides. I absolutely hate spiders...have a slight phobia of them...n there were like thousands of them...all big n hairy...*shudder*...i was like shading my eyes throughout that scene...torn being unable to look at those spiders and wanting to know what's going on...sheer torture
And what would the Chamber of Secrets movie be without the Chamber?? The chamber was supposed to be this really tall room in the depths of the castle...quite an architectural feat...the crew solved that by filling the place with water and dyeing it black to give the impression that the Chamber had been flooded for ages. The Chamber scene was really exciting...and newcomer Christian Coulson did a credible job as Tom Riddle or young Voldemort. The whole scene was intense and heart-gripping and very much the climax of the show.
I loved every minute of it and I think I'll probably watch it all over again...hehehe...if the pace of the first part of the movie could be a little more hard-hitting in telling the story...then this movie would be perfect. The cast did a beautiful performance as usual...the young stars' acting skills have definitely improved...though Rupert Grint who plays Ron Weasly could do to give his character a few more expressions...cos besides scared...horrified...terrified...confused...n blank...i hardly see anything else. The late Richard Harris who played Dumbledore showed signs of his illness in my view...there seemed to be an added fraility in his character. He would be missed n the third moie would seem a little odd without him. Chri Columbus have been faithful to the book as always...he has not destroyed the spirit of the book...it would be perfect if he could direct all the movies but his family calls.
For all Harry Potter fans this movie is a must...all those who are'nt there is enough action and hunour to keep you interested throughout this particularly long movie. Whatever it is...this movie is a muz watch.

A comic strip from BabyBlues...my favourite comics...this is one of my favourite ones from their archive...this comic is not bad...it's really funny...you can go to their website n read them... www.babyblues.com

heylo...juz got back from the training for my job on fri...i got posted o this electronics store in clementi...the location sucks a little...let's juz hope my colleagues r nice ppl...
the next few days r gonna be a little bz for me...which is gd...keeps me from thinking too much n driving myself crazy...i was looking forward to this few days cos i was like feeling totally lousy the past few days...being out n having something to do can keep my mind off things...
i've bought the harry potter & the chamber of secrets tickets!!!! yay!!!! i can't wait to see it tomolo =)

"I have never felt like this...For once I'm lost for words...
Now, no matter where I am...No matter what I do...I see your face appearing...Like an unexpected song...An unexpected song...That only we are hearing..."

this is getting really freaky...my two confidantes can sense immediately tat i'm feeling lousy today...how they can possibly tell i have absolutely no idea...but its really uncanny...one juz msged me juz now...asking if i need a phone helpline...the other asked if i was in a mood the min i came into the chatroom...it seems like they could pick up signals from my mind or something...spooky

anybody got any idea how to put up a music file tat u've downloaded onto a blog?? i've been trying the whole afternoon to no success...every html guide teaches u how to put up images,tables,backgrounds etc but nothing abt music or sound files!!! the only thing they have is background music which plays once the page is loaded...
tsk
argh!!!

On My Own by Lea Selonga (Les Miserables)

Sometimes I walk alone at night when everybody else is sleeping...
I think of him and then I'm happy with the company I'm keeping...
The city goes to bed...
And I can live inside my head...

On my own...pretending he's beside me...
All alone...I walk with him til morning...
Without him I feel his arms around me...
And when I lose my way...I close my eyes and he has found me...

In the rain...the pavements shine like silver...
All the lights are misty in the river...
In the darkness the trees are full of starlight...
And all I see is him and me forever and forever

And I know it's only in my mind...
That I'm talking to myself and not to him...
And although I know that he is blind...
Still I say there's a way for us...

I love him...but when the night is over...
He is gone and the river's just a river...
Without him the world around me changes...
The trees are bare and everywhere the streets are full of strangers...

I love him...but everyday I'm learning...
All my life I've only been pretending...
Without me his world will go on turning...
The world is full of happines that I have never known...

I love him...I love him...I love him...but only on my own...

this is one of my very favourite songs...its part of the musical Les Miserables produced by Cameron Mackintosh whom in my opinion the greatest producer ever...
i'm trying to get the music file up so tat u guys can hear it too...
i used to sing it softly when i walk back home at night...its something tat has been on my heart n mind for some time now...something i kept inside me...some might have heard me singing or humming it softly before...juz tot i'll share this song with everyone else

2 days nvr seemed longer...
y does time always go exactly the opposite way u want it to go????

feel a lot better today...timely rescue by evan n jason...made me not think too much for a while...
jason had a live grenade exercise today n he was scaring me with stuff like 'if i don msg u tonite means...' i had to make him stop saying tat...but he did msg as promised...as soon as he can manage to get to his phone...even though he was so tired from the day's activities...he prob knows i'll bombard his phone tomolo if he does'nt =)
it was a relief to hear from him...i had heard a lot of stories abt these exercises...seems like things can happen when u least expect it

helo...this past week has been a nice break for me...been catching up on a lot of stuff tat i have'nt been doing for ages...the shawl i've been working on throughout many hols is finally making some progress...it has been unfinished for the longest time cos i keep putting it off due to shortage of time n wool...its finally half finished...who knows i may be able to finally complete it this hols...heehee..
i've also managed to spend some time with my two darlings...miss them so much...they r so cute n getting pudgier by the day...i need to exercise them liao...
these days i'm back to doing wat my sis calls 'training to be a housewife'...hahaha...learnt a couple more dishes from mom...been doing a lot of housework for her...n helping her sew ribbons for sch uniforms...its the end of the yr again...really bz period for her...ya tat's wat i have been doing...tat's y my sis calls it housewife training...hehe...ya i know it is a bit...but i enjoy it...esp cooking...in the past i found tat its the best thing to do when u have a lot on ur mind...it really takes ur mind off things...i find it kind of relaxing...
my african daisies r finally growing!!! its all thks to my mom...i had practically no time to tend to them at all...n they seem to take ages to grow...they're still little shoots now but soon i'll be able to have them in my room...i hope there will be red ones...they r my fav...
i'll be starting work on fri...but the job's flexible...i only work fri sat n suns...i'll still have the rest of the week to myself...yay! i need to catch up on my reading next...hmm...its off to the library then

i discovered a funny thing....bus service 99 shows the best harry potter trailers...it can run continously for like five mins n it shows many scenes tat normal tv nvr shows...found tat out while taking tat service to church yesterday nite...i was riveted to the screen throughout the whole ride...heehee

i muz say tat i'm quite surprised at the results of the little quiz i created...the ppl i least expect to be able to answer the qns actually scored really well!!!
to me jessie is a gd fren cos we like so many similar stuff n she's fun to be with...nvr a dull moment...but the thing is i don remember ever revealing much abt myself to her...so i'm very surprised tat there r quite a few things she knows abt me...n actually remembered!
jason too...he has been my confidante for over a year now...he has been listening to all my probs til slightly after sch started cos he had to go into the army then n so he hardly gets the chance to go online...i tot tat's all he knows abt me...my probs...but he actually remembers stuff tat i myself don remember telling him abt!! hahaha...this is really weird but i'm really touched...its so nice to know tat there r ppl who know u n remember the little details abt u...its nice to know tat ppl actually bother to remember...n care...
jason msged me today cos he had been reading my blog n know tat i have'nt been feeling too gd these days n it caught me by surprise cos we lost contact for some time now n i have'nt been a very gd correspondent either...its always been him making the effort to keep in contact with me...i feel guilty abt tat...it was really sweet of him to msg me n it reminds me of the fact tat no matter how lonely n neglected i feel sometimes...there r always ppl who do care abt me...i muz nvr forget tat...
n there's another strange thing...the two ppl i have been confiding in have names tat start with J...wat a coincidence...heehee

helo...had an enjoyable day today...went out with evan...a friend i made while working at HQ Link last year...i have'nt seen him for over a year now n he's totally changed from the last time i saw him...i nearly could'nt recognise him...but he was still as sweet as ever...
we wanted to like some place to sit n have a drink n wanted to go to pacific coffee but its packed like always...i've always wanted to hang out there but there's nvr seats available...so we juz continued walking n see if there's like a place where we can get a drink n sit...we ended up going all the way to coffee bean near carrefour...the place's full too but we decided to get drinks anyway n juz walk around instead...he treated me to an ice blended mocha...we wanted to play pool so holding our drinks we walked all the way back again...he brought me to paya lebar to a place he usually goes to n he taught me how to play
he was really patient...explained the game...taught me how to hold the cue n everything...pool is really fun n i find it addictive...heehee...i managed to get a few quite accurate shots n actually won a game but tat was becos evan spent his whole time correcting the way i position myself...the way i hold the cue...n helping me to see which way is the best...he hardly concentrated on his own shots so i sort of won by luck...heehee
after a few rounds of pool we went to grab a bite at bugis n since it was early we decided to walk around again but bugis is a little boring for walking around so we went back down to the esplanade...the roof terrace off closed so we went down to the waterfront...the view was beautiful as it always was...we stayed there for a while enjoying it then he got the idea of bringing me to the pan pacific hotel where he said we could get a really amazing view of the esplanade from one of its glass elevators...so we walked over to the hotel but we could'nt get the view we wanted...it's strange but we sort of like could'nt get back the view he saw b4...it was around ten at tat time so we decided to stroll back to the mrt station instead...we live at opposite ends of the island so we had to say goodbye at the mrt station...all the way back he kept telling me to be careful n take care of myself cos he'll feel bad if anything happened =) i told him tat he belonged to a really rare species...there r hardly any guys who knows how to be tat gentlemanly these days...not around me at least...the last gentlemen i knew were my sec sch male classmates...when we had a class gathering we loved to stay out til it was very late...my class then loved the nite...whenever we got ready to go home the guys would like allocate everybody into groups...they would make sure tat every group has a guy in it so tat there will be someone to take care of the girls n as each group is sent off in a cab...they will constantly remind each other to take care of the girls...haizz i don see guys like these anymore...
guys usually don understand y girls like gestures like opening of doors or seeing us home n stuff like tat...but most girls like these little things cos its the little things tat speaks the most...don forget girls r more detail orientated...personally i find big romantic gestures fake n unsincere...i am hardly impressed with those pompous showy things tat some guys do...nothing matters more than the amount of tot tat goes into anything a guy does for a girl...it could be the simplest of things...like asking after her but if she can feel the care n tot u put in it...i can say u have won her over more than any expensive or big romantic thing u can do for her...its juz sad tat very few guys know or remember this anymore...