and end up causing myself some monetary damage.

wth. seriously. how dumb shit can i get?

i'm totally stunned by myself.

stunned by the cost of my mistake.

how can i be so careless?? it's disgusting. :(

goodness. i feel like an idiot.

it's been a long while since i have this kind of feeling.

the type of feeling that you did something wrong,

you want to own up but is afraid to face the consequences.

i really don't like this feeling. i feel like a kid.

i love it~ and i love him loving me :)

sweet sweet darling ^-^

yes, we just went. with van & hengka. in june.

but for dec. it's with another group! enn, eelyn & jieshi :)

well, yes. there's nothing too interesting over there @ KL

but it's the quality time that we're gonna be spending tgt (:

let's hope that the rest, e.g. jiawen, daniel can join us as well

and im also looking fwd to taiwan with van, hengka & my darling.

hopefully it will be realised yah! hehs. diff to meet schedules.

anyway.. sch has reopened for the 2nd semester.

but i realised i have a pile of mathhhhhhhhh to mark,

and that's left on the desk in office since last week of sem 1~ ha..

so i have this huge pile of markings to be done but im blogging.

and also, more markings are piling! & math is really not easy to mark.

i still have 6 classes. but they changed my 2N1 to 2N2.

students in 2N1 are like angels but 2N2 terrorises everyone! ha..

well, i know that it takes time and, i might grow to like them eventually

but for now, even when there are 2 teachers in the class,

(one to teach... and another to assist, to help out here & there..)

i still find 2N2 ridiculously distractive at times. i hope they will improve.

other than my 3N2 and 3N3 chem classes, i have co-teaching for the rest

of my classes. which means 1e4, 2n2, 3n4 math & 3n4 chem

don't solely belong to me! ha.. and that can be quite stressful yah

'cos 2 teachers to a class meaning they expect better results, right?

i sure hope their results will improve. then i'll be happy for them too.

im now officially the form teacher of my darling 3n3.

i didn't use to like them, seriously. not that i hate them, of cos!

i just.... used to like them the least. haha... *blehs*.

maybe 'cos i don't have as many lessons with my chemistry classes.

i teach 3n4 math & chem so there's a lot of time with them.

3n2 doesn't gimme as much problem so i'm totally okay with them.

it's just 3n3. not much time together and lots of time wastage

due to the many inattentive students in the class. zzzzzz...

but now, things are better! it's totally diff once i became their FT

they are more respectful and more understanding towards me (:

and with the SL (service-learning) project, i get to know them better

so it's nice. and im totally looking fwd to the sec3 adventure camp

even though many of them said they don't wanna turn up for it

but i hope. seriously hope that they will turn up! hurhur....

for the simplest reason.. camps are for people to bond together (:

he was leaving this morning - 630am flight to Japan!

then i slept till 2.30pm. i refused to wake up. :(

the moment i was awake.. i got reminded that he's not ard.

i felt rather lost. and it's surprising to myself.

i thought i will be fine 'cos at times we can don't meet for 3-4days

due to our busy working schedule and heavy workload. :l

but when i woke up this morning, i just felt so lost.

cos i can't reach him over the phone whenever i needed to.....

sigh. i hate it. the last time was when he went korea with his family.

this time round - hokkaido with his family before melvin's enlistment.

i miss him.

and so i tried occupying myself with work the whole day!

not just work la, i was also uploading pics onto facebook..

just keeping myself real busy the wholeeeeeee day. ha...

i thought of going to IMM for xiaozhu's autograph session

but i was too lazy and i have no idea where is the album i bought =l

anyway, it's now 10.33pm. & i think i'm doing quite well. hehs.

next 4 days will be busy at work. which is a good thing.

then it's friday, vesak day. i hope i can get out of the house.

and saturday. i wanna get out of the house as well.

he'll be back on sunday! :)

family. friends. relationship problems. emo emo emo.

family is so very important. without family support, life can be real crappy.

so many things aren't within our control. aren't within their control.

we just need to learn to adapt. and cope. with life.

and people who survive the shits, grow up to be strong individuals.

people who survive the shits also tend to be more matured & logical.

so, do they gain in a way? heh.... i don't know.. or, maybe.. actually...

did they even lose the opportunity to behave child-like?

'cos somehow or rather, they're forced to grow up earlier/faster? sigh.

really wish these kids will be strong. and stay strong.

and of cos, get out of those shits they're experiencing now.. soon.......

7th - sec3 camp
8th - violet's
10th - fudge's
11th - fwong's
12th - special day!
23rd - xuan's
26th - serene's
27th - jiechao's

aNgeL~*

love <3

love!

my bday'08!

precious moment.

in grad gown!

angel+eelyn ^.^

fave girls.

[nhps]

angel!elvin!van!

my fave cutie pies

[jjcsb]

g.r.a.d.u.a.t.i.o.n

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02s29 + damai + duck
edna + elaine + eric + eunice
fifi + garrie + huiling
jeanie + jelly + wen + jieshi + jj
ky + laimeng + ling + piaox
qinwei + sarah + shanny
violet + xinhe + xuan