Lots of things are running through my mind now.

Dear Diary,

It has been a while since I wrote to you. How has life been? It has been pretty alright so far. I have begun to settle down at work. Well, sort of. But the amount of work is, of course, never ending.

I celebrated my 28th birthday a few days ago. Yes, I know I'm old. Well, this year's was a little different though. No cakes or celebrations whatsoever and I decided to spend my time away from the hustle and bustle of this little city. Thanks to a friend who recommended this place to me 4 days prior (yes, that last minute!), I decided to book a flight and accommodation at this Goldcoast resort in Sepang to spend my birthday weekend there, since I wouldn't have any plans anyway during that period if I were to be just stuck here in this little red dot. So, there I was, spending my 3 days 2 nights on a resort in Malaysia that has been constructed atop the waters and to look like a palm tree.

The place was pretty good I must say, if you're the sort that would like to spend your time away from your busy schedule and just relax your mind and soul. The comfy king-sized bed and pillows that I dived into each time I'm back at my villa, and spa treatment, are pretty awesome. There are also a bunch of other activities such as the beach/water sports like kayaking and extreme sports such as the ATV rides which I thoroughly enjoyed. It is also at this place where you can sometimes see pretty sunrises and sunsets, provided the weather works in your favour. All in all, it is a pretty good place to relax yourself although the price may be a little on the high side.

Yes, I did enjoy my trip but being alone for holidays for the second time of my life, I couldn't help but felt a little lonely. Of course, the pros of traveling alone is that you are free to do whatever you want to do. You do not have to restrict to do things that your travel partner would want to do or reach a compromise. On the other side, when you look at other tourists having fun doing activities together or just enjoying each others' company, you can't help but to feel a little jealous and realise the things you're missing out on.

Truth be told, I miss being in the company of someone; be it that someone is a partner or just a friend. Someone that I could just pour out or complain how my day went, or just rant and bitch about other people. It's probably true that as you grow older you'd have lesser friends around you as people tend to grow apart from each other. Only a handful who have decided you're worth keeping will stand by you. I have lived 28 years on this earth now. Will I ever be with someone special that I get to spend the rest of my life with? I don't know. I'm leaving it to fate.

I'm tired of trying. Or maybe, I've not been trying hard enough...