Saturday, March 15, 2014

Love that we cannot have..

 

Hello folks. How's life treating you?

I've been feeling a little better this week. Even though I'm still going home late every now and then, things have improve somewhat. The lunch time stories and laughters are one thing I looked forward to every day. They helped to get my mind away from the nasty stress, even if it's only for an hr or two.

Not forgetting, I have to mention that I always feel welcomed again by my former teammates whenever I drop by for work during their shift. Knowing that I've skipped meals, they would never fail to offer me food and drinks every now and then. I feel very blessed and loved. It does feel that I've never been away at all. Thank you. I really missed working with the whole lot of them.

I think I'm up to the point where I don't really care anymore. It's happening again and again. And I'm tired of this. I've made a lot of sacrifices for this but it seems that there is always a stumbling block that prevents the smooth sail. If you feel that those things, which nobody is really at fault, are more important than this friendship, then I have nothing to say.  I shall not beg anymore. I know I've tried my best to keep this friendship.


"Love that we cannot have is the one that lasts the longest, hurts the deepest and feels the strongest."

 

 

posted by AnDy AriEn at 11:42 PM 0 comments ~~Love is the emblem of eternity; it confounds all notion of time~~

Sunday, March 09, 2014

Questions

 

Have been feeling down lately.

My morale and confidence have been pretty low this past week.

When I'm all alone, my mind starts to wander aimlessly.. making me think of things which I shouldn't have.

This is where I missed the company of the delta friends who had never failed to make jokes and kept my mind away from the emotional hole that I've seemed to be trapped in now.

Have been having nightmares of work too. And that's not a good sign.

Sometimes, you know what's in on the other person's mind. But when he/she says it out, the words you hear seems to hurt 10x as much and you begin to ask yourself why. Why is it my fate like this? Why does it always turns out like that?

What's wrong with me?

 

 

posted by AnDy AriEn at 11:19 PM 0 comments ~~Love is the emblem of eternity; it confounds all notion of time~~

Sunday, March 02, 2014

Random relapse

 

Hmm, it's been a while since I last made a post.

Have been very busy with work the past week. So busy that I rarely have time even for myself. A new place, a new environment, a new set of challenges. Well, I hope this new beginning that I've experienced so far doesn't translate to what my future holds. That this is just temporary and not permanent.

In life, we meet all different kinds of people. From the ones that just tell you whatever that is on their minds and not bothered about how you'd feel, to the ones that withhold certain things for fear you'd be hurt by it. Good or bad, these people are what makes our lives interesting. They somewhat spice up our days. 

Everyone is unique in his or her own way. You can choose which kind of people you want in your life. This is your right and your choice cos ultimately, the people whom you chose to be close with are the people who will affect you, be it in a good or bad way, and somewhat shape you. 

Life is short. Time never stops. Move away from the people who affects you negatively, and treasure the ones who can make you smile in times of happiness and sorrow.

Just had a relapse earlier. It's been a long while since I last had one. The good thing about these relapses is that, in the midst of the sadness, when I started to recall the good times we had together, it made me smile.. even for a few seconds.

In another life
You would be my girl
We keep all our promises
Be us against the world

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away

 

 

posted by AnDy AriEn at 1:02 AM 0 comments ~~Love is the emblem of eternity; it confounds all notion of time~~