Sunday, February 09, 2014

Sunny days are over.

 

Shattered.

That's one word that could describe how I'm feeling now.

As if my big T is not enough, another bad news has befallen me. And somehow, the latter feels much worse than the former.

I suppose I could predict this day would eventually come. But the timing is so sudden that it comes as a shock.

Things will be different from now on. Everything. The phone will be much much quieter from now, and with myself checking less of it. Besides that, there are tons of things that I'll miss.

I'm sorry but I'm still trying hard to digest this news and contain my sadness. Hopefully, I'll manage to adjust and get used to this soon.

From here on, I suppose I only have myself to rely on. Just like the title of this blog.

Things have suddenly changed.

Everything is suddenly gone.

How I wish this is just a nightmare that I'll wake up from soon.

But I know this is as real as it gets.

Shucks, I hate this feeling.

:'(

 

 

posted by AnDy AriEn at 10:36 PM 0 comments ~~Love is the emblem of eternity; it confounds all notion of time~~

Thursday, February 06, 2014

Reflect

 

Hmm, I've been saying sorry and apologising to people for the past couple of weeks.. so frequently that somehow it does make me think am I really a bad person? Well, I suppose I am. I've many flaws that it's beginning to show, one by one.

To those who think I'm a nice guy, well, I guess you don't know me well enough. Once you're in the comfort zone, you'll probably realise, I'm not that nice or great of a person at all.

Once you're close to me, you'll see that I'm a person with many flaws and have failed in many areas, as a person, colleague or a friend.

I supposed I've been too obsessed with my departure that I've put those around me, esp those that matters the most, in the backseat. I've failed to recognise their feelings. And that shouldn't be the case.

I've been selfish.

Again, I'm sorry.

 

 

posted by AnDy AriEn at 6:10 AM 0 comments ~~Love is the emblem of eternity; it confounds all notion of time~~

Sunday, February 02, 2014

Too fast, too soon.

 

Been busy planning for a friend's farewell. Can't help but think about my own impending departure.

There's a whole lot of things which I need to do before I go. 

But very little time left.

You know the feeling is bad and true when the little niece could detect it. I could put a facade at work, but never at home.


The trust, which I should never have broken.

 

 

posted by AnDy AriEn at 7:28 PM 0 comments ~~Love is the emblem of eternity; it confounds all notion of time~~

Saturday, February 01, 2014

And the countdown begins..

 

Ahh, after about six months of hearing the rumours and playing the waiting game, the day will finally arrive soon. Pretty soon, in fact. Somehow, the prediction from a good friend of mine sort of came true. Oh well.

As I looked back the period I've been here, it seems not too long ago that I had just started the first day. And now, I'll be going away pretty soon. How time flies.

And as I leave, I know I'll be leaving behind a bunch of people I've always cherished, while leaving with lots of beautiful memories.

I guess it's time to make the remaining days count. Even with the heavy heart and sadness within me of the things and people I'll miss, I must make sure I leave with a happy feeling. Or at least, try to.

Honestly though, I'm not ready...

:'(

 

 

posted by AnDy AriEn at 12:13 AM 0 comments ~~Love is the emblem of eternity; it confounds all notion of time~~