It has been a while...
1 year.
That's roughly how long since I last made an entry in this blog. Since then, I have completed my FYP, graduated and found a job.
Today is also Hari Raya Aidilfitri, which marks the end of 1 month fasting. It has been a blessed month. My niece completes the whole 1 month of fasting (even though it's her first time trying) and I completed the formalities for my new job in the same month.
Even though it's a day of celebration today, I don't get the excitement which I used to have. Maybe it's because I'm older now and not receiving the green packets. Or maybe when you're grown up, there are things which fill your mind, even if you don't want them to. Seeing how my niece is eagerly looking forward to this day, wanting to dress up with inai, lipstick, and jewellery. Not to mention, the cookies, goodies and green packets waiting for her. I miss those childhood days. Where what only concerns me is to play and eat the whole day. Sigh.
Every chapter has an end. The same goes for our lives. Every story and moments of our lives will have an end to them. Some of them ends on a happy note, while others not so. One chapter of mine will end soon. We had our ups, we had our downs. But the past two years has been a journey that I will never regret. I always know that this day will eventually come. But when it did come, I somehow got affected. I ought to be happy and thought that I will be strong. But it just seems that a part of me has been hit by something sharp and hard. I guess the moments and bond that we shared are the reasons for this desolation. But for the sake of all parties involved and their happiness, I have to let go. I cannot be selfish. Even if I'm not able to now, I have to start trying to. I have to...
That's roughly how long since I last made an entry in this blog. Since then, I have completed my FYP, graduated and found a job.
Today is also Hari Raya Aidilfitri, which marks the end of 1 month fasting. It has been a blessed month. My niece completes the whole 1 month of fasting (even though it's her first time trying) and I completed the formalities for my new job in the same month.
Even though it's a day of celebration today, I don't get the excitement which I used to have. Maybe it's because I'm older now and not receiving the green packets. Or maybe when you're grown up, there are things which fill your mind, even if you don't want them to. Seeing how my niece is eagerly looking forward to this day, wanting to dress up with inai, lipstick, and jewellery. Not to mention, the cookies, goodies and green packets waiting for her. I miss those childhood days. Where what only concerns me is to play and eat the whole day. Sigh.
Every chapter has an end. The same goes for our lives. Every story and moments of our lives will have an end to them. Some of them ends on a happy note, while others not so. One chapter of mine will end soon. We had our ups, we had our downs. But the past two years has been a journey that I will never regret. I always know that this day will eventually come. But when it did come, I somehow got affected. I ought to be happy and thought that I will be strong. But it just seems that a part of me has been hit by something sharp and hard. I guess the moments and bond that we shared are the reasons for this desolation. But for the sake of all parties involved and their happiness, I have to let go. I cannot be selfish. Even if I'm not able to now, I have to start trying to. I have to...
posted by AnDy AriEn at 1:46 PM
~~Love is the emblem of eternity; it confounds all
notion of time~~
