Me, Myself and I..: July 2005

Saturday, July 30, 2005

30th July...

Oh well, so 30th July has come again.. What's so significant about this day you may ask..

Well, it was on this day two years ago that my heart was broken by someone.. If I were to recapped the whole story bit by bit here, I reckoned I wouldn't be able to finish without writing a super long entry.. So, I'll just cut the long story short and state the main points..

My poly life had just started then and everything seemed to be going well.. Then got to know this girl.. and after some time and after certain things which she did to me, I began to fall for her.. But before I managed to tell her abt my feelings, 30th July 2003 came.. On that day, I saw her with a guy and I knew then that they were a couple.. My whole world seemed to collapse then and I lost the mood to study, eat or sleep for the few days thereafter.. Maybe becoz this is the first time I've fallen for someone so deeply but yet my heart had to be shattered into pieces.. I went around sometimes wearing a smile but that was just a facade I put up so as not to bother anyone..

Many questions began to fill my mind on the things that had happened.. Anyway, she did noticed my unusual self and asked on my sudden change in mood.. Well, about two or three days after, I did tell her abt my feelings.. and guess what's her reply? That maybe I was late!! Oh my, what a 'nice' reply huh..

Days and months went by and unfortunately I still can't accept what had happened to me.. There even came a time when our friendship nearly ended coz of my refusal to face reality.. Luckily though, I told her I would try my best to forget her and treat her as just a friend. But I know that I had just lied to her as well as to myself (If you are reading this, I'm sorry for the lie)..

The 'turning point' for me came not long ago, when after one and a half years of carrying a broken heart, I have finally decided that I shouldn't wait and move on instead.. It was quite a difficult decision to make as I decided to look forward towards the future and stop dwelling on the past.. Though the pieces of my heart are slowly but surely coming back together, I know that there will always be a scar on my heart reminding me that on that day, someone had broken my heart very dearly.. Till today, there are still many qns that are unanswered and I guess as long as I live, I would occassionally be reminded of that day becoz although the past might have been forgotten, the 30th July scar will always be there..

Anyway, I wrote abt this day too for my EQ journal.. Well, it was actually a last minute decision coz I have intended to write about a newspaper article but changed my mind at the 11th hour.. Okay, so here's what the lecturer commented on my piece..

"Giving up on liking someone is not easy, one and a half year is considered good, especially when you are still in the same school as her. I'd taken much longer. Hope you've learnt more about yourself throught this experience"

And I thought I took a very long time to get over it but someone would have taken longer? Oh well, I'm a guy, so should get over this emotional thingy more faster huh.. But her comments are very comforting indeed.. And yeah, I definitely learnt something from this unfortunate chapter of my life..
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A certain date wouldn't be very special if something occurred only on that year.. Yeap, on 30th July 2004, exactly a year after my heart was broken, I passed my traffic police practical test and got my Class 3 driving license.. Such an irony isn't it to get my license on that particular date.. Well, I was nevertheless overjoyed of course to be able to pass the test on my first try and at the same time save $$ and time in going for further lessons..

Yeah, so now after one year, my p-plate is finally off and I am finally and officially a fully qualified driver!! Getting my first car still remains a dream however but I shall work towards it!

So, it's been two years now since I was heartbroken and one year since I got my license.. As the clock ticks by, I wonder what is in store for me this year.. Well, I hope nothing happens and even if something were to happen, I hope it would be a positive one.. Hmm, let's just wait and see..

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

When others take you for granted...

How would you feel if people take ur kindness for granted? Well, it sucks of course. And I'm feeling very sucky now. Being too nice everytime wouldn't get you anywhere.

I may have the fierce, 'cold-face killer' look but I feel I'm constantly being 'bullied' by other pple. The fact is, I just don't have the heart to turn down pple's request and demands. And I know this is not the right way. I need to be firm when neccessary. But as said earlier, I just dun have the heart.

Oh well, it's just me I guess. Stupid, idiotic me.

Sunday, July 10, 2005

Melbourne - The Finale

WohOoOo! I have some time to blog. Thus, I shall blog on the last part of my Melbourne trip - THE FINALE!! hahaaa..

Trip to Melbourne - Part 5

Hohoho.. the last few days before our departure back would have to be the most memorable ones.. A lot of things happened during those few days =D..

Firstly, on the last tuesday night before we head back, we had a 'night excursion' to the nearby park where the Melbourne Museum and the World Heritage Site are situated.. Me and Zhi Yong decided to act cool on that nite and brought our sunglasses.. haaa.. Yuppz, so we took some pictures there coz that was supposed to be our last chance to take night pics there.. Unfortunately though, sum pics are abit dark and blur coz of the lack of light present.. Anyway, here are a few of the pics..

Me acting cool outside our apartment, getting ready for our night journey..lolx

The World Heritage site.. WoOoOo, nice lightings yar! I love it!! =P

6 bodyguards surrounding the sole princess!! hahaaa.. Very well protected indeed! =D

The 3 siblings in action.. haaa..

All the other guards have perished and left me alone.. I was the sole survivor! And my mission? To protect e princess!! Wahahaaa.. *stop my crap*

On the next day, which is wednesday, some of us went to the zoo from morning.. But me, Zhi yong, Samantha and Ellyana did not follow.. We went out sightseeing ourselves instead.. One of the places we went to was the St Patrick's Cathedral.. And we oso went to sum other places on the way, which we surprisingly nvr reached during our time there.. haaa.. 2nd last day then know sia..lolx.. After that, had planned to meet the rest to visit the Botanical Garden together but somehow time, weather and other things denied us the chance.. So, we met with the rest near the Yarra river under the rainy weather..

Me and Zhi Yong outside the St Patrick's Cathedral

Ellyana, Me and Samantha at the statue outside the cathedral

Me and Ellyana =)

At Yarra river.. Nice rainbow huh? =PpP

Met with the rest at abt 5 plus at the Yarra river.. At this point, I want to apologise to samantha.. miscommunication, she shld know wat it is abt.. sorrie -_- Anyway, this is where the real highlight begins! Joseph suggested me to buy flowers.. for who? You'll know later..lolx.. So me and him departed for the rest and headed to Swanston street direction to hunt for flowers.. Unfortunately, it's not easy to find nice flowers there.. Maybe coz its late, nearing the night oready.. But after much searching and deliberation, we settled on this bouquet of roses.. For me it's nice, maybe coz this is the first time i'm buying flowers for someone.. hahaa.. So, after the roses are bought, we headed to Crown to meet the rest and have our buffet dinner there, and of course, to give the flowers to that 'someone'..lolx..

Me with Ellyana after giving her the roses.. Oh yeah, Joseph even took a short clip of me giving the flowers.. Quite funny when i reviewed it.. haa..

The bouquet of roses.. Nice? =PpP

2 guys fighting for a girl? hahaaa... yaya, i'm crapping once again.. That's Wendy(Ellyana's fren) on the left btw.. Pic taken after our buffet dinner.. *burpz*

hohoho.. Me with Ellyana.. Nice huh? Better say nice, if not #@*%$#@^!! hahaaaa...

After the dinner, i watch some of the rest losing/winning their $$ at the casino on the top level of the crown.. and after that, we headed home to our apartments.. it was nearly midnight by then.. Anyway, that wednesday would have to be one of the greatest day/night I've ever had for more ways than one!! hahaa.. These memories shall remain firmly in my heart forever!! WoOohOoO!~!~

The next day, our last day in Melbourne, we went back to RMIT in the morning for our last time.. quite a sad thingy.. We met our supervisors and some of the staffs there who have one way or another help our stay there a pleasant one.. And of course, me and Zhen Yang went to meet Rebecca to say our last goodbyes.. She even got us a little souvenir.. hehee.. Nice!! =) Then we rushed back to our apartments to book out.. And by 12 noon, we were on our way to the airport.. Oh yah, i had to mention this incident.. While checking in at abt 2 plus, we had to go thru all these security checks thingy.. Then got this female airport officer takes out the roses.. For a moment, i thot she would say that flowers are prohibited.. But luckily, she said, "Wow, beautiful flowers you have here!" Phew! I just smiled at her.. hahaa.. Anyway, after that, we thot we were on our way home oready.. But after boarding the plane, we were informed that the flight would be delayed for 4 hours!!! what the *toot*! All becoz of sum problem with the cargo door.. So we had to alight and rot and wait until 7.30 b4 we board the plane again.. And we safely touched down at Changi at abt 1.30a.m., when the actual time of arrival was initially set at 9.15pm.. all becoz of that delay lor.. but nvm, better to be safe yar.. =) Once I picked up my luggages, I was greeted by my dad, mum and sis.. Other parents were there too to picked up their sons/daughters.. After taking our last grp photo, we headed home in separate directions..

Last grp photo at the basement of our apartments.. sad moment.. -_-

Me, Zhi Yong and Jing Wei outside the departure hall of Melbourne Airport =)

Grp photo inside the departure hall..

Everyone looked so sian becoz of the delay, including me!! hahaaa...

Finally reached Changi airport and had our last grp photo of the whole trip.. haiz, sadzz... =(

SO, that's it for the updates.. In total, I had broken the whole trip into 5 updates if you had follow my posts closely.. But the most memorable one would have to be this last update.. hahaa.. A smart person would know why.. hehee.. Oh well, it's about 6 weeks since we left and I'm starting to miss my time there.. haiz.. but nvm, i shall promise myself when i start working oready, I shall go back to Melbourne again for holiday!! Weeeeee.. ~We may not be in Melbourne anymore but the beautiful memories still remain~

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It's theoretically sunday now, so the weekly votes for the so called hottest blogs in singapore was collated b4 being resetted.. visited the site juz nw.. quite shocked to see my bloggie on the 5th spot(click on this link) of the top 100 blogs..lolx.. Thanx to anyone who did vote for my humble blog.. hahaa..

haiz, feeling tired now.. dunno whether i shld sleep or continue my study for the quizzes.. arrggh, i hate studying!! i need a catalyst to push me forward! seriously in need of one!! Help!!! =_=

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Momentary happiness

OMG! opened my letter-box just now and found a letter from MINDEF! and it's asking me to book for my medical examination!! So fast!! Wow, can't imagine how soon it would be before I will start to serve the nation.. It would be less than a year from now.. Less than a year b4 I will train to be a REAL MAN! hahaaaa...

Anyway, moving over to sum serious matters, if you had seen the news, London was rocked with blasts just a day the city was given the right to host the 2012 Olympics. The attacks were, however, not thought to be related to the OIC decision.. PM blair was stated as saying that terrorists were behind those attacks and it's thought to be aimed at the G8 summit that was starting at Gleneagles, Scotland when the blasts occured..

Haiz, its sad that this has to happen.. Especially when London is still supposed to be celebrating now in view of the Oympics victory.. Sigh, condolences to those who have died because of the attacks as well as to their family members.. And may the perpetrators be brought to justice!!

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

Melbourne - Part 4

Hello!!! hahaa.. Shall continue on my overdue Melbourne updates today.. Had difficulties accessing the online photo gallery hence the 1 week delay or so.. Anyway, this update will be the 2nd last one.. The last and the most exciting and memorable one shall be updated next time.. Stay tuned =)

Trip to Melbourne - Part 4

Well, a couple of interesting things happened in the last few weeks of the trip.. Had our usual stuffs in sch and our apartment.. But yeah, we did celebrate Doreen's birthday on the 2nd last week.. Had dinner in a restaurant, cut a cake and later went to somewhere to 'chill'.. hahaaa..

Posing for picture while having dinner..

Doreen making her wish b4 cutting the cake.. hMmM, wonder what's her wish.. lolx

Doreen cutting her birthday cake, with Zhi Yong and Sam looking on..

On the last friday of the trip, we went to the Draculas.. and guess how much it cost?!? A whopping 55 aussie dollars!!! wahahaa... Yeah, the whole thing consist firstly a ride on a ghost train, then had a 3-course meal and in between the meals we were entertained with hilarious segments.. Although we had a great night, i still think that A$55 was still a bit too much.. but nvm, haaa... Photography was unfortunately not allowed inside their premises, just like the penguin parade in Phillip Island..

Picture inside the Draculas, secretly taken by someone..lolx..

The coffin-like dessert.. NiceEeEe~!~!

Me with one of the cast in the Draculas.. What is she pointing at? MeOwWw!! =PpP

Hmm, on the last Sunday, we went to the Direct Factory Outlet(D.F.O)..Took a train to get there.. There's a lot of shops there with goods having discounted prices.. Didn't bought anything though except for a pair of sunglasses partly becoz of budget constraint..lolx..

Me and Zhi Yong outside D.F.O

Me and Samantha at a cafe in D.F.O

Thank you Mum, Dad, Sis and everyone who has helped me in one way or another. Without ur constant encouragement, I wouldn't have been here today... hahaaa... =X

Me and Doreen trying to act cool in the train.. (That Doreen asked me not to smile but she smiled instead!! arrgghh.. =_=)

Anway, here's some pics of our apartment and a pic of me acting stupid.. haaaa...

A Pic of our bed in of the rooms(My room actually..lolx)

The corridorr leading to our apartment(Pic taken at nite)

The Clock Tower! Symbol of the apartments there.. When you are lost, juz look for it and it will lead you back to the apartment.. hahaa..

Look! I got 4 hands!!! And that little teddy is enjoying his music!! wahahahaa...

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Hmm, juz had a normal day today.. For the EIC lesson, we had to do a practice on the EQ journal.. had initially thought of wanting to write on an article.. but changed my mind at the last minute just now and did on my personal experience instead.. lolx.. And it's about my first poly year.. shall not elaborate too much on what i've written.. but yeah, the title of my journal reads 30th July 2003.. hahaaa.. like no other title sia, muz put date.. lolx.. Had PPChem practical after break and the experiment lasted more than 3 hrs, tink the longest I had so far... started as one of the first few groups but in the end, we were the last to finish.. hahaa.. always liddat sia... has sumone put a curse on us?!? lolx.. Had some discussions on the impending Chalet & BBQ and then I made my way home..

Oh btw, as you can see from the tag-board, found out the webbie that Calyx found my blog from.. And the webbie is titled The Hottest Blogs in Singapore! lolx.. I dun remember whether i did sign up before in this webbie or not.. got short term memory lah.. haaa.. but surprisingly, I'm in the Top 100!!! And the last time i went in, I'm in position 52! It'll keep changing throughout the week and the top 5 blogs will be the winners for that week! Although the accuracy is unknown, it's a pleasure to have your blog add up there.. hahaa... To be in the top 5 would however still be something i dare not think about..lolx..

Okie dokie, that's it for now.. Looking at my to-do list, i still have tons of work waiting for me to do.. and not to mention, the SUGU palace is waiting for my services.. My, how hectic my life is.. hahaaa... Oh btw, CONGRATS to London for having the right to host the 2012 Olympics!!

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

Memories of the 12 apostles

Extract taken from ABC News Online:

A pile of rubble is all that remains after the collapse of one of the sea stacks at the "12 Apostles" off Victoria's south-west coast.

Around 9:00am (AEST), the 50 metre limestone pillar that stood off Victoria's south-west coast crumbled into the water.

In a matter of seconds, all that remained was rubble.

Stunned tourists took photos of the dramatic change in the landscape.

"Reports were it sort of shimmied or shuddered a bit, it fractured and sort of imploded in on itself and pretty much slid straight into the ocean," Alex Green from Parks Victoria said.

"So we've gone from a 50-metre sea stack down to a ten metre pile of rubble.

"We expect from reports of previous collapses like this that that pile of rubble will very quickly be eroded away by the ocean."

The collapse was part of the natural process that has shaped the popular tourist attraction for centuries.

But it leaves only eight of the 12 apostles still standing...
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Haiz, when i first saw the news, my heart nearly sank.. =( for i have juz been to that place abt 2 months plus ago.. and now one of the apostles has gone..

Image of the apostles while I was there at the Great Ocean Road (Pic taken by me)

Image after the collapse.. Notice the difference? (Pic taken from ABC News Online)

Dunno why i became so emotional.. maybe becoz there were beautiful memories there.. Indeed there were, this is the place where you can find spectacular views, sceneries you can't find in Sg.. This was also the place when I started to..... (nvm, i shall not complete the sentence =X) Anyway, it's sad that there are only 8 apostles left standing now.. But that's life i guess.. Everything is unpredictable..

Talking abt unpredictable, received quite a shock juz now when I received the quiz paper for AIA.. Totally didn't expect the paper to be liddat.. We were onli inform that there would be True/False qns and 3 structure qns.. But then juz now the structure qns like so many sia.. arrgghh.. I dunno how well i would do, or rather, how badly i would do.. haiz.. then after that quiz, had an hr break and went to another quiz.. haa, tink this quiz oso will result in a similar outcome as the first quiz.. haiz.. i juz got to blame myself i guess.. Had planned to burn midnight oil yest' nite but dunno why, i fell aslp.. haiz, see lah, always last minute study.. -_- Anyway, i shall not dwell on wat's over.. Will juz hope for the best *pray hard* =)

Oh, just to add.. i have added a blog-link(or rather 2, if u considered weiting's) to my humble links.. She's Calyx.. Funny thing is, i dun really know who is she as we hadn't met b4 and the way she found my blog address is still a mystery..lolx.. But we can be considered blog-mates coz she have a blog too. (You've got juz as cool blog there, Calyx!)

Yupzz, and yeah..our dearest Weiting from her sugu palace has FINALLY added my blog-link to her 'history book'.. Phew, finally.. -_- and yar, i was being given the title, or rather nicknamed, Andi the Great... Wahahaa.. sounds like Alexander the Great leh.. Cool huh? =D HmMm, wonder when will i start working in the palace? and will I be paid? =PpP

Okok, shall stop my crap now.. later got pple 'hantam' me..lolx... tata~!~!

Sunday, July 03, 2005

LIVE 8

I know i'm not supposed to be blogging now.. Shld be studying for my quizzes on Tuesday.. but i juz can't resist the blogging temptation.. hahaa.. Anyway, just woke up not long ago.. still feeling abit tired though..

Yupz, had gone out last nite.. hehe.. Went to CHIJMES yesterday to catch the LIVE 8 concerts shown on the big screens there.. Well, if you didn't know what i'm talking abt or didn't catch it last nite on Starhub cable, LIVE 8 is about 5 concerts being held at different cities at the same time.. and for each concert, there's a plethora of artists performing.. LIVE 8 is part of a day of action across the world which kick-starts The Long Walk to Justice that calls on the leaders of the world’s richest countries to act when they meet in Gleneagles on 6th-9th July. Each artist perform for free and it's not the money they are looking for but our voices.. It is calling for people across the world to unite in one call- to make poverty history!! Quite meaningful really.. You can be part of it by putting ur name in Live8 webbie..

Well, the pre-concert segment was supposed to start at 8 but we were held up for a while at City Hall coz one of JJ's(my friend) friend was late! lolx.. but nvm, when we arrived, we didn't missed much things fortunately.. In fact, we arrived in time just before Electrico performed.. Yeppz, the band was there.. Oh, did i mentioned Carrie Chong was there too? hehehe.. Yeah, she together with Justin Ang from Perfect 10 were the hosts for the pre-concert activites.. Realised Carrie is quite pretty when seen up-close in real life.. =PpP Okok, shall get back to the concerts..lolx.. So, the concerts started at 9pm with an intro of what LIVE 8 is all about.. Then the first performance, if i didn't forget was by U2 in UK.. Anyway, some of the other artists we managed to catch are, PAul McCartney, Coldplay, Elton John, Dido (from London), Duran Duran (from Rome), Bjork, Good Charlotte and McFly (from Tokyo).. Personally enjoyed performances by Dido and Coldplay.. Decided not to wait until late, left CHIJMES at abt 11pm and head to Esplanade.. Oh but b4 i forget, got this waitress form one of the bars @ CHIJMES.. she's quite cute.. hehee.. =X

So, we walked all the way to Esplanade to have something to eat.. Along the way, saw a lot of police and army personnel, ALOT!! It's like you will see at least one police/army personnel for every 50m you walked.. And some of the roads are closed.. I guess this had got to do with the upcoming IOC session and also the NDP rehersals.. But was really really surprised by the number of police officers in the area.. Thot got terrorist threat or wat *oOps* =X.. Anyway, reached Glutton's bay after abt 10-15 mins walk or so.. Noticed quite a lot of pple eating there.. Well, i had fried rice and some sticks of satay =D

Left the place at abt 1140 and headed to City Hall MRT.. Well, was practically rushing for the last train..haha.. When we arrived at the station there, there was still the last train BUT it's for me only.. lolx.. You see, the last train only ends at Kranji, so JJ and his friend, who stays in CCK ended up had to take the Night Rider instead..haaa, poor thing, after all the rush -_-.. So, i took the train and arrived at Woodlands at 1245am and then rushed to the bus interchange to catch the last bus.. Luckily, it had not depart yet.. *Phew* Reached home abt 15 mins later and no, i didn't go straight to my bed.. went to spend some time surfing the net first.. hahaa.. Went to sleep at abt 2am.. -_-

Okie dokie, that's it i guess.. really had a great time last nite.. and yeah, it's 2 late nights in 2 weekends oready for me.. Will next saturday be a hat-trick? lolx.. kkx, i really shld stop now and START on my revisions!! Wish me luck for my quizzes.. Ciaoz~!~!

Saturday, July 02, 2005

22 Songs

Yuppz, if u had noticed, i've changed my flash.. Found this interesting song circulating on the net recently.. What is so fanscinating abt it? There's 22 songs in it.. Yuppz, 22!!! Here is the lyrics accompanied by the title of the songs where they are adopted from.. -If you can't see the lyrics, Go to View, under Encoding, change it to 'Unicode (UTF-8)'-

Lyrics：

還記得嗎（最熟悉的陌生人）
我們在機場的車站（你的背包）
你找個借口讓我接受（愛不愛我）
直到視線變得模糊（至少還有你）
整夜都閉不了眼睛（聽海）
你與沃之間有誰（情人）
一九九五年（你的背包）
比以往時候來得更晚一些（2002年的第一場雪）
靜靜看你走一點都不象我（開始懂了）
盼不到我愛的人（愛我的人和我愛的人）
風再大又怎樣（流星雨）
我要帶你飛到天上去（小薇）
為你付出那種傷心你永遠不了解（痴心絕對）
感覺有那麼甜我那麼依戀（斷點）
相信那一天抵過永遠（江南）
只是他們還不夠單純（月亮可以代表我的心）
手牽手一步兩步三步四步望著天（星晴）
你卻把別人擁在懷裡（太委屈）
無論情節浪漫或多離奇（彩虹）
我的愛就是意義（分手快樂）
我唯一愛的就是你（愛的就是你）
讓我們忘了那片海（那片海）
只要你過得比我好（只要你過得比我好)

Quite a nice composition huh.. If i'm not wrong, it's either made by this taiwan/china guy.. Very creative and it's not easy to sing so many different songs and catch their right rythem.. His voice not bad too.. Anyway, anyone who wants the file in mp3 format can ask from me =)

YEAH! I have finally finished my Da Vinci Code! Quite excited coz the last book i completed was abt 5 years ago or so.. so u can imagine my excitement.. haaa.. took me abt 3 weeks to complete this book.. not bad huh, considering it's been ages since i last read a book.. lolx.. Overall, i would say it is a gd book.. There's plenty of unexpected twists especially towards the end.. There's also the feeling of suspense at most parts, leaving you hooked to the book.. Out of 5 stars, i would give this New York Times #1 bestsellers 4 3/4 stars =) And as stated in my prev post, those who wants to borrow it, can ask from me, then i'll consider.. =PpP

Nthg interesting happened these few days.. Did my fyp yesterday.. Managed to make the base more viscous but received an unexpected news from our supervisor -> A company has agreed to give us the soap base, so we do not need to make the base ourselves.. ArgGghHh, if only it was said ealier but luckily we had only done 2 batches including yesterday's one.. If we had done 10 liao, i'll kill her!! hahaa.. so evil... Anyway, tink i should really buck-up on my fyp.. Hearing others had gone through heaps and heaps of books is making me nervous..lolx.. it's time to REALLY 'kickstart' our project liao.. Tink more time should be dedicated to literature search.. HmMm, maybe shld let my grp members know abt this.. I'm not a leader juz in name only okay! hahaha..

Okiez, till here i guess.. Oh yar, will be going out again tonite.. hehehe.. *notti notti*.. =PpP tata~!~!

Me, Myself and I..