It's been more than a year since my last entry. Many things have happened since. Good and bad.

Work-wise, it has now been 2 years since I was first posted to this command. Even though there are days of frustrations dealing with "customers" and co-workers, alhamdulillah, it has been a pleasant journey so far, taking on additional higher responsibilities when the need arise. That being said, I'm due to be posted to the new terminal soon. New place, new environment and new challenges. Hopefully, I will be able to rise to the challenges that await me. InsyaAllah.

On a personal front, it has been quite a roller-coaster ride, especially for the past few months. New people met, while at the same time, feelings may have been hurt, hearts may have been broken. To those who may have been affected, I am truly sorry. It wasn't my intention for them to happen. On hindsight though, I think I should have handled it more carefully. I wasn't brought up to do all those things. Maybe it's just craving for love that made me do things which I shouldn't do.

That being said, I am reeling from a bit of a broken heart myself. Kifarah? It's kinda hurt to just cease everything when you've been putting your heart and soul in it. Maybe it's a test... a test put forth by Him. But whatever it is, I'll continue to hope and pray that things will get better soon. And no matter what, you will always be kept in my daily prayers. I can't say this enough but I am very very thankful to Him for having crossed our paths and I have no regrets at all. I have and will always treasure the moments we shared with each other. Even though we've only known each other for a few months but it does felt like an eternity. I always believe there is a reason for everything that has happened. The unlikeliest of circumstances had brought us together. Maybe it's fate? Maybe it's destiny? And I believe, and definitely hope, that this is not the end. Maybe not today, but one day. InsyaAllah.

Well, the change in situation and circumstances had forced me to make a change in my upcoming trip as well. Japan is now back as the destination for my trip this year. It's now a rush against time to do all the planning cos it's now only a few weeks left before the trip commenced. Hopefully there are still affordable accommodation left for me to stay for the duration of the trip. And I hope the security climate improves over the region as well. Wish me luck and I can't wait for this much needed break.


Loving can hurt, loving can hurt sometimes
But it's the only thing that I know
When it gets hard, you know it can get hard sometimes
It is the only thing that makes us feel alive

 

I think I've postponed this long enough.

Today shall be the day that sparks the start of my road back to fitness!

No matter how pain or aching it can get, I must overcome it!

Pain is after all temporary.

In other news, I'm so proud to have gotten my first ever medal in this organisation today! Not bad for a first time player. Haha! Back to work tmr though. Damn!

It's Hari Raya again! Salam Lebaran to all Muslims out there!

Been quite a while since I posted anything here. Mainly cos there's nothing much noteworthy going on in my life. But to prevent this blog from being rusty, here's some updates.

My mum undergone an OP at her back last month. The surgery was required as the bones were pressing against her nerves which caused numbness on her hands. Still recuperating now. Hope she can regain most of her strength and mobility soon! One reason why we went to Gardens by the Bay and Marina Barrage after some raya yesterday. To give her some fresh from the nature.

One of the thing I've learned during my basic training was that a leader is about making the right decision, and not just a popular one. Another great advice I got from my ex-boss was to be wary of those around me, and not to be makan-ed by them. The higher you go, the greater the responsibility you hold. I'm now at the point where I don't really care what the others think about me as long as I believe that I'm making the right decisions within the set of rules and guidelines given. Others may think I'm cold-hearted but I think I've been too nice for far too long. Maybe it's time to grow into one of my old nickname, Count Draacula! hah

During this festive season, can't help but to feel a little emo. And when I'm emo, I would look through my past messages to keep me company. Yes, I'm filled with nostalgia. When I go through those messages, questions would surface such as what would happen if things turned out otherwise? What if I had known the feelings earlier and not as the last minute? What if I had declared my feelings then? What if I had not utter those despicable words? Different people, different circumstances. But otherwise, the outcome now is still the same. I'm celebrating raya alone, with my family. Haha.

My one week break ends today. Shucks, how time flies. Oh well, ciao!

What's wrong with me? I keep eating and yet I keep on losing weight! All in all, I've lost about 16kgs since I'm posted here! If only the tummy loses its fats like the rest of the body too! Argh.

It doesn't help when the people who matter have lost their confidence in you. And now, my confidence is shattered. Sigh.

Pejam celik pejam celik, a quarter of 2016 will be ending soon. How time flies. Have you started to work towards your new year resolution yet? Hah.

Today was my niece's 10th birthday! Happy birthday le niece! And whenever this happens, i'll feel old cos that means my birthday is coming pretty soon too! And oh god, it's my big 3 this year! :O

Anyway, was out shopping for her birthday present the other day at Smiggle @Jem. I have to say, the customer service at this outlet is pretty impressive. Having been at the store for quite some time while thinking what to buy, one of the staff approached me and explain to me some of the items they have there. I then asked if they have this particular item which I found was not on display in the store. She made a check inside and tadaaa came back with the exact item, saying it's the last piece that they have. And that's not all. At the cashier, when I was paying for the item and wrapping paper, the same staff offered me to wrap the item at the back of the store, even though they normally don't provide such service! Wow, this is what I called going the extra mile. Sadly, forgotten to take down her name (partly cos scared she thought I wanna get to know her pulak! Haha) so that I can compliment her formally. Anyway, thumbs up to the service staff at Smiggle@Jem!

Went to my NS friend's wedding yesterday at the grassroots club at YCK. For a Malay wedding, it was quite grand I must say. Quite a large variety of food (including churros!). And of course, wedding is also a good place for me to cuci mata. Probably I should strive to go for all the wedding invites I receive. Who knows, my other half is destined to be amongst those attendees? Haha!

After feasting at the wedding, made my way to Northpoint to celebrate the advance birthday of my niece. How? The way my family knows best... eating! Haha. Have lost a lot of weight since I'm posted to this new place, so not a bad way to gain back some right? Just hope the fats don't just go to my tummy cos that's one place I don't need it to get bigger than it already is. Zzzz

Took couple of days leave during the long weekend just to have some rest and planning the dates to take leave for my next vacation. But to know the number of days to take leave, you need to know where you're going. And now, I still don't have a clue to my destination. Any ideas? Probably I should start making a list of my possible destinations and strike them off once I visited the place. But then, with the current security climate, there are probably some places which I should probably not go for the time being. Esp if I were to travel solo. Hmm..

Was looking back at some of my old chats (yes, sentimental as always.. Haha), and it's interesting to see how promises can easily be forgotten. If words can be forgotten, promises can be broken, then what's the use of making them in the first place? It does make me realise, no matter how close you are to the person right now, you will almost definitely drift apart after some time. Unless, you make an effort to stay in contact with each other. Sadly, such cases are few and far between.

To my dearest partner, Pinky,

In a few days time, you'll be moving on to a new phase of life. To be with someone you love for the rest of your life. As a friend, your partner-in-crime, I can never be more happy to witness this joyous occasion.

I do know though, once you step into this next stage, there'll even be lesser interactions than it is already now between us. As such, I just would like to say, thank you for everything. Thank you for having me as your friend. You're someone that I could trust and share whatever I have in my mind with. I'll never forget the many jokes and the moments we shared, especially those when I was still at SCC. And how could I forget the couple of chill-out sessions which helped to relieve stress from both of us. I also would like to apologise for having owed you birthday gifts which I've yet to reciprocate up till today.

I know I'm not married myself but I've heard quite a bit of advice which my elders usually give to the newly weds. Setelah sah bernikah, maka si suami akan menjadi ketua rumah tangga yang dibina itu. Kalau ingin keluar rumah, mintak izin and beritahulah si suami dahulu. Dengarlah cakapnya.

I'm looking forward to see you on the dais this Sunday as the queen for the day! Insyaallah. Congratulations on your marriage, Pinky. May this union lasts till Jannah!

"Impossible.. Impossible.." Nope, it's now possible! My partner-in-crime is getting married! :)

Best wishes,
Brain

Hello world.

I'm on a week vacation now. So, have some time to visit and write on this dusty blog of mine. Not sure how many readers I still have now though. Haha.

Didn't plan for a trip out of Singapore for this period as I've only recently went for one about a month back. No time to plan lah, especially with shitty things happening at work recently. I've so far spent the week resting and cleaning my room. It's also a good time for me to take a short break from the fast pace of my cyclic shifts and re-energise myself before facing the war again when I'm back.

Went to Adventure Cove Waterpark yesterday. My first time. The rides are quite fun, the snorkelling was interesting, especially for newbies like me. That being said, although i haven't been to many water-based amusement parks in my life, I would think the sunway lagoon in Malaysia would have more variety. Nevertheless, still a decent place to go to especially if you don't feel like getting out of the country.

About a week ago, I went to my ex domain's night! Was kinda hesitant to go initially cos I was afraid that I would be held up at work (as it was my morning shift) and that there would be no close friends around for me to talk to. Fortunately, I just went ahead and thank god I did that. I managed to spend some time meeting some old friends and superiors and catching up with them. It was nice seeing them after a while.

Few of my friends have gotten / are getting married these few months. Honestly, I feel happy for them. Getting hitched is an important milestone in one's life. Wish you all an everlasting happiness in your marriage! And for any trials and tribulations that may come thereafter, always look back and remember what makes you attracted to and married each other in the first place.

I'm turning 30 years old this year and yes, I'm that old. With the wedding fever around these few months, I can't help but ask myself what's my fate? The niece keep asking me these days why haven't have a girlfriend, esp since I'm approaching 30 this year. Well, if the jodoh hasn't arrive yet, nak buat macam mana kan. Takpe, aku akan sentiasa bersabar and hopefully, the one I have been waiting for will arrive soon. Aku juga mahu tengok keluargaku gembira. Sesungguhnya Dia menjadikan kita semua berpasangan..

When the rain is blowing your face, and the whole world is on your case. I could offer you a warm embrace, to make you feel my love.