
First of all, I would like to say I am so happy to be making new friends in school and connecting with old ones. I needed to know I wasn't always doomed to just have Mormon friends from here on out. Not that I don't love my Mormon friends, I mean Melanie, Jeni, Danielle, Cassie, Kristal, Samantha, Ashley, Sir Ryan, Crisco, etc., you are guys are the greatest. I just never saw myself ever becoming an insular person who takes comfort surrounding ones self with people that are so much alike in beliefs and style of living. It is safer and more comfortable to do that for some, but what do you learn? Inspiration in this world often comes from the investigation of the unknown and open mindedness to all thought. We don't have to be of the world, but to get the greatest understanding we must openly invite persons of different ideas and ways of doing things to fully understand where we sit in the stand in the this world. Don't be afraid of different people! Cherish them, they often enlighten our souls more than any other person can.
Other than the good things going on amidst my crazy life, this week has been such a mood altering week! Yes! I have been in the dumps since I have gotten married, not because of my wonderful Derrick, but because of the dreaded birth control shot call Depo Provera. Yeah, I am talking about birth control, but it really has effected my life this last year. I wouldn't usually blog something so personal, but I feel people should know the truth about this drug. For those who knew me before, I bet most of you would say I lost my crazy streak and happy-go-lucky nature. Finally, we connected the dots of why I have been acting so unlike myself. So sorry my pregnant friends waiting for me to jump on the baby bandwagon, I am coming off birth control for health and not a baby! It is just not worth living life with a mood altering cloud constantly over your head for a .03% chance of getting pregnant. We are still preventing with not as effective ways. We have come to the conclusion, if we get pregnant that sucks for us, but we will rise to the challenge and we know it will turn into a blessing even if we aren't ready for it right this second.

My advice for anyone wanting to use the birth control shot: DON'T DO IT! The almost absolute pregnancy protection, not having to remember a pill, or follow a cycle and lack of having a period is great. Though the mental side effects like sadness, mood swings, loss of the bodies calcium and the fatigue aren't so great. Not to mention most women can't even have a chance of getting pregnant for at least 6 months after taking the drug. For some it takes years for them to ovulate correctly again to make it possible to get pregnant. Doctors don't even mention those after effects of the shot! And for the effects during the doctors say it is all very mild and make it less of a deal than it is. Don't take it and hurt your health like I did!
