earth

these are little baby tomatoes from my garden. they are sooo delicious and i am so proud of them. lately i've been thinking about why i love plants so much. luckily i have a kind roommate that puts up with my slight obsession and i am grateful for her. i love that i can grow stuff and eat it and share the things i grow. i love that the earth provides a way to be self sufficient and i love that you can watch the growth and progress of the things that grow.

THANK YOU MOTHER EARTH FOR YOUR LOVE AND GENEROSITY.

how i'm feeling

heavy

my shoulders feel heavy. a lot of invisible weight feels like it's resting on them. i think this is an indicator of being under a lot of stress...but i guess it's a good kind of stress? i'm really blessed with so much and i don't have much to complain about. it reminds me of one of those sayings, "when you complain about being full from eating too much, remember to be grateful you have food to eat". so what i mean is i might be stressed about work but i'm grateful i have a job so i can pay my bills. or i might be stressed about being so busy but i'm grateful i have so many people to share my time with.

update: last night i stopped by dreamcatcher pam's house. she said she has been thinking about me all day and i sat down in front of her and she released my shoulders. i feel better today, the weight is there but not so heavy.

“I believe that the first test of a great man is his humility. I don't mean by humility, doubt of his power. But really great men have a curious feeling that the greatness is not of them, but through them. And they see something divine in every other man and are endlessly, foolishly, incredibly merciful.” 

― John Ruskin

WHAT MORE DO YOU PEOPLE WANT FROM ME

i am very grateful for my job but lately i have felt pulled in every direction. everyone wants a piece of me...i am spread so thin.

i'm looking forward to taking a solo road trip up to canada next month. it will be nice to be out of contact from everyone. i'll be in my sanctuary full of french fries covered in gravy and cheese, beautiful green fields that go for miles, and days of sleeping in as late as i want.

You Can't Rush Your Healing