Christmas Song - Dave Matthews

encantar/gustar/querer/amar/enamorarse etc, etc, etc

i got back from mexico on saturday night.

there are no words to describe the incredible things i experienced there. so much love, just so much. God is good and He loves us and He is aware of us.

those mexican kiddos are so adorable i can't even handle it. and they love so much. genuine, pure, unconditional love. the best kind.

karma christmas

i go to mexico in two days. TWO DAYS! that is crazy. am i ready? no. not at all. i feel all over the place. just when i feel like i have it together, i lose it all over again. sometimes when i see kids having meltdowns in public i envy them and that it is socially acceptable for them to freak out. i mean, i know their moms are stressed, etc. but wouldn't it just be nice to just let it all out and not give a damn? sometimes it just feels good (i know this from all those meltdowns i've had in the comfort of my home and let's be real, there have been several meltdowns in public).

that's not to say i'm on the verge of a meltdown. just some observations i've had recently. and also i have so much to do.

i'm excited to be in the land that i love, and be disconnected from the outside world, and to see the mexican littles. they're my people.

then comes christmas in new hampshire and i can't wait for that either.

lots to do between now and then. send positive vibes my way that i'll get it all done!!

Bon Iver - Holocene (Official Music Video)

even though sometimes it is really hard for me to wake up, i really enjoy the stillness of the early morning. i try to go to 6 am yoga a few times a week (sometimes i end up going to evening yoga...) and on the mornings when i don't have to rush to work, i get to enjoy the peace and quiet that exists before the world awakens and begins to rush around.

texas for thanksgiving was the best thing i could've done. it was a short trip but i was able to spend some much needed time with my stepdad, mom, and brothers. we saw a few movies and ate a lot of tasty food, but mostly we just enjoyed each other's company. it is so odd to me how much has changed every time i go back. my once run down high school is now a shiny new concrete box and all of the open fields and farms seem to be slowly disappearing, one by one, taken over by new homes, apartments, and shopping malls. the familiar faces (besides my family) are slowly being replaced by those i do not know, soon maybe even my family will be gone. pets have passed away, friends have gotten married or moved, everything seems to have changed.

“No man knows how bad he is till he has tried very hard to be good. A silly idea is current that good people do not know what temptation means. This is an obvious lie. Only those who try to resist temptation know how strong it is. After all, you find out the strength of the German army by fighting against it, not by giving in. You find out the strength of a wind by trying to walk against it, not by lying down. A man who gives in to temptation after five minutes simply does not know what it would have been like an hour later. That is why bad people, in one sense, know very little about badness — they have lived a sheltered life by always giving in."

C.S. Lewis

He is the Gift – Christmas Video – #ShareTheGift