via lotta agaton

don't quit by anonymous

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and its turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When they might have won, had they stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit!

Snickers Halloween Grocery Store Lady

yes please

via paper boat press

why is the internet so freaking bomb?

i haven't had the internet in forever.

my house feels like a meat locker.

my thoughts are scattered.

why is food so good?

i love my roommates.

when it rains it pours. literally.

i want a crystal ball.

good music is boss.

laughing is boss.

i need a detox. i have the worst cold ever/the worst eating habits ever.

things are looking up.

life. is. good.

my new favorite website

advice for all my children

at least i have my health

sometimes listening to depressing music is so comforting. why is that? and when i get anxious i can't eat or sleep and time slows down. why does that happen? when you want time to speed up it goes slow and when you want it to slow down it speeds up. and why do certain things trigger anxiety? i guess what i'm saying is, why is life so hard?

lately i've been on a roller coaster of emotions. sad, anxious, happy, tense, frustrated, confused, excited, grateful, ungrateful, determined.......you know. the list goes on. but i think thats normal. people just don't like to admit it.

so i've begun focusing on the things i have rather than the things that suck. i have my health, and a good job, a nice house, a good car, a college education, good friends, a supportive and loving family, a strong mind, a testimony of God and the gospel, and so many more things.

my stepdad's surgery went well and was discharged yesterday. grandma is doing better and was discharged yesterday. grandpa is still in the hospital and not doing well. but he is old, and has had health problems for a while, but he is a fighter. and it is in the Lord's hands. and that is all you can do.

lighter loads

being a grown up is hard. making grown up decisions and choices is hard. i don’t even feel like i’m old enough to be this old or feel how old i feel sometimes. lately i feel like i’ve been constantly on my knees seeking for peace and guidance and stronger shoulders to bear my load.

one thing life is good at is throwing me curve balls. sometimes all at once it seems like. i'm still learning how to not strike out.

on the road of life there will be mountains to climb and valleys to coast [or drag yourself] through. is that too cliché? i think so. but i think it’ the truth.

its amazing to think about far i’ve come in the past year. it has been about a year since the whole slovakia thing happened. i've never really came out and talked about what happened, at least here. the internet is such a public forum (a blessing and a curse) that i get nervous about talking about it on here. all i can say is i am grateful i got through the past year, even with its mountains and valleys.

so this is one of those valley weeks. i feel like my life has exploded and i am picking up the pieces. both my grandma and grandma are in the hospital (yes, husband and wife) for different reasons. my grandpa had emergency surgery today and they are still trying to figure out what is going on with my grandma. my stepdad was admitted today because he failed his heart test and he had immediate heart surgery. add relationship troubles to the mix, and well lets just say its been one hellish week.

the thing about mountains and valleys is that they come in varied heights. throw in some plateaus, and well, thats life. so after crying some yesterday and today, i feel like i'm climbing out of the valley, back up onto my mountain, or maybe plateau. even though i feel like sometimes i've lost my footing.

you are my heart

sometimes i feel like the most unlovable person in the world. i'm up, i'm down, i'm happy, i'm sad, i'm laughing, i'm crying. i can be your best friend or a stranger you meet on a street. i'm hard to read or what you see is what you get. i'm all over the place.

and in those times when i'm feeling so unlovable, like i have some kind of people repellent all over me, my friends are always there to save the day. whether they know it or not.

so here's to you. thank you for your random facebook messages, your winks from across the room, those nice texts, friendly phone calls, prayers in my name, invitations to weddings and bridal showers and baby showers and anything else for that matter, thoughtful gifts, kind words, and many more acts of kindness and friendship. i just hope i can return the favors.