Pissed....rather...i am.

Some friends are just....so damn unworthy of being friends with....damn waste of my time....

All alone in the house now....and its gone be like that for the next 2 days b4 take off to hk....it would be nice to have a gf now...haha...well, at least i wldnt have to be alone---------....

oh well, time to just...lie down, think abt stuff and drift off to dream land...

Just another day.

In a few more hours, the sick cycle will repeat itself again...book in, book out...book in, book out...but very soon, this will change....my life will have a whole new meaning...and a whole lot of new responsibilities will start coming in....
I guess i finally have to accept the fact that im already an adult...
now i finally understand why adults envy peter pan so...

right now, life is just like it normally is...sometimes i feel really lonely, yet sometimes i embrace the loneliness...and when i do, is it because im escaping reality?
There are just too much things for a human to handle.....

I guess its just tat sometimes i think too much....but yet at times when im supposed to think that much i din....
why shd things be that confusing?

Anyways...next week....im nervous allright...but shd i act like just a normal friend?i guess theres no other option....
I shall just treat it as if its just another outing with a friend...

Anyways...time to go soon i guess....
not bad...ive not been blogging for a long time...this is my second post in a week haha...

Note to self: just try to make full use of ur time....

Memories, sorrow, regret.

If i can only tell you how i feel....things will be just so different then....
You may be the one, you may not be the one...
but right now how i feel abt u, thats real.
I wish i cld tell u how i felt, but thats not gona happen that soon..
maybe before i leave i will.
I have to leave...thats why i cant express my feelings for u...
I dun want to hurt u in the end....therefore i will take ur pain away and add on to mine.
Maybe fate can bring us together in the end....

Sometimes, i just wish i haven left...

lyrics.

Some lyrics are just so meaningful...

A new Start

I decided that I have to blog my thoughts down. Thats the reason for a fresh start. The older posts are total crap of my nonsensical thoughts. Ive deleted them, no worries. Fresh start, right now. My life will regain its colors after 11 months. ORD ORD ORD!!!!

Farewell, my friends

Thats the last i probably see of them,my Korean friends from Florida...

They are partly the reason that I survived high school in Florida.
even though they speak Korean to each other most of the time and I can hardly understand anything, it still feels good to be around with Asians =). Especially in Florida, an Asian-deprived state. Thank you so much for being part of my life...Kom ma o...

Im leaving on Friday for Orlando...
and to Singapore after that.

How i wish i can smile like that in the photo everyday....
maybe i will find someone who can make me smile like that soon...

Friends' performance...brings back memories.

These...are my friends. Unforgettable friends, who i met in China.
Ive stayed in China for one year, and in that year, i probably learnt the most and enjoyed the most in my life there.
I want to thank them for pulling me into their group, for letting me be a part of their memory for that one year.
I wil never forget that day when i had no seat and no friends and Eric just came over and invited me over to the group and it was that day i entered into their lives.
He became my best friend then.
Although now, the group no long exist together, and everyone has separated and gone their own ways, i want to thank everyone for leaving that pleasant memory behind for me.
Everything changes, sooner or later. We all have to face our own problems, get over obstacles, stand up and start walking again.
Every bit of sadness, we should all leave behind, in a lil part of our brain, to keep as memories.
Memories are the real part of us, that make us alive and real.
Even though i feel sad every single time i watch this video,
i know that no matter how much i wish, no matter how much i hope, time will never go back.
i will just look forward in life, and help as many people as i can, people who stops in their memory and cannot move on, people who needs cheering up...
we all deserve a chance to move on. to meet new people. to have new experiences.
after all, we onli live once.