Lord, we need Your grace and mercy
We need to pray like never before
We need the power of Your Holy Spirit
To open Heaven’s door

Chorus
Spirit, touch Your church,
Stir the hearts of men,
Revive us Lord,
With Your passion once again.
I want to care for others,
Like Jesus cares for me
Let Your reign fall on me,
Oh Lord,
Let Your reign fall on me.

Lord, we humbly come before You
We don’t deserve of You what we ask
But we yearn to see Your glory
Restore this dying land

Let Your reign fall on me.

haha had a bestest clique outing! to celebrate ben's and kenneth's birthday! =P

thai express, nydc! delicious!! but ex! but nvm la, ben's and kenneth's birthday! haha

http://www.edwardmonkton.com/
go to e gallery! u'll see e most out of point illustrations on e "meaning of life".. nothing there makes any sense! but it's so dumb that it's so funny =P

e "pig of happiness" is really cute!! and "not all potatoes can swim" is just outright sense-less! =P haha i have no idea what they actually mean.. so it anyone figures out, do share.. other than that, it makes for gd leisure, relaxing, brainless viewing.. =)

yikes!! it's oct 30!! =( so fast! CAs are coming.. and i dunno anything.. sigh.. sigh.. sigh..

sometimes, life doesn't suck =)

we studied abt e abdomen during anat pract today, and hence, we learnt abt e livers among other glands/organs..

haha anat pract was very gd! bay was super excellent! =) haha love his anat practs! time just passes very quickly!
hmm and bay was so nonsense today also.. cos he saw e right side of tzeyeong and his pierced ears, and asked e class, "if u pierce one side of ur ear, it means sth right?"
someone in class: yah! right side means that u're gay.. but tzeyeong pierced both sides, so he's not gay..
someone else in class: piercing both sides means u're a girl..

hahaha

bay: oh oh! i heard that if u carry a mineral water bottle and walk down changi village, it means that u're gay..

class: what?? hahahaha! who did u hear it from??

bay: prof raj!

someone in class: so how does prof raj know?? =P

we went to e anat museum today, and it's sooo nice!! haha my first time in e anat museum looking at all e stuff =) nice nice!! haha saw a piece of e large intestine, and it had like "char-siew-looking-things" on e surface.. haha which turned out to be some fatty appendices (or sth like that i can't rem =P) then there's also this plastic-guy where u can remove like e organs and all!! haha i've never seen it before, and my nice friends called me a "mountain turtle" =/ grrr and they tried to use e plastic-guy's head to scare me.. FAILED tho =P haha

hahahaha then later as we were coming down from e anat museum, we met raj.. haha and we had to remind bay to ask raj abt e mineral water bottle thing =P

anyway, i ate dinner at home.. and nearly lost my appetite! cos guess what my mum had to cook?? liver!! =/ i ate a piece of it, and thought abt e disgusting green slab of liver i saw at pract today, and lost my appetite there and then!! bleah! haha e worst thing is that my mum asked, "so are u going to learn abt e small intestine next week? cos if u are, i'll buy kway chup, tog w lots of small intestines!!" =/ =/ haha yup, there u go, my mum! and she had to add, "when u learn abt e brain, i'll cook pig's brains for u......" hahaha i just rolled my eyes!

it's so nice to be home!! =) =) cos i always have no one to talk to in my rm at pgp.. at home it's diff! i've learnt to really appreciate my home and e ppl in it! =) YAY! next whole week i'm going to stay at home! stay at home! stay at home! and get sick of home =P

in gd spirits!

life sucks..

when

1) clothes can't spin in e washing machine
2) clothes aren't dry after 2 cycles in e dryer
3) sth is missing from e pile of clothes

there are still many other contributing factors

but

life sucks..

in general





"life sucks" seems to have evolved to become my most commonly used word..

ok! i shall reply to tags first and decide later if i shd type more stuff..

xq: i'm glad u realised! haha and that u can finally read my tags =)
ty: haha yah! ok i'll go tag on ur blog soon again.. but i tag on ur board what!! =P
wendy: thanx!! i need to mug harder now.. certain ppl like ian tan is stressing me out big time!!
ks: yes ks, sooo knowlegable as always!! =P
fish: haha u're going to e bathrm now.. hahaha!! this is super retarded!! grrr! =P

spent e day in e lib trying to read snell on upper limbs (well i didn't learn anything from e dear grandfather =P).. and inadvertently falling asleep in e lib.. sigh, life sucks! all e mugging and burying of heads in books.. bleah! and then i was almost freezing and dying in e lib, when fish came, announcing that she was done w pbl!! =)

ahh! haha then it was ikea for dinner! chicken wings rock! (it's a must-have at e ikea restaurant!! =P) haha punsch roll was gd too! (it's some rum thing.. haha it's has a choc coating, and this green rectangular colouring on e top) ohh and e potato salad is surprisingly nice! cos it looks so plain, but it tastes really gd!

ok what a pig! whole day talking abt food and what-nots.. =/

a random point-form post for today..

craving for:
waffles w caramel banana and ice cream from marche!

thoughts through my head:
why do all e enzymes and cycles and substrates and all the what-nots in biochem sound e same???

people who made my day:
yanqi - thanx for ur prayer =)
marc - thanx for answering my qns on e nonsense-all-confusing-biochem!!
ben - thanx for telling me another person who's biochem isn't her forte either (at least there's still a future for someone who suck at biochem like me =/)
fish - u always make my day (haha nah just kidding! but since u tagged so much on my blog, u deserve a line or two of some honourable mention =P)
yl - thanx for ur enthusiasm (or rather, e stress-induced "enthusiasm" =P) abt studying too! haha tmr night!! =)

ok crappiness is creeping me.. i can sense it! before this post goes crappy beyond hope, i shall stop.. as it is, i shd have stopped at e smiley face in e previous paragraph.. cos this sentence is so nonsense and sense-less..

how ironic (that i spoke sense) maybe i shd change my blog title.. haha that's another thought for another day..

i dunno what i'm doing online and what i'm doing blogging when i'm supposed to have my head buried in notes and books and what-not! urgh.. why is e life of a med student so sucky?? have to study e whole day study e whole day study e whole day.. in sch, every space, every corner, will be filled w ppl u know.. studying studying studying..

bleah! haha feel better after that ranting..

back to gluconeogenesis.. big word.. but boring and sucky! i think sucky has become my fav word.. i was compelled by circumstances to keep using "sucky" cos studying is so sucky!

life is sucky.. (a variation of life sucks haha)

for those who're concerned, i'm ok! i'm just only abt 30 over, 40 lects behind for biochem.. yup! (big smile! and be happy!)

it really is very nice feeling to talk to young children.. they're so innocent, so naive, and they laugh at e simplest of things, not to mention, get upset at e simplest of things too..

today when i went for tuition, i bought like chocs and prawn crackers for my pri 3 tuition boy (marcus) and his sister, who always hangs ard when i give marcus tuition.. haha i bought meiji milk choc, and e calbee spicy prawn crackers..

marcus is a "chocolate monster" - quoted from his elder bro, joel =P and at first his sister (rae) was like "i can't eat, i got cough".. but knowing small kids (she's 5 btw), she succumbed to temptation and eventually nibbled on 2 pieces of chocs.. and when i threatened to tell her dad, she gave me e super-sheepish-yet-very-cute look and grinned.. ahhh! so cute (for e utter lack of vocab)! =)

then i took out e prawn crackers! haha it was an instant hit.. marcus just kept eating and eating and eating.. and rae, who had a packet of drink w her to try and reduce e spicy-ness, was like "there's too much prawn crackers for my drink".. then e both of them laughed..

in e midst of tuition, rae said that she could spell and proceeded to spell "o-n-e, t-w-o, t-h-r-e-e...t-e-n" wow! 5 yrs old.. did i used to know this back when i was five? =P
marcus, trying to act smart, said, "i can spell prawn crackers, p-r-a-w-n c-r-a-c-k-e-r-s."
haha rae wasn't that dumb, "it's on e packet what.. hahaha" and then e both of them started laughing like mad..

after a while, rae decided to show marcus that she could roll her tongue, and laughed at marcus cos he couldn't roll his tongue.. haha when i told her i couldn't roll my tongue either, she just kept laughing at me, and started rolling her tongue in front of me (i guess as a form of suaning me =P) haha bleah, imagine getting suaned by a 5 yr old kid..

haha there's still more.. marcus said, "what.the.hell. (almost in a whsiper, for fear of letting their grandma hear that statement, cos at 9 n 5 yrs old, i think it's quite a forbidden statement =P)"
rae was like, "horrrr, i'm going to tell daddy."
then me, being quite blur then and didn't know what was going on, asked marcus, "what e 'what'?" (wanting to know if he said 'hell' or 'heck') haha well, they thought i was trying not to be vulgar by replacing 'hell' w 'what'.. and started saying "what e what".. and yes, i think u can guess it by now, they just continued laughing for ages!

ahhh! they were so cute! =P it was def worth an afternoon at their place for tuition..

but e story doesn't end there.. when e spicy calbee prawn crackers finished, marcus said, "i like e silver packet one, e black pepper one!"
so i told him, "ok! next time i come here i'll buy e silver packet."
then rae added, "i like e red packet one!" and she went off somewhere, while i resumed teaching marcus how to count perimeter of objects in grid squares..

then as in was abt to leave their hse, rae like stood at e gate, refusing to let me leave their place.. i was really really puzzled! so i asked marcus what happened.. and he said it's sth to do w e black pepper prawn crackers! haha i think she got jealous that i was going to buy marcus a pack, and she wasn't going to get one.. so in e end i had to promise rae that i'll buy her a pack of e red prawn crackers and that she didn't need to share it w marcus..

only then could i leave e hse.. but rae was still sulking..

haha kids kids kids.. i wonder if i ever did sulked and gotten upset over a pack of biscuits/crackers when i was 5.. =P i'm quite sure i did..

lectures are not boring when.....

"tap.tap.tap."
covers cheeks.
turns around.
glares.
whacks leg.

"auddrrreeeyyy" (in whispers).
turns around.
glares.
continues to copy notes.

"audrey".
turns around.
"stop turning ard"
glares.

"tap.tap.tap."
turns around.
poked in e cheek.
glares.
grabs pencil box.
tickled.
startled.
throws pencil box.

yes, some first hand experience of e not-supposed-to-be-typical-but-is-happening-everyday lecture "boredom-relief".. thanx to U and U and U and U and U! =)

see, give thanx in all circumstances! =P

today was a gd day!

a thought-provoking start to e day during small grp this morn.. how different shd christians be in this world? are we living out a christian life? are we suffering for christ?
those qns really made me think.. and question myself.. and realise that shucks! i suck! haha ok..

after that, went for camp comm meeting..

then SHOPPING w my dear mum! =) haven't shopped in ages.. and i bought, a pair of slippers, 2 tops (both are green! =P), 2 belts.. haha that's quite a bit in one evening right? but i'm happy now! shopping is really therapeutic!

shall face tmr w optimism, w hope that it'll be a great day w great events happening..

i need to announce sth today: i did my anat tut (albeit some blanks here and there)! e first tut that i've attempted to complete.. haha well, it's an achievement, considering that i've never finished any other anat tuts prior to today.. but sigh, i'm still lagging like s***!! =/

ok enough of using vulgarities to express my irritation at being so behind in sch.. life sucks! i think i've said "life sucks" countless times.. sigh, but sometimes life really sucks! esp when -nothing- is going right.. aiyah, i kind of know why life feels so empty, feels so meaningless for me now.. but i shan't elaborate for fear of contracting e illness hypersianemia..

more of this new illness "hypersianemia"
symptoms: sian-ness
treatment: sianminase (chocolate, cookies, shopping, fosters, crustacean, comics, happy music, banana crumble!) dehydrogenase
credit goes to dr tan kai zhi ian for diagnosing such an illness

changed my blogskin =) e other one was too troublesome when reading e entries..

had a FUN yest! met grace for dinner and we ate zi cha! =) haha quite ex, but we felt like eating chi food.. so anyway, after dinner, i dragged grace to central lib! and wow! central lib is sooo nice!! haha it was my first time there last night, and grace and i were printing notes.. but e lib is soo huge and looks soo much more grand than e med one (of which e only thing i do in e med lib is sleep =P) haha and i convinced grace to stayover in my rm! so we were msn-ing, supper-ing, slacking, talking, and studying occasionally in my rm =P haha FUN! FUN! u must come more often dear friend!! =) anyway, i managed even to convince grace to crash med lect this morn! haha i'm quite sure e lect was boring.. just say it grace.. but yay! i want to go stayover at ur rm one day =) when i 'm free! or when there's like pon-able lects e next day or sth =P

so after grace left, e rest of day was just more lects, lunch, physio tut, dinner, slack.. haha there's anat FA tmr.. no more slacking.. else i'll get a BIG FAT ZERO!!

chris and ks! u two are mean PIGS!! both of u asked me e same qn today.. grrr

anyway, was just reading this site cos i was bored and waiting for my laundry.. and saw this nice story =)


The Refiner of Silver
Malachi 3:3 says: “He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver.” This verse puzzled some women in a Bible study class and they wondered what this statement meant about the character and nature of God. One of the women offered to find out the process of refining silver and get back to th group at their next class.

That week, the woman called a silversmith and made an appointment to watch him at work. She didn’t mention anything about the reason for her interest beyond her curiosity about the process of refining silver. As she watched the silversmith, he held a piece of silver over the fire and let it heat up. He explained that in refining silver, one needed to hold the silver in the middle of the fire where the flames were hottest as to burn away all the impurities.

The woman thought about God holding us in such a hot spot then she thought again about the verse that says: “He sits as a refiner and purifier of silver.” She asked the silversmith if it was true that he had to sit there in front of the fire the whole time the silver was being refined. the man answered that yes, he not only had to sit there holding the silver, but he had to keep his eyes on the silver the entire time it was in the fire. If the silver was left a moment too long in the flames, it would be destroyed. The woman was silent for a moment. Then she asked the silversmith, “How do you know when the silver is fully refined?” He smiled at her and answered, “Oh, that’s easy— when I see my image in it.” If today you are feeling the heat of the fire, remember that God has His eye on you and will keep watching you until He sees His image in you.

life sucks.. haha


Donkey in the well

One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally he decided the animal was old, that the well needed to be covered anyway and that it just wasn't worth retrieving the donkey. So he invited all his neighbours to come over and help him.

They all grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement, he quietened down. A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well and was astonished at what he saw. With every shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up. As the farmer's neighbours continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and trotted off!

Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up.


what an inspirational story abt a donkey =)

it's a nice and comforting knowing that God is there for u each step of e way, and always making ur day better.. He'll show himself in e littlest of ways, but yet, u know that God cares and He's there..

well, today i was rather early for tuition, so i was just sitting in e void deck.. trying to kill 10 mins of my time by trying to read some notes.. but i was bored.. then yl's sms came, so i was happy! haha and then ian called (albeit only asking abt tut) but still, i had someone to talk to! and in e end, e 10 mins passed really really fast..
and tuition in itself was fun! marcus (e tuition kid) was soo quiet and nice! haha.. laughing at e smallest of things.. which i found to be super cute and entertaining!

but sometimes e actions of brothers and sisters in Christ can be a stumbling block to ur growth as a Christian.. and then u become skeptical abt e whole thing.. hmm..

ok short post cos i don't really know what i'm saying =)

SCONES!!! =) sending april off a e airport.. and anna, i'm not blocking u! =P

april chin and me!! =) ahh miss u!



a quite happy photo of us at e airport! =) haha yl, i hope after u see urself, my blog won't be that boring after all =P k just kidding!

haha i just deleted a post cos ppl have been telling me that there's problems w my page.. lousy photo things..

anyway, just came back from e airport from sending april off.. and there were like tonnes of ppl there so we didn't really get to talk much to her.. but well, hope that u'll have a great time in york! (of cos, after u managed to carry ur 60kg of luggage =P) haha and u're coming back in dec! so fast! =) and we shall have a welcome back party for u, just like anna/yl/ian said haha can't rem who =P

oh met some of my classmates for dinner at swenson's.. and it felt e same cos most ppl there were in med/ppl whom i've been seeing quite frequently.. but still, it was excellent and comfortable company w yl ian ben simian michael sam marc (and wensiang who's a senior =P) haha cookie summit rocked!

ok! i think my blog is seriously becoming boring!! maybe i shd stop blogging for a while.. =)

haha i'm watching soccer now! england-austria! and YAY! eng is leading! owen contributed by being awarded e penalty.. and lampard scored! hurray! =P haha ok so weird to be happy abt it..

sigh long day tmr again..

lect ended at 10! and we had like 3 hrs to kill before our pract at 1.. haha e last 6 weeks, we had pract at 11.. and today was e first day pract was at 1, and we felt lost! cos we didn't know what to do =P anyway, so we went to engine macs for breakfast/lunch.. i think we made so much noise that e ppl there were very glad once we left macs.. haha kenrick learnt today that there can be an exothermic reaction when u mix chili sauce, tomato ketchup, tog w coke =P

oh then i collected my photos from co-op.. and everyone was laughing at them.. grrr! haha

it was e first anat pract in which prof bay took us! and he was seriously super super gdd!! it was an intensive 2 hr session, where i learnt quite a bit! =) haha and e 2 hr session felt shorter than half an hr in dr wong's lessons.. but dr wong is so grandfatherly..

haha anyway, i'm in a half-irritated mood now.. it doesn't make sense right? but essentially, what i mean is that i'm very happy now! except when i think of those 2 ppl, then i'll feel irritated =P haha oops, i look as if i get irritated w everyone everyday! i don't k? =)

well, met anna and yl at city hall today for dinner and some shopping =)

yup that was my boring day.. and e boring day ends w a boring post

You are so faithful

Like e sun, that rises everyday
You are so faithful, dear Lord u are faithful
Like e rain that You bring and every breath that i breathe
You are so faithful, Lord

Like e rose that comes alive every spring
You are so faithful, dear Lord u are faithful
Like e life that u give to every beat of my heart
You are so faithful, Lord

I see e cross and e price You had to pay
I see e blood that wash my sins away

And in e midst of e storm through e wind and e waves
You'll still be faithful, You'll still be faithful
And when e stars refuse to shine and time is no more
You'll still be faithful, You'll still be faithful, Lord


I rem this song always reminded me that e Lord is always faithful, and He'll always be there for us when we turn to Him.. this song helped me through my As, when i was having problems finishing my studying (if i rem correctly) but this song gave me e reassurance, and allowed me to place my complete trust in Him, and have faith in e Lord Jesus Christ! =) and when i was searching for songs to sing for morn worship tmr, i chanced upon this song again..

well, had a nice time talking to yl last night (early this morn) and we realised that even tho we struggled through jc, e things we rem abt jc were e fun times that mattered, e friends, fun-o-rama etc etc =) e reason why we were talking abt jc stuff was cos we miss jc.. in jc life was so structured! as in u stayed in sch for e whole day.. now in uni, there's like so much free time (which is supposed to be used for studying..) that u dunno what to do with those times.. cos i personally hate studying in e med lib, and e only reason i go in there is to sleep.. and everyone's like studying so hard that i can't really find ppl who will want to go out and chill and have fun! =( haha but anyway, i'm ok!

haha it was super FUN talking to u at coffee club.. tho i'm feeling super sleepy now.. =P

just woke up from a 2 hr nap, and i'm glad e sian-ness of e morn and aft have mostly gone away.. being at home, and having a gd aft's sleep really does wonders! =)

well, today was a crappy day for me.. was in a crabby mood to begin w, but don't think many ppl realised.. i was.. sigh, and i kind of snapped at someone outside e Lt.. said it in a jokingly way, but i guess i kind of raised my voice and oops, thinking back on what happened, i think i pissed that person off.. sigh, sorry! wasn't one of my best days in sch.. bleah, i know u were just kidding, but i got irritated and i'm really sorry, i'm not like that usually.. =/

kenneth tay came to sch today! got a taste of boring lects already huh! we ate lunch at sci cantenn cos everyone wanted to save money.. then went to uni spin to sit down and talk =) hopefully u'll have a not-so-bad-time in taiwan!

anyway, got back home and diane was online! talked to her on msn for like 15 mins, and i think some sian-ness got removed.. after that was a 2 hrs nap.. dunno why i'm like just falling asleep everywhere and anywhere.. always feeling so tired and all.. and i'm not even doing anything physically streneous, or mentally draining.. somebody tell me..

ok dinner time.. sigh.. i pissed someone off today (i'm quite sure)..

it's e first sunday in church since diane left for imperial.. and well, i dunno whether to be thankful or not, but there were so many small things that happend today that well, i didn't really feel her absence.. to begin with, there was camp comm stuff to do, then ian came! yup! ian came to wesley.. haha and seems like he likes wesley! continue coming k? if ur parents allow =) cos i think bible study's a gd source of nourishment for our spiritual walk w God..

well, sometimes it's just nice to take a step back in life, and just reflect on e small things in life.. i was just talking on msn w mel, for a short while, and well, we both came to a conclusion that it's not that easy to make close friends in uni.. cos everyone has their own other close friends..

i realise that e friends that i can actually depend on are those that i've known for ages =) i mean, we might not do e most fun things when we hang out, but they're e ones who understand u e most, e ones who wouldn't mind doing sth extra for u, e ones who can tolerate u for who u are haha (except for like fish, who hates me cos i like a certain colour =P) well, haha that's ur own problem!

haha i realise that friends are super impt! i wake up each morn thinking of lects, and i feel like going back to sleep.. then i think of all e nice ppl i'll see in sch, and i'll somehow manage to get out of bed to get ready for sch =) so thank u for all u nice friends out there! u all mean a lot!! =)

went out w "e bestest clique" today =P hahaha! we met up for lunch at e Black (not Grand, ian =P) Canyon Cafe at serene centre for april's farewell lunch.. haha e price is quite ex for e quality of e food and serivce.. anyway, after that we went to orchard to watch e corpse bride! haha e children skeletons were soo cute!! =) e show was ok in general.. very cute! it's kind of e typical tim burton style.. haha

OH RIGHT! subway has quite a dumb policy! u know ks and i bought 4 cookies today.. he wanted 2, i wanted 2.. so common sense tells u to put 2 cookies in each bag.. but well, if subway does that, we have to pay a buck for each cookie!! so that was like 4 bucks for 4 cookies.. haha then ks was like, errr, put 3 in one bag, and 1 in another bag.. so we could pay e promotion price of 2.50 for 3 cookies, and ended up paying 3.50 for 4 cookies.. and once we got e cookies, we just transferred e cookies right in front of e cashier =P sooo dumb!!!

slept for so long after dinner =P from like 9sth to 11sth haha oops.. so piggish =/

some photos taken at e airport of diane haha