hmm it just feels different now that diane's not in spore.. sorry i keep blogging abt this.. but anyway, it feels different cos everytime i want to sms diane, i realise that oh! she's in london.. then i can't tell her stuff haha oh well..

today was a slack day for me =) went back to pgp and slept cos i was seriously super sleepy! after that was like 2 tuitions! slacking now and i think i shd start studying soon again.. =/ haha ok what a short and random post..

sigh, diane just left for imperial.. and it's feel too sian to do anything now except to just blog abt it.. decided that studying shd be done tmr even tho i'm seriously lagging..

thought i could last through e night without tearing.. but oh well, really couldn't take it at e end.. even tho i purposely looked away from where diane was at, as i stared at fish, i just stood there and cried.. e feeling is sucky when one of ur bestest friend leaves to go overseas to study.. even tho u know that she's coming back.. everyone says that there's e msn, there's skype, but it doesn't beat e person's company and presence.. sigh.. i really can't imagine myself being as bold as diane and leaving spore to go overseas.. i won't be able to leave everyone back here in spore.. esp my family and friends..

a note to diane
diane, i'm missing u!! bleah i almost like cried again when i saw u walk through e glass doors, turn ard to wave to everyone, and to ur family, and then walk through counters towards e gate.. yah and rem i sent u that sms? i was on e bus, and as i was typing i was tearing.. sigh diane.. i never ever thought this day would come when we have to say farewell to u.. and even tho it's for 9 months, it's still a really long time!! small grp will never be e same.. sigh.. we'll have no one as crazy as u who would use pretzels to form letters that spell our names.. in short, small grp will be weird without u there! =/ in 9 months time, when u come back, i hope that our small grp will still be tog.. i hope that u liked e book from fish and i! it's filled with such wonder ful memories..
i just hope u'll be safe in london.. don't forget e nice harrods stuff! e nice duck rice at bayswater!
and don't forget to email me k? LOVE U!!

well, i should go sleep now lest i wake up with puffy eyes tmr, with black panda rings.. =/

haha i feel like a lamp post now =)

but anyway, spent e better part of today doing a present for someone.. haha hope u like e present!!

sch today was ok laaa.. sigh, i have 2 tuts to be completed by tmr and erm, i haven't started on either.. haha thus explains e state of lagginess i am in.. i seriously wonder how i'm ever going to catch up.. but oh well..

tmr night.. tmr night.. haha i never ever thought tmr night could come.. at e start of e yr, 28 sept seemed like a really really long time! but as of today, 28 sept is just like tmr! =P haha

ok what a random post.. actually this is just to take up time! i'm going for a short jog in 10 mins time =) haha so i figured it wasn't worth it to study..

so it's time to stay up late tonight, with a mug of tea, and mug..

haha ok so corny and retarded! =/ sigh..

had class party today! =) and ahhh, i really really miss my classmates.. when can u find ppl who can gather ard a piano, a drum set, and tog with a guitar, belt out christian songs and just sing and enjoy each other's company.. when can u find someone who just takes multiple photos of himself just to see if he's photogenic and who's willing to do all e 'act-cute 1,2,3,4,5,6,7' poses.. where can u find 2 idiots lifting another person by e ankle, and end up getting whacked in e balls by that person.. where can u experience e many pingpong balls flying overhead.. where can u get super chocolate-y fondue and eclairs made by super thoughtful ppl with excellent cooking skills..

yup! class party! =) it was fun seeing ppl that i hadn't seen in ages! like april, suai, ben, kenneth, yuehan..

haha kenneth and ben were so hilarious! ahh med would have been more fun with them ard =P

and YES! e butterscotch banana cheese cake thing at coffee club is super gd! thanx to kenneth's excellent recommendation, i had a gd supper =) haha

alrighty, there's nothing much to type now.. cept that i'm addicted to this korean show called 'da chang jin'.. apparently quite a few ppl have heard abt it! brainless show.. not that exciting.. but i'm addicted =P doesn't make sense.. oh well! hahaha

when so many people (gd friends, classmates, acquaintances etcetc) start to leave for overseas study, u start to ask urself, why not i? why stay in spore?

well, that thought has crossed my mind like a million times already.. why am i in spore struggling with anat, e bane of my life!! i have no idea what's going on for anat, neither does anything abt anat seem to be entering my pea-size brain.. why am i in med??

a while back, i was entirely convinced abt doing med (that time was somewhere in june?) yup! but now, hrmph! doesn't seem like i'm made for med.. yikes! the thought of being in an entirely wrong course has struck me time and time again..

i dunno if i'm starting to regret.. if i had taken up e healthsciences scholarship, i would be erm, prob slacking ard now, or doing an attachment somewhere? leaving only for studies next yr.. and still, i'll prob have a better life in an aus uni, than trying to cram in soo much of anat, of which i fall asleep for hrs and hrs whenever snell or even baby moore is opened =/

but oh well, i've told myself that i'm not willing to give up without a fight.. for if i was convinced that God put me in med for some reason or other (of which i still have yet to see what it is), i should believe now that God will indeed allow me to go on..

hmm that kind of explains why i'm feeling kind of sian these few days.. looking at e timetable.. each day past means e nearing of e CAs.. i know it's a long time more, but i look at e amt of stuff that i have yet to study, and i think, 'gosh i'm seriously never ever going to finish'.. i hope that thought will never ever materialise! i kind of regret not starting to study earlier.. even though i've told myself countless times that uni is not jc anymore, that i can't just slack and study like mad at e end.. oh well, it's not too late to start now.. better late than never!

never felt so stressed up so early in e sch term before.. but then again, this is not jc, this is not ac, this is not scone.. sigh how i really miss scone and ac.. all e gd company, ppl who're like there with u everyday, share e same sentiments abt a particular teacher (=P), know really how to have fun.. aiyah can't really put it in words, but haha i miss scone..

april yl anna suai abi sarah pooja megha marc ks ian ben kenneth simian zhiwei michael benedict samjo brandon aaron yuehan jeremy

haha just felt like rattling off all e names =)

diane and agnes are leaving on wed.. i'll really miss u guys!! =(

it's e hols this week! haha time to rest and have fun, and not forgetting, time to study! =P hmm i finally found e time and inspiration to blog abt e last few days.. so here goes..

fri - it was e last day of sch before e mid-semester break! haha and my anat grp went to munchie monkey for lunch after anat pract.. there were so many of us! i think it was e largest attendance for any anat outing so far =) haha at munchie's, tzeyeong sang and did e hand movements of e mambo dances.. hahaha! everyone there was like laughing like mad, cos he was seriously super funny! he looked super gay doing e hand movements too! =P that made it all e more funnier! after lunch, we went to play squash as usual.. haha i played with like chris, kenrick, junliang, jason.. woah! jason is super scary!!! haha i know what u mean now diane =)

sat - woke up and had tuition first thing in e morn!! erps, i never really liked that tuition cos e boy like never does his work! and it's quite boring =( anyway, after that i met diane at outram, and we went for lunch at tampines mall! ate e huge XXL crispy chicken for starters, then had nice sushi lunch at genki =) haha after that we met sanmei bevan and glenn for cycling at east coast.. i felt soo tourist-ty cos we were taking photos are like almost all e jetties.. but then again, i think i prob won't be doing this with diane for e next yr or so =( oh well.. after that was a super long bus ride to tanglin mall where we met up with e rest of illuminators for dinner at don =) haha went to jonteh's house after that where we played imagine-if.. or rather, i played imagine-if for a while then slacked for a while, then talked abt camp stuff for a while, then played bridge and taiti for a while haha =) so yup, e night passed and i slept at 4am..

sun - yawn! woke up at 745am.. and realise that i was like one of e latest to wake up! in fact, i was really e latest girl to wake up! =/ erps! haha of cos no one could beat ming zhifeng and jonteh who woke up at like erm, 12? =P anyway headed down to church after that, and i sat outside at the camp registration booth for ages! and even fell asleep on it haha =P oops! lunch and home after that..

mon - haha wanted to wake up early to go to ikea for lunch, but it was raining and my parents decided not to wake me up =( so didn't have lunch at ikea.. haha met fish at coffee bean in town, where we sat there for like 3 hrs.. but i think we studied for only 2 hrs cos we talked, slacked, went shopping somemore =P haha oh! saw tzeyeong there.. and raymond liang was there with candice haha =P left for tuition after that.. and dinner was at chompchomp with some ppl from my anat grp - evange serene chris kenrick jonteh junliang haha i was horrendously 1hr late!! =/ oops! sorry! haha treated them to like dessert.. oh well dinner was quite fun! albeit e suan-ning session again.. haha

tue - that's today!! haha went to SENTOSA!! with hon marc ks ian weili xinquan =) haha played ultimate frisbee.. but e sand was sooo hot to run in, and it was sooo difficult to run on sand! we were like super tired after a short while =) then they went to swim.. but unfortunately i couldn't go and swim =( haha we played a bit more frisbee then decided to play volleyball! haha i think i suck at both frisbee and volleyball.. =( oh! xinquan was super funny! haha cos his berms has a netting on e inside right, and he decided to lie down on e shallow waters, and tonnes of wet sand washed into his berms, and collected in e netting.. haha and after he got out of e sea, he was dripping wet sand! haha looked like he was shitting =P he made a stupid comment "i think e water here is saltier than east coast" =P haha and during lunch marc asked sth that was SUPER HILARIOUS that i'll never ever forget! and it's too embarrassing for him if i were to blog it here =P and ian ks weili never fails to be mean to me! urgh!! haha hon is sooo sporty! =P ok so ends my day of playing haha

oh oh! i bought this book abt this gay guy.. and i just realised that e author is gay also =) haha it's quite a funny book! shall go read my gay book now =)

haha i'm at e med lib now watching dawn lim study.. and kenrick's here waiting to be interviewed by some FASS newsletter person abt Munchie Monkey..

just finished FA - some cell bio test.. and i passed!! =) haha quite cool! but now i owe chris lunch cos i made a bet with him that e person who gets e lower mark must treat! haha at this rate, i think i will get a higher mark =P how was i to know that he reaaallly didn't study anything BUT enzymes?? haha

gosh.. this is getting so crappy!! =) it's hols next week! can't wait to just slack again.. and farewell party for diane this sat to sun.. haha party shd be quite fun, but then she's leaving soon.. really really soon actually.. in like 2 weeks right? anyway, i'm going out for dinner now =) shall blog again some other time..

haha some random photos that was in my camera =)


e ppl from my anat grp who went for dnd =) haha i kind of like my anat grp, they're super funny and fun ppl! =P

illuminators ppl who went for dnd =) there're like so many of us in med! haha jeremy was like saying that we can all go for mission trip tog sometime

this is a super weird photo!! cos we were actually falling down i think.. leaning onto weili, that's why he looks exceptionally HUUGGEE! =P



haha i better put more photos of fish on my blog before she starts complaining that i forgot abt her =P like what u did today when u found out i hadn't blogged abt bowling.....


diane and i eating pizza on tue night =) and NO, we didn't finish one whole extra large pizza from canadian.. there were tonnes of ppl there sharing too!! =P


oh no!! why is fish like that? =P (haha are u happy that u're getting so much space on my blog?
=P)

cos during bowling, she had this..........

haha 3 pins standing there.. and marc told her if she spared the 3 pins, he'll treat her lunch and dinner for e whole yr.. so much faith in fish huh =P but of cos, she's not that pro, and she didn't spare it =) hahaha!!



"A" represents me btw!! haha i think it was my highest score ever, if i rem correctly =P ok e score sucks, but who cares?? haha i beat marc ong! =) marc's the second "M"..



from L to R: evange, sam, aud.. YUP! we took photo with a skeleton called sam at chris's hse =) haha but it's a baaad photo we both look terrible =(


haha allen and kenrick with sam e skeleton =) oh! i rem sth, haha kenrick and allen were trying to figure out if e skeleton was male/female.. but apparently, e skeleton came with a name haha =P



this photo was taken at like 12 sth 1 am-ish at chris's place =) haha we went there after supper at chomp chomp! and helped chris discover stuff in his rm that he never he had! =P more supper next time k?? =)

haha just came back home from supper at chomp chomp with evange chris kenrick allen =) not forgetting that chris came an hr late cos he was dota-ing.... woah! we ordered so much and it was amazing how we finished all e food!

during e course of supper, they were forever teasing me and evange! though it was super funny and i think i kept laughing non-stop, i actually choked on sugarcane juice.. and bleah, it was super gross cos the sugarcane juice came out of my mouth! =/ bleaaahsss.. how embarrassing! i forgot who's fault it was! hurmph!!

aannnnddd evange said sth, and i just burst out laughing.. after that everyone was just asking me incessantly what i was thinking abt =P ahhh! super funny! cos it concerned ppl at e table (that's why i didn't want to embarrass them).. i shall tell someone soon, cos i can't tahan anymore =P these kind of funny things are meant to be shared.. but to e right ppl! haha

after that we went to chris's place.. went to his rm and rummage through his stuff =) hahaha! he keeps his presents, doesn't open them.. how weird right? =P and evange and had e opportunity to learn sth new, of which is too embarrassing to be blogged abt.. haha basically, we laughed alot! oh ok, i did! dunno why, everyone's comments were just super hilarious!! couldn't helped but kept laughing =)

ok! now it's super late!! and i shall sleep already.. haha my anat grp's fun!! oh ok, part of my anat grp's fun! =P

ahh i haven't studying for e past 2 days =/ slacked so much!

last night, tried to study, but then yl and i were both laughing madly at nonsense, and chatting online, and doing stupid things, and eating.. and in the end, both of us didn't study =/

today, i played floorball.. then slacked for 2 hrs at spinelli's! talked to fish for soo long =) haha and in the end, am too tired to study..

going out tmr aft, and night, and sat morn, and night.. oh no! my studying plans are failing.. and there's going to be some FA test nest thur.. stupid la! =/

haha sat night i'm going night cycling!

what a rubbish entry =P oh well.. update another time

i feel lost, seriously, lost in piles and piles of unread notes, piles and piles of unread books.. but more importantly, i feel lost in life, like there's no meaning to what i'm doing everyday, to who i'm talking to everyday.. ahh, i realise, and it just sudd dawn upon me as to why i'm feeling this way.. and that's cos i've been putting God aside..

i've felt this way pretty much often.. but then again, i was never that stressed up cos the last 7 months of my life was spent playing and doing non-study things..

why do i only turn back to God when everything seems wrong?? but perhaps, as many ppl said before, God puts all these trials and obstacles in our lives to draw us closer to Him.. i was very inspired reading yina's email on how she grew closer to God just by being alone.. i think it's so true, it's when u're all alone, not affected by anything of this world, that u can begin to pray, to meditate on His words, and to just think abt how much God loves us..

i feel very guilty for not always doing my quiet time.. always telling myself that these things can be done another time.. and not to worry.. but i guess not.. i've kind of learnt my lesson.. thinking back on the past yr, i realise the reason why i enjoyed the last yr (even though it was As yr) was cos i was still maintaining a close relationship with God =) ahhh.. sounds so childish and all, but yah, i think that was the reason i made it through that yr.. it was the strength and mercy from God!

feel much better saying all these things =)

haven't updated my blog in a long time i realise.. not that i've been busy studying, but just have been lazy updating my blog =)

anyway, on mon i played badminton for like 4 over hrs!! haha with breaks in b/w of cos! after that i went for some MEET thing, it's some missions training prog.. and since then, i've been thinking if i want to sign up for this MEET programme, which would culminate into a mission trip in may/june.. still thinking abt it.....

on tue, i actually studied for like 1 over hr in my rm! before meeting diane to go to PS to do some quick shopping.. after which we headed to church for small grp.. haha talked to jeremy and siping abt areas where we can serve in church, and had a pizza dinner! =P

wed was floorball! haha e med ppl organised it and i played for a while.. it was FUN! =) haha after that i met yl to study.. but wasn't productive at all..

haha and on thur, can u believe it? i went running with pamela soo!!! =P haha i was super surprised when she asked me to run with her.. i mean pamela and running never seemed to click =P but anyway, had fun.. and i don't mind running again! =)

fri had anat pract, and dr wong was ok that day.. surprisingly! =P haha headed over to pgp for lunch cos isabella asked us to.. and after that was squash.. haha squash is quite exciting, but then i can't really play it actually.. and played with chris who obviously had to make me run!! haha

tuition in the morn today, and after that, met diane and zhifeng for lunch at ikea!! haha diane and zhifeng ordered TONNES to eat! =) they looked like monsters! =P but anyway, zhifeng's going to lend diane and me squash rackets!! so diane, play k?? =) went town, where diane and i bought frozen strawberries from Mos.. orh, their strawberries ROCK!! =) haha.. and guess what? i bought this chi cd!! it's like all e ktv songs.. listening to it now actually.. had sam's birthday party.. it was fun seeing like some ppl whom i hadn't seen and talked to in ages! like sam and aaron and brandon! =P haha i guess jc was really a time to treasure and fondly rem! as in i thought i really liked jc, and at this pt in time, i still think jc's more fun than uni.. haha e only thing abt uni now is that i get more free time, of which i spend most of e time playing like diff sports (of which i suck at most of them anyway =P)..

yup! my week.. bleah better get back to studying mood soon..