finally updated! =)

time to update..

when someone can't even start writing a proper personal statement for the medicine course, it calls for that person to sit down and think whether medicine is really the right course.. well, i can't think of any reason of why i want to to medicine, except for the half-hearted "i want to help people". but seriously, that's what i really want to do.. telling that to the interviewing panel or even writing it down in the personal statement would show a serious lack of creativity and originality.. sigh, but what if it's genuine? i guess it's overused by so many people that now it becomes an answer that no interviewer wants to hear (btw, i'm talking abt "i want to help people").

when i can't even think of reasons to do medicine, i think it's time for me to sit down and think and reconsider if medicine is what i really want to do.. i don't think i'm convicted enough to do medicine.. sure, i think i do have the understanding, the compassion, the empathy, but do i have the drive and passion that i so clearly stated in my medicine essay as the most fundamental and important attribute one must have..

well, writing a personal statement is so tough when biology is not even your favourite subject in secondary school, let alone junior college..

maybe i'm just one of the "many students who are more concern with gaining admission into the medicine course" than really pursuing medicine cos of the passion that is burning inside of me.. i know i shouldn't do medicine for the prestige, for the high income, cos all these i've come to learnt from the few jobs that i've tried this many months.. and it's more important to choose something that i will enjoy..

what i really think i will enjoy is a relaxed lifestyle, with the company of family and friends, and with the time to serve in church and attend regular small group =)

the merciless rain!

it was storming sooo heavily in school today! and it's the kind of rain that i haven't seen in like at least a yr! cars that were like 50 m were non-visible except for their headlights.. the rain was sooo merciless! the wind was sooo strong! i was standing at the bus stop, under a shelter, and i got all wet! the the wind just kept blowing sheets and sheets of rain into the bus stop! i was literally soaked from waist down.. and by the time i got onto the mrt, i was drenched and freezing to death! and still, i had to go for tuition! (which was thankfully postponed in the end, but not first without me getting irritated) i was sooo frustrated and irritated that i randomly smsed someone to vent my frustration!!

but at least it's all settled now and i feel relieved more than anything else..

actually, i'm not any happier now.. haha i couldn't solve a pri 6 math qn!! pri 6 math qn audrey!! urgh! haha i feel utterly stupid and brainless =P