Date :Tuesday, December 07, 2010
Time:Tuesday, December 07, 2010
Title:
wheeee
uu prob dun see this blog anymore...
when with you i keep saying got guys jio cause i wan puch u away
any idea why...
well here is why
cause i did something really bad before
and then the consequences are things that will hurt u so deeply....
i really cant say...
but i just know that u are gonna get hurt big time if u continue with me
so while i still can...
i pushed u away....
and when my prob get solved.....
wow.
you went away.
for good.
wow.
fuck my life.
i m gonna go slash myself
Date :Saturday, December 04, 2010
Time:Saturday, December 04, 2010
Title:
choco is a good cam whorer...
heh^^
feel so horrible...
luckily i have choco to cheer me up(:
awwww~
i guess you dun care about me anymore...
so what does it matter...
somewhere inside my heart i still want you to care...
no difference eh...
now i know why everybody left me when they had a chance to...
gosh...
i'm an idiot...
great...
i only wished things turned out diffrently...
sometimes your actions really hurt me...
i always feel insecure with you..
thats why i always try to make you jealous...
you think i give a damn about those guys..
heh..
great...
i dont....
Date :Monday, November 29, 2010
Time:Monday, November 29, 2010
Title:
why don't you spend any time with me anymore?do i really not mean anything to you anymore?
nevermind its fine...
i will be fine without you...
thanks for everything you gave to me once upon a time...
fuck my life...
♥AMANDA' | an original @thfancycandy.blogspot.com
♥AMANDA' | an original @thfancycandy.blogspot.com
well here i'm just sitting in front of the com...just thinking back on the events that happened a few days and today....
i really feel hurt you know...
i probably keep more things from you than you possibly know...
i probably only share 20% of my sorrow, my pain with you..
my worries are plenty....
i know i'm flawed...knew i'm not perfect....
you pick out my flaws and enlarge it...
i feel ugly in front of you...
full of insecurities and grudging about my imperfect self...
a thousand flaws....
i can find with myself...
you like her...my head tells me not to be stupid...don't go there...
my heart tells me im too imperfect...for anyone...
i'm shutting myself inside....
there's a hole in my heart...
more times than ever...
i cried myself to sleep...
without you knowing...
which is the best...
you say you know...you say you understand...
but you don't...
i hide behind a facade...pretending i'm happy when i'm not
thanks...
fml....
♥AMANDA' | an original @thfancycandy.blogspot.com
Date :Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Time:Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Title:
actually i dunno whats wrong with me this few days...
i feel so sensitive and really dunno what to do...
some days i just wanna drink and drink and forget things...
but i can't exactly neglect all my problems can i?
i feel so emo now...
you...
are great to me...but why why do you spend so less time with me...
i only wished you paid more attention to me...
only wished you showered me with more love.....
ytd night you just fell asleep without tellin me...
why do i have to alway stare at my phone just to wait for another of your sms
i hate waiting...
i just wanna go mia now
and you (another you)
please wake up...
stop running away from your problems....
face them head on you idiot...
thats it to th world...
i'm going mia for awhile...
don't bother talking to me
don't bother finding for me
i asked my sister not to let anyone barge into our house so yea....
imma be dead for awhile....
Date :Monday, November 08, 2010
Time:Monday, November 08, 2010
Title:
♥AMANDA' | an original @thfancycandy.blogspot.com
Date :Sunday, November 07, 2010
Time:Sunday, November 07, 2010
Title:
i wanna bite off your head...
you idiot....
omg...
sometimes i dunno why...is it so nice to hurt me?
you're such a meanie...
you get jealous over little things and you treat me badly...
D:
but i still love you
Date :Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Time:Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Title:
its over!!!!
finally
*breathes a sigh of relief*
everyday in agony and in pain is too much for me...
time to crap...
lets see...
today....
we had phy prep exams...
it was horrible!!!!!
i didnt do like eight questions....
*cries*
anyway met up with ellen baby(:
bwahaha
thanks!~
Date :Sunday, September 26, 2010
Time:Sunday, September 26, 2010
Title:
i lost...uu
again..
i can feel it..
you are not there by my side now..
still say wanna be there with me every min in life...
are those just lies to make me happy...
i want you back in my life...
i m not cheating on you...i m so sure of this...
why would i cheat when i already pledge my life to you...
i know that you feel jealous of my gdbrother...
but baby...
wont you trust me...?
please talk to me soon...
Date :Monday, September 06, 2010
Time:Monday, September 06, 2010
Title:
baby(:
its gonna be yur bdae soon...
i love uu so much baby(:
Date :Friday, September 03, 2010
Time:Friday, September 03, 2010
Title:
i dun ever want to be a burden to you...
i know you might say i m not a burden...
but i feel as if sometimes...
i give you too much trouble...
i gave you more stress...
i blame myself whenever you feel emo or sad...
so dun ever feel sad baby...
i love you...
Date :Thursday, September 02, 2010
Time:Thursday, September 02, 2010
Title:
my hand feel super cold as type this...
this is a warning that i m gonna get aggressive..
seriously...
i m not gonna risk losing him again...
if theres another party in the way or somebody clinging on to him...
i will do anything to eliminate that risk...
seriously...
what the f**k...
its the jealously streak in me...but theres something else...
i m gonna be a bitch if there is a third person...
gosh i feel so insecure...
i never felt this way before...
it feels damn uncontrollable...
i m gonna go kill myself...
thanks for giving me so much...
i couldnt have asked for anything more...
you have given me the best love i could ever have in this life...
i am just so glad you are mine...
please stay mine forever..
i might not be that pretty...
might not be that slim..
hell i have a lot of flaws...but please continue loving me for who i am...
i might pretend i hate you...
i might push you away but please continue to stick with me...
thank you boy...
i love you so much...
i don't think you know how deep my love for you is...
thanks for everything you have given me...
every sweet little memories that we have together i will keep them close to my heart...
so be there for me when i need you...
protect me from hurt...
from my enemies...
from every little things that might ever make me sad...
remember that question i ask you about jealousy?
i was always jealous...
even if i hated myself for saying it...
for admitting it...
but i don't dare tell you...
i rather keep it in my heart...
i was always jealous of all the girls who tries to chat you up..
not cause you make me jealous...
maybe just a phobia that you will leave...
thats all...
i love you
days without my mother at home...
is ok to say th least...
but there are lots of things i have to undertake...
one starters...
my sister friend started saying i m really bossy....
but....
nvm...
i rly hate him a lot...
why does he have to steal away all my friends...
just cause he posses one of my best friends...
that doesn't give him the right to steal my other friends...
i cant even eat with the friends i use to have...
if i sat at their table he will just stare at me like i don't belong...
he is the one who doesn't belong...
i known my friends for 4 years and he only know them since this year...
he pretends he is ok with me but talk behind my back...
what the fuck...
what kind of a bf is he best friend...
why cant uu wake up and see for yourself what a creep you have accepted into your life...
do you really want to end up regretting ever being with him one day?
a true boyfriend who truly loes and cares...
accept all the person you make friends with
he doesn't get jealous of your best guy friend and he doesnt ever CALL YOUR FRIENDS A BITCH!
thats why i wont talk to you anymore...
Date :Sunday, August 29, 2010
Time:Sunday, August 29, 2010
Title:
knew uu will always love me no matter what...thanks for giving me so much care and for being there for me when i need uu...
i m sorry baby...
sorry i can't be there for uu today...
wish i can be..bt i have prelims...
mie promise that th whole of sept hols i m yours..
uu can hug hug mie to sleep and i can take kare uu just like i did in june holidays~
suddenly remembered th time uu came my house and when uu wan to go le...
uu tug me up in bed...
and place the side of the blanket i like most...
then uu lean down to kiss me on my forehead..
my cheek...
then my lip lip...
so sweet~
mie love uu forever...
why can't uu mary me and bring me home now....?(:
♥AMANDA' | an original @thfancycandy.blogspot.com
okie...
just a quick quick post...
counting down the days till i finish my prelims...
and i havent done so many things yet...
ahhhhhhhhhhh!~
tomorrow is lit paper...
just thinking about it gives me the heebie jeebies...
gosh...
my poor hands tomorrow...
i will have....
3 ...
4...?
blisters...
gosh...
i m just so tired and sick of exams..
i cant go out and i cant meet him...
raaaaaaawwwwwwwrrrrr!~
Date :Friday, August 27, 2010
Time:Friday, August 27, 2010
Title:
gosh...
i miss him much..
hope he gets well soon...
at least well enough to talk to me..
ok...
well i guess i don't wanna waste this time i have on the net.i don't want to waste my time on trivialities that could be ignored...that includes wierd spammer who have no life but stalk me on facebook and call my number for god knows what reason...
hey but simple chivalries don't work on me...
remember that yea?
guess my english vocab has improved tremendously...thats good isn't it...
nah..
has always been like that from the start...
no great jokes i guess...
and hey...
i m in the top class in my school...
i have a good english vocab to match that status...
hahaha~
bhb-ing will get me no where in this world...
its reality its the word as it goes..
so we all have to be damn b***hes to get what we want...
that, my friend is the reality of the cruel world...
i must be going insane from the stress at home...
heres to another day of solitude...
of boredom...
and of all things fine that i have missed today!
cheers(:
feel so horrible...