Is it just faith and self control, or it's really the superpower?

I asked and asked.
What can I give in return?
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So I ask god...

What is it like?
To lead a life, that is filled with fear.
To live in this safety space yet has frustration, negligence.

Is it wrong to even ask for rights? Basic rights.
Is it needed to fear while asking for rights?

One more freaking week, and I'll be home!
It's the worst week ever since I came here, the finals week, 5 days straight of exams and home I go! :)

I've already listed out one whole To- Eat-List of food I wanna have when I get back to Penang. :p

From hokkien mee, to curry mee, mee goreng, lam mee, koay teow th'ng, to lor mee, jawa mee, ee foo mee, laksa, char hor fun, char koay teow, char koay kak, tom yam bee hoon, duck drumstick noodles, satay, nasi kandar, nasi lemak, dim sum, poh piah, muah chi, and euw char koay, bak kut teh, joo hoo eng chai, rojak, bee koh moi, ice kacang, cendol, many many many more, and not to forget, mangoes and DURIAN! :D

Definitely eating mum's cooking too, I wonder how much food I'll be eating in a day. :o
Must have from mum are vinegar pork legs, sesame oil cooked chicken, and so much more, mum knows better what I want to eat.
The other day she listed it all out for me too and I was like hey, I was gonna say that. Mum can always read my mind. <3

MUST run at least half an hour everyday when I get back, sweat and toxic all needa get off my body, ugh.

Holding on to a cup of ice coffee and big pile of Economics books and notes, off I go studying and do awesome-ly in finals and get back home to relax. :)
This Economics stuffs that consist of degree year 1 stuffs aint joke, plus it's not an open book exam. :(
I still have laws to do, crap.

Thousands dollars of exams is seriously putting stress on me, much.
At least UPSR, PMR and SPM were like just go with it. :/

Things are lovely and not lovely here.
When you've being nice all this while and have never treated anyone badly, sometimes you'd just meet up all this nasty people.
It's alright, I always tell myself. It's alright.

Cuz I believe in karma. What goes around comes around.
Maybe I meet mean people at the beginning but being nice all this while would come in return.
And I guess it's kinda true?

Cuz I've been meeting real friendly people along the way recently and I really appreciate them.
Though they're not in the same class as I do, or different intake, different college, I'm really thankful that I've met them.

I like the September intake students, they're really friendly and do keep in touch on Facebook.
Or while waiting for the lift to go to class, and they saw me from behind, they would play around til you see them and greet you with a big smile on their faces.
Or, while waiting to get into class, spot you on the hallway, they'd smile and say hello, or if I was sitting at the corridor, they'd come and sit beside me and have a chat. :)

Dont even dream this would happen with my classmates, tsk.
So what if you're from __________, it's not your country here and we're all suppose to get along well.
Imagine if our class happened to have a few of students from your country only, then you people wouldnt be so arrogant, yeah? Or y'all are always like that, no matter where?

I'm still alright dealing with all this, a little bit of thorns in a place full of sweetness, fragrance and loveliness wouldnt hurt too much. ;)

I'm really thankful for all the help I got and all this friendly people I've met since the day I arrived here. :)

While you people in Penang envy us who are in Melbourne, we all envy y'all too.
We wanna be at home with our families and friends so much. :(

It's been more than a month since I last update.
So.. anyway, I'm already here in Melbourne for more than a month and life's pretty alright.
Of course it's alright, I've proper rooms, meals everyday and gets to go to classes.

It was quite tough in the beginning, homesick, culture shock (yeah, a bit), thus muscles aches, tiredness, and a lot a lot more, but of course I fought through all this, and still fighting through.
Education system is a bit different and I likey it, unlike SPM, sit for the papers one time and that's it.
We've lil tests in mid term with assignments or presentation then the biggy exams at the end of the semester.
And at the end of the program , it's like they pick the best results throughout this two semesters and calculate for the final results. :)

But I seriously miss food at home. I've been trying so many Asian foods here and it's never as good as home.
Even the cafeteria guy in my hostel who cook for us, it never taste as good as mum's cookings.
And I'd always tell mum it's the same dish but it never taste the same and mum would says it's lack of love!
Hahaha, it's true it's true.

And whenever people ask how I'm doing in Melbourne and they always think it's so awesome here, well yeah it's awesome but you only see the pretty side.
Like, I dont tell you the ugly sides, y'know? And there's a lot a lot of things to consider here.
It's frustrating sometimes, and stressful but it's a good thing too, we're learning to be independent.
Partially independent, cuz money still comes from dad. ><
But at least we're slowing picking things up, learn to handle situations etc. :)

Do you know that having every meal here causes big headache? The cheapest you could find is like $6 or $7 and it's just a snack or something that wouldnt last you long. So it's like we spend $8-10 every meal here, for proper meals like a bowl of rice and a dish, or a bowl of noodles etc etc.
When we spend that much, we always think of we could buy 10 plates of chicken rice back home. :/

And another problem here is the internet! All the internets here are so so so expensive, or if it's worth it, it's not suitable for us students cuz they need homelines and we dont need that homeline.
Crap right, in Malaysia we pay RM88 for unlimited wifi, yes, WIFI!
Here? In my hostel we get special rates for students, $29, which is like RM90 for 1GB only, yes, 1 freaking GB only and that's basically like watch 10 Youtube videos and all gone.
Of course we can go on higher plans but it's gonna cost us so much more, not worth it at all.

Anyhow, of course first few weeks were bit tough especially when we dont know anyone, we dont know how to do certain things and not used to everything here yet.
But we adapted quite quickly, I guess?
But making friends' a bit tough, sigh.

My class is like 90% Chinese from China, two Vietnamese, one from Papua New Guinea, and they all look alright but.. I'm not gonna say anything here bout that.
Some of them are really nice people, really. :)

And I'm glad I went to the camp or more like a getaway trip organized by my uni.
Found out that there's so many Malaysians! :D You would never understand that kinda joy LOL
We were having bushwalk, and I was walking with Donna, my Vietnamese classmate, cuz only four of us from our class went to the camp.
Then you would hear those September '10 intake students going around saying hi to people and making new friends.
Some of them approached Donna and I and.. they're all Malaysians! How wonderful. It just felt like I'm in Malaysia. :)
And we had other activities too and I met a few Indonesian Chineses, few more Vietnamese, China Chinese, a girl from Papua New Guinea and etc. :D

It was really good experience and I love that place up there. We were at a campsite with proper rooms, beds, showers and etc near Mount Disappointment.
Yeaah, Mount Disappointment, like so disappointing. LOL
Too bad we didnt have campfire, but we stayed up late that night to play cards and killer. ;)

The September intake people are really nice.
Maybe cuz they understand the feeling of being new here not knowing anyone and struggling by ourselves?
They're much friendly than my classmates and they would talk to us, ask us to join along etc.
Unlike my classmates. :x

Discovered a couple of things, or should I say, understand more about certain things.
But it was good experiences. :)

There's too much to say, too much to share but all this good experiences are gonna be kept in my heart forever. :)

I'm not gonna update blog that often anymore. I guess I'll just do it on Facebook or just not update.
Anyway, check out photos from the camp here and here!!
I'm too lazy to get the photos uploaded here, so just go view it there. :)

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