It is Saturday again and is also KH's rehearsal day.
Frankly, I am very SIANZ. I rather waste my time watching TV shows, reading spine-rising thrillers and aimlessly blogging away.
5D is going to perform next Saturday on the 22nd and I do not feel at all excited at the thought of it.
I rather watch other troupes' performances.
Not that I am being disloyal to my troupe, just that I don't feel the kick anymore to go KH. (LOL)
I used to have very good friends there...But now...I am not certain anymore.
Maybe I am being too sensitive...But they are in their own little groups...I feel like an outcast sometimes.
Maybe I am an outcast myself long time ago...(Hahahaha)
Now...I just do my job, keep my big mouth shut...
I am useless now...so find some other xiaoshengs to pair off for a brighter future. (LOL)
Oh yes... Last Saturday they sang the forgotten ones their belated happy birthdays.
I have overcome it already. No FEEL at all...I just kept quiet and thoughtless.
AC sat behind me and I heard him say..."It's already OVER." and DC made a little scene out of it.
Yes...I agree...
It's already OVER...Singing birthday songs just make some people feel a bit uncomfortable.
Just sing the song to the ones who deserve it. ^^
I don't think I deserve the song...
I am such a big failure...despite the fact I am with the troupe for a good twenty decades.
Now no such thing as "long service award"...This is all crap.
Just be a nice Ms Goody Goody with a set of sweet teeth will be sufficient enough. ^^
I received a Xmas card from Shanice telling me to be happy...
Another friend told me that she didn't understand why I still cling on to KH since KH makes me so unhappy. She said I should have quit long time ago.
A friend who knew me for years said that she could read me like an open book except that she stated that I seemed to be depressed in recent years.
I am happy to receive a nice and warm card from Shanice.
I am quiet when I heard my friend made that statement.
I am speehless when the other friend questioned me.
Even if I do quit, no one cares also.
I am just another part and parcel of life...another forgotten being only.