Better Mood

Today is a much better day. Thanksgiving went great . My future daughter- in- law and her family are wonderful. She is a great cook and did almost all of it. Coming home to an empty house is still a little weird. It is dark and lonely. I think I told you my son moved out. Just a week or two after mom passed so I am having that empty nest thing  along with missing mom.
When the grave digger man dug her grave he had to move the stone to be able to get to close enough to dig and that was almost a month ago . Well yesterday the stone was finally returned to where it belonged and I could put the flowers my niece made on top of it. We also got matching ones for both sides of the stone. It looks very nice and that made us all happy. Going out there and seeing the stone off to the side of the graves was bothering me and my sister. Her even more for some reason. My sister's son is going through a divorce and that is tearing my sister up. They have a 7 year old daughter that does not understand while daddy is living with grandma and not with her . My sister can't stand not knowing what is going to happen to her grand -daughter. She wishes her son and the grand- daughter would be able to live with her but of course the girls mommy is not going to let that happen. But it would be nice .
I  still don't think I have grieved for mom enough . Waiting on the big break down. Just been to busy and can't get my mind around it. Work is not working out. I used to work at this place and loved it but now I feel out of place and like a teenager at there first job. Hope that changes. Everything is different than when I worked there before. But the  money is good. Got my first check Thurs. Love that!!! I was looking in the newspaper for jobs yesterday trying to figure out what I could do that I might be comfy in. Guess what popped out at me . Home Health Aid , Companion for person with special needs. CNA's needed. Never wanted to do these kind of jobs before but now when I think about it they seem right.

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Ok, This is the first holiday without mom. In less you count Halloween . Every year for the last 3 or 4 years I would get invited to some one's house for Thanksgiving and I would say no I have to stay with mom. Sometimes my sister would ask me if I wanted to do something and she would stay with mom. But she has kids that she can be with and they all cook a big meal so I wanted her to be with them on Thanksgiving and Christmas. We could of had a big dinner here but it always seems like a lot of work on me and not so much on everyone else. We cook and I care for mom. We eat and I care for mom We clean up and I care for mom. They rest and I care for mom. Not so much fun for me and mom. Anyway this year I am going to my son's girlfriend's mom's house to dinner. It is going to be weird. Being social is something new to me now. I need mom . I miss mom and dad. No one to hold me back and I want her here so I can say I need to stay with mom. Used to I would cry and say I want my dad now I cry and say I want my mom and dad. Time to grow up right? There are to many I's in the post again. It is all about me, me, me. Trying to get better . Just going a little slower than I thought it would. The real world is harder than I remember. Working and being out in public is going to take awhile to get used to. The Lord willing by Christmas I will be back in the game. Happy Thanksgiving.

Aspiration Pneumonia

	Good Morning All. It has been a busy few weeks. I actually got some work done around the house. And I did paint mom's room so I could move back into it. Since it used to be mine. Taking her stuff off the walls and out of the closet was the hardest. I just did not know what to do with it. I will give the pictures back to the family members who gave them to her I guess. I split up her cloths , gowns and personal stuff with my sis. Mom died from Aspirating on her food which gave her Pneumonia. I wanted you all to have a little info so you would know what happens when aspirating. It seemed so painful for mom. The doc said sometimes you do not realize the person is aspirating but with mom you did she would almost choke to death. We felt so sorry for her. If only she could of told us what was going on. We thought she had a cold . She would cough even when not eating. The poor thing. I wonder just how long she was doing this. We will never know. I got a job yesterday driving a Transit Bus which I did before so it will be good. Took the drug test and now waiting on that to come back than will start training. Hopefully I can remember everything it has been a few years since I drove a bus. Hope all is well with you and yours. Have a great Veterans Day and Thank you Veterans for all you have done for us. Aspiration Pneumonia is the reported cause of death of a high proportion of Alzheimer's disease (AD) patients
	Aspiration pneumonia is inflammation of the lungs and airways to the lungs (bronchial tubes) from breathing in foreign material. Aspiration pneumonia occurs when foreign materials (usually food, liquids, vomit, or fluids from the mouth) are breathed into the lungs or airways leading to the lungs. This may lead to: A collection of pus in the lungs (lung abscess) Swelling and inflammation in the lung A lung infection (pneumonia

Pulmonary aspiration is the entry of material (such as pharyngeal secretions, food or drink, or stomach contents) from the oropharynx or gastrointestinal tract into the larynx (voice box) and lower respiratory tract (the portions of the respiratory system from the trachea (windpipe) to the lungs). A person may either inhale the material, or it may be delivered into the tracheobronchial tree during positive pressure ventilation. When pulmonary aspiration occurs during eating and drinking, the aspirated material is often colloquially referred to as "going down the wrong pipe."
Consequences of pulmonary aspiration range from no injury at all, to chemical pneumonitis or pneumonia, to death within minutes from asphyxiation. These consequences depend in part on the volume, chemical composition, particle size, presence or absence of infectious agents, and underlying health status of the person. In healthy people, aspiration of small quantities of material is common and rarely results in disease or injury. People with significant underlying disease or injury, especially hospitalized patients, are at greater risk for developing respiratory complications following pulmonary aspiration because of certain factors such as depressed level of consciousness and impaired airway defenses (gag reflex and/or respiratory tract antimicrobial defense system).
As the lumen of the right main bronchus is more vertical and of slightly wider diameter than that of the left, aspirated material is more likely to end up in this bronchus or one of its subsequent bifurcations.