my desktop is ailing... wonder how long more can it last... i think i need to buy a thumbdrive soon. just to save all my resume, scans of my results etc... i DO want to find a job once i get my bonus... just that the lure of the bonus in feb is oh so alluring.

sick of trying to fix this worthless desktop. so tired.

fuck... now my lappo's disk drive keeps hanging on me... may have to go down to ps and change again... before the 14days are up... like wtf. i've already changed it once... feeling so livid. and somehow i cannot even manage to muster up the energy to curse a bloody blue streak. feeling so resigned to fate that computers just do not like me. first my desktop, then my laptop... frowns.

alright... so i can play maple with my home internet on my lappo. so i guess then network outside is either not too powerful or the timing is just laggy. afterall, i suppose all the kids are mapling at 7+ pm? ah well. this lappo is not too bad afterall :)

so many things to do, so many games to play and so little motivation to start doing or playing. feel so downright mouldy. the only thing i have energy for nowadays is reading. such a simple and straightforward task really. wonder why some people do not enjoy reading.

this bookworm side of mine is so gonna ruin my gangsta image. shh... keep it low yea? i guess i need to sleep. i'm talking to myself. oops.

holy fuck!!! my lappo lags like shit when playing maple. i dun think i can maple with it. awww... damn. i thought maple is playable by most basic coms... seriously, lag for 10 second after every kill, 10 more seconds to pick up an item and another 10 to kill another monster. shit. cant play like this :(

but what to do? it IS a very cheap laptop. at least i dun lag while surfing the net. shall find other games to play, those that wun lag... or maybe just watch my anime, do some catching up using my lappo. so so darn disappointed. i thought i could finally resume playing maple, since i have been spending too little time at home to play any games. oh well.

now what games should i load onto my lappo? that will not lag. probably games from aeons ago.

and my computer died with a pfft yesterday night. like it nearly tripped my house electricity. scary. couldn't switch it on after that and had to reboot the system this morning. wonder how long it can last. i need to save faster for a gaming pc... its raining recently. rain some money on me? *prays sincerely*

someone owes me a meal :)

got my laptop changed, before work. people like to call their laptop lappies, i shall call mine lappo. like laopo, just more doggyish.

GMAT is finally over. 70% for quantitative and 69% for qualitative. seriously boring to sit down for 3.5hrs to do it. was half asleep by the time i was done. and i was out of time for my maths questions. totally gave up with 1min and 5 questions to go, and just went along with my intuition, choosing whatever answer looks nice. kinda reminded me how i got third in class for a chinese general knowledge quiz in secondary school by just choosing random answers, finishing everything within 20 minutes instead of an hour and proceeded to have a very nice nap. except that this is maths and i'm supposed to be good at maths. yet i couldn't figure out the answers to a whole lot of questions and i din even finish in time!!! traumatized. wonder if the score is enough to get me to my masters course...

when a person has bad breath, it is a crime to drink beer and reject people's offer of mint sweets. its like commiting murder, just that this is slower and more torturous. i nearly died. with my ultra sensitive nose, its more than enough to kill me. the odour reminded me of the time we were cleaning up the beer room, with all the mush and beer algae on the bottom of the floor mats. the smell is remarkably similar. i need to learn how to control my nose sensitivity. before i refuse to breathe one day and just expire from suffocation. voluntary suffocation leading to demise would definitely sound stupid on my grave.

need to cut hair...need to cut hair...need to cut hair...need to cut hair...need to cut hair...need to cut hair...need to cut hair...need to cut hair...need to cut hair...need to cut hair...need to cut hair...need to cut hair...need to cut hair... maybe if i chant this enough i will have the time and motivation to cut it?

meanwhile, priority is to set up my lappo, make sure it is working fine before the 14 days for exchange is up.

i wanna be filthy rich... but even the finding of a job seems tough, with the global economy downturn.

ironic, how sales at orchard road dipped, but zouk was busier as compared to previous weeks. but then again, maybe it wasn't zouk but rather just my bar. for some weird reason bar 2 is so busy now. my closing is forever in a rush, and my heart under so much pressure. i think i've got a weak heart, and my life span is seriously shortened just by working at bar 2. and people think working at my bar is easy. i think i'm a lousy bartender.

i wanna be filthy rich, get my apartment with a balcony, or a cozy house with a cool garden. i want to get a big family car for my dad, a cute tortoise themed volks beetle, and my personal mitsuoka orochi. and then maybe a super4 for thrill night rides. imagine the stuff i can do if i'm filthy rich. i can make lotsa people happy too. my mom can be a tai-tai and help me clean house abit, take her nap and go for her line dance sessions. dad can go strum his guitar till he happy and my sis can holiday here since i predict she will migrate to japan. lots more but i shall not share. there are some stuff i'm okay to say and there are others that i'm not okay to reveal. complicated simplicity.

so stressed with GMAT. and when i'm stressed, i just wanna sleep and sleep. which aggravates the situation even more. if i sleep, i waste time. if i dun, lord knows what i do when i'm deprived of sleep.

i pray that sam will be alright. getting hit by car while riding is quite serious. and he's the first person whom i know to be involved in such accident. i sincerely pray everything will turn out fine. he can be kinda nice at times you know.

visited my cute relative in jurong... after only 3 hours of sleep. all thanks to my inconsiderate mom. she totally watched tv in the living room, with the volume at normal level. totally ignored the fact that i was blissfully sleeping. after i questioned her, i got the 'u can close the door'... but luckily i was hungry so i decided to wake up to eat and did not proceed to argue with her like i normally would.

finally got this picture of me and two other girls brushing our teeth. they practically forced me to brush my teeth together so that they can take this picture. and all i wanted was to sleep. (cheap ballantines whisky hurts my head)

Joan's wedding banquet.

so many other photos in facebook. now how do i put them up here? and how do i remove my unglam pictures? my reputation is so going to be ruined. but thankfully, i have not seen any super embarassing pictures of myself yet.

i want to cut my hair soon. i want a laptop. i want a small mp3 player. i want a new modern handphone. i want a computer with nice lcd screen. i NEED more money.
note to self: want and need. i have to differentiate, prioritize and act prudently. money does not fall from the sky (unfortunately).