i'm tired out of my skin. i'm at home far too little, to the extent that my mom thinks that i have not been home since #$%...

i think this sunday will be the third consecutive sunday that i'm going sentosa to tan:) and i'm not burnt yet. the first time it rained, the second time we were very late due to renee's punctuality problem. but thankfully, i'm slightly darker. just slightly.

i might be going swimming later after sch. which reminds me, i need to wake up in less than 3 hours time to go school. next week. i shall get my rest. shall slack around, study and go swimming. its time to get rid of the pregnant state of my belly. it was actually smaller a while back, when i was still sad plus being pestered by someone. but now it has returned. my record weight so far was 55kg... haha. shall make that my target. hit the target, maintain, then see how. hope its not too difficult, seeing its only less than 2 kg away.

i've never thought of myself as decent looking, much less good looking. always had the self esteem problem. even now, when i just broke a heart and plus a scary young girl who tried to ask me out. the girl may have thought of me as just a fren but the way she puts it, its just so misleading. thank god that i sort of argued with her through sms and i dun think she even wants to msg me anymore. so down on my luck these days, with all these troublesome stuff happening to me. jasmine insists that its my playboy tongue stud, but its been there even before all these events occured. i'm just blaming my luck.

i hate playing mindgames. not too happy that now my reputation is in the ruins, kinda exuding the "player" aura. can only hope that my true friends understand what kind of person i am. if not, too bad. life goes on even without friends.

these past week. lets see. i went to sentosa on sunday, after an hour of sleep after work, then went prawning at midnight. slept for 3 hours before going off to service my car. took a nap at home before heading work. after work played pool till 5am. slept for less than 3 hours before heading to sch. 12hours in school, then went to meet up with a guy friend. talked for a while before heading home. was online till 3am, got less than 6 hours of sleep before going to school to another 10-4 lesson. started work at 5, went for breakfast after work. reached home at 6am, woke up 1045 to go sing karaoke, then went to work. i'm turning into a zombie at work. can barely find the energy to keep awake. and yet, i am almost scared to sleep for too long...

some nice pictures of the sentosa tanning session. jas and i applied for islander card. we are so going to be tanning partners. and we went to see pink dolphins.

renee went to sentosa and with her handphone out of battery, used mine to take 80 over pictures. first time i see so many pictures taken. =.=

damn it. this is the second time that it rained while i'm out at sentosa trying to get a tan... the first time i did get a tan, but this time, i was almost sun-proof despite applying sun tanning oil... so bloody unfair lah. ron din apply much sun tanning oil and she appeared much tanner. i'm one of the white-est around.



total amount of people who went was 12!!! so amazing. and out of 12, there was 2 guys and 2 girls. the others, bungs. haha, all of them are so hilarious lah.



we really exercised alot today la. we were at siloso instead on tanjong, so no benches to lie on. we played beach volley, basketball, captain's ball and frisbee. although i was my usual self, din run too much, i still moved about a little. just that whenever the beach volleyball came flying at me, me and my slow response makes me appear to be stoning, or staring wide-eyed at the ball... lousy reflexes... i think i seriously need to lose weight and tone up my body... shall ask jasmine and renee to go soon. so jealous of xinlin, can get tanned so easily. i wanna be like that too... whines.



so anyway, talking bout my slow reflexes... the thursday that just passed, was another herstory party. i got pranked by one of the new bunch of part timers... a little girl... i was happily slacking at velvet (washing glasses) when i saw her and her friend. so being me, (nowadays i friendly one) i went up to say hi... she was all hyped up and yakking, then say she very red, face very hot then take my hand put at her face... i totally did not react. then she asked me if she could go and make a milo for me... i was like, tomorrow la. now not convenient and its not like i get people to treat me milo everyday... then she received an sms telling her that the show was starting in 5mins, so she was going back to disco. i was at the washing area, with a soiled martini glass in my hand when she asked me to step out... i asked her why and she said she wanted to do something... so i stepped out still with the stupid glass in my hand... and she kissed my cheek... then she and her friend went off. i, being me, slow and all, of course did not react. i wouldn't know how to react anyway if i was capable of reacting. it was quite unfortunate that vanessa from velvet happened to be around and saw what happened. i managed to threaten her with a death threat not to tell... but i just found out on saturday night that she told mandy what happened. and that she did that just to test my reaction. like, fun meh? nb, waste my effort to appear like a killer and go threaten people. prankster kid.

it was fortunate that velvet is quite dim and nobody saw me blushing. me blushing does NOT mean anything. for me, being the shy type, blushing is normal. when this kinda stuff happens, i have only two reactions. 1: i blush. 2: my face pales. for number2, it also means that i hate you and i'm really tempted to kill you right now. so blushing is the normal reaction. i blush easily. and i hate that.

i think i'm finally over sophia. read her blog for the first time since we broke up. but that doesn't mean that it wun be awkward when i see her in zouk. as for wesley, i dun know anyone by the name of that. i've got too much things to do and too little time. exams are coming! BOO.

i'm a piece of shit but i dun wanna attract dung beetles. LEAVE THIS PIECE OF SHIT ALONE!!! and yet, the loneliness gets to me at times.

just came back from a coffee session with my lion dance trainer.

he just wanted a chat, to let out some stress=.= but interesting la. his world is so so complicated... told me how he got drugged by his friend's girlfriend, and how the slut took his naked picture @.@ but nothing happened la. he was just sleeping. the girl apparently asked him to her house to help her fix a plug and gave him drugged milo. so evil.

then my trainer told me how there's this friend of his, a girl, who liked him. she seem to be actively asking the guy out but yet she is still attached to her girlfriend... like =.=
so anyway i asked trainer to just ignore the girl... why look for trouble.

seems like the adult world is so complicated. but then again, i'm not exactly still a child or teenager. i would hate to fall into such a complicated world. i hate complexities... i may have the capability to understand the rationale behind such complexities, but i am just plain lazy and laidback. i never want to face such predicament. i just want to be the ignorant left out person. i can just sit back and watch people in the show, and not partake in any drama. i like that kind of life. i can only hope i can adapt and get into this dream lifestyle soon. time is running out.

more bout the prawning

who can actually hook a stone that looks like a darn brain instead of fish? RENEE!!

prawn with blue pincers

and after that, bbq-ing prawns!

and for some picture of humans (us who went)

jailbirds of zouk

renee wah yu wei

went prawning yesterday with joan junren and renee. so rare that renee turns up. so anyway, my first time at prawning. whoever knew that prawns have pincers? and blue ones at that!

so anyway, renee was damn hilarious. an impatient ass who poked prawns which floated up and were visible with the prawning stick. the conversations between her and joan were very farny. every now and then renee kept saying that joan very fierce then ask her to smile before talking... joan oso purposely be fierce then the effect was quite farny.

after prawning went to prata shop before heading home. overall a very fun night. totally laugh until my jaw muscles ache. been such a long long time since i last experienced that.

a long time ago, when my secondary school cca-mates, my squadmates, we always laughed till our jaw muscles ached... such were the fun times. we seldom meet up now due to work and studies and all... but i'm glad to say that i met up with them on saturday morning. i reached home at 7am, took a shower, napped for 10min on my table before heading out to meet them. supposed to go support a campcraft competition but due to the rain it was postponed. so we just went for breakfast, and then went to hobbit's house. we dug out our old pictures (we were really ungly, unglam and all) and had a fun time laughing at ourselves. i really miss the good old days.