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reshufflement... velvet... fuck...

tooth extraction

yes i just extracted another wisdom tooth... my lips feel like they got raped... stinging sensation... lousy black dentist... so rough... and the cheesy place only gave me a day's mc... still considering whether to go work today... $150 attendance bonus.... i think i need it...

beezy beezy...

last week was horrendous.

valentines day... so memorable... because i extracted my wisdom tooth... lingering toothache brought a visit to dentist who discovered 2 decaying wisdom tooth suggested that i extract one first... nonchalantly agreed and had dentist dig around my mouth for a whole 30mins... then went to zouk, had a talk with manager, got pissed and decided to use my tooth extraction to get an mc... took bus back to dentist near my home to find that they were closed due to private function that night... used an annual leave instead... what a waste of time and effort...

thurs... had sch from pam to 430pm, then went to work... was so totally exhausted at work... my ten mins break was spent sleeping... and i was so tired that i dropped my phone in my sleep... kept it in my hand so that the alarm can wake me when the 10 mins are up...

fri... saturday... had reunion dinner then went to work at 9pm... after work came home slept till 11am before heading out to visit relatives... sunday new year day 1. after visiting relatives i went to my grandpa's house for a light dinner then went to work... monday new year day 2... after work came home slept till 11am again then went out to visit yet some more relatives... reached home about 7pm... couldnt resist my bed and went to sleep... woke up at 8pm when my cousins came... played blackjack for awhile and lost 30 bucks-.-" then went to WORK again... was freaking steamed at work... almost like a block of retarded wood... and finally new year was over and i can sleep proper...

got abit traumatized recently... first it was my ex colleague, a good friend of mine who told me how he got dumped because he was cheating on his girlfriend...i knew about his cheating long ago but i try not to think about it... now it is another colleague, who's leaving soon, he's just gotten a new girlfriend from work, a pretty cashier. and he already had a girlfriend before her... and i think now he's just two-timing... thought its not the first time i'm exposed to such complexities of the whole love thingy (took a gay from my previous workplace to teach me about it, and by teach i mean literally tell me that its common for people to have many partners...) i still get shaken when i hear about such stuff... even my sis, whos YOUNGER says my thinking is too old-school, too rigid and conservative... she says that i'm stupidly naive...i wonder how i can get my mind to grow up and accept these ideas... if old views can reform why cant my brain conform?

sidenote: Al & gals, i do not need your help to clarify that i'm not a flirt with countless flings despite of what my first impression gives... although i hate being thought of as one, i do NOT need you gals to openly vouch for my cowardice when it comes to gals... stop introducing me to people as humji!!! its so goddamn embarrassing and i would so rather remain a hermit...

off today... wonder where my sis and i are going... she's probably going to decide and then we both wander around aimlessly... haha... so incestous... i spent valentines with her last year too!!! and people were like asking me to buy flowers... ha... like i'd buy something like that for her... pluck from roadside i'd consider... but use my $ to buy??? she doesn't even like flowers anyway...(i think>.<)

3day work week!!

i'm only working for 3 days this week! hurray! had diageo training today from 1230 to 530, considered a working day, claiming hours for a full day on thurs and therefore i only have to work on wed fri and saturday... just like a part time.

flea market the day before was utterly boring.... went with my sis as usual, rotted awhile the came back home... did see a few cute doggies though ^.^

monday ESAP classes are getting more and more lively... the people who are nagging at my inability to get attached have increased as well... one is even planning to get me a pink spaghetti dress on my birthday with pink undies, if i dun get a gf soon... hell man. i'd prefer shirts with shitty logo like or even ... its not my fault that i'm single! 22yrs of singledom and still ongoing is not something every one can maintain! (yes i'm pathetic i know)

training today was utterly boring... but since the venue was just next to chinatown we went for a walk after the training... taking a walk through chinatown reminds me of the time when i was such a good friend, accompanying my fren who had depression... we would go all around singapore, from jurong to pasir ris, woodlands to marina... she liked going to chinatown and we went there almost once a week... we were to the point of scandulous, with her sending me lots of smses, and while i tried to control my sms, the number of reply was an average of 500+ per month... she would even sms me after we parted at night to chat, and around 11pm sms me to go slp... i would just reply orh... den continue surfing net or doing whatever... its strange that friends once so close can just fall apart like a snap of my fingers... can still remember vividly... how after our A levels we went out to work, happen to work in the same place... me with my frens and she with hers... we have not talked much since the A's... but there was once she msged me to go to the toilet, where she passed me something... cant remember what or why... sometime later i quit, worked somewhere else... she sometimes call me when i end work, at around 11pm while i'm on the way home... then there's this one day i had pms or something, i was at home when she called...
me: hello?
her: oi
me: whats up? (zuo mo?)
her: ay talk leh
me: what u want me to say?
her: ...(silence)
me: ay if u got nothing to say dun waste my handphone bills...
her: ok byebye.

yea, that was the end of our friendship... rarely contact her now... my only friend from jc... come to think about it i was such an antisocial emo freak last time... now i think i've mellowed to a shy weird critter... hahaz...

oh yeah, its classic how shocked people get when they learned that i am single... thanks to Al, a crazy classmate of mine... been seeing that quite a lot these few months... while i am amused to see their O.O face, i cant help thinking that people think of me as a flirt who should be attached? weird world la...3 lessons of ESAP next week... how am i going to survive now that the bunch of girls form of entertainment is me? they take joy in tormenting both physically n mentally...meepz.