hong kong!!!!

just came back from a 4day 3night trip to hongkong...

for the first time in my life i bought that many clothes... i spent around $200 (singapore dollars) on clothes!!! -__-

i worked on saturday night, left from zouk at 4am, rushed home to take a shower then headed to the airport with my family... i thought i could sleep on the plane but i was wrong... aboard the plane at 8am, my parents, who were sitting behind me, were so excited that they kept poking me to talk to me... i was so darn irritated that at one point when my dad poked at me to offer me beer, i damn near took the cup and throw all the contents back at him... i was exhausted and trying to sleep... then when my mom poked me through the space between my sister's seat and mine, i totally whacked her hand... earning me an argument with her... after landing in hongkong, checking into our hotel rooms, we went shopping... for 5 hours straight... at the end i was so on the verge of collapsing. my muscles were aching, i desired sleep but went we went back to the hotel at 10pm, my nocturnal instinct kicked in and i was hyper... my sister and i watched tv, played poker and i finally slept at 2am.

those few days were those rare days that i actually slept before 3am and woke up in the morning...

monday, our second day in hongkong, we went macau... it takes an hour plus to take a ferry there and another to go back... the food there was great though^.^ on the way back, mom was seasick... when i saw her stick her medicated oil into her nose i had a bad feeling... so i turned up the volume of linkin park on my mp3 player... true enough, less than 10min later she was puking into her puke bag... the ferry actually provides a puke bag at every seat... i gave my puke bag to my dad, in case my mom needed another one... after she used the second puke bag, dad asked me to accompany my mom to the toilet, which was at the back of the goddamn ferry... reaching the back, the waves turned super violent... my mom went into the toilet(diarrhoea) and took like 15 minutes to come out... so i had to stand while the ferry bobs up and down with the waves, and all the while enduring the aircon blasting on me... i spotted an empty seat and took its puke bag... and as soon as my mom came out she used it-___-" there was another pregnant lady puking at the back, accompanied by her husband and another old woman burying her nose into a puke bag... there were so many people seasick that i felt terrified... i would remain as a floorstaff instead of a bartender if not for the fact that i was terrified of barfing people->.<-
by the time we returned to our seats i was shivering with cold... thankfully, the trip ended quite shortly after and i was spared of anymore display of merlions...

third day, another day of shopping. by the end of the day it was my turn to feel unwell... guess i ate too much during the first two days... thankfully, with my stomach squeezing itself periodically i was still able to shop around till 11+pm

last day, i skipped breakfast as i wasn't hungry... indigestion... just lay around on my bed in the hotel... eating little of the porridge that my family brought back for me, we went shopping for the last time in hongkong... 4 hours later we went to the airport and thus began the journey home...

i finally reached home at 1am in the morning, and if it wasn't for my unwell stomach, i would have gone down to zouk to have a drink as well as find out what time to report on thurs... damn stomach... and i thought it was invincible...

with $200 converting to about HK$970, i bought a wristband, a cap, a pair of pants, 4 T-shirts, 2 shirts, 4 singlets, 3 tubes of gel, a tie and a round of dessert for my family... money was quite well-spent i guess... :)

haiz...

i hate being female!!! i went to the doctor today to get some medicine to stop my period, but directly after the trip down to the doctor, it came... bloody hell... is that how much my body hates me? thank god i took medicine for my cramps from the doctor as well...

we had to carry a hell lot of stocks today and i was so so weak... a mere crate of heineken and a carton of gingerale had me wheezing... one of my weak days...

new urban male fashion show today... expected 1000 people, but i'd say the crowd was at 400 maximum... i got sent to bar 2 to relief terrence since there were females changing there, as usual... its kinda weird... how most of the female models were caucasians while the male ones were just ur typical fit hunky/chunky guy u see on the streets... looking at them wearing nothing but a flimsy pair of swimming trunks made me jealous of their sex/ body/ life... never wanted to be female...
anyway, they were really changing in front of the bar, with a small curtain separating the girls from the guys... but standing in the bar, we can see both sides... and the girls really just took off their bikinis with their side facing the bar-.-" i had to stare at the floor... fei1 li3 wu4 kan4... the caucasians, they were so skinny... wearing tight bikinis they looked almost flat... i bet if i could donate my front to them, that would make a couple of happy people !=(^_^)=! then i can save on those $40+ per piece of sports bras too!!!

speaking of money, i think being poor for all my life has made me really sensitive to money... just this afternoon, i ate a ben n jerry's ice cream cone which cost me $5.50... i thought it was really expensive... and my appetite just disappeared for the rest of the night... i merely ate a hotdog for dinner, and some little snacks which i got from the bar 2 captain...

and i still wish i was male instead...

me? a tutor?

miraculously, i'm actually doing something i hate most... teaching a kid... as a goddamn tutor... its only 3 weeks and i've felt like quitting for countless times... right from the first session, the mother has been goddamn irritating, along with the monkey i'm teaching... just this past week, after the tuition on friday, the lady told me that her son has oral on monday, and requested for an extra session on sunday... being the poor kind soul i am, i agreed... 1 1/2 hours stretched to almost 2 hours... i was so unbelievably irritated...

today... tues, 4.15pm... i was happily at school, with 15mins left to go then i can go home and enjoy my off day from work. bloody hell... phone rang, thank god for caller id and the fact that none of my friends call me, i knew it was the darn lady. i hung her phone... upon reaching home, i found that she called home to try to get me too! now downright pissed, i called her and guess what? her son had eng and math homework, with the math homework being some shit using matchsticks... so she wanted to see if i was able to drop by her house and check her sons homework, if it was correct... (all my colourful blasphemies) i just told her i was not free...
5 min later, i decided to quit tutoring her son... i dun mind teaching a monkey but that bitch is simply too troublesome... so i called her... found out that she intends to pay $60 per month, despite of all the extra time i gave her... i told her straight... "i dun wanna tutor your son anymore... u need too much time so i'm afraid i'm unable to help, seeing as how u keep calling me... i mean i've got a job, sch, and stuff that i need to do..." she went oh no blah blah i thought you would be home since you work in the evening and that you should be up by now blah blah i dun want you to misunderstand... THEN SHE CRIED!!!!

i was dumbfounded... just told her i would call her another day and that i'm sorry and i hung up the phone... later she called me again, saying that she din know that she would inconvenience me so much and that she would pass me the money for the tuition i gave her son... well... so that ends my tutoring life... i'd rather take the bus and save the $60 used to top up my petrol than earning it through tutoring her son... in fact, i would give her money to stop pestering me! i am so not cut out to be a tutor... and i knew it... that was why i worked in pubs rather than teaching tuitions like so many of my friends... serves me right for landing myself into such shit when i did not trust my intuition...

now i shall take a nap to rid myself of the guilt that i made that bitch cry... despise myself for feeling guilty so easily, and yet i am not kind enough to take all that shit... may my sleep save me...

boring bar

bar 5 is such a boring bar... especially when it comes to functions.... it is seldom open for functions and even if it is open, it is rarely busy... just like today... me n my captain was totally moulding at one corner... even bar 2 had like 300+ coupons from the function... and we had 28...

i hate my tutee... little monkey... feel like pelting him with peanuts... whats worse is his mom... every single time we finish tuition, the monkey runs off to a tree and the mom comes... being very concerned, trying to find out how his son is doing, saying that she knows her son is not stupid but is just lazy... she would like just talk and talk for 15 mins til i change the conversation and try to escape... every single time, same speech... if i had such a mom i'd probably jump into a lake... primary 5 oral, and she requested for an extra tuition session... fucking kiasu n extra... dammit... i'm just not cut out to teach kids... i hate those little twerps...

pretty excited... come saturday after work, i'll be going home to shower then head to the airport... trip to hongkong!!! its been so long since i've been on a holiday overseas... its been like 6 years since i've been to a faraway trip... though in between i think i've been to the Genting Highlands... i can't really remember... short term memory... anw, coming from a poor family, i've only been to Australia once, Thailand once, and all the other trips were to Genting Highlands... i'm a mountain turtle!! sua gu~ *^_^*

hen desu?

of all the weird stuff people ask me...

sunday i went to steve's 21st birthday chalet at chevron and was talking with darryl, a fellow bartender. when i mentioned that i had wanted to learn basketball but too bad the training clashes with work... weird qn no.1: but basketball is so unfeminine... me: -.-" since when i'm feminine?... weird qn no.2: den how get boyfriend like that? ...me: (haiz) erm... i go for girls lor... he: oh u lesbian ar...

basket... y izzit that alot of guys would just assume that all females are going for their kinda sex unless they prove otherwise??? i mean, there ARE some things that are pretty obvious... suddenly remembered: longlong ago, farfar away, my 1st day at zouk, bar 5(-.-"). qn by terrence: u go for bird or nest? me: if by bird u mean guys then the answer is nest. him: ok cool. so we can watch nest together:)
at least he din assume anything...

and i DUN even wanna mention the countless times that the perverted uncle (LF) has discussed with me regarding me in dress, in makeup (ewwww...) or even getting married... like no, ..!.. thank you...

i dun think i look androgenous, maybe except for my front, and its not like i can do anything about it! i dun understand y people like to ask this kinda weird qn... its like i will answer you, but stop asking obvious (and stupid?) questions? and maybe give a little respect to an ugly dyke like me?

no wonder i hate humans... and yet i sometimes crave for companionship... guess i'm just a dumb human afterall...

so close

omg la... i love the movie ... so many pretty babes.... anw, thank God for the PPliveTV which allows me to watch anime/movies without paying, although i cant choose wat to watch but hey, beggars cant be choosers... so i've been watching nite after nite of movies after work, to the point that i can sleep for like 4 hours? but yah, i'm enjoying myself...

back to the movie... its been quite a while that i've seen a number of pretty stars in a movie that i was almost drooling... but i still get pretty sad when it comes to the part where Ailin (Shu Qi) was killed while helping her sis (Vicki Zhao) escape from the cops... i still find the effects from their kung-fu or stunts pretty impressive, and they really bring out the figures of these babes... and now i sound like a perverted old geezer... hm... ah well... i absolutely love the show...

i also watched a couple of other movies, those that i can watch again and again but still love them, like Stephen Chow's version of Journey to the West, Tao2 Xue2 Wei1 Long2, Andy Lau's Du3 Xia2 1999 and Li Lianjie's Zhong1 Nan2 Hai3 Bao3 Biao1... i'm like so hooked to this thingy... can just sit and watch show after show...

sch is starting.. and my sch fees are overdue -.-" damn. i've decided to stay on at SIM so as to get a degree as well as not waste the past time n money spent there... i only hope that i have the determination to remain determined (?) in my study... crap... my english sucks... though the irony that i'm actually tutoring a neighbour kid english... i personally thought my tutoring is more like teaching a monkey english... irritating primary 5 brat... ARGH!!! I HATE KIDS!!!!

i hate myself

its the first time that i have to make a decision... one that affects somebody else other than me... i hate myself... y am i forever so indecisive... and i've just seen my father's eyes tearing abit for the first time in my goddamn life... i hate myself...
just when i've decided that i still want my degree, and that i will continue in my course... i find out that 3 yrs more means alot of stress on my whole family for the 3 yrs. thinking about it, even if i do complete the course and get myself a shit of a degree, i dun really know what i can do with it... going to a poly means that i spend less on my education, less stress on my family... but will i be able to cope with it? averaging around 25 hours at sch per week, and not to mention my full time job as a bartender? i dun think so... and that is y i wanted to stay at my course... but thinking bout the money spend and yet spent makes me cringe...
i'm so fucking at a loss of what to do... can i just flip a coin and decide my goddamn education and perhaps future? shit... i feel like crying....

bartenders unite?

while on my 45 min supper break, me and my fellow bartenders were juz chatting around as usual... we were chatting bout retro cartoons, since a guy was downloading and burning those cartoons for another guy... its like even i find that smurfs, carebears are so gay, and those manly bartenders actually like them! lol... we had such fun discussing bout cartoons, such innocent stuff coming from a bunch of smoking bartenders.... well anyway, i got to know that i can actually watch some old school cartoons like dragonball online... saves the trouble of downloading them :)

that aside, today was actually quite well spent... i woke up at 2+, drove me n my sis to town... had pepperlunch at taka before walking to the big OG after centrepoint... it was already 5+ so when i nearly reached OG, i realized that i wouldn't get to shop much since i had to get to work at 7... and being the dumbass i was, i u-turn n walked backed to my car which was parked beside wheelock place... it was so goddamn far and i had to walk for 15 bloody minutes... i actually got to work early and since i heard that my captain was a lil angry at me for being slightly less prompt in reporting to her bar ( i was changing into my boots), i decided to be extremely early today...

i reached at 6... slacked around till 630 den i started setting up the bar... by the time my captain came in the bar was pretty much set up already... :) so miraculously she did not bother me today... ah well... if coming in early can get me a peaceful day at work i shall try to be early...

regarding my results, i have decided... i going to enrol for poly next yr, shall be a 22yr old fresh student in poly -.-" how exciting... and after i graduate... i'll start my working for the rest of my life thingy... procrastination... what a wonderful word. hopefully i dun get ostracized by the kiddies who will be studying with me... >.<

枫


曲: 周杰倫
词: 宋健彰(弹头)

乌云在我们心里搁下一块阴影
我聆听沉寂已久的心情
清晰透明
就像美丽的风景
总在回忆里才看得清

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔
已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过

缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
我点燃烛光温暖岁末的秋天
极光掠夺天边
北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸
缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
爱你穿越时间
两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔
已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过
在山腰间飘逸的红雨
随著北风凋零
我轻轻摇曳风铃
想唤醒被遗弃的爱情
雪花已铺满了地
深怕窗外枫叶已结成冰

hm... got to claim hours n come home today... next week is going to be tiring... with events on tues wed and thurs... ah well...
juz got results today... i'm devastated... i failed econs again... i spent 2 years getting credits for 3 units... while others use 1 yr to get 4 units... i'm considering going to a poly already... SIM is so goddamn expensive...