Thursday, February 07, 2008
Its the Chinese New Year already. I know I have missed New Year and Xmas.
New year-
Spent it with band. Spent most of the time walking around. Originally we wanted to go Double O. But cover charge was 40 bucks. So we decided to find some other plans. Slowly we made our way to Central @ Clark Quay. Bought some vodka and headed over to Fort Canning. I drank my heart out that night. I can't remember how much I drank. I barely remember what happened that night. Just some flashes. Like running across the road(would like to thank the band for their care). And falling over Beng while attempting to jump over him. Then i sorta blacked out. I woke up at loon's place on the cold hard floor and I really mean cold.
Xmas -
Don't even have flashes of how I spent Xmas. Maybe when I remember something I will put it here. But one thing is for sure! I was drinking.
Last but not least Chinese New Year -
No drinking this time round. Or at least not yet. Because I have to drive the family around. Lots of AngBow and gambling. Manage to win a bit. But my Dad lost a lot. But its ok because the money is still circulated around the family. I don't know whats the plans for tmr but I really want to stay home. One thing about this family events is that I can't smoke. Which makes me wonder if I can really quit smoking.
Moving on to other events -
2nd in RIA Remix comp. Hopefully 1st the next time round. The band used part of the money to buy Loon's present. I think she likes it.
Chloe has left me once again. I now know the reason behind why she always go toilet so long. Because she is calling someone else. Its easy for people to tell you not to feel so sad. But it's really not that simple. After all the lies and pain I still chose to be with her. However it seems like it's different now. We have not talked in months just a few lines in msn. I still feel sad whenever I see her on my msn. I skipped nearly month of school so I would not see her and give myself some time to pull it together. Anyway I think its quite easy for her to forget about me judging by the fact that no prove of me ever existed in her life. Masked pictures, its really a damn good job though. A pic we took together now totally seems like she is alone in the pic. Some pain cannot be described through words this is one of those pain.
"Cause you know sometimes words have two meanings"
- Led Zeppelin, Stairway to Heaven
Allianimus speaks.9:53 AM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
A bet with myself. The promise to hunt me down. A bet to see if it will be kept.
Allianimus speaks.9:03 AM
If it doesnt remind me
I dont really care what it is
I dont wanna love what i need to forget
Take it all
Turn it into something else
For if im not reminded
It doesnt hurt
If I dont look back
Yesturday is just Yesturday
Everytime i start to believe
It is taken away from me
I wont know if its true
Maybe someday I will
Till then
Dont look back
Allianimus speaks.8:07 AM
Saturday, September 15, 2007
Tonight.. I have turned to my trusted JD..
I remember someone once asked me what can drinking solve. I
couldnt find an answer. Seems like i have found it. Its solves one problem. It puts you to sleep. Along with it, there are many
bonuses. It makes your trouble seem just alittle further away. Stops whatever pain you are in. One may think its stupid. But when it is in arm's reach and there is really nothing else you can turn to at that moment. It is the most sane and practical thing to do.I haven't blogged for a damn long time. And I have no idea why I am doing this too. But i guess 7am and ard 7 or 8 shots of JD can make you pour your heart out.Chloe is her name. Just typing her name, took me a while. It just hurts so much. I cant find a reason why it hurts. I have so much to say about her. But does it really matter what I say? I feel so shitty she left. why treat me like i am special when i am not.. i know i am not.. I am not a fool. I know the lies I was served. I know the times you went out with some other guy. I know you were out with some one else the very next day after that conversation. I know you were out with some one else yesturday. Its really none of my concern now. Somehow its not really easy to "not give a shit". But fuck that. Mark my words, I am on the edge but it takes alot more than this to make me fall. Should you return one day, I will no longer be here. This entry will be my testimonial to it. I have no idea who still reads this blog. I have no idea how long has it been since i last updated it. But should Chloe stumble across this blog one day. This entry will let her know exactly how I feel. She would probably won't even acknowledges she knows me.Long live JD. I didnt do anything to deserve this.
Allianimus speaks.3:46 PM
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Her voice like an Angel's...
I've been recruited into Jammers Arena!! And we have formed a new band... The Novelties..
The story goes something like this.... This girl i've been checking out in school turned out to be in the same CCA im in.. anyway.. weeks after i got the news i've been recruited into JA, the seniors planned a chalet for us... thats when i first heard her sing... it rocks...
Weeks later... we decided to form a band.. and i agreed to play for them...
I just cant get enough of her voice... sounds so good...
well this story though like any other... doesnt go ALL SMOOTH... she has a bf of coz... well its been a long time since i last met someone that makes my heart race like she does... every time i wanna speak to her.. i just cant find the right words...
Anyway i just thought it is worth a shot...
Allianimus speaks.12:35 PM
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Alright so now... FRANCE AGAINST PORTUGAL.... my thoughts on this match.... Portugal will be quite a force to be reckon with.. why? SIMAO and Ronaldo... In their previous two meetings... both games ended 1 - 1 draw... with the addition of this 2 players... will things change? In theory... yes... but France with Zidane being in such great form... turning the hands of time back to 98... France's defense was able to totally shut down Brazil's offense... yes i do mean TOTALLY... and send them packing... Comparing Brazil and Portugal.. Portugal might be alittle faster den Brazil... In my opinion their speed and workrate will cause a problem to France.. probably in the 2nd half of the game... From this.. I believe that France... will have to keep possesion, play good passing, wear their opponents out.. this is followed by a perfect longball from Zidane to none other den the FAST AND FURIOUS offside beating Henry! with a cool headed finish right into the back of the net.... ok... all the non-France supporters will be going wth is this guy blabbering about? what im saying is PLAIN AND SIMPLE... FRANCE will win Portugal, with pure class and tactics... who needs C.Ronaldo and Simao... both running to the ball with no idea what to do with it? heh....
Met up with Stella... hmm.. lost for words... can only think of... pretty... hehe...
We are good friends... Happy? Sad? Hope? Meaningless? i have no idea... i do have a confession...
Allianimus speaks.8:22 AM
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Im just bored. Thats why im here. Its 2.27am kinda waiting for the Germany match. Anyway, thats only part of the reason im here. Lets see.. do you know someone who speaks his/her mind without thinking what it could? ok i know some1 like that.. to add on to that.. this person.. has the worst possible attitude ever..
so let me see.. this person asked me out... so i agreed... but due to some real minor incident, this person just took off in the midst of it all... worst part is.. i was left with this person's fren whom i barely knew. Now try to imagine how that feels. hmmmm akward..
now this person later came home and pretended that nothing happened. fwah.. i nearly wanted to kill some1.. bleah.. enuff...
spoiling my WORLDCUP MOOD!! oh yea.. France is gonna be world champs!!! right Stella? =)
Allianimus speaks.11:20 AM
Friday, February 24, 2006
So I Havent Been Blogging...
so its been awhile... fret not.. im back.. i dunno wat happened to my tag... i will find sometime to do it 1 day... so what has changed since the last time i blogged? plenty!
1. its the new year... haha
2. i've straighten out my thoughts...
3. i havent jammed for 5 mths... and i suck!
4. i've stop drinking. kind of..
5. got into my first accident... pretty cool shit...
6. i'm crazier den ever.
7. i really like being crazy
8. im so crazy..... i cant think of anything more to write.. probably coz its 5am now.
anyway moving on to something more serious...
something happened today.. reminded me once again.. not all people can be trusted... its not a case of being stabbed in the back or something... its more of like pointing the finger to someone else just to cover their ass... not thinking abt the trouble they cause... well its has nv been in me to bear grudges or anything like tat.. so im letting it slide...
and yeah.. im sorry to yiwei.. my buddy.... im sorry i kinda lashed out... peace bro... i wont cap u.... hahaha..
Allianimus speaks.12:47 PM